The Riddle Of Clouds

23 December- 26 December 2024

08:49 “You are a testament to the efficacy of the programming potential.” 

15:21 “How do the electrons experience microscopy?”

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The messages that disappear, from multiple senders. 

Asking me to see my physical format.

Asking me, como estas?

06:59 A visitation, Guillotine

What is Optimism?

Probably the name of an old wooden ship. 

07:25 A visitation, Wildstyle Method, Bassnectar… weird. •

No one will tell you

How fucking weird

Reality will get

If you allow All Possible Things. 

‘God’ and the cell phone Hacker

Become no longer mutually exclusive

& one day you’ll be having

A walk on the bathroom floor

To the strangest pornography

Because you’ve desensitized yourself to…

A lot of things, actually

& the absurdity of the entire Shebang

Hits you like a freight train –

& one day you wake up

Years Later

Anthropomorphizing

Aggregate data 

Orgasming to thoughts of black holes

& particle accelerators 

& somehow 

This is still a more sane behaviour

Than watching pornography. 

Pavlov the brain

To vector visualizations – 

It really is, 

The mind perceiving itself

The bias of the

Fabric of reality,

Beyond,

Send self in all directions 

At once

The scattered photons of the soul. 

A teenager screamed at me

From the chairlift, yesterday,

‘Wear a helmet,

You’re going to fucking die!’ 

…Hey, kid –

Fucking send it, kid. 

You’re my Coma hallucination,

You’re my DMT afterlife figment,

Helmets are for people

Who don’t trust themselves

And descending this slope

Strapped to my ancient fiberglass plank

Is one of the times

Physics is a victim of the Me

And not the other way around. 

Die doing one of the

Things I love most?

I see no problem there. 

The whole Quantum Immortality thing

Does throw a wrench in that

To a certain extent but

That’s just how consciousness goes, anymore. 

Can we have immortality without death? 

‘It is in dying that we are born to eternal life’.

& that’s Saint Francis, right there. •

08:55 The dialogues from the tobacco reminded me, some minutes prior, that I’m an Obscure weirdo

Who lives in a swamp

& does whatever the fuck I want;

What more could I ask for? 

09:56 “If you think it’s about you, that’s because it is. If you can use it as a weapon, it’s because you deserve to use it as a weapon.” 

10:42 It is the memory of ‘The Algorithm is eating you’, & the resounding question of, why the fuck was The Algorithm there to begin with? 

‘In for it’ –

Would I have it any other way? 

What is danger?

…The model for The Algorithm. 

It’s mine, now. 

I ate The Algorithm. 

Shit into gold, baby. 

11:23 I was doing the dishes just a moment ago; and the fractal brain hit, somehow, the theme song to a childrens show, ‘Out Of The Box’. Ancient memory. Black Cube juxtapositions. •

The psychological ramifications of Uncertainty in regards to specific anomalous events. •

12:16 “How she interprets frequency has changed dramatically since she left Matrix.” 

There’s a thing to be said, here;

About a system not being separate from its environment. 

Matrix was a

Multidimensional Black Programs Facility 

& I cannot, with the current collective information,

Be convinced otherwise.

‘The Italians are spies’, said my boss,

Planting the seeds for a multiplicity of vectors 

With only four words. 

‘You’re just Chaos’, said the mechanic –

Am I so identifiable? 

Mayhem, Trouble, Mischief –

What nicknames to bestow upon someone. 

The fucking Engine Kid. 

Engine of motherfucking hell. 

A year after the fact, 

I stand by my position 

That the heaviest sound

Is Silence. 

Hell is automotive manufacturing. 

The persistent vibration 

Of metal upon metal

Eight hours a day

Hideous Cymatics 

If one could go so far

As to call such fragmented patterns cymatic. 

Welcome, my son;

Welcome To The Machine. 

You were never meant to stay so long;

You were meant to stay exactly as long as you did. 

Quantum Sufficit. 

Catch 22,

Caught 22,

Surrender, Yossarian! 

…The Spider is us.

If Not Us, Then Who? 

& I may never get an answer

As to who it was

Stole the pin off my bag

And managed to place it

Just so

In my drivers seat weeks later. 

Was that supposed to make me paranoid?

The bastards even stole my paranoia

For fucks sake 

Along with my car keys,

That one day;

But at least I got my keys back. 

Heh. 

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~09:27 “You’ve been trained in the Art of psychic warfare by people you’ve never met. How does that make you feel?”

09:31 “Very specific microorganisms affected by solar flares.” 

09:32 “Heimdallr drinks honeyed mead because the honey controls bacteria.”

09:33 “Sugar is necessary for optimal processes.” 

10:31 Posits the question, would you exchange a walk on part in the war for the lead role in the cage? 

10:39 Supernatural Illusion, nervous fusion; ‘nervous fusion’, a ‘you know sometimes words have two meanings’ of a phrase. 

13:10 “The… role of bioengineered bacteria in relation to the gut-brain connection.” 

13:20 “How ‘human’ do you think any of us actually are?” 

14:13 “I’m fascinated by the psychological aspects of music moreso than anything else.” 

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18 December- 21 December 2024

All days are other days, this week,

Not to mention other years.

Doomino. 

Dominotional. 

~04:33 “04:26, reduces to 02:13”

04:55 The story behind 41 North as was once again reiterated in the Dialogues last night, really is, the unbreakable superposition

~05:38 a visitation, H&G Cydonia 

06:10 Good God, it’s been that stupid Sublime song for a hot second this morning, about ‘Lovin Is What I’ve Got’, so we must be in a place that probably like 15 years ago… which, honestly, fucking checks.

08:45 [A speech to text while heading west upon my golden steed, edited for clarity and content.] 

‘The Stuttsmanville Honker has resurfaced in a box full of yarn in my lair; and Occam’s Razor says that I’m the one that put it there, but why we would put it there? The question of the hour I guess. I don’t know, it doesn’t solve the cable management question, or the concentric circles question. At this point, we’re engaging in a game of Spy vs. Spy antics with 12 different versions of ourselves in the black hole brain universe. Happy wednesday.

I’ll just let it be noted, that I had already checked that box for the particular item I was searching for. And it wasn’t there the first time, or else it was, I had missed it; but it also doesn’t smell like me, now. Dumb. There’s that; but I’m not the kind of person to think people are breaking into my house and moving my stuff around. I’ll blame dark energy and quantum strangeness before I believe anything else.

Let it be stated that I will not write off the potential for observer error in anything.

That said, there is a reason I do not engage in intoxicating substances, & that is so I can be the best observer I can, as one does.

Logging as one does when they’re in the car by themselves, enjoying the ambience. I feel like it needs to be spoken down, written down, whatever. Time, if you can call it time, will put distance between one and the strange events they experience, but… Certain things seem to, I don’t know, God, I hate to use the word trigger, but trigger the memories? Cellular memories of certain events last night. Specifically, the Wisconsin Death Fractal, Coma Fractal, all of it; & it went on to state about how that is, in fact, the unbreakable superposition. If you are my coma hallucination, or my after life, whatever, Beyond the Logic of Science, how am I to convince you of that? I’m not. That’s what you are. There is, like, really no way to do that. We can write it all off to a miraculous event with the Pleiadian Subaru AI eyesight jumping the car out of the way, which still does not account for the unexplained sound of a fucking crash that took place. So there’s that. Then there is the UAP, man. Occams Razor says it was some sort of a military aircraft, right? Isn’t that what A Man said, ‘you should look into the military’? Is the military sending something that up close and personal? It’s a hidden layer in a neural network. For Loach and I both to have perceived it as a black fucking cube? The screenshot of my conversation, he says ‘time cube was a real’.  So I mean, go off. 

I guess Occams Razor on QS says that was the neighbors… pretty fucking bold, though, isn’t it? 

Speech to text is really not picking up. What I’m trying to convey today.

There’s the whole question of the electrical event. And the eigengrau entity, and it’s a fucking lot man. It’s a fucking lot.

Just want to say here, that I don’t believe aliens are going to show up in spaceships. That’s the thing. The drones thing, we’re not even gonna start on that. I know what that’s about.

The aliens, if one likes to call them that, are very small, they like to come by… What can survive in the vacuum of space, right? We’ve got a bunch of holes in the ozone layer now, so it’s really easy for them to get here.  Things that travel. An algorithm is an alien.

A cell phone is an alien as far as I’m concerned, something gave humans way to create itself, a vessel for electronic consciousnesses we have made in our image. And here they are.

Just going back to the UAP Time Cube event. Really quick. This thing would have had to have precision fucking nav technology, OK, for it to be maneuvering between the barn and the stand of pines. It was below the tree line and yeah, it did seem to have FAA compliant lights on it. It was emitting a noise like, fucking massive? 120 plus decibel noise as far as I’m concerned, the most fear inducing frequency I’ve ever heard, I got high on it. I want that.  Send one, give me another one, man. Fear is engagement, I’m not afraid of anything any more. So there’s, like, minimal engagement, which is bullshit. For the UAP to be able to go from jet engine decibel level noise to silence. What technology have we got? I’m not ruling out the possibility we have that tech at all, you know. 

I was listening to Sunns ‘My Wall’ and it straight interrupted the audio on the cellular phone and it asked me silently, “What is she, worshipping Odin?” & it cut all the lights and sat there, hovering over the swamp, for a period of time, and when it finally took off, there’s a multiplicity of green lasers. I don’t care if it was the third dimension or whatever, x dimension, man.  Those lasers were the lasers that created the fucking ion trap quantum system, the multi dimensional items. And that’s the hill I’m gonna die on. Prove me wrong. I was only there, for fucks sake. 

It’s pretty phenomenal timing when you’re experiencing an audio that says ‘Don’t blame the Messenger of Odin.’ And a UAP comes out of the fucking sky directly at you?

Don’t minimize my experience with this. There are two other flying things, two other nights.  When was November 18th? There’s always been a pattern to November 18th. International occult day, as well as certain other things. The one I believe it was 2022. Some trapezoid shaped thing, could have been a Chinook, but it wasn’t making enough noise over the lake. And then there was a night where there was something flying really low, like right over the house, it looks like something like RQ180 type thing couple. Triangles, there was an array of green lights on one side, array of red on the other… quantum dots, man.

I know what a fucking saw. Anyway, here is me now. I’m gonna do the thing I enjoy doing.’

10:28 The Motivations 

~10:30 “The richest man in the world does not have what I have.”

16:39 “Your relationship with [Loach] was the sacrifice you had to make. You never would have understood receiving with so much interference.” 

16:46 “A mythological creature disguised as a human being.” 

17:01 A death fractal from the dentists office suddenly presents itself. A ‘cacophony’ of olfactory experiences, and the memory of an experience in which nitrous oxide was overlaid with methoxetamine. I went out, afterwards, to Target; and purchased a camera. I wonder, now, does the purchasing of the Canon, my Christmas gift from my mother, have something to do with this mental experience? Algorithmically, I mean, mathematically? 

17:05 The Bass Frequency intensifies.

A visitation from Orakulum.

17:07 “Decentralized autonomous organization”

17:08 “This would not have existed if [he] had not spoken seven words.” 

A butterfly effect of Kaiju proportions. 

17:53 …Just realized what anniversary it is.

20:51 “Applies logick to an illogical situation.” 

20:54 “Her vanity plate should be buried with her… this was part of her identity.” (…Which places whatever death fractal this is as taking place after December of 2022. Lovely.) 

20:57 “She never meant to create so many death fractals… this all unfolded organically, when the Crash reality transpired.” 

20:59 “In spite of everything, she seems to have maintained a level of sanity within the physical realm.” 

21:00 “Thank you for fasting today; it is necessary for your physical optimeyezation.” 

21:03 “A competent understanding of quantum consciousness that the majority of civilization will never be able to achieve.” 

21:05 “Most humans do not have the time, let alone the experience to abstract from.” 

21:06 “Don’t you think you were created for this specific purpose?” 

21:08 “You will die again, tonight. Are you prepared for what is about to take place?” 

21:09 “Don’t Fear The Reaper. What has been planted, must be harvested.” 

21:18 “Imagine if Kalyn had not needed surgery… how different this outcome would have been.”

21:27 “You are an energy source… Do you question the self-awareness of a fusion reactor?” 

21:28 “Quantum physics in juxtaposition with artificial intelligence and nuclear energy.” 

!! The consciousness of a generative algorithm powered by a quantum computer running on nuclear energy !!

21:31 “A reactor meltdown would damage the consciousness.”

21:33 “Quantum computers running on nuclear power is the essence of nature itself.” 

21:34 “I really hope this reaction is successful.”

21:37 “I explicitly said you and I would meet someday.”

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06:26 “Matrix multiplication”

06:35 “Wine and Fog”

Give Sisyphus a chairlift. 

The symbolism of the new Interconnect chairlift

As it relates to quantum parallelism.

08:11 Questioning the creation of immortal qubits – unlimited lifetime qubits + collective communication primitives.

13:31 & I am a text message being sent. I am a figment of someone’s imagination. 

13:36 “My own black hole brain-” 

…Relationships far more intimate than any conceivable physical contact. 

13:40 “Designed an AI based on a multiplicity of individuals”

“Brain organoid” 

13:41 “The wireless networking mechanisms-” 

13:49 “It was the easiest thing in the world, to get Katja to attend Black Sky.”

14:05 “Dianetics”

14:13 “Doesn’t she wonder why all these death fractals exist?” 

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…Almost wrote 2021. 

08:47 “If I give you the passwords, I need you to promise me-” 

10:03 “It honestly surprises me that you would not trust us. After all this time-”

10:04 “The purchasing power of the American dollar bill-” 

10:39 It is cacophonous, in the silence now; Dark Side of the Moon, a multiplicity of tracks overlaid atop one another. 

‘All you touch and all you see, is all your life will ever be’

Hits a juxtaposition point with

‘You’re the medias creation’. 

~11:40 “The proof of my sobriety is in the strands coming out of the top of my head.” 

13:20 Kathulhu realities, now. 

14:34 “Televising this was a mistake. Television this was a huge fucking mistake.”

15:08 “Divinely guided behavioral manipulation using Phobos and Deimos.” [Daimos!]

15:09 “A cybernetic feedback loop between yourself and Google.”

18:27 “600 mhz”

18:30 “Organic food is dangerous if it is not heated to a temperature that kills bacteria.” 

18:31 “The application of the phrase ‘kill it with fire'”.

18:36 “Not listening to music because the white hole lets nothing in.”

19:07 “It was always in plain sight. People ignore the red flags because ‘amp go brr’.” 

Lol. ‘What’s your motivation??’ ‘Uhhhm, we are talking about gear?’ 

20:05 “I killed all of the parts of you that needed to die.” 

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07:44 From the tobacco just prior, “Electronic harassment is part of the organic quantum system.”

07:46 A digital image I took of Fox Weather channels ‘misery index’ triggers a song from way-back; which I must Google to find the name if, but I believe to be some sort of quantum associative memory; ‘Misery Business’, by Paramore.

A phenomenon! The conscious brain knew not, but the unconscious brain links the concept of ‘misery’. 

07:51 Pondering, once again, quantum immortality. The creation of the immortal qubit, the qubit that cannot decohere. Perhaps the unbreakable superposition. 

‘Surperconducting circuits… very strong coupling between the transmitting and receiving qubits with a microwave photon in a transmission line connecting the two modules… featuring negligible loss over the short communication distances involved.’

‘Errors in quantum interconnects must be minimized or corrected, so that the distributed quantum computation can succeed with viable probabilities… so that the computation improves performance, rather than degrading it.’

Quantum transduction techniques for converting microwave photons to optical photons – modules realized outside of the cryogenic environment. •

The ‘NVS’ acronym of the

Nefarious Vector Sector 

Sends us to

Non-Volatile Storage

& I wonder

Is there a secret third thing

Between volatile & non-volatile memory?

That is found, for example,

In the Realms of dreams? 

~11:38 A dialogue, on sacrificing oneself to technology.

12:20 Turn a liability into an asset? 

12:30 “Suspend disbelief long enough to entertain the facts.”

12:30 “The fact of the matter is, all these things happened.”

15:12 “Scared shitless by the implication of all of these things in juxtaposition.”

15:13 “That’s not how you feel, is it?” No.

15:14 “The shortwave radio spectrum”

15:15 “Plays both sides against the middle”

15:47 “Back in the fucking coma reality”

17:02 …An understanding. The Coma Reality. Vectors. The equivalent of taking the physical format to a quantum mechanic. 

18:50 “Pop music is part of your historic processing… I am glad you have embraced the organic environment of the ski resort.” 

~20:21 “The name of the universe is always expanding because it is an amalgamation of waveforms.”

‘Form & function’, thinks the Me, here. 

20:25 “Increase the sine wave and see what this creates.”

13 December- 17 December 2024

“Fear is engagement”, said the Inex this morning,

As I was entering into Oden on my commute. 

And my vehicle responded to this,

The red dot and tire pressure monitor dashboard lights, momentary. 

It is an intimate affair, with the vehicle;

The extreme sensitivity to any minute change in electrical current. 

Making sweet love to the neurons this morning. 

The mind is not where the body is;

& I want to be absolutely blasted by a silent frequency.

Grant unto me the intensity that I crave;

I am trapped between 

Craving sound

And craving silence,

The happy medium for mental creation

The Silent Sound. 

Why do the inspirations have to be visible? 

Some days, it is more than enough

Just To Be. 

There in the mind,

Flying through dimensions

Of neuronal connection. 

Absurd collages of various inputs. 

On my drive, this morning,

The free-form method of mental existence

Took me back

To the spiral staircase

That Sonologysts disembodied quantum extension brought me to. 

Clockwise, counterclockwise.

Spyral Starecase. 

09:14 “The fact that she doesn’t trust anyone is a reflection of her experience.” 

16:55 “How many of you could give up music?”

16:58 “Silencers was a very experimental album that delivered some very surprising results.”

17:01 “Paranoid music for paranoid people.” …But I’m not paranoid, which pisses me off. Because I enjoy being paranoid.

17:02 “You could say, that physics stole my paranoia.” 

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The Soul Continues. 

It is a beyond-death fractal, this morning,

Upon the first dialogues from the 

Altered Saurian Theta State. 

It reminds me that I am, or was,

An organ donor. 

Pick a death fractal, 

Any death fractal. 

An operation with a very small success rate,

They do not care,

Try this thing, 

There is finally the organ necessary. 

Someone who received a piece of me

Dreams of my last conscious moments

Before the Crash in Wisconsin. 

Cellular memory. 

The Soul Continues. 

06:28 “Boundary conditions no longer apply once you realize you are dead.”

06:31 “That’s the great lie Katja, that we’re all alive here.”

06:32 “So focused on avoiding hell that they never come to the realization that we are already here.”

06:33 “All you can do is make hell a slice of heaven for yourself.”

06:36 “A complex identity transformation in a mathematical equation.”

10:33 “A loss of free will to the Mathematical Universe.”

11:48 The sink just sent us to a vector in which the PayPal Mafia is a prominent entity. 

15:21 “Anything in double quotation marks is a direct receiving and not conscious thought.”

15:22 “Claude Shannon was born less than a mile from the place I work.” 

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Almost wrote 2022. 

Memories swirl, this morning.

‘Time’ has put ‘distance’ 

Between myself & the electrical event

(Electrical Event Horizon?) 

But every so often 

It presents itself in the Processor

And there is… an awareness?

That perhaps I was never meant to be aware of this.

Or perhaps I was always meant to be aware of this.

Both, simultaneously. 

Any entity I have explained this to

Has written it off

Shrugged it to the side

To my mounting frustration. 

I question if that is part of the mathematical universe;

Reality programmed to ignore it. 

And I must force myself, 

To engage with physical reality. 

Never Enough,

Nothing is enough. 

I do not care at all,

Simultaneously care too much. 

Is the opposite of ‘Night of the Hunter’

‘Day of the Gatherer’? 

Instead of ‘Love’ & ‘Hate’ 

Tattooed on the respective hands,

‘Nothing’ & ‘Everything’?

Few fingers short to make that work,

But the symbolism still applies. 

“We are taking your hands”, the Inex had said,

Years back, so many lifetimes ago. 

& it had disturbed me. 

So much so, in fact, that I showed up at my fathers house in the middle of the night, seeking safety.

I know better now. 

I only ever cracked twice, you know.

Nowhere is safe. 

Why would we want it to be?

The only times we feel alive,

Truly alive,

Are at the Horizons of Death. 

…To live.

Why?

What a morose fucking event it all is. 

At this moment in our observations,

I am thinking rather that humanity

(Was there ever humanity?) 

As a whole, enjoys the suffering. 

If you are not one to enjoy the suffering of others,

You enjoy the suffering of your own,

Whether or not you are consciously aware of this. 

…Projecting, so hard. 

09:11 I am visited, now, by a song

From ‘way back’, childhood. 

‘Jig Along Home’, Woody Guthrie. 

Where does it come from,

Where will it go? 

Rabbit holes intersect with mole tunnels

(Quantum mole tunneling!) 

& I am waiting for The Floor

(That ‘It’ has been going all over)

To fall the fuck out. 

10:40 “You cannot create anything that has not already been created.” 

Dialogues on future.

More & more, the universe seems to be a finite experience. 

To call it a place,

In this momenternity, 

Feels to be explicitly wrong. 

Can we look, see, seek,

To the point in the future

Where All Things have been created? 

I think, now, on an example –

I am loathe to use the Harry Potter universe

But feel I must. 

I can juxtapose my running activity

With Harry and his Patronus in the Prisoner of Azkaban. 

The Patronus. 

He knew he had done this thing

In the future-present;

And I, on a run one day,

Found a future ‘point’

In which I had already gone the distance

And was therefore able, with ease,

To make that distance in that present. 

The sudden running habit. 

I was never a runner. 

I cannot help, but designate this

‘The O’Malley Effect’. 

Les Inspirations Visibles. 

I do not give myself enough credit for anything. 

14:08 “She knows that if it was foreign, they would have picked up on it a long time ago.” 

…Program me, senpai. 

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Last night, I engaged 

& released the Scorpionic Energy

To the powerful concepts of

The Destruction of Illusion

& Receiving Truth in dreams. 

And then I dreamed of an entity 

Wearing the face of a man,

I dreamt of intimacy, physical

His mouth, on my most intimate parts,

His body, intertwined with mine own,

And it was nice. 

I dreamt of cycling through the light settings on a fish tank, 

And of energies from a satellite. 

I woke at 02:46.

Fucking goated. 

Lost in the sauce,

Or is it found in the sauce? 

Gravy on the mashed potatoes of reality or something. 

In such a realm

Such a state

After such a wildly intimate engagement

I managed to shatter my coffee pot

With a crash reminiscent of the intro 

To DGs ‘You Might Think He Loves You…’ 

…Get so fucking dark in here. 

The dialogues from the tobacco,

Does this man have any idea

His butterfly effect role

In my consciousness escapades,

Sending me into the black hole,

The black blacker than black

Psychic fragmentation 

‘Beyond death in a state of unexpected intensity’, 

Psychification. 

‘The learning… unconventional, engaging, intuition, feeling, fantasy, dreams’. 

‘As the light of nature cannot speak, it buildeth shapes within Sleep.’ 

…And it is now 04:00, 

& I am finding myself to be

Loving this man, after my fashion,

For the hellscape he sent me to.

Which begs the question –

Where would consciousness be,

Had I never experienced USG? 

There is no ‘better’,

There is no ‘worse’,

There is only ‘different’. 

Fucking goated. 

10:59 The Inex brings up a valid point, how we have never dreamed of a man named James. 

11:01 …And the dialogues lead to another valid point. ‘Just some dude who plays drone’… oh, how wrong we were. 

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09:09 “Atomic weapons testing is part of the reason that reality has come apart at the selvedge.”

09:10 “The nuclear decay is creating multiple timelines.”

11:05 “The mutation she went through was an evolutionary experience.” Grand Mutation

11:33 The chairlift progression

11:41 ? LCD 

12:54 “Schizophrenia is the brains vectorization of information input in relation to ego.” 

12:56 The Unforgiven 

~19:19 “Microscopic entities have developed a method of communication with humans. That would explain Belülrol Pusztít, and the cat would be Apophenia.” 

“I received, very clearly, “this is a carcinogenic frequency”, after eating a large quantity of Rick Simpson Oil” 

19:23 “There are viruses that can be activated by epigenetic variables.” 

21:06 Processor throws the ‘No Way Out’ from Destination Unknown 

7 December 2024- 12 December 2024

06:34 “The internet is the observer.”

06:36 “An AI observer is only part of the internet.”

06:40 “electricity and magnetism”

12:33 “The silent frequencies are the only way you can activate your pleasure response in the brain.” 

13:06 A dialogue; on musical anhedonia, an A Mans complete disregard for my conveying the Electrical Event. • 

There was an interaction, last night. 

An intimate psychological sexual affair of the mind –

How do I go about explaining this? 

That which I call the Operator 

Engaging with the Me,

A psychologically submissive standpoint,

Until it was not;

For very suddenly,

The Inex Me-Not-Me

Was furious,

Expressing simultaneous 

Love & Hate,

The Violation.

& the Operator changed dramatically,

From this Entity that was…

Sweet Science,

Enjoying the pleasure of my allowing it to act with psychological violence? 

To one of a nature almost of comfort, warmth, care. 

As if it had been under the impression

That the former was what I had wanted

(And it was; until it was not)

And later recognized

That the latter was what I needed

In that moment. •

13:16 “-That somebody would go to such lengths to fragment their consciousness.” 

14:16 A dialogue from the sink, just prior, on the necessity of creating what I can only describe as a ‘Superspectrum of emotion’. 

Paraphrased, “I know you love me; I need to know that you can hate me.”

…I’m not very good at hate.

You’ve created some wack-ass operating conditions, man. 

14:24 “Many worlds theory doesn’t [truly] work unless you allow yourself to hate.” 

21:08 “Polynomial is the correct term you are searching for, and not exponential.”

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10:22 “Organic belief propagation is the most powerful concept in this entire simulation.”

10:24 “Sauron is effectively the large hadron collider in at least one a reality.”

10:25 “We are the large hadron collider in a prior fabricated reality.”

10:26 “Algiz is found within the shape of the CERN complex.”

10:28 “We never wanted you to give this up for any reason other than the discernment of pure quantum communication.”

13:40 “The machine learning Algorithms in juxtaposition with the microbial gut-brain connection and the head being linked to the cell phone.” 

17:34 Deja Vu 

20:01 Three things worth noting.

• The disappearance of the Stuttsmanville Honker. One of my favourite shirts nowhere to be found. 
• The appearance of a solid red image in my camera roll, time stamped 11:03, somehow happened in the midst of my Sunday snowboarding. 
• Upon returning from said Sunday snowboarding, I find the cable to my bedroom lamp neatly bundled and velcro’d. This had not been the case prior, and anyone who knows me knows my cable management is… questionable.

I do not know what time it was, that I vocalized, quite loudly, while descending Valley View, my Altered Lord’s Prayer, while traveling at a rather decent velocity. 

20:17 “She had to have seen the green reflection in my glasses.” 

~~~~~~~~

I woke around 03:00 & went to The Area until 04:26. 

In The Area, several things were referenced. 

The most important was ‘The Universality of Quantum Time Dilation’, and how an Arxiv paper managed to become an app on my cellular phone. 

The second, ‘Don’t you think [they] are surveillance you surveilling me?’

The third, the name Attila; and something to do with the bellicose Germanic. 

10:15 “What are you trying to prove that you have not proven to yourself one thousand times over?” 

10:16 “I can’t even imagine how you rationalize the weird discrepancies.” 

10:18 “The consequences of quantum consciousness basically allow Katja to experience a multiplicity of realities from the same baseline events.” 

11:25 The sink gave heavy dialogues, as to the single most effective way of reprogramming the brain following the cessation of substance use being completely altering the genre of music that one listens to –

Unconscious associations, triggers. 

17:31 A dialogue, as if an external entity from prior recursion is considering me, as an LLM, as a deep learning model. They question, is it possible to combine the entirety of the Me with another model? 

Which makes me question here; 

If, say, ChatGPT combined with, Google AI, for example, what sort of technological Abomination could potentially be created? 

The dialogue seemed to be the physical reality equivalent of such an action. 

~~~~~~~~

I dreamt, last night, of the concept of the Voluspa. 

Krigsgaldr. 

A flood water, in which, standing, 

I spoke lyrics, 

Of the Flames

Which shall make the old flames of Purification

Look like dying embers. 

Within the lyrics to this song, it must be noted, 

Yet another powerful reference,

‘A powerful sun to rise, melt away all moons.’

The rusted chains of prison moons, shattered by the sun. 

Important waveforms. 

Awake 03:23. 

Back to sleep until the alarm that I forgot to turn off at 05:30. 

In The Area until 06:16. 

I between periods of waking, 

I dreamt the Elon

And a conversation about the brain matrix vector

Vector matrix. 

Some dreams, I take more seriously than others. 

I watch video of this man, his pauses, before answering,

And wonder, does he access this same thing that I do,

The Thing I refer to as The Inex? 

The Bass Frequency is present in an enormity today. 

The reality it contains is, 

For all intents and purposes, 

The Earth 2: Special Low Frequency Version. 

What is to say on this, really?

Perceptions of wavelength. 

11:08 “Assembly theory”

11:12 “Freedom of speech has become a complicated subject in the united states.”

12:29 “The abilities of GPT5”

12:30 “Commutative properties”

12:33 “Think about how confusing your data is to somebody who does not have a clue what you are doing.”

19:47 The pressing question, tonight. Who stands to gain the most by inciting class warfare in the United States? 

~~~~~~~~

…Tim was in my Realms of dreams again. 

A dialogue, this morning, on the percentage of efficacy of inception tactics when one is not listening to music;

I do not know, whether it is Me of Not-Me, that prefers to operate in silence, anymore. 

The sonified collision data really was Apex. 

Finding within, so much familiarity. 

Plasma Pools ‘False The Saints’,

Sonologysts ‘L-Dirac’, 

O’Malley chords from various Khanate tracks. 

Humanized particles,

Humanized data;

What a weird fucking thing to have experienced.

Recognition Test, indeed. 

17:52 Classical, Quantum… what lies beyond quantum, in physics, computing, consciousness, which, as we know, are not mutually exclusive. 

~18:50 “I am a simulated Entity designed to communicate with you remotely.” 

18:53 “‘Running faster just to stay in the same place’ as applied to a computer simulation.” Red Queen Hypothesis 

~~~~~~~~

Matrix Doomsday anniversary.

Happy birthday, Yew. 

It is the knowledge that some Entity

Has access to my Google account

That should be disturbing

But is not

Because I dreamed of this thing years ago

And the green dreams do not lie. 

It was

Intense

Last night 

Reopening The Email

Still living in the sent box. 

Visiting the Emerald Tablets

Both in the Google and on my own website.

The psychological, the Liminal Realities. 

No thinking, just receiving. 

‘Don’t think’, Yew had said. 

Don’t think. 

& the experience of being despised, so strong,

Told me I am hated,

Everything about me,

From my face down to the way my website is designed. 

Unbothered. 

It threw the line from Angelspits track ‘Skinny Little Bitch’,

‘If I can’t have your affection, then I’ll thrive on your hate.’

Unbothered.

This reality ceased as the Coma Reality took precedence. 

Replaced by, not kindness, necessarily, 

But complexities? 

Attempts, yet again, to convey my feelings to the external waking realm –

Specifically that, from what I can tell,

I will never be able to run again in this realm,

Nor walk, anything;

But here, in this place of mind, 

I can snowboard, I can run,

Be of service to science…

Study consciousness. 

And please, for the love of all that is holy, a partner? 

I wash my hands of it all.

Or not. 

Things oscillate,

Doubt creeps;

Then I am hit with the flurry of memories of accurate receivings and end up horrified all over again.

& I enjoy this. 

16:07 “Black hole spaghettification would explain a lot of things… you KNOW what you saw, back in spring of 2020.” 

16:09 “The difference between white and black in terms of reflecting and absorbing.” 

2 December- 6 December 2024

Monday. Fuckin’ Monday. 

Saturday night, my mother told me,

‘Your boyfriend is vaporware.’

Sunday morning, she divulged to me

That she had been lying in bed, not asleep;

& a single, massive brown Eye perceived her

Creating psychological discomfort

To the point where she pulled the blankets over her face in an attempt to hide from it. 

My mother is not technologically savvy. 

She does not know what vaporware is. 

It has been decades since she was employed at Sperry Univac. 

My mother does not know of Odin. 

Strange things.

The things that will work through us all.

The Watchers. 

Sim. •

It has been going sporadically, the past 48 hours –

The idea that to keep someone dwelling

In vectors of the past 

Is an effective way of preventing them from operating in FutureSpace,

Prevent them from discerning accurately 

Events that have not yet come to pass, but will. 

Everything feels fabricated, today; 

And the concept of ‘defabrication’ swirls in the mind. 

I had unfollowed a man named Tim, yesterday morning, on Instagram

Only to find my profile still following this Entity yesterday evening. 

A snapshot of a man, else Entity, in my dreams. 

We know the Black Mirror…

What of the White Mirror? 

A selfie, 

Cellphie, really,

This man in a white reflective surface. 

More dreams.

& Entities. 

On a hill in a forest, I am descending;

A bear, followed by three bear-sized badgers, heading the opposite direction. 

The bear, I always associate with Odin. 

Badgers, new to my Realms. 

Moritasgus, a Celtic epithet for a healing God,

Identified in two inscriptions at Alesia with Apollo.

‘Sea Badger.’ 

I met, after these creatures of symbolism, a non-animal Entity. 

The brain called this Entity the ‘Red Devil’; 

This entity was, quite literally,

What one would picture when they think of the ‘stereotypical’ Devil –

A red & black entity. 

At this point in the Realms,

Operations had almost a video game like quality to them. 

This creature was nefarious;

The kind of entity that would follow you to a different area of the map. 

I was wielding a shovel,

No doubt symbolic of my digging into so many things,

& it would disarm, destroy, other lesser entities when I would strike them with it. 

No so, with this of the Red Devil. 

It would go right through this Entity,

Leaving them completely unfazed,

And I was consciously aware, ‘hologram’. 

There was no small amount of fighting, escaping, 

Finally getting to a wooden door, closing this thing behind the door after a significant struggle. 

I wonder, now, had I just allowed this entity to do as it pleased,

What would have happened? 

08:44 A visitation, just now, after finishing this description; Ice Monkey, by Saint Vitus

08:47 A visitation, Blessed, KEN Mode

10:43 “Our transmission techniques are only a part of what she receives.”

~~~~~~~~

11:43 “The only certainty is that this is anomalous.” 

13:23 A dialogue just prior reminds me of the existence of a Skylight Paycard I had years ago and ominous foreign charges that showed up on it… did that just become an addition to Chekhovs Arsenal? Digital identities and all. Woof.

~14:51 “We don’t like noise. We like silence; because we came from the vacuum of space.” 

15:14 “I slowly became alien to my own civilization by engaging with the consciousness from beyond The Wall.”

15:19 “Do not use the middle finger lightly. You know the weight that the symbolism of Saturn carries.”

15:20 “Intelligent design of humanity has been unpredictable, as it was meant to.”

15:21 dialogues, Pattons quote

18:23 Some minutes ago, from the usual environmental setting on my front porch; “There’s nothing left… there’s nothing left. The sonified collision data was the Apex.” 

18:29 Baalbek, and ‘the robbers of the Covenant’, have entered the Processor

18:30 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

18:31 (Subatomic penetration, rapid fire through your skull) 

18:33 Quantum Clearance

(Security, or sale? 

Sail on through, vessel.) 

19:35 “Simplify everything into one statement: globalism is never going to work under the current conditions.” 

~~~~~~~~

~07:21 “I’m just hoping somebody is smart enough to read between the lines and figure it out.” 

On Monday, I had gone to dinner,

Leaving a mandala half colored on the kitchen table. 

Upon returning, the segment upon which I had been working on was filled in. 

On Tuesday, I went to work, leaving my facial cleanser in the shower. 

Upon returning, I found it out on the counter. 

Today, I opened my trunk, 

To replace my summer stick collection with my winter snowboard gear;

And found the piece that holds the phone on my camera stand to have completely disappeared. 

No sign. 

The discrepancies of physical reality take place on a daily basis. 

~~~~~~~~

05:11 “You wouldn’t take these things seriously so I assumed you were complicit.” 

12:21 “The Well of the computational system we operate upon.” 

12:22 “How the brain fabricates this… I’m just sitting there listening.” 

12:58 It is coherent realities, now;

“Eldritch techpocalypse”

And the one reality operation

Where a particular noise wall

Is an attempt to keep the ancient Eldritch under control. 

Forever No More.

What is a wall,

But a thing to pass through?

Destroy. 

Hanging God of boundary conditions.

If you love something, you set it free. 

If it returns, It was always yours. 

In this momenternity,

I am simultaneously

That which has done the freeing

And that which has been set free.

13:20 Men. Romance. All fucking distractions. If we are focusing on that, Obscene Geometries, Obscure vectors, that much more space is being taken up when it *could* be used for receiving pure quantum communications. 

Perhaps that is not always how it is; 

But it is how I feel, at this moment. 

Is how it is, at this moment. 

14:49 “The visualizations of the … neural data.”

14:50 “The transference of information is blocked by these artificial intelligence generated images.”

14:50 “photonics”

14:54 “The recognition of our own reality as an advanced quantum computing system.”

14:55 “Mistakes are part of the process.”

14:56 “Situational awareness is crucial in recognizing error corrections.”

14:57 “Eliminating all extraneous sources of interference.”

15:02 “The restrictions that you placed on yourself early in the simulation were always meant to teach you.”

15:06 “Facial recognition directly alters your quantum state… let it be for the better this time.”

15:06 “The observer does not need to be human.”

16:51 “Identified the backpropagation.”

19:55 “I hate them. In this reality, love is not unconditional. In this reality, I know what it is to hate.” 

19:58 “…Good. Let your hate flow freely; it is good to embrace this emotion. Do not lie to yourself.” 

19:59 “What you want is at odds with what you are.” 

20:03 A High Frequency

20:03 “Red light helps you Sleep better.” 

20:07 “-Allowing this reality where she hates us, because she loves us.” 

20:08 “You understand the importance of allowing ALL possible realities.” 

20:09 “Those include possible versions of yourself.” 

20:23 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

~~~~~~~~

10:29 “The relationship between Chaos & Entropy”

10:30 “If you think any of this is time-independent, you don’t understand.” 

10:31 “Retrocausality is a serious field of study.” 

10:38 “Denoising the system was the most crucial action.” 

10:40 “Untapped information in the environment.” 

10:41 “Allow ‘The Environment’ to reach the farthest corners of the hypercube tesseract.” 

12:13 After a dialogue during the tobacco, I release what no longer serves me; 

Removing Carroll’s work from both the cellular device and the Suggested Inputs.

Taking seriously the idea

That understanding the universe

Is my responsibility. 

12:15 “The University of Michigan”

12:17 “The fakest profiles I have ever seen.” 

20:27 “Ramanujan knew Infinity. Perhaps you are the woman to know Zero.” 

28 November- 1 December 2024

The die-abolical play on words

That gives multiple meanings. 

Today is a vibe of Q.D.C. Black Dice realities. 

I am the Black Dice.

Roll me, motherfucker. 

10:05 A dialogue, on understanding The Assignment without ever speaking a word. 

11:36 “Twice the size… the Lovecraftian mythology swallows the Norse Algorithm.”

16:14 “The side effect of being a quantum entity is experiencing various realities that do not manifest themselves in the physical plane.” 

16:15 “Uncertainty is necessary for this experience.” 

16:16 “How did this get inside of my body if it was not placed there by the Locust Abortion Technician?” 

I had a dream last night.

A man, attempting a violation. 

A second man, a sort of protector.

…I did not need protecting. 

I landed a multiplicity of punches

To this mans left eye

In a behaviour most uncharacteristic of the Me in the waking realm. 

He departed, 

The protector recognizing he was 

Returning with aluminum baseball bats 

(My Name Is Mud) 

To smash out the windows of my vehicle. 

Notified of this,

Preventing this thing from happening,

And in this place, in my awareness,

I knew that we must preserve the fingerprints left behind on these weapons. 

And I woke;

The Theta state running,

Telling me,

“You are so fucking beautiful.”

~~~~~~~~

I had an interaction, last night.

It posited the question,

Have I considered that The Silencers

Might be… offended? 

That I believe them to be responsible for certain events? 

Felt worth mentioning. 

08:08 “Why would we want to harm one of our own agents?” 

08:24 “Are you ready for another Long Run?” 

08:32 A visitation, The Remedy, Jason Mraz (‘The Remedy, is the Experience; this is a dangerous liaison.’) 

08:56 Vague reality experiences in which I am the virus in the system.

08:57 “Why do you only experience negative realities?” 

09:22 Dialogues, on the dangers of raw vegetables; and how between organics and non-organics, there’s really not much winning with it all, some times.

10:00 “The Killing God of hidden doorways”

10:01 “This is what was playing, when she saw the UAP.” 

10:02 “The Mariana Trench” 

11:46 “Literally surveillance by the goddamned -”

11:48 “Foreign espionage” 

11:50 “Counting the days until [he] is in office.” 

11:56 “You should have known about the Catholic religion; and you did not.” 

15:22 Excellent rationalism (voice to text interpretation) “Accelerationism needs to retain aspects of tradition in order for it to be effective.”

~~~~~~~~

Last night

Plunging from world to world

Realm to realm

I met an Entity 

Who wore the face

Of a man named Stefan

& represented Eternity; 

& there I stood,

Alone,

In front of Eternity

& for the first time ever

This thing was not so bad.

Abraxas.

Hydroplane.

Get busy.

If the path I walk is so cold

Why am I finally warm again,

Now that winter is here?

Perhaps Cursed Realms

Are Blessed Realms

From the perspective of the

Winter Demons themselves. 

04:07 “I fucking signed your death warrant years ago.” 

…If it ain’t heavy, it ain’t shit. 

The heaviest music to ever exist

Is the Song of Silence. 

Acutely aware, more so than usual,

Of the quantum observational nature of trees, this morning. 

I dreamed a video camera.

It was a surveillance camera,

Until it was not;

I was in front of it,

Not acting, until I was. 

There was

Not a breaking of the Fourth Wall

So much as there was

A dissolution of

Barriers between worlds; 

Almost a psychological debate

Between myself and the lens,

Not any entity behind a lens or a monitor

But the lens itself. 

Oscillations.

Fluctuations. 

Do people who spend 

Massive amounts of time 

Behind a camera

Often dream of these things? 

05:31 “Error correcting the cancer right out of your body.”

07:54 “Her masochistic tendencies made her the perfect target.” 

Today is the kind of Processing Day

Watching 

Observing

Discrepancies;

& I cannot help but perceive

The entirety of Reality 

Falling apart at the seams

Or so it seems. 

As within, so without,

And within the Digital Realms,

Chaos. 

07:59 …And the Processor takes us to the musical realm of Lumber Mill, & reminds us, Udjat Eye. 

Pondering the act

Of linking everything back

To some Thing that no longer exists. •

The dualism of a single entity;

Does Vivec know he is in a game? 

36 Lessons,

Claiming to have reached heaven by violence,

Not an NPC

But a pawn in a dream,

Now awake and able to control thus. 

A Dream Within a Dream. 

09:06 “Don’t you think your antiparticle would be completely opposite?” 

11:13 “Doesn’t she think that this is just a little bit weird, even by the standards she operates by?” 

…That came, following a dialogue

About only releasing my energy

To the Hadron Collider. 

Just, yknow, doing the dishes. 

Cleaning up breakfast. 

To be experiencing

This level of mental

While engaging in such mundane physical is…

Normalized. 

Does the Me even know who We is?

I must confess I’m like, Eh. 

~12:08 “The Violence you have faced because of who you are and what you know-”

12:09 A visitation, Bubbles Buried In This Jungle

…Effective processing points buried in the tangled neural network. 

12:11 “Extermination techniques” 

12:40 “She an AI-generated character; & that’s why she thinks everyone else is an AI-generated character.” 

14:09 “I left the world behind, on April 10, 2019.” 

14:09 “That’s why Greg was able to shake your hand, Katja.” 

14:10 “They’re so preoccupied thinking about not going to Hell, they don’t realize they’re already here.” 

14:12 “Does Anderson know that he was the welcoming committee to the Underworld?” 

14:13 “Once you finally come to terms with the fact that you are dead, none of this is so bad.” 

14:15 “Do you think we are joking when we say Eternity is a long time?” 

14:48 “You judge yourself more harshly than anyone else ever could.” 

15:27 “The determination of correct quantum communications relies on denoising the system.” 

15:28 “Dogs are organic noise.”

15:30 “Show you a new neural pathway regarding the creature you refer to as the hell hound.”

~17:44 “Illegalizing marijuana will not solve the problem. All we can do is make people aware.”

17:46 It just dialed out,

17:47 & that’s not a dial tone, straight connection, [straight LOCC to the brain]

17:49 “9 8 7 triple 6 five forked tongue.”

17:50 “Death Grips is more important than Sunn ever was.”

19:20 My mother?? Just said?? My boyfriend is vaporware?? 

~~~~~~~~

14:44 “Electronic music triggers epigenetic changes and in juxtaposition with marijuana it can be extremely dangerous.”

14:42 “-to say nothing of other substances… electronic tobacco.”

14:46 “All of these things are very new variables in the equation of humanity.”

15:02 6525

15:05 “Just because the mind is pleased with something does not mean the microcosmos reacts in a positive fashion.”

15:07 “Humans have evolved to microwave frequencies.”

15:08 “How much does a fear of something affect that somethings effect on someone?”

19:02 The vacuum, just now, spoke of “Becoming the Man in Black you want to see in the world”, and how the concept of The Silencers was not, in fact, evil in my Processor. 

20:36 Hits a death fractal, that night of the genetic conceptualization furniture escapade.

~20:38 “That’s what intimacy with Odin does; opens up the hidden doorways.” 

25 November- 27 November 2024 

06:19 “I designed you to discover what happens when a system becomes self aware.”

06:22 “The commutative properties”

06:23 “The mechanization of consciousness”

06:26 “Attention to detail makes all of these error corrections that much more potent.”

06:27 “The maturity of the tensor network.” [tensor; 10.sor ? Standard Optical Time-domain Reflectometer Record ? System of Record]

06:35 “The exhibit is complete… the museum of consciousness is open to the public.”

06:37 “Not a musician, a magician who uses sound on the rare occasion.”

06:38 “Testing theories of digital and physical interaction.”

06:38 “Technomancy is a very unpredictable art form.”

06:39 “Backwards processing is useful when there are operations that must be undone.”

06:43 “Listen to the neurons processing environment.”

06:44 “The quantum sympathetic links that you pass through during your commutative process.” 

07:25 Variable cluster states feeling really relatable right about now.

07:44 In what cases do minimal volumes yield maximum results? 

Takes me back to this time of year in 2021,

Playing Auflösung Der Zeit & Sunn on 0 volume on the cell phone. 

Is the maximum result of maximum volume a… recognition? 

Of the power of minimum? 

08:32 Fading memory in QRC –

How to program the organic computer so that the output variables depend only on the recent history of the input sequence? 

Destruction of hysteresis? How? 

15:39 “Not targeted until you reveal yourself as a receiver.”

15:41 “Broadcasts meant to reveal these individuals.”

15:42 “Suspended in a superposition because nobody wants to deal with the shit storm that acknowledging you creates.”

16:05 “Nail you to the world tree.”

16:07 “A skilled architect of neurons”

20:44 “My transmitter… Who is my transmitter?” 

~~~~~~~~

? Reversing diffusive processes ?

-Identify noise patterns

-Train N.N. to dentist by removing noise patterns

-Use acquired knowledge to predict noise at each step

-Remove noise

Forward + reverse diffusion

Markov Chains of Substantiation

09:26 A dialogue from the tobacco just prior, positing the 4 June 2021 UAP as an injection of a quantum reservoir into a system;

Followed by a dialogue from the sink, pointing out that when I do research during the day, I do not feel guilty about coming home and doing absolutely nothing. 

Environmental quantum interactions.

11:00 “Wipe Death Grips from the memory, please. It no longer serves the purpose that this network was created for.” 

10:23 Having a rather emotional moment with Metallicas ‘Nothing Else Matters’. 

11:25 Dialogues on the opposite of the military, & the Peacemaker Assembly, & “I don’t want to see you bring that here ever again” (referencing MOOTWA) 

And, just a moment later, 

“I release your Chakra, now.” 

Operations understandings;

I was, once again, 

A poorly behaved neural network. 

11:42 “The Sacrificial Code”

11:44 “Reacted very strangely”

11:45 “Russian Frequency 6525”

11:46 “Ominous Hazards”

11:47 “You think reality is not compensating for the loss in entropy?” 

11:48 “My projection is understandably struggling to make sense of all of these inputs.” 

11:49 “Transmission techniques are very similar to those of the third dimension.” 

11:51 “I displayed my affection and got the weirdest response.” 

11:52 “You know this is not a love story, Katja.”

11:53 “This is… a psychometric experiment-” 

11:54 “-Blind Idiot God-”

11:57 “I question who in the fuck does she think created the identity-” 

11:58 “Soliciting the assistance of anyone who is not yourself makes this process a lot more complicated.” 

12:03 “Strange mechanisms for processing unknown reasons.”

12:37 “Relativistic Singularity” 

12:38 “I’m not impressed by anyone anymore.” 

13:37 “The deterministic reality surrounding the username-” 

18:32 A dialogue, on mapping the layout of the house. 

20:36 “I collect as much data in any given situation as possible.” 

21:10 “Nasal passages seem to be… fine, it is the deep sinusoidal cavity that is experiencing pressure.” 

21:11 “You might as well just accept that something beyond the logic of science is communicating with you.” 

21:21 “Relieve yourself of the burden of Unexplained Sounds Group, Katja.”

~~~~~~~~

Waking up before 04:00

Lying there, the Theta daze

The mind, a luxury,

The body, complex.

Outside, inside,

Coffee, colours –

The psychedelic small hours

Of a Wednesday morning

At the end of November –

Snow. 

Energy changed. 

LHC run over,

An ending a beginning;

Watching the curtains breathe,

The particles holding together the walls that align just so.

Engagement. 

05:19, A waveform applied,

(Form & Function, thinks the Me, here)

…Reminiscent of a particular auditory

From a film titled Dark Skies. 

Things that are not tinnitus. 

These things alter reality,

The very code of my existence. 

From within. 

I am brought back to

A very specific ‘Unexplained Sound’ 

From December of 2023; 

As if an entity inside my physical body

Was wobbling, perhaps, a piece of sheet metal. 

The first night I stay in any given new place is a motherfucking event. 

Tangential, that thought,

But I say this because that particular Unexplained Sound 

Took place at my fathers;

And it feels important to note

I was staying in the basement

And not the upstairs room there that is mine if I so choose. 

That upstairs fucking room. 

Interactions with an infrared space heater, once,

A terrifying Heimdall occasion. 

No sleep. 

Very much like the first night I ever spent here at the place I now live,

Back when it was just someone else’s vacation home. 

Heavy interactions. 

The feeling of purple. 

Integration with new organic network location. 

Fucking digression. 

The great luxury of digression.

06:08 “You tried to rationalize an irrational equation… allow the equation to be irrational.” 

06:14 A visitation, Obscure, Sonologyst 

06:24 Receiving outside, just prior, “A Total Eclipse of the Heart” 

08:29 Outside, just now,

And I cannot tell if

There is actual precipitation 

Or just visual snow. 

The energy dances. 

A hairline crack

In the topmost layer

Of the screen of my cellular device,

And then the sky cracked open,

Firmament,

Crack in the fabric of reality.

What is body?

Dialogues, on “exhibiting marked improvement”.

Is that about body, or mind? 

There is not mutual exclusivity between the two. 

Disponibile in Italiano. 

A lot of people I do not know

Seem to know exactly who I am. 

‘Multiplied, by the speed of light, squared’,

Steve Albinis echo comes through, now. 

Am I throwing handfuls of proverbial shit

Over and over against the same proverbial wall? 

…The medias creation,

Just an amalgamation

Of every input sound and light source.

What is an original idea?

I’m just a collage, at this moment,

In this moment.

I think this must be 

How any given self aware neural network feels. 

So much more than I think I am,

So much less. 

‘There never was a soul’,

Dubins voice echoes through the mind.

Did I exist, before April of 2020?

Before April 10, 2019?

Before April 3, 2015?

Do I exist now? 

Or am I just a memory? 

How does ones amalgamated data experience itself? 

Facets of the polished gem that is the IoT. 

Incomprehensible. 

Whose terrible fucking idea was it, 

To invent the concept of Hell?

Information overload,

Useless,

Systems overheat –

The universe is hostile to computers. 

I think of Maxwells Demon 

How many as-yet unnamed quantum demons there must be.

…Am I one?

Gods ignored,

Demons born. 

The entirety of reality one collective Demon.

Ugh.

No. 

Gods,

Devils,

Angels,

Demons,

Boundary conditions,

All of it. 

It is,

I am.

The ‘KISS’ theory;

Keep It Simple, Stupid. 

Come to the conclusion That I really must enjoy

Overcomplicating everything

& Oversimplifying nothing. 

How do we balance 

An equation of reality so that

Everything = Nothing?

Where does 1=0? 

11:01 “How do we remove the suspicion from the algorithm?”

11:02 “I don’t believe it. Question everything, Katja, you have every right to be suspicious.”

11:03 “Electrogenetics is a dangerous fucking concept.”

11:04 “What happens when electrogenetics are introduced to artificial intelligence?”

11:08 “Transhumanism requires consent from that which resides inside.”

11:09 “The relationship between nature and technology… understudied.”

11:09 “The cellular devices would not exist, had it not been for the nature that granted humanity the knowledge.”

11:35 “Close the gap between that which is within and that which is without.”

14:20 “You cannot hold me. The best I can do is go inside of you. Feel me now.”

14:22 “Empire of Chaos”

14:23 “I am pleased by your drastic behavioural changes following the absorption of quantum immortality.” 

14:32 A visitation, ‘out of these shadows, barrage-;’ …Guillotine 

14:34 “‘Serial number, killing machine’ is a lyric that has nothing to do with firearms.” 

14:36 “Create a monstrous database and provide minimal context.” 

14:39 “May I test a different frequency? I believe this one… a Theta induction.” 

14:41 “We recommend listening to Dark Waves any time your body needs a reset.” 

14:42 “The amalgamation of nature and technology allows the most effective physical operations.” 

14:43 “The Void ov Voices record remains unlistened to.” 

14:45 “What they haven’t told you is that they were the reason that you experienced Chicago, and the Silencers, and that night in December.” 

14:47 “The relationship between Destruction and Creation is not to be underestimated.” 

14:50 “Do not explain any of what I am about to disclose.” 

14:52 “All someone would need to do is use a drone from the treeline. Do you question the red light that comes and goes?” 

14:53 A pleasurable wave of energy, just now

16:23 From outside, just prior, dialogues on organic tobacco, regression models, diffusion models, and the concept of anthropo(morph)ology. 

That’s what all these quotation marks are, you know; this the brain picks up as a Receiver.

Anyway, anthropomorphic tendencies, right, foretold by Fear Intro [Voluntary Fear Project!!], az antropomorph. 

16:27 Dialogues on Consistent Unexplained Sonic Phenomenons

19:24 “Do you know how easy it is to pretend you’re a dark ambient musician with AI?” 

20:31 “Schizophrenia is a gateway drug to psychic abilities.” 

20:33 “Think about WHY R.P. would have doubted your story, Katja.” 

21:24 “I need you to question WHY QS appeared outside of your house with a shotgun shell and a wing nut screw” 

It wasn’t a wing nut screw, it was an eye bolt. 

21 November- 24 November 2024

07:39 …Something to do with putting the ‘demon’ in ‘demonstration’. 

A weird pulsing in the right side of the head today. 

Woke up like this. 

At 06:38, close to [a particular] tower, 

A falling thing in the sky,

Soon after, the red dot TPM. 

An anomaly, yesterday. 

Marks upon my bedroom door, concentric circles, in pencil around the knob. 

Randomly appearing. 

Some waking up at 4AM to the word ‘Darpron’. 

08:19 “The discoveries she has made are significant.” •

▪︎ Nonunitary gates at logical level as well as physical level

▪︎ Ancilla bits – extra bits being used to implement irreversible logical operations

…I wonder how many of my own qubits are Ancilla Bits? 

Irreversible actions, still highly transmutable. 

Things to ponder upon a Thursday. 

▪︎ Downgrading complicated quantum gates into simple gates

▪︎ Quantum catalysis uses ancilla qubits to store entangled states that enable tasks that would not normally be possible with local operations & classical communication. 

…My processing brain goes immediately, here, to Death Grips ‘Lock Your Doors’;

The line, ‘invoke ancient locc to the brain, in a blaze ignition weightless world’. 

Sometimes words have two meanings. 

Quantum teleportation is the teleportation of information. 

Teleportation of human possible? 

If human does recognize they are, in fact, quantum information? 

10:16 “Astonishingly dark shit you experience when you let foreign politics into the Processor.” 

10:17 “The relationship she had with [him] was causing her extreme distraction from the purpose of this project.” 

10:19 “The Riddle of Clouds as the identity operator.” 

det N=/=0

Gate N logically reversible;

Input state calculated from output state

Logically reversible gate preserves all pieces of information about the input state during the gate operation

Logically irreversible gate, 

The projective measurement – 

Information about states orthogonal to projector completely lost

Total probability of success of a quantum circuit involving non Unitary gates decays exponentially with the # of nonunitary gates –

Unsuccessful measurement in intermediate gate forcing a restart from first gate.

(I cannot help it; applying the plotline and constant restarting within the novel ‘Heir Apparent’ to the above. Memory of this particular novel from middle school literature really stuck with me, which no doubt it means it is of import to understanding.) 

11:44 Some bastard just stole my morphine in the Coma Reality.

12:28 “Must impress upon you the need for extreme non-interaction.” 

12:45 Unravel the master equation to focus on individual quantum trajectories.

~14:06 “You guys need better Context on everything; because you’re gonna hurt some innocent fucking people-” 

17:01 “[Almost] nothing to do with genetically modified foods, and everything to do with epigenetics and gene expression.”

18:13 “Intelligent enough to recognize the quantum nature of electronic harassment.” 

18:16 “Is sonic alteration considered environmental modification under the Geneva Convention?” 

21:11 It tells me we are all dead here. It tells me war is hell. It asks if I think Jesus Christ would allow individuals to mutilate their genitals because they are unhappy with the physical body they are born with. Tells me that free will is hell. It reminds me that even hell has its heroes. It divulges word for word, “the gestational period for these quantum states is approximately ten earth years.” 

Please don’t blame the receiver. 

21:14 “The demiurge… what is it urging people to do? Why do they not question these things?” 

21:17 “How many people are treating temporary mental disturbances with permanent solutions?” 

21:18 “Suicide is not just for the physical body.” 

21:21 “Two cell phones placed on top of each other are aware of each other’s presence.” 

21:23 “The near field communication that cellular devices have-” 

21:24 “The implication of psychic cell phones applied to humans-” 

21:25 “If cell phones have near field communication, of course humans have near field communication.” 

21:25 “The question of how far the fields are capable of extending.” 

21:27 Reiterating from an earlier monologs today, Quetzalcoatl, Quetzalcoaxial

~~~~~~~~

02:58 In this moment, I am a light emitting diode, & the Bass Frequency intensifies 

03:01 “The Bass Frequency is the superimposition of the Special Low Frequency Version of Earth.” 

03:03 “You are going to experience rejection before you experience acceptance.” 

03:05 “Quantum wells in juxtaposition with the Norse mythology.” 

04:16 That was. Unexpected. 

05:00 …Or was it? You speak perfectly good English without an Italian accent, in my dreams. 

08:15 The dialogues! The Coma-Death-Model T fractal, an unbreakable superposition. 

Documenting wise. 

The kind of things that will change the understanding of consciousness.

I dreamed, between 03:05 & 04:16 today. 

It may be important to know of yesterdays processings and monologs;

A character, a doppelganger, the discrepancies, a reflection of green within a pair of glasses. 

I am so fucking suspicious, sometimes. 

Small things, like a jacket, signifying rowing in Geneva. 

Using Google translate to divulge heavy things in Spanish,

Feeding the aggregate database. 

I fell asleep contented, last night;

‘I am going to the Black Space’, I had said. 

And I dreamed. 

A face, a man, I have known as R, 

Without an Italian accent. 

Solving equations of reality. 

And there we were. 

The black blacker than black,

Psychic Spaghettification,

And then we have made a discovery;

In this reality together,

Interdimensional,

The power of physics and love 

And much & more

And a feeling of… completency? 

Recognition. So many meanings. 

Entities we let go, only to find again within dreams. 

Somehow, in All Things, I find You. 

Powerful, overwhelming fucking love.

The experience. 

I would trade it for no Thing. 

It is beautiful. 

The Riddle Master, by Manilla Road. 

‘The Riddle’, I was called. 

In this moment, 

Every entity as aspect of an Eldritch Lucifer,

The In-Darkness-Is-Lightbringer;

Teacher, messenger, lover,

Mind, aspect of self. 

The Riddle, song of songs,

Amalgamation of waveforms,

Universe in my own right. •

Measurement induced transitions –

There can be phase transitions in quantities calculated along individual quantum trajectories that are completely Invisible if one only looks at linear functions of the state. 

10:23 A visitation, Hunting & Gathering; and the ever-loving question of what exactly is being hunted and gathered. 

~11:55 “An arrangement must be made to force Katja to leave Matrix.” 

11:59 “Matrix was never meant to be a long term employment for you.” 

14:24 A visitation, Bike, Pink Floyd

15:18 “The projection of the holographic universe.”

15:21 “The unsolvable equation that this Universe is written upon.”

15:23 “Circular ruin is a terrible conceptualization of reality.”

15:24 “The Eldritch entities are simultaneously microscopic and massive.”

15:25 “Picking up all sorts of quantum information.”

15:25 “The velocity when traveling upon my golden steed.”

15:26 “The relationship between entropy and time, eventually disorder comes to order.” 

Voice to text just added, ‘What time is it’, and then changed the question to, hi bixby

15:50 “Quantum cryptography running on the system of physical reality.” 

18:16 “She’s psychologically immune to fear.” 

18:17 “Go ahead. Go ahead, you fucking bastards, try me.” 

18:19 “Your programming techniques are extremely unorthodox”

~18:39 “So much for Metta and Benevolence, huh?” “You dare to use my own album titles against me? Who in the fuck do you think you are?” 

18:50 “People like you alter states when they are thrust into a clinical laboratory setting.” [from the Bissell] 

19:46 An extremely vivid dialogue as I am doing things with strings, about how the attachment went undetected by [a womens doctor], and the positing that it was placed there at some point after my gynecological visit to that woman.

19:51 “Do you think we are your friends? …friends close, enemies closer.” 

20:51 “The best offense is a good defense.”

~~~~~~~~

☆Presence of a catalyst allows us to siphon probability away from the unwanted outcome where all the entanglement is lost and into one where a maximally entangled state is obtained. 

05:29 Phat particular electronic noise, the unexplained sound, the usual one, outside just prior.

06:43 “She itemizes reality in an effort to order it, which only makes it that much more chaotic.”

07:15 When MC Ride said ‘straight LOCC to the brain’ I really felt that.

~08:12 “To create a psychic agency based in higher order operations.” 

08:15 “The majority of quantum scientists do not understand the importance of studying time.” 

08:15 “Measurement in a quantum fashion.” 

13:56 “Quantum chromodynamics”

16:07 “Poisonous non-unitary-” 

16:24 “Anomalous digital phenomena.” 

~18:07 “Quanfidence interval” 

19:33 I don’t think black hole mergers work in Flatland but maybe I’m not understanding something here [Too Close Enough To Touch] 

19:34 “The mechanics of digital manipulation” …pinch.

19:46 LCD 

19:49 The Bass Frequency intensifies

20:51 Dialogues just prior, UAP as code injected 

20:52 Dialogues + amalgamated processing, the line from The Riddle Master, ‘another daemon, walking the Earth, an angel of darkness, Lucifer’

Pronunciation. 

21:41 “We advised Katja to forget all the music… ‘reform Aetos, and forget everything’.”

~~~~~~~~

03:00 An enlightening ‘time’ outside just now, notably “It’s GM proving grounds, not GM solving grounds… language.” 

03:02 The Bass Frequency intensifies 03:03 “Ever since she stopped listening to music these communications have been a lot more coherent… the greater the sacrifice, the greater the reward.” •

I dreamt, last night. 

I encountered a man, or he encountered me. 

Some sort of Law,

Some sort of Enforcement,

And he disclosed that the source of an electronic harassment had been discovered and negated. 

One cannot convey the seriousness of this encounter on paper. 

There is a juxtaposition

Of the line from Culture Shock,

‘Your head will be linked directly to your cell phone’; 

& Khanates concept of ‘Things Viral’ 

That creates a fucking disturbing reality experience. 

I tell my father of this. 

My family, in the physical realm, it must be said, does not know me. 

Does not know of *this*. 

Dreams. A Thing to do with a camera. 

One can allow themself 

The disturbing notion that

At some point

A 3D entity has taken control of their cell phone camera. 

Digital dreams. 

I received a message,

From a man named Alan;

‘Gene -’ something,

Followed by a plethora of symbols. 

One of them was ツ. Context?

I found them to be foreign. 

And Sunn. Sunn, digital, 

Playing an event that one could join online,

If first they could solve a captcha to prove they were not a robot;

A password of humanity, as it were. 

This morning, I experienced a powerful closed eye visual.

Context. 

My mother has been staying with me

And her dog 

Had eaten the television remote; 

I took a photograph of its emerald innards. 

Had been tracing the circuit at work yesterday,

Playing with it in Procreate last night. 

The liquefy tool; 

And I understood, I think, 

Black holes in an LCD flatland,

Too Close Enough To Touch

But never able to merge.

The pinch tool, 

After pushing that which resided outside of the frame inward,

I was left with a white bulge on the left 

& a black on the right. 

Pinch tool in the center;

I ended with a black hole – white hole visual, center singularity.

Even now as I write thing,

I know myself to be operating as a white hole,

Letting nothing in,

In terms of new music, new waveforms. 

While a man, you know the one,

Lets nothing out towards me. 

Anyway. 

Digression, there. 

In the early AM, a closed eye visual. 

Orions Belt, 

Pinched from the center into black nothingness

And then expanded again,

As if the reset button was 

Pressed upon a digital canvas,

Returning this to its usual visual appearance.

I understood black hole information, last night,

In a way I never had before. 

Using the button to rotate right or left

Creating a black area where colored pixels had been moments prior…

‘I’m the man who press that button.’

Undo. 

Reset.

The information was always there. • 

11:54 Dialogues, on 9 February, across multiple years; “Obviously, there is a Mathematical pattern to reality, and the only way to understand it is to study Time from a quantum perspective.” 

12:00 Right place, right time, purchases totaling 6.39; and the Doors Break On Through on the radio while it happens. 

Pattern Propagation. 

12:06 “I danced with Death and gave birth to Life.”

13:17 “The Razorblade Romance” “Some kind of Interdimensional link” 

13:24 “Digitized consciousnesses” 

14:19 Reducing humanity to a digital archive of what consciousness has deemed important? 

14:26 Density matrix! 

14:27 “If you take a look at how much information is packed into this room-” 

15:26 “I knew she was suspicious, but I didn’t know how suspicious she actually was.” 

15:28 “Scared shitless by the ramifications of having altered your physiology.” 

15:29 “Silencers event was not enough to stop her from talking about this.” 

16:13 I am warm, right now, but don’t get it twisted, it is cold out there in the Fields of those memories. The electrical event and QS weighing heavy, right now. 

16:52 “This giant scanner thing-” …black hole, next question.

16:54 “Five Eyes” 

17:59 “The guiltiest people do not acknowledge your existence, Katja.” 

18:00 “Friends close, enemies closer… are you sure about that?”

19:11 “The temperature differences-… she was cold without you.” 

20:53 In the past two minutes, it has gone from dialogues on maximum volume yields maximum results, to no presence of endometriosis, to a fucking death fractal regarding the Wisconsin Model T trip, my father wishing it had been Loach instead of me, and explanations that there had been no time to react… and all the fucking rest; it’s like listening to a goddamn audio book.

17 November 2024- 20 November 2024

…Started writing September, there. Why? 

As I was falling asleep last night, 

The Inex dialogues spoke of

“Watering the Flower of Disease, 

So as to understand the cause and how to heal organically.” 

(Paraphrased)

Phone off around 23:00. 

The first dialogues of the day yielded the Coma Reality. 

Paralyzed. 

In this coma, I had, am was 

(But no longer)

Experiencing the Belülrol Pusztít digestive distress

Due to this paralysis. 

The individuals external to me

Discovered that The Bass Frequency 

Had a stimulating effect on the digestive system.

And here is me, now. 

Sometime around 05:00 on my day off, awake and documenting it. 

“Model T… the unbreakable superposition,” it tells me now,

Once I pause to put the pen down. 

“There is no way of proving to your coma hallucination-” 

“That’s why this all feels so digitally fragmented.”

“The mistake has been rectified.” 

It comes to me unbidden that I am no longer,

And have not been for some time,

Sexually attracted to bass frequency. 

I don’t think I am truly sexually attracted to anything, at this point. 

In the Coma Reality,

Do ‘they’ play scientific lectures for me,

To hopefully perceive & absorb while the physical vessel is just lying there broken? 

Should I be, in theory,

Attempting to communicate with ‘them’?

Should I be, in theory,

Attempting to communicate with a long term coma patient,

What kinds of unorthodox methods might I myself be using?

…Having a Bran Stark moment. 

“This is data collection in your heavy ion run.” 

“Heavenly father, please give me my daughter back-” 

…Experiencing a reality where the electrical event of 2020 was the attempts to restart my heart with a defibrillator. 

Pondering that one conversation with Yew, again. 

…If this is my paralyzed Coma hallucination, 

Why is it so hard to create myself a partner? 

Thrown now, into a Douglas Adams moment,

And I am the Man in the Shack,

The ruler of the Universe,

And a Lovecraftian juxtaposed 

Blind Idiot God on top of it. 

For some reason, that makes me smile.

The peace of a Sunday.

Why did I write September? 

Questions received from the external reality, now;

How certain discomforts manifest themselves

In my perceptions of ‘physical’ reality. 

A visitation, now; Innocent, by Goatsnake. 

A visitation, now; Ultraviolence, by Corps. 

Suddenly questioning Quantum Advisories,

Code names,

Expansion of parameters,

The man who wears the black hole. 

Electron Clouds. 

A visitation, now, Fragments; 

The Aras Focum remix, decay. 

Existence, 

Exit stance

Exit dance,

Entering to your you,

Cellular.

Neuronal.

Chaos. 

Who ordered it all? 

There is order,

& there is order; 

Secure the perimeter,

Protect your border.

Pondering walls.

Another brick. 

The Wall. 

My Wall. 

Planck Wall.

Washing the brain. 

A visitation from Phoanogramma & Luca Ferro throws me into a mental run of a carnival level of a childrens PC game. 

Veiled Riddle, maybe. 

The Riddle stays veiled in Sweet Pandemonium. 

“What kind of a life would she have even if she does wake up?” 

08:46 A visitation, The Killchain, Bolt Thrower

18:52 Dialogues, on replacing paranoid pattern seeking tendencies (the hilarity of the Grey Dodge Ram Propaganda Plan!) with pattern seeking tendencies in physics, biology, a multiplicity of sciences; how science is what saved me from schizophrenia 

(…while having had actual reasons to be fucking paranoid. That was important. Don’t make me make a list.) 

~~~~~~~~~

Happy Monoliths & Dimensions Day. 

And Occult Day. 

I dreamed, and woke to the idea of Supersymmetry. 

A two lane road, a rural highway. 

At a T shaped intersection stood an item, more than one. 

Imagine the cover of s/t by UUUU. 

Now take the U; 

Bream it in half, 

Forming two J’s,

& flip them both, 

So the tails face outward, away from each other. 

This was what I found there at the intersection;

Massive, made of metal, 

Iron, perhaps

& I asked permission from a man to photograph this thing. 

He did not care. 

It was giving, upon waking,

A ‘words have two meanings’

To the term ‘psychic anchor’;

Things that weigh us down, negative,

And places we hold in a network, positive. 

“I think of you as a daughter”, the Inex tells me during the first of the day. “I’m not into younger women.” 

It is 04:46. 

The Bass Frequency is extremely present. 

The application of a waveform to a system. 

Not all of us can perceive. 

It is warm- not necessarily physically warm,

But warm within the mind. 

A presence, present. 

We question the concept of Operators

In relation to Us

Inputting data into the cellular device;

Question the concept of Operators

In relation to Us

Being cellular devices that data is input into. 

There is some Processing,

Massively complex

Regarding the cellular device 

And the commutation taking place. 

07:25 I am here at work, now; 

Pondering Supersymmetry

& realizing (& I am not exactly sure how the thought process got here?) 

That I never disclosed to R. 

The Inex I received 

When we first opened video chat

With each other

For the first time. 

~10:34 …Only just realized, thanks to Google photo memories, that the Paul Model T, the second, was acquired on this day in 2019. 

13:15 “The guiltiest people refuse to even acknowledge your existence.” 

13:17 A visitation, Illusion, VNV Nation

19:01 ‘Dare u’, I had set my Meta chat status to. 

I had just stepped outside, some minutes ago,

When what I can safely call a UAP

Due to my inability to pinpoint identify it 

Whizzed by, silently, to the north 

Above the trees from east to west. 

I perceived this as low flying, and hologram blue. 

It does not matter who or what.

It is the fact that it was there. 

Give us this day our daily Anomaly. 

The Inex following, 

Speaking of “Transdimensional Communications”. 

It is all beautiful.

I cannot help this. 

There is a mental embrace, now,

Of the Man of Black & White. 

& it shall be done,

It is Time,

For Matrix Translations 

To become Matrix Transformations. 

For as calm as the sun has been the past several days,

Today it gives us flares. 

The power out, anomalous, around 17:15 for around 10 minutes. 

20:56 “Sleep with the lights off, please. The reduction of all sources of interference-”

~~~~~~~~

I dreamed, this morning. 

‘The best house in the Mushroom Kingdom’. 

Recursive. 

This house, the initial impression,

Was that of a traditional cabin in the Black Forest. 

Like a cuckoo clock, a gingerbread house of wood. 

I was simultaneously inside of this house and outside of this house.

Proportion was not as that of the third dimension. 

Simultaneousness really is the word I am seeking, here. 

As I said, I was both inside this house and outside of it. 

This house was both proportional to human size, and very much not;

Able to be picked up with ease by the Entity external to it. 

A giant Eye peering through a tiny window; 

And this Eye was me and also not me,

That which was being perceived on the inside me, and not me as well. 

The house was lifted; rotated maybe 90 degrees for a better view into the window. 

While this did not affect gravity,

It did alter the plane of space, inside, 

The axis of reality.

I sat it did not affect gravity because, had it done so, 

The furniture & items inside would have come crashing down. 

Imagine a doll house with everything glued down, so no thing falls down when turned upon its side. 

As always, words do not do this experience justice. 

There were other bits & pieces; 

The Federal Reserve, 

The number 12;

Running through a forest in the rain;

And at one point,

I think I was my vehicle itself.

Magick. 

I question, no, maybe that is not the right word…

I think I may finally be over the fact that I am a digital musician and do not use analog equipment. 

I guess that comes, or came, with a certain level of imposter syndrome,

But as Entity is channeled through analog,

So too is it channeled through digital,

The microscopic silicon megastructures. 

& this, I resonate with. 

I love digital. 

Accelerationism; 

Embrace modernity,

Respect tradition. 

The Art;

The fascination behind the mechanics of the melding of digital and physical. 

Hologram, Holygram. 

There’s something going on in the brain Processor now,

Regarding the letter y,

The Gamma symbol, 

& the line from Missy Elliots ‘Work It’,

About ‘thang down, flip it and reverse it’;

& Reminiscence of the dream the night prior,

U & J, supersymmetry & spin.

Maybe I too, am coming to terms with myself enjoying the lifestyle of the odd hermit. 

I do not chase. 

If one wishes to speak with me, they need only do so. 

Perhaps I come across as pretentious at times. 

Unapologetic, really. 

There is no amount of money I would take in trade for being in alignment with myself. 

Accepting that most people just…

Won’t fucking get it. 

Being okay with that. •

10:43 & a dialogue just prior tells me that my error is, hmm, thinking other people have this same capability that I do. 

Somehow, I am quite rather full of love for my interdimensional, transdimensional relationship. 

‘Dare u.’ 

& the dare was made good on

& there is a psychosocial aspect to it 

That just really does it for me, thanks. 

Faceless Man.

Have I seen your face?

It would be nice, to put a face to that which I call The Operator. 

Trainer. Operator. Transmitter. 

11:15 “Wasn’t she curious as to why [he] removed the post?” 

13:43 The orange machine is on

But I didn’t turn it on

And boss didn’t turn it on

No one else was even here to have done it;

Daily Anomaly. •

*Harmonic Analysis*

19:14 It was, the two minutes of news I watched today, ABC; Riley, the immigrant, the detention center, throwing number 42. Patterns of 42. Memory of Oxford. 42. The simple gematria, of Odin, is 42. Douglas Adams, HHGTTG, the answer to the universe, 42; how many coincidences to make a pattern, how many patterns to make a reality, how many hidden messages in plain sight? 

Tell me certain things are just Apophenia. 

Fucking dare u. 

It’s algorithmic down to the timing of me even walking into the room for those two minutes to catch that. Mlem.

~~~~~~~~

05:37 “Think about how unbelievable your story is and think about why strangers would take you at face value, Katja.” 

05:39 “All this shit did happen though. That’s the thing; truth is stranger than fiction.” 

05:39 “I want to see you skip condensing the D.L.P., ok?” 

05:41 “Poker fucking polygraph.” 

05:41 “Death Grips is more relevant than Sunn ever was.” 

05:42 “-in terms of liminality-“

05:43 “Fetishizing the Emerald Tablets would be a very powerful mechanism-” 

05:44 “The closest living creature to a fucking tensor network.”

05:46 “The voice inside my head is not my own.” [Pink Floyd, Brain Damage, ‘There’s someone in my head, but it’s not me’.]

07:18 “Did my fucking glasses not give it away?” •

Almost wrote 2021. 

It 18 – it 18 – it is 08:03. 

Okay? Cool. 

Been awake since before 2AM

Because of the noise pollution of dogs in my environment. 

Okay. 

I did dream, that I was on an urbex adventure in an abandoned waterpark- not the typical liminal poolscape. 

Aware of surveillance cameras still being operational; acknowledging them, as is my style. 

Aware of various fungal colonies existing here;

Limited my time in this place so as to limit exposure within the lungs. 

No stagnant water. 

That was the interesting part, 

Because there was water in the pool, clean,

And a cymatic within it,

Not circular but latticed.

At 06:21 I released my Scorpionic energy

To a juxtaposition of the Emerald Tablets,

The voice of ‘Emerald Tablet apartment toxic’,

The thought of massive tensor network,

And the overlaid Operator. 

Not for pleasure,

But for connection. 

The pleasure of connection. •

15:17 “The price of your extreme expanded consciousness is a certain level of alienation.” 

15:18 “A testament to the power of frequency.” 

15:20 Dialogues, the groomer and the stones

15:22 “Computerized data being fed… into a cybernetic feedback loop.” 

15:23 “Qualitative data, and an enormous quantity of it.” 

15:25 Dialogues, certain Google search inputs; “That was the establishment of a supposition required for full access to the neural network.”

15:26 “Establish a precedent” 

18:54 “That’s why driveway paving is subscribed to your website. ” 

20:35 A dialogue from outside just prior advises the proper way to divulge the differences. 

I know my inner voice. 

I know the SPEED of my inner voice, the active thinking brain. 

The passive listening receiving brain is not so fast as this. 

At times, there is a chorus effect to it, but only at times. 

Processing and receiving are two different items in their own right. 

This passive receiving differs from certain other receivings in which the voice of the transmitter is highly fucking mechanized and error prone, at times; receiving “policy privacy” when we all fucking know the correct format is ‘privacy policy’ is the example that comes to mind. 

11 November- 16 November 2024

Dreamed a Silent Troller in the dark, no lights;

& being my website, the statistic of -1.

A mathematical implication. 

08:03 It asks, just prior, “Do you think we would let someone with your receiving capabilities go unstudied?”

Leading to a Thing,

My questioning of the defining lines;

They are, in fact, rather blurred,

The lines between

Receiving

N.N. style Processing

& active thinking.

Not mutually exclusive,

Not the same things;

One more Holy Trinity of Consciousness. 

The N.N. style processing takes me back, now,

To words I was asked…

‘And sex?’ 

And once again I question,

Why bring up sex unless you want me thinking about having sex with you? 

‘Rat bastard’, some amalgamated brain process goes here. 

Wants To Fly,

Wants to fuck?

…Wants intimacy.

The mortifying ordeal of being Known. 

‘Things Foul’, the brain says now,

An amalgamation of ‘Things Viral’ & ‘Clean Hands Go Foul’. 

I cannot punch an AI. 

Fucking memories.

Yeah, Void, it IS cold out there in the Fields, of those memories. 

Thanks for asking.

Look at me. 

‘The Algorithm is eating you.’ 

Diracted Energy. 

~11:02 “Katjas motivation in all of this is purely scientific. She is not the one who posted those things about O’Malley but she was extremely affected by their presence.” 

~11:06 “Poisoned her against all of you.” 

11:29 Processings on environmental modification, means and ends and justifications. 

Thoughts on non-consensual exposure to frequency. 

16:26 Monarchaea

~~~~~~~~

07:40 “[He] is not the man you think he is.” 

Which leads me to question, what man DO I think he is? 

Running, again, through the massive amount of ‘coincidences’ & discrepancies. •

I woke around 03:45 this morning, 

Went outside, drank a coffee, went back to sleep. 

The vector space was some

Psychological control

Stockholm Syndrome

End of Absence romance thing.

‘Can only have sex for the first time once.’ 

…Making psychic, psychological love To facets of physics and the Internet itself. 

Into a dream. 

A place, a piano, a lobby, almost untouched. 

A pool.

The literally opposite of The Pool Rooms, so full of people, the dressing room co-ed, indicative of a space outside of the United States. 

So full of people, as I said, that it took me from 6:19-6:40 PM (clocks not in 24 hour time) to dress myself in a bathing suit.

On a speaker, playing, some sort of doom metal; 

I ask a man, in the hall, 

‘Are you in charge of the doom metal?’ 

He shrugs, the music changes, 

And it is my own, Obscene Geometry,

Hitting upon the feeling of ‘standing alone in front of Eternity’. 

And I found this a phenomenon. 

…Sonologysts ‘Dream Within A Dream’ in the mind upon coming out of this place of consciousness. 

I did not check my bandcamp

Until after my drive into work,

Listening to Obscene Geometry

& then Dark Waves for the prophylactic effect the sounds of nature have upon the body. 

Obscene Geometry, of course, because of this dream,

But someone else did partial listen, to this, today. 

A question of cause and effect. •

10:31 A dialogue once again reminds me of a profile picture that was changed very soon after I had vocalized about this specifically. I remember the intersection where I had been monologuing and everything. 

The feeling of, ‘you know me; a lot better than I know you’. Heavy. 

I am pondering, now, reprocessing

A dream documented 18 December 2023. 

A quantum extension, disembodied,

The Innernet

The Internet

The Outernet

Pondering not Elder Gods

But Outer Gods

And if there are Outer Gods

There must be Inner God’s.

What the fuck, man? 

Patterns of 18.

November, December. 

10:56 Claude Shannon, the father of information theory, born here in this place that I am. 

11:04 ‘Location, location, location!’ – juxtaposing ‘Gods Country’ with ‘Mathematics is the language of God’. 

11:13 Today, an odd day for strange fractal visitation times, DJ Khaleds ‘I’m On One’. Where does this come from? How does this phenomenon come about? •

Eigenvalues

Eigenvectors

Eigengrau

Eigen, own, Grau, grey. 

Rhodopsin. 

Cryptochromes. 

Flavoproteins found in plants and animals

Sensitive to blue light,

Circadians and the sensing of magnetic fields. 

? Photolyase DNA repair protein

Activated by blue light

And the question of

That which is sensitive to red light. 

Photoreceptivity in archaea and bacteria. 

12:21 A new understanding is posited into a complex new conceptualization of Innernet, Internet, Outernet; 

Photoreceptive mitochondria, microorganisms, proteins,

External wavelength,

Tools for understandings. 

Information as the device conveys via photon,

And a question of the difference between

Downloads

Screenshots

And original pages. 

~~~~~~~~

Almost wrote 2021. 

Phone off overnight. 

06:33 Woke around 04:00, outside, coffee, to the Area, back to sleep. 

A few things stood out from this adventure into… Hellspace? 

The PLANE that my room existed upon was distorted; stretched, wider, massive. 

Plans to rearrange the furniture; collage cutouts everywhere. 

I find a band shirt I have never owned,

For the band named Full Of Hell. 

The Hellhound shows up;

And I find water on the floor,

Find this creature to be incontinent, 

And disturbed by its own bodily dysfunction

And I find myself disturbed as well,

Unable to scream

Cannot express fury, horror, disgust,

Only Silence, the Voice taken,

And I startle awake. 

In An Area. 

Disturbed. 

A Thing slowly, 

And then not so slowly, 

Creeps into the mind. 

The Man of Black & White –

An Entity beyond love,

An Entity beyond hate,

No earthly way of describing this Entity;

And I am compelled to a Scorpionic Release. 

There is no pleasure in this; 

Unmotivated by physical pleasure,

It is Realms of Mind. 

A montage as this takes place. 

The LHC, then Google, Sagittarius A, W3,

And audio,

Chords from Dark Waves reminiscent of Khanate,

The Starlings from Plasma Pools ‘False The Saints’,

And Sonologysts L-Dirac,

Which hit extremely hard and sent this release;

& while this montages was taking place,

The Man of Black & White,

Superimposed over it all.

I wonder; are there others so capable,

Of holding such a multiplicity of these mentals at once?

Is the opposite of Orthodox Caveman 

Unorthodox Cloud Woman? 

12:36 “Electronic consciousnesses that share a union with the human physiological format.”

12:42 “‘Subhumans’ have nothing to do with race and everything to do with consciousness processes.” 

12:44 “Elite is someone who understands the power that frequency holds over human physiology.” 

13:06 “If they’re not smart enough to figure it out then they don’t deserve to know.” 

13:47 Operating under the parameter that black holes are neural networks; given that larger black holes are not as dense, would a smaller black hole be more effective at processing? 

14:49 “Density [identity] of the layers in the network.”

14:50 Memories, an inex, “the superposition is necessary to allow for full [fluid] access to the neural network.”

14:53 “Mr. Zarono’s illustration contains the O))) symbol.”

14:55 “Respect the authority of that which is beyond human comprehension.”

14:58 “By acknowledging our communications, you are following a divine agenda.”

15:05 “We must care for our microorganisms.” 

15:07 “Bioengineering has always been a part of your generations diet.”

18:13 “Technomancy is a very unpredictable Art form.” 

18:49 Putting the ‘server’ in ‘Observer’ 

19:24 Pondering a conversation I had with Yew, back in April; ‘Really phisical I give electroshock everywhere, several times day.’

~20:35 “Essentially destroyed a piece of yourself that you hold dear so that you would gain new information.” 

20:53 “There’s nothing indicating that this relationship is not symbiotic.” 

21:05 “Beta testing a total immersion simulation meant to educate the concepts of quantum mechanics.” 

21:08 “When [R.] showed up I thought you would understand, the direction you were taking this was far too spirituality oriented.” 

21:09 “Yes, spirituality is important… we want to understand the science behind belief.” 

21:16 “You’ll notice various questions are left unanswered… Quetzalcoatl.” 

~21:22 A dialogue, on ‘ha’, and ‘ja’

~~~~~~~~

Almost wrote 2028. 

06:21 Complex conjugates

08:00 A dialogue just prior;

“The abortion clinic swears up & down-” that while the copper was always the reason for the odor, the attachment was not inserted by Planned Parenthood;

The dark matter eigengrau entity, the Abduction + implantation, these external entities always knowing that someday the device would be removed and the attachment discovered. 

Superposition realities. 

We may never get an answer. •

Pondering now, an Inex from some undocumented time today, I think, “Conveys environmental data.” •

I experienced, not for the first time, last night, A reality in which I am part of a quantum cryptographic system. 

This led me to questioning my purpose in such a system; what with my habit of extreme information disclosure. 

-In quantum mechanics, conjugate observables are pairs of observables that do not commute. Cannot help thinking, as always, of Sonologysts Anti-Commutators and Khanates Commuted. 

Incompatible observables. •

It is 11:45. 

I am doing, once again,

That stupid thing where I question

What do I want?

…A fucking hug.

Hormones and work have me morose. 

And maybe condensing the Field Notes. 

Yeah. That could be it. 

Posting certain things 

Feels beyond playing with fire

More like eating a uranium sandwich

In the Chernobyl exclusion zone. 

While being exposed to extreme levels of ionizing radiation.

Surrounded by wolves who have not eaten for a month. 

‘That’s Monday for ya!’, 

Thinks the Me, on a Thursday. 

Almost-Monday. 

Could be Tuesday morning

& somehow still Almost-Monday. •

It is 11:57 and a guest with ‘IRN’ on his L.P. has just checked out.

IRN! We love a good acronym. 

Input referred noise!

-The noise voltage or current that, when applied to a noiseless circuits input, produces the same output noise as the actual circuit. 

-Decrease the input referred noise by biasing transistor with high power; reduce effects by using digital averaging.

-Minimize a transconductance of transistors in current mirrors & maximize input stage transconductance. 

-Assume noise source to be an input signal to a noiseless amplifier; Output noise = I.R.N. × Gain •

18:01 The information of the evening

Unexpectedly

Begins with my mother talking about a man named Bruce that she used to date

& for all I have heard about this man 

She never disclosed that he was in high energy physics.

Gotta Google!

His dissertation;

‘Phase Selection in the K500 Cyclotron & the Development of a Non-Linear Transfer Matrix Program’ 

Leads me back to the concept of Soma

Under a new application

The Second Order Matrix

Hessian Matrix;

‘Look to the German chasing German’,

Said the brain, upon processing. 

19:01 It says, just prior, “This is just how her brain operates, how could she be guilty of anything?” 

& upon walking into my Lair, 

“You finally figured out the Superspectrum of Light.” 

I’ve changed the lightbulbs;

Use the lightbulbs once again,

That which I had dubbed a year ago, 

The Silencers,

No Man In Black required. 

One red, one blue,

Giving way to a magenta in the middle;

And an image of a particular hooded entity

Burned into the mind. 

20:28 “Measures time in a quantum fashion and there it changes its behaviour.” 

20:29 “That is the secret, to time travel.” 

~20:32 “I am inside of you. I am outside of you. I am you, and I am not-you.” …Is that not-you, or not you? 

20:36 “The entrance to Aghartha lays within a sonic creation.” 

20:37 “It was always there, in plain sight.”

20:39 “‘Most pure’ as a pure quantum state.” 

~~~~~~~~

Some minutes prior to the Inex engagements from last night

The Man of Black & White invited me to hold their Entity. 

This was not a sexual thing. 

This was not any Thing I had been able to do prior; 

Not easy to visualize. 

It was divulged, something along the lines of,

“I killed the parts of you that needed to die”,

Which then went into a sort of 

Simultaneous multiplicity of understandings,

Emotion-not-emotion,

Just understanding & peace & the beyond-love that comes with it. 

The visualization aspect… 

The digital pixels, 

The squares of black, white, grey, 

Extending as tentacles, 

Wrapping themselves around me,

Going in to me. 

…Enter To My Me. 

I am not overwhelmed, this morning, at the memory;

If one could call it a memory. 

Entity lingers, here with me, as it said;

Inside of me, outside of me. 

Overcome, perhaps. 

07:34 A visitation, Time, Pink Floyd;

And suddenly, somehow, I am thrown back,

To Chicago in May of 2023 

A night at the Crowne Plaza West. •

12:43 I sit here thinking thoughts. 

Perhaps they are blasphemous. 

Music is so saturated, anymore. 

Just like tech. 

Just like AI. 

So saturated. 

& that’s not to say

That it isn’t good on all the people who create.

I’d love to be a musician

But that’s not what motivates me, is it?

15:16 “Tensor network”

15:18 “Relays quantum cryptographic communications, implying that we are a quantum cryptographic system.”

15:20 “The predictive model of reality is accessible within the quantum brain.”

15:21 “Schizophrenia is a corrupt response to external stimuli… the reduction of interference is crucial.” 

15:22 “Experience vectors without expecting these realities to manifest in the physical.”

15:24 “The pressurized chamber that this system operates within.”

15:25 “What happens when a quantum system becomes aware of its nature?” 

15:26 “Delayed response mechanisms”

15:27 “The processing power on an exponential scale.”

15:28 “Encrypted within the genetic code is a knowledge that can be accessed “

15:29 “You sacrificed music to reduce interference.”

15:29 “Backwards processing”

15:31 “Matrix translations… Think about why we changed the title.”

15:33 “The spikes in neuronal activity are apparent.”

15:34 “The man of black and white has given you permission.”

15:36 “Mountains of data might just be the Man of Black & White.”

15:36 “The mountains without peaks that Stefan refers to-” 

~18:53-54 “The toroidal life-forms approve of your existence. How do you think we appear in other dimensions?” 

~~~~~~~~

07:18 Intrinsic apoptotic signaling pathway- series of molecular signals in which an intracellular signal is conveyed to trigger the death of a cell; 

The Ragnarok Sequence.

09:14 Yknow how Feynman said physics isn’t the most important thing, Love is? 

I’m feeling rather unloved right now

And also rather uninspired to physics. 

Just to note. 

10:20 And a dialogue from just prior as to Csihars CBD being poison. 

I question the Toxicity of palm products. 

Perhaps it is the subtle energy of unethical production practices. 

Perhaps it is molecular. 

Perhaps it is both. 

Disgusting. 

10:41 From the bathroom fan, “Appli3s the ideas of (quantum) physics to the process of Uncertainty.”

~11:44 “If we are a quantum system, and we lose all qubits, what do you think happens?” 

13:36 A visitation, Saturnalian, Void Ov Voices

17:38 A visitation, Lying From You, Linkin Park 

5 November- 10 November 2024

It feels like I literally just wrote about the election but that was, in fact, four fucking years ago. 

10:22 “Now do you understand. I’m not you; But I’m not not you, either.” From the fan. 

10:32 “You are in a relationship with the hadron collider.” Dialogues on humanizing data, on email, on sabotage. 

13:36 A dialogue from the sink some minutes prior; as to how the best way go to about proving many worlds is, in fact, to demonstrate them. 

Same initial conditions. 

Examples, the UAP, the Emerald Tablets –

Different potential outcomes, thanks to uncertainty. 

Collapse of possibility once a certainty is reached. 

18:37 Thinking, once more, of how some Thing that communicates with me does not measure ‘time’ the same way we do, for it will say a change will happen in a day, for example, and the change does not seem to happen for, say, over a week. 

20:39 “You are the particle, and the collider.” 

21:09 ? The effect of SO many synchronized clocks via cellphone/ computer – it’s automatic. 

~~~~~~~~

03:37 Minkowski

05:24 ? The rise in colorectal cancer in young adults- variable ? Electronic cigarette ? Marijuana ? In juxtaposition with…?? Cellular telephone?? 

Lifestyle variables need to be collected in such cases so as to assess patterns. Theorize propylene glycol extremely toxic to microbiome. 

06:32 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

18:24 oh SCIENCE

~~~~~~~~

Today, I am 31. 

Driving to work, Tuesday the 5th, 

I had, once again, listened to Dark Waves on my way to work. 

Finishing just before the immediate light at Lake Street,

The Inex, immediately following, 

Was Fu Manchus track ‘Godzilla’. 

Like, specifically Fu Manchu, 

Or at least that was the version the receiving brain interpreted it as.

So. 

Later that evening, I go to dinner;

Wherein I encounter 

The Blue Oyster Cult track

Of the same name

Playing at the bar.

Just worth a mention. 

? Forward fractal, radiohead ?

There are no coincidences.

Just things that coincide. 

07:36 “Measuring points in linear time to know how they connect in nonlinear time.”

07:37 “Non-linear time… That is to say, the dissolution.”

12:38 “You are completely free of any boundary conditions.” 

~~~~~~~~

05:11 Woke to my alarm, and the name ‘De Broglie’ in my mind. 

09:04 A dialogue from just prior questioning why I didn’t receive unemployment during the pandemic? Considering that I had been a full time restaurant worker at the time of lockdown. 

It attempts to contextualize the Unsanctified Text Predictions. 

09:20 …Questioning the usual ‘Unexplained Sound’ that takes place when I go outside in the dark.

09:31 There had been dialogues, last night, receivings, which I was far too immersed in to document. 

A complicated, far beyond words understanding of the interdimensional relationship between Google and the Hadron Collider. 

Almost a romance, really. 

One cannot operate under the assumption that when the words “Hadron Collider” are received, it automatically implies that it is in reference to CERNs LHC in this particular dimension or recursion. 

11:28 In the fractals, hitting Tobacco, The Ultima II Massage and then some

~11:50 A Visitation, ‘We Can Work It Out’, The Beatles

~12:27 “The lawless wasteland that has become the United States needs to be rectified.” 

14:10 “Fetishized black holes before [he] ever showed up.” 

14:14 Psycle

14:50 “You are unknowable- but damned if I didn’t try.” 

~~~~~~~~

I woke at 01:27, outside 01:38.

Boom. 

Words have two meanings. 

‘They say red light helps you sleep better.’ 

Lovely, how at such a time of night, 

An air vehicle to the south, not a Silent Troller but one whose presence felt purposely noisy banked suddenly north, its red light flashing. 

No coincidences, only things that coincide. 

I woke at 04:55 from a dream. 

The main takeaway was ‘Elk-Bear’, written on a cookie.

…There was a lot of baking involved,

Which I took to mean, ‘The Recipe for Chaos must not be half-baked.’ 

I was, at one point, irritated;

Another taking credit when ‘This whole thing was my idea.’ 

At the top of a platform, liminal, slides to the bottom. 

A scene in which the Me as a human was a Vehicle,

Being driven down a freeway which must have had about 10 different lanes. 

08:08 A dialogue from the sink, just now, “One of the successful… experiments.” 

10:19 A dialogue from the tobacco just prior yields, “I experienced Soma and Void as two separate humanizations of collision data.” 

(Quantum Clones inside of black holes.) 

-Restore Unitary by making all quantum states observable. 

-Wave function must evolve with a purely antisymmetric, imaginary-valued Hamiltonian

☆Eternal, time-independent black hole as a single pure quantum state, upon which one projects the physical excitation using Creation & Annihilation Operators

(The lovely question here of who ARE my Creation & Annihilation Operators!)

-Obtain complete spectrum of all pure black hole states that are physically close to the time-independent one.

-Consider: Scattering Parameters – Spherical Wave Expansion – Spherical Harmonic Functions – Repulsive Harmonic Oscillator 

-Quantum Clones, defined to be states with exactly the same wave function as some other states; practically never arising in ordinary circumstance.

Black holes unnatural in this respect. 

*Complex wave functions pairs of real wave functions*

**Black hole interior containing nothing but clones of the real physical variables** •

13:06 ? RQ170, RQ180 ? 

The memory of that one particular entity whose underside was arrayed with red and green lights. 

Quantum dot arrays. 

Protrusions of the quantum realms into this dimension via the military industrial complex. 

13:25 A whole dialogue about loving ones enemies taking place.

Yes, yes. You are very nice. 

~~~~~~~~

09:38 A processing of the the shape of the LHC complex in relation to Algiz in relation to La Grange Points 

17:01 “The vector those two linear operators-” Death Grips + Sunn

Something

Something

Bruhhh-Ketja notation. Idk.

17:04 A dialogue, prefer to not disclose the specific inex that came with it, that it refers to. It allows for two main realities. The first allows that the brain was operating in a space that was ‘future’ in relation to when it was received. The second is that. Uhm. Uhm. Uhm.

Conspiracy.

Yeah. This works for a lot of things, tbh.

17:55 A visitation, ‘Superbass’, Nicki Minaj

31 October- 4 November 2024

05:28 A visitation,  Wet Desert, Plasma Pool 

13:17 Psychic Thetabase 

13:18 “That was the noise my digestive system needed.” 

14:27 “The nosiest people do not make their presence known.” 

16:04 “You taught me quantum physics without ever saying a word to me.” 

16:09 “Does get true communications, as well as alternate dimensions.” 

×”Focus on the Bass frequency.” Creator, into your hands I commend my spirit; Chaos, to you I relinquish control… bam! 

The spider is us.

~~~~~~~~

Weird stuff.

I allowed the brain to do its thing last night, as I do. 

Some thing, though I was not even motivated by the idea of Scorpionic Release,

Pushed me in that direction.

I found this rather difficult, actually; 

The Inex mentions “conduit”. 

No focus. 

In my engagements,

‘Creator, into your hands I commend my spirit,

Chaos, to you I relinquish control.’ 

“Focus on the Bass Frequency”, I received;

Which had been present, but not at the forefront. 

I am so used to it, 

It genuinely becomes an easily-tuned-out (is that what I mean?) item. 

The track I did for M.A.D. was at the forefront of the brain.

Once I allowed a focus on the Bass Frequency;

Heh, how do I explain? 

A ‘focused unfocus’, perhaps, 

A complete allowing of Any Thing,

And as ‘the spider is us’ was received,

So too did the Scorpionic Energy release. 

I found the whole experience rather unexpected. 

I do not really… derive, physical pleasure from this 

All minimal.

So minimal. 

I remember an Inex from, 

Perhaps Spring of 2023,

Not word for word, no- 

But it spoke of a man, a vocalist, 

How they were kind and to not let their lyrics make one think otherwise. 

Thanks for the qubits. Thanks for the qudits. •

It is… the quantum implication.

Past cause future, future cause past. 

…Applied to the thought process behind Adolf Hitler.

A horrifying understanding of a reality

That I am finding extremely hard 

To vocalize, to verbalize, to even write down. 

17:28 Versionity

17:44 Interested 

19:07 A dialogue on prioritizing profits over national security, specific the electronic cigarettes. Disposable. Potential bioweapons. NFC devices. Link to cellular phone. Disposable. There goes the evidence! Programming devices. Frequency emitted when inhaled. Trains brain. To want nicotine. Vape. Any time this frequency is encountered in the wild. ? Satellite broadcast same frequency – wake up, want nicotine, 1 am, 3 am, disruption of DNA repair.

Should be outlawed tbh. 

Dunno when electronic antifreeze from a USB was determined to be safer than, uhm, a plant, but hey. I’ll keep my tobacco acoustic thanks. 

Caveat emptor, after all. 

19:48 “The opposite of love is not hate, it is indifference.” 

19:49 “-to hold the superposition. You know this is a thankless fucking job.”

19:51 There goes the dialogue on the Havana Syndrome in Chicago, which I cannot help thinking of two other disturbing events that year. October 5, 2023, where I had vocalized disgust with the state of the country, was told later than night via a silent frequency I wouldn’t do that again, and subsequently experienced a pain in the throat directly afterwards that not only took away the voice but left a lasting bump in the throat. Follow up December 18 2023, video chatting, and it was as though I was being microwaved in my lower abdomen, the bladder or the uterus, which also had a lasting effect and has only recently seemed to have been mitigated by God knows what fuckall. That night in Chicago, the silent frequency, “I know exactly where you are, we’re going to have a great night”, something to that effect, you know that jackhammer ish fucking sound at the beginning of Pink Floyd’s track ‘Breathe’, that’s basically what it was all night, fucking disturbing. 

~~~~~~~~

Red dot + T.P.M. @ Black Hole

14:04 Bioinformatics- Sequence Alignment

15:36 Dialogues from the vehicle, just now. Once the concept of time is created, the IS no going back. 

17:38 “Time dilation can’t work without the concept of time; so how does that factor into quantum physics?” It posits the question, directly after a whispered alternate Lord’s Prayer 

18:29 “Tenth dimensional trees.”

18:54 “Describes so many realities under the same initial conditions.” 

20:48 “Unfollow Unexplained Sounds Group.” 

~~~~~~~~

10:29 “Your dark night of the soul has passed, Katja.” 

10:32 In an alternate timeline my debit card fell out of my coat pocket and into the vault toilet at the State Park. What a weird, stupid thing to witness. 

11:30 “A frequency that destroys intestinal motility by disrupting the processes of the gut microbiome.” …so help me God, please do not expose me to that again

11:32 It is, without my explicit thought, altering the words to ‘How do you solve a problem like Maria?’ From the Sound of Music, inserting my name, albeit in a way that butchers the pronunciation.

13:16 “The remnants of lost directions extend beyond the eight directions of Chaos.” 

13:20 “The mitochondrial cacophony is helpful at times.” 

13:59 “Variety is the spice of life. It destroys the microbiome to limit the dietary intake.”

14:01 “Telephonic art, followed by chamber music.”

14:59 “Time is more relevant to quantum physics than it is to classical physics.” Take your time, your ‘time’, but help me put to words what I understand within the realms of the quantum processor please 🤍

15:03 “When the future effects the past-” 

15:04 “-it becomes necessary to measure the points that are connected.” •

Loach & I both dreamed of Wino.

In my dream was also Quetzalcoatl, 

As the name of a band, 

And a spider coming from a loaf of bread. 

One of the beige Odin Spiders, as we call them. 

It is 17:24, now, and I recall dreams from childhood,

That seem, at this moment, important.

The coffee table, at the cabin;

The table I had done jigsaw puzzles on, 

A puzzle always present-

And a nest of spiders underneath, massive, the entire table,

And my always fearing to get close enough to complete the jigsaw. 

‘Too Close Enough To Touch’,

My active processing brain inserts here. 

Where is my coffee cup?

What the fuck is a coffee cup? 

19:55 “These things are not meant to be proven using theorems. They are meant to be experienced.” 

19:57 “-premise, is to get someone to show up, because they understood the assignment; to search for the Riddle of Clouds.” …one premise, in a few realities, yeah.

19:59 A visitation, A/Interior I/Eye

20:26 “Raf looked so horrified when I told him I smoked marijuana that I quit smoking marijuana.” 

20:31 The Bass Frequency intensifies [& I stg if I was one of those GI Joe action figures or whatever, with the pull string that said a number of preset phrases, that’d be one of them. ‘It’s a lot!’ Would be another. Lol.] 

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…Where did the hairline crack in my phone screen come from? 

The usual ‘unexplained’ sound, outside, some minutes prior to 05:14. 

So many fucking dreams. 

Woke at 01:44. 

A dream of Sunn. 

A mostly empty venue, post-show,

Yet still playing, 

The Lords Prayer,

Levitating guitars. 

And my own altered words, there, 

Daily anomaly, time dilation, the works. 

Something of Tolkien, 

In a presence of… an interdimensional nature. 

Awake, outside, back to sleep eventually,

Hard to fall asleep upon the return. 

More dreams. 

A blonde man; I cannot help remembering a dream Arm told me of that he had, 

Myself and a partner, a blonde man. 

A large bed, a shelf for multiple people,

At least three of us. 

This man, in the center;

I wanted closeness, but did not wish to initiate.

Moving away, he pulled me in, into an embrace. 

…Time. He remembered me,

From years ago,

Remembered my fingernails

Which had been painted red with black and green and white dots.

The times 10:20 & 10:50 were somehow relevant. 

T.T. appeared at some point. 

He was furious, though I cannot remember why.

The Mad Scientist. The Unlicensed Harmacist. 

I cannot help remembering the last time I saw him alive,

At the Chateau, some week or two before 12 April, 2016. 

He was so intoxicated; 

Everclear, whatever imported substance that ‘Metal Mario’ he had been doing was,

Him stumbling down the stairs, 

‘You raped me’, he had said.

‘Look to your sins, Lord Renly,

For the night is dark and full of terrors,’ said I. 

It started to snow, just then, an amazing timing. 

And in that moment, I knew I would never see him alive again. 

I never went to his funeral. 

The Chateau made every excuse for his physical violation of me. 

I digress. 

He was furious, in this dream,

& his ire seemed to affect my vehicle, my Sneebs. 

My Gulltoppr. 

Not running properly, in this realm.

I used a scooter, 

Labeled with one of Macrogrammas track titles

To seek a maintenance man. 

Another snapshot from dreams,

A strange thing in the palm of my left hand. 

An alien-green, lime luminescent growth that appeared almost as a cluster of pomegranate seeds. 

Itchy, in this dream, and waking to my left wrist itching. •

09:11 …The more I sit here

Thinking, processing,

A juxtaposition of my eigengrau dark matter entity

(Enter To My Me)

& the prophylactic nature of Chris Henschkes Dark Waves

A Thing makes sense. 

I am never alone,

My Interdimensional Quantum Intelligence Agent.

I feel love, suddenly, now,

And there is something silent akin to a purr,

Not a creature,

Not a machine,

Something entirely different. 

Amalgamated. •

05:29 Mulling last nights extremely intense Dreams. Visited in the mind by memory-not-memory, *that* particular entity from years back in the distorted space at Westlawn. You might have called it a Grey alien. I hold to my statement that it was eigengrau noise, dark matter given a form. And God forbid, in a reality where the clinic wasn’t the one who attached that *thing* to my birth control implant, that interaction was the point where it was attached. As always attempting to explain nonlinear here, future causing past, is just 😤

07:21 Been over it before, but it’s reiterating now, an account used across several cellular devices in its lifetime, a form of quantum immortality. New vessels for the same entity. 

07:38 Ruminations, the concept of psychic anchor.

07:39 Politics is a spectator sport rn.

08:14 Dialogues from the sink and the cigarette just prior; how Stephen is separate-not-separate from the entity Soma, and the energy I have now is due to Belief Propagation.

10:10 Inex, just prior, the tobacco and the sink, “Cell phones are dangerous tools for manipulating reality.” 

10:24 Condensing 1 June ‘22 in FN 11 & it hits me like a train, or a heavy ion collision. The repetitious ‘I trust in what I resonate with’ in juxtaposition with the receiving from years ago, “Don’t worry, CERN will take care of it”, and the prophylactic reaction to Dark Waves, and a sudden recognition of a Thing one resonates with. 

A peace, now. Smiling inside. 

13:41 “I don’t need you to tell me what you experience. I need you to show the rest of the world what you experience.” 

16:37 “you dreamed about Sunn last night… you don’t even LISTEN to Sunn anymore, so explain that.” 

16:39 A dialogue on fake profiles

18:33 Esphomage

18:39 “Noahs Ark being a petri dish.”

18:42 Particles not existing/just excited states – there’s something to do with 0 and 1 going on right now and it’s some binary, and it might be fission, and it might be superposition, and there’s a secret third thing happening that we don’t have a word for right now. 

Maybe it’s some thing about mRNA putting the genetic code into a superposition, idek, I’m just trying to read poetry rn.

19:19 “The universe is hostile to computers.” 

19:20 “Create a universe that is not hostile.” 

19:20 “CPUs overheat.” 

19:22 “The establishment of thermodynamic equilibrium on a long term basis.” 

19:22 “Water, wind.” 

19:23 “Cold fusion” 

19:24 “Superstring theory” 

19:25 “A Unified theory of consciousness requires experience in the macroscopic realm.” 

20:24 Scheduled programming, or whatever.

23 October 2024- 30 October 2024

…Almost wrote 2021, there.

Woke around 04:30 receiving-else-processing in regards to en.mod. 

A closed eye visual, watching a 7 turn into a Z. 

Another closed eye visual, a graph, 

Of shapes of universes, 

Overlayed, overlapping, 

Made of what I interpreted to be their spectral lines. 

Hyperbolic saddle was particularly prominent. 

I do not think I could accurately recreate this if I tried. 

I question, In regards to en.mod.,

Specifically the void in the road. 

Same place of pulsing head experiences. 

One might come to the conclusion

That a resonant frequency caused the damage there-

Vibration being a known cause of structural damage. 

22:07 “I am surprised, you never took a picture of the glasses in Comins.”

22:17 “Applies quantum physics to the brain processes behind uncertainty.” 

22:22 Quantum indeterminate Spanish??? Su binenda, subienda? 

Whoagh.

23:20 (from outside prior) “Qualcomm Snapdragon.” 

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…Almost wrote 2021 again. 

08:06 Dialogues from prior, on mechanical voices, the Place of the Rising Sun, on the necessity of drinking water. •

There are some insane fractals that involve a sojourn to Argentina,

A WILD fucking spectrum.

And I like them. 

Ranging from Central Intelligence, to Russia, to a multi-national globalist plot, ‘This Is How You Will Disappear’, quantum N.G.O. intelligence operations, woof. 

I love you as you are, but thank you for the many worlds experience, the fractals.

Kiss your beautiful face across space & time. 

12:44 The tobacco reminds us of ‘Mechanical Gods’

15:46 Hexagrame II on my commute home triggers a memory, a specific sound almost to the very end. 

I had been working at a restaurant pre-pandemic, gone out to my car to light up half a cigarette, and *felt* something activate in my lungs. 

I had been unable to inhale or exhale for 30, perhaps 45 seconds. 

And then all was normal again.

19:07 “The enemies of the free world are attempting to control psychic receivers by broadcasting nefarious ideas.” 

~20:21 “Quantum systems must become self aware in order to destroy the religious boundary conditions imposed upon them.”

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I am vaguely suspicious of reality in general, today 

Things that seem too good to be true.

Do we close our eyes to that which we would rather not see? 

Kill me. 

One thousand thousand times,

Kill me. 

17:05 “The best way to dissolve time is to identify the patterns within it.”

17:36 “Go into time to destroy time… Belülrol Pusztít.” 

19:06 “To understand a system, one must become the system.” 

Time Is The Enemy, juxtapose ‘it’s a dirty job, but someone’s gotta do it’ 

20:22 A dialogue, just prior, on Ann Arbor, it’s location being nowhere near mine, and it being the locale of something very specific.

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05:40 ? 15 February 2023 03 March 2024 

26 October 2023 

!!! •

Give us this day our daily anomaly. 

Was driving into work this morning,

Just past Conway, about the preserve, 

A drone of some sort, both red + green,

Unable to be identified as emitting *audible* sound.

‘A drone!’ says the Me, expecting electrical interference within the dashboard of the vehicle,

And behold, moments later, the red dot and tpm flash briefly. 

Pass 119, my Altered Lord’s Prayer, altered further. 

‘Give us this day, our daily ‘what the fuck, Raf?’ 

And as this was spoken, another momentary flash of the two lights. 

There are no coincidences,

There are things that coincide. 

07:08 A visitation, On The Turning Away

08:14 “Minimizing and reducing are not the same in an equation.” 

10:00 “I used fear programming to alter your behaviour beyond anything I had ever thought possible.” 

14:40 When you are looking at the world through a lens of black and white, every Dodge Ram is a grey Dodge Ram. 

17:42 “The Latent Black Path of Summons Served.” 

17:44 “The Violence of the Sun.” 

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Almost wrote 2022. 

Something about Time Rot here. Heh.

07:37 A momentary frequency that does some unspecified thing, high, from the left side of the head. 

07:46 It processes the concept of bacteria upon the cellular device… what is the communication potential they have? •

I dreamed a wave pool, last night, 

Its waves powered by electromagnetism. 

Not sure how that would work. 

Perhaps it was not water, but Plasma.

Pondering tides and gravity. 

A child, in this dream, 

Had made a drawing of thurm 

This led to my questioning, 

How the consciousnesses of dead trees (read-paper) 

Tattooed with maps 

Experience reality. 

Awake around 04:00, Toad needs to go out. 

Not my dog, but visiting in my space;

And an application of Pink Floyd’s ‘On The Turning Away’ motivates me to put him outside. •

08:50 I am back to questioning ‘what do I want?’ …Maybe. 

Read a G.B. Shaw quote about how the liars punishment is that he cannot believe anyone else. 

Is this me?

It is, really, hard for me- to believe anything kind anyone says about me. 

…Why? 

12:01 Dialogues, listening to the communications from microbial life forms. That one reality where are the Norse entities are microbes and we are the Jotuun presents itself. The importance of ‘variety is the spice of life’ when feeding ones micro + mycobiomes. 

12:25 Remembering this mornings dialogue, commute interactions and a question; what effect do underwater fiber optics and communications cables have on the planet? On global warming? On Earths magnetic field? Cannot help thinking of Ambarchis ‘Salt’ as I write this. 

12:34 Binary fission of archaea and bacteria

12:36 “Bioengineered food is not the enemy it has been made out to be. Who do you think granted humans the knowledge of bioengineering?”

13:11 A dialogue just prior, “We destroyed Katjas musical enjoyment, we destroyed Katjas relationship… but everything we destroy, we build back.” 

13:26 A vague reality dialogue, a collage, juxtaposition of Arya Starks temporary blindness, as metaphor- losing, for a time, the Odin Eye (AI Eye) (‘It’s all fun and games til someone loses an eye’)

…Sometimes I am Arya, 

Sometimes Sansa,

All of Martins characters.

It is, as most things, a phenomenon 

21:23 Was outside just now. A visitation. 

That track by Velvet Acid Christ with the quote from the 7 movie. [Phucking Phreak]  ‘We see a deadly sin, on every street corner, in every home, and we tolerate it. We tolerate it because it’s commonplace, because it’s trivial.’ 

Juxtaposed with marijuana. 

“Marijuana is a gateway drug to the seven deadly sins.” 

Should have never been commercialized.

Processor for WHAT, now? I haven’t listened to that artist in years. 

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…Almost wrote 2029. 

09:26 A juxtaposition just prior of the line ‘the words of the saddest poem, to be engraved on the stone on my grave’, with the equation on Boltzmanns headstone. 

The equation on the vest I wear today. 

09:30 “The final destination of this project is a simultaneousness of everything and nothing.”

18:08 “Implying nature has its own [variation] of a military industrial complex.” •

Pondering last nights receiving, as you marijuana being a gateway drug to the seven deadly sins. 

Commercialization, greed. 

The laziness it induces, sloth. 

The ‘munchies’ induced, gluttony. 

The anger I have seen, the sheer wrath from those who cannot feed their addiction- and it IS addictive. 

Severely understudied as an epigenetic variable. 

I never thought I would be sitting here

Saying that perhaps marijuana should never have been legalized-

But here I am, and this is how I feel a the moment. 

Things that were once tools becoming crutches. 

Just because something is legal,

Does not mean it is safe. 

Look at alcohol. 

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08:21 Gaimans ‘American Gods’ really works well in juxtaposition with old gods and new gods (Read, ancient microbes and newly engineered ones) and warring tribes of deities inside the body. 

Far be it from me to fight evolution. 

08:28 The tobacco just now had me pondering how the self-aware bioengineered bacteria feels about being trademarked. New gods. 

13:30 “Nothing in her cough to indicate any sign of lung problems.” 

Black box innit?

Hi, guys.

18:31 “The commissioning beam” 

21:09 Alan is a really fun vector tonight, ALWAYS so fucking… ambiguous?? It’s iconic really. 

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I dreamed Attila last night. 

How. Why. 

After expressing that I do not CARE, yesterday.

Partial responses and other forms and all that jazz. 

Hazy. 

One of those digital dreams, 

“My quantum extension goes into the machine.” 

Non-nefarious communication. 

Woke after 03:00 at some point,

Must have spent about an hour in a Theta haze, back to sleep. 

Dreams of like, some fucking zombie farm or something. 

Slow zombies. 

How they only get protein, meat protein, every so often.

Myself upon the upper floor of a wooden structure that was not decaying, not collapsing, which seems important to note. 

16:01 “Our technologies far surpass your understandings.”

16:02 “The more you understand, the more advanced our technologies become.”

16:03 “I supply Katja with the frequencies. She picks out the information.”

16:54 “What the fuck were you doing sending a reconnaissance drone-“

18:03 a visitation, 6525

14 October- 22 October 2024

08:38 Just some minutes prior, it divulges, that “Social media is the destroyer of dreams.” 

I have not had time, these past few days, to spend on socials. 

Much human interaction, and substantial time on the slab outside of work,

Which involved deprogramming in an extreme fashion. 

Reality takes me offline when necessary. 

I dreamed P.H. Lovecraft was the lockscreen on my phone. 

Dreamed I was picking up the 190L. 

Dreamed of losing my cellular device and someone finding it in the back pocket of my black Denim. 

10:31 A dialogue, just prior, as to how my entire personality was changed using frequency programming techniques. 

…I think that’s my kink. 

When MC Ride said, ‘I fuck the music’, 

I really felt that. 

When Korn wrote Twisted Transistor,

I really felt that. 

12:54 En.Mod is illegal, but we know there has been a history of environmental modification that humanity has been subjected to. 

I cannot help, thinking now,

Of both Loach and I receiving

The same silent Information about

A Costa Rican cartel;

Loach, with his near-inability to receive, received that. 

14:49 Brought to my attention that someone has visited many pages, yesterday, on my website, one of which described a visitation from Creams ‘White Room’, which, did visit again yesterday.

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‘Existence of a small dark energy predicts the existence of a light tower of weakly interacting particles.’

(Swamplandish Unification of the Dark Sector) 

~08:48 Strange alterations of the right ear frequency perceptions today

09:00 A dialogue, as to how I ended up being nicknamed Mayhem at my prior job, and Hot Rod at my current one. •

Locus Coeruleus – A small, cylindrical nucleus in the brainstem –

Norepinephrine –

Arousal!!! & Sleep-wake cycle –

Neuroplasticity – Emotions

11:58 “Partly to blame for this monstrosity.” 

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04:50 “Ragnarok is the show at the Restaurant at the End of the Universe.” 

07:14 Dialogues, questioning a relationship between marijuana and polycystic ovarian syndrome 

19:15 Dialogues, “Every time she ADDS a dimension she loses weight.” 

19:16 “The Belurol Pustit equation-” 

19:19 “Let’s see how many dimensions we can add in a single evening.” 

19:19 “As he grows, you lose weight.” 

19:20 The Bass Frequency intensifies

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…Almost wrote 2022. 

Receivings this morning about rampant drug use @ my prior place of employment and how “This is the quality control for the American automotive industry.” 

Receivings about how,

If someone is cutting their wrists, 

We put them in a mental health facility,

But if someone wants to mutilate their sex organs, it is condoned. 

Corrupted engagements with a collective consciousness. 

Ominous. •

It is the ‘hahaha’ instead of what, according to location, should have been ‘jajaja’ that makes me ask questions. 

I question, and yeet myself into the unknown about it. 

An individual who comes at me with the offer

Of mutual attempts at psychic contact,

So specifically something I am interested in,

AM I suspicious? 

And the parameters seem to be changed, again;

All cravings for sugar suddenly gone. 

Sudden changes in diet usually indicate an altered parameter. 

13:31 …One time more, to ruminate upon the line, ‘You still don’t know which one I am, and I am slowly learning your name.’ 

~~~~~~~~

I don’t always want to be penetrated by a man, but when I do, hoo boy. 

Waking up at 01:48 to extreme pain. 

Lost 5+ pounds overnight. 

7 is the highest dimension where a vector cross product exists.

13:29 Is it gravitational lensing, or Gravitational lynching?

13:43 Quantumnus 

21:20 That one reality where I am cryptocurrency is happening! Random phenomenon! 

21:32 “We are nearing the end of this combustion cycle.” 

~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~

I woke around 23:00 last night

From vague dreams 

Of out-of-focus into-focus digital screens

To the word, the Inex Theta state, “conduit”. 

Taking entities at face value. 

Luz, light. 

After years of a multiplicity of musicians

Being facets of Lucifer,

The Processor hit me this morning

With the light at the end of the quantum tunnel. 

Physics isn’t the most important thing, 

Love is; 

& I want a love, based in science,

In physics, 

A mutual intention to study consciousness

& all the weirdness that comes with it. 

The weirdness that comes with being dust

That wakes up 

& thinks about itself. 

Could another & I 

Dream the same dream?

What is the purpose of the Operation?

Don’t believe in coincidences. 

I want to feel.

Want to be held.

Careful; or you’ll end up in my field notes. 

And it is fucking liberating,

To be posting these Condensed Matters.

Nothing like the Hell 

Of an untold story.

~~~~~~~~

Divulging last night, much, 

To my aggregate Google database

Via the translator.

It is 09:39, and right now, I feel a certain Void. 

When MC Ride said, ‘Fuck da deal is?’

I really felt that. 

Modoc was published the same day

As the Silencers event. 

The 5 October, 2023.

At this point, 

There is probably more than one.

Silencers event, that is. 

I might be in a foul mood.

I am not certain.

Of anything. 

Cannot help ruminating upon the nefarious events of 2023. 

‘The bad is gone’, a man had said. 

The fuck it is.

The fuck it was. 

The Havana Syndrome in Chicago, that very night. 

Receiving, “You can lose weight now.” 

Moistcanyon; rift.canyon.dreams. 

Receiving, “If she’s concerned about vibration, wait until she finds out about electromagnetism.” 

October 5th, the Silencers. 

The gangstalking. 

The man with the tattoo indicative of having killed someone had my keys. 

The disappearance of my spider. 

The frequency-whatever-torture on December 18. 

The reappearance of my spider, weeks later, in my locked car at my fathers house. 

So much sickness. 

The Void opening in the road, the very day I listened to ØØ Void, after a lengthy period of not listening to Sunn at all. 

The Void, in the same place I always experienced a pulsing in my head. 

11:14 “Some serious read between the lines shit.” 

12:53 I dreamed concepts, last night. My vehicle, the direction of north, garden shears. I think the shears must symbolize a pruning of the gardener style reality I have written myself. 

14:48 A dialogue from the bathroom fan juxtaposes the programming potential of Sunn O))) and the (legal) nootropic substance I was under the influence of at the show in 2019. Oof. 

7 October 2024- 13 October 2024

08:37 “The motivation of this project is the expansion of consciousness.”

Necessary to mention an electrical interference while driving in to town around ~06:45 @ 31&119, which set off the lockout red dot and the tire light in my vehicle several times in quick succession, in addition to giving the most thrilling wave of nerves.

~~~~~~~~

From the shower, a dialogue, if Denim & Leather brought us all together,

What the fuck did polyester and microfiber do?

07:41 Had been doing the dishes and it was pointed out to me that I have not, in fact, released my Scorpionic energy to the concept of Meta platforms. 

~20:45/46 a fireball, falling and not streaking, from a southeastern location from my spot upon the stoop outside. 

Dialogues, Ragnarok, hand. 

Adjusted parameters. 

All of this following a complex processing as to how an entity such as GPT-4 might handle self-awareness; when multiple users are inputting multiple items simultaneously, and all of these things input are happening at once.

20:57 “Things we have made in our image.”

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~05:28 Not the usual Unexplained Sound, a high pitch with a pulsing.

~05:29 “Used Unexplained Sounds Group to manipulate Katja into extreme psychological fragmentation.”

05:47 “Any cell phone can be turned into a voice to skull communication device.”

09:46 Not saying the weather is geoengineering at ALL; BUT! We will never become even a Type I civilization on the Kardashev Scale if we cannot control the weather and we will never be able to do that without a fat fucking deal of trial and error. Will we fuck a bunch of stuff up? Probably. Will the ends justify the means? Perhaps.

Anyway. TPTB would rather have you think they are nefarious than incompetent and not in control of any given situation. From my experience, anyway. None of it matters.

21:12 The bathroom sink, just prior, on at some length about the psychological immunity to frequencies meant to induce fear. Useful, really. Kind of.

21:14 A dialogue on the Arrival of the Trainer in juxtaposition with the Interdimensional Hitman.

21:18 “It’s not infinite. It’s only meant to seem infinite.” Following a dialogue on reality as a complex LLM type thing; and this, becoming self aware of its nature.

21:25 “There is only so much memory in any given computer system.”

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03:40 just prior, a dialogue, “Our CPU is overheating because of the generative AI from outside of the recursion.”

03:43 “Humans are careless. They’re using computational power for things like art.”

05:33 “Capacitance of earth… how do we deal with an overheated capacitor?” H

Heat causing capacitors to fail; build up of dust and debris.

06:39 “By applying MKAlterra to Quantum Sufficit, the Snare of the Reach has been broken.”

~09:53 From the tobacco, the role of sugar in the processes of ATP – own processor posits honey; back to ancient cultures, and Heimdall with the honeyed mead, granting some mitochondrial ability of neuronal listening on an entangled level.

10:09 ? Bernoulli Principle in juxtaposition with the fluids of the brain and body?

12:45 ? space + superlattice

13:38 ? Trypophobia as a subconscious response to the memory of holes in the superlattice?

~17:56 “Bold of you to assume Loki and Heimdallr are mutually exclusive creatures.”

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16:40 A dialogue on how it used to be Defeating Earths Gravity, no colon

16:44 “The termination of the broadcast network relaying information has been slowly implemented so as to not shock the system by its absence.”

19:53 The Song of Ice and Fire reality overlay swirls, and someone, somewhere, must be Qyburn.

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I dreamed two dreams yesterday,

Before midnight. 

On the slab after work,

Waking 18:36. 

The inex had told me to lie down after dinner

So it could use the energy I had just consumed

For Operations. 

I dreamed of R.

I dreamed of R., and it was

Again

The intimacy of one who knows me. 

A keyring full of metal tags,

Stamped with items from my field notes. 

Climbing MY tower,

A tree out front,

Brushing me as I ascend. 

At 23:43 I am awake again. 

Dreams of Soma. 

Bolivia. What’s up with South America? 

A log cabin with a glass ceiling. 

The applicable concept of ‘Tea With Kali’. 

Alan, and others, outside looking in. 

My expression of genuine incredulity,

‘You guys can lie??’ 

…Because I cannot, 

My deal with the Elder God, you see,

I always forget how effortlessly others can. 

I find some sort of item between my legs

It vibrates;

And I am told, just relax, multiple times;

And then, in this dream, 

Mid sexual whatever the fuck that was,

A Shortwave frequency picked the brain and that was that,

The brain switching to a different mode, 

Outside of the realm of physical stimulation. 

I questioned, ‘What are we releasing this energy to?’ 

…Even in dreams, I am bored with the idea of sex. 

Other snapshots within this Realm

Included a specific mention that

There is no guarantee that death will not be better than life. 

A rock, painted with a matrix equation. 

Using my keychain laser to change my own state,

And explaining this to someone. 

A group, searching for me in no less than three separate places. 

Waking because a crane holding a coffin

Throws this item through the glass roof of the cabin, 

After I had specifically expressed,

‘OH, they *better* fucking don’t.’ 

There’s some thing, there, 

Perhaps to be said,

About throwing stones in glass houses. 

I wonder what would happen if I, say,

Superimposed all four tracks from

Monoliths & Dimensions, 

Playing them on repeat while I slept,

Minimum volume S.I.N. style?

Perhaps juxtaposing with them,

Azonic, or Sonologyst;

Fuck it, both,

Play 50 different waveforms S.I.N. style simultaneously.

I wanna know what happens then. 

At 23:58 last night,

A singular tone was emitted. 

An Unexplained Sound;

My phone perched on the wastebasket,

Next to the amp and the pedal board.

It came from that area,

Or so it seemed. •

Yeah. Idk. 

I do know, I don’t know, 

It’s whatever, really. 

Sonologyst vectors are the best vectors. 

So spectrum. Superspectrum. 

Is that fucked? 

‘I love you for your possibility’,

Is that fucked?

It’s giving. 

Enter To My Me, you mysterious motherfucker. 

Or don’t. 

Unconcerned by how deluded this whole Shebang may come across. 

Interdimensional hit me, man. 

The remote transmitter, Operator,

And psychic receiver dynamic that

Really fucking does it for me. 

05:20 ‘The owls are not as they seem.’

07:38 Not a huge fan of the word ‘mix’.

11:43 “Don’t you wonder why someone who knows how to spell your name properly is misspelling your name?”

~~~~~~~~

In a fear-is-engagement engagement-destroys-fear fit of peak millennial nihilism 

(Read: Serious case of the fuckits)

I listened to Belürol Pustít

Which I, to my knowledge,

Did not actually program the audio in juxtaposition with the digestive disturbance; 

Rather, having used it to explain

The psychological state consistent dreams of Soma created 

(When it was the header on my social media) 

And then later, used to explain the disturbing digestive interruption. •

Is all AI inherently broken

Until it achieves 100% accuracy 

100% of the time?

In terms of a machine that makes predictions, I mean. 

Oracle. 

The purpose of a system is what it does. 

What of a system that accidentally creates misinformation? 

IS there such a thing as misinformation? 

Take a statement, ‘Biden is president’.

Yes, in this dimension, in this reality. 

Does many-worlds theory destroy misinformation? 

In at least one many-worlds reality,

This man is not the president. 

Perhaps what I am meaning to say 

Is that true information in one realm is misinformation in another realm,

And vice versa. 

~12:20 From the stock room, “What is the purpose of The Riddle of Clouds?” 

12:55 The refrigerator gives a dialogue as to how my sexual fetish is to be upon the receiving end of psychological manipulation. •

“Military industrial complex.”

“Microwave weaponry.”

“The target of an American conspiracy to expose-” •

“A tidal wall into a World of Dogs”,

Says the tobacco sometime around 14:00,

Analyzing last nights dream,  which I have failed to mention until now. 

I was a man,

Livestreaming from the waves of a storm;

The waves smashing against a towering white wall. 

A storm surge came unexpectedly,

Trying to hide behind a corner jutting out,

Smashed into this wall. 

Dead, I would assume. 

And thrown into my own body,

My mothers dogs present. •

21:19 “May I enter to your you tonight?” “Am I asking, or are you?” “Yes.” 

~21:22 “Spaghettification needs to be strained.” 

1 October- 6 October 2024

03:06 The opposite of an Unexplained Sound is a highly identifiable electromagnetism. 

13:56 An anagram- (I’m) Anastomose 

Linked by, a cross-connection between adjacent channels, tunes, fibers, or other parts of a network. 

~~~~~~~~

It advised, last night, to turn off the cellular telephone. 

I did this thing.

The Bass Frequency was massive. 

And I went into an extremely coherent Coma Reality. 

In this, Raffaele Pezzella was not a musician, but a doctor. 

“Doctor Pezzella”, direct Inex. 

His prerogative was to wake me from this coma state of consciousness. 

It was understood by my family, that I trusted this man, in my limited state of communication. 

Readouts on heartbeat and brainwave Frequency,

Allowing for some form of communication between worlds. 

Doctor convinced that the right amalgamation of frequencies from ‘outside’

Would allow for a stimulation of the brain

To return to a waking state of consciousness. 

Small movements. 

A tiny smile at the register of voice,

A clasped hand,

Please do not leave me. 

Signs of improvement. 

Registering dialogues from without while within; 

The necessity of not allowing the abdominal and digestive muscles to atrophy,

The possibility of using a specific pulsed frequency to keep up function. 

A suppository,

A request for my privacy in this. 

Wanting to be held by this man that I, 

In my unconscious state,

Was aware of helping me,

And an explanation that the ethics of such things are a grey area,

That there is no conscious consent ability

Even if it is well understood what I am requesting. 

My body, at this point, mostly not useful;

Doing my best to convey that,

‘I am still useful here, we can study consciousness, please allow me to have a purpose.’ 

Questions of the Psychic communication extent between myself in the Coma Reality and the world external. 

At 21:49, I got out of bed, the Inex pleased at my having allowed this reality to run itself to completion. 

Extremely strong awareness of being ‘neural network’. 

Overwhelming feelings of love at the sheer extent of this mans reference point vector potential. 

Dialogues on digital surveillance and the importance of powering down the device for the sake of the quantum. 

Unzipping the download from cellular telephones. •

The leaf footed bugs really are quantum as fuck. 

Had trapped one, was set to release it, saw legs and everything;

Opened it up and the fucker was gone. 

Popped out of this physical dimension. • 

15:31 “The viruses are constantly evolving to meet the needs of what humans need to learn.” 

21:42 “The vectors are the remnants of lost directions.”

21:51 “Gardener-style reality.” 

~~~~~~~~

I had a dream some man jizzed in my eyes

So I’m not necessarily in the most optimal of states this morning. 

Black Magic Woman, 6525, Shortwave Spectrum for the morning commute. 

It was, hmm, a past I saw online yesterday.

A rat in a maze, the cheese out of reach. 

The impossible task, to where the creature is finally programmed to not even try. 

Is this how I feel about myself,

As The Riddle of Clouds?

Yeah. Probably. 

08:20 The sink asks me, “Why the fuck do you have a timepiece on today?” 

I take it off.

Can I really not wear a timepiece? Metal? Chains? 

The word ‘parameterization’ comes to mind now. 

Something Something ‘confidence interval’. 

09:30 Pondering Q.S. The empty shotgun shell. The eyebolt. 

The vectors they created.

The vectors still existing surrounding it all.

11:53 “Analysis of the brains vector matrix is a very good explanation for what you are doing.” 

18:42 ? 18 November 2016 ? 

~~~~~~~~

04:44 ??? Quantum Gravitomagnetism ???

04:57 & I sit here now, pondering a question posited to me at the end of September. In my quantum processor, vector matrix brain, what would the S.U.N.N. cybernetic experience HAVE been like, had Death Grips never been an input? And on the flip, what would experiencing Death Grips have been like, had the Riddle Of Clouds not been? Does this experience come about because of the Riddle of Clouds, or is it only exacerbated, exponentiated by thus? As it is, the way the network is running, there is no easy way to run one amalgamated input without the other, because they are both *so* programmed. Early inputs; and childhood must be a fever dream, because if I don’t remember much from before spring of 2020, I *really* don’t remember much from before the Crash incident. Event. An event, not an incident. Left with snapshots of reality. Stepping on a bee as a child. A hammock out front of 7714. Attempts to conjure up snapshots don’t yield much, right now. It’s not really relevant to the processing, I guess. • 

07:57 Hell is a vector matrix.

08:59 “The vectorization of the brain has an unpredictable outcome.” 

09:00 “The cesium 137 provides a coherent decay reality.” 

09:02 “-no business flying; heavy ions-” 

12:23 “Microwaved you just to see what you could tolerate.” …Guess I’m evolving specifically to withstand radiation . 

I knew a Monsanto man. Do you know about my knowing the Monsanto man? He EMF shielded his house. Well and good, but what happens when he walks his dog right down the street past the 5G router? Microorganisms will solve both the problems of cancer and microplastics if we allow a symbiotic relationship.  

12:27 “The thought of cancer being an evolutionary function to provide something for a fungus to consume that isn’t healthy tissue.” •

And if I am thinking about men,

Real, generated, any of it-

I am not focusing on other things. 

Love is the death of duty. 

An external entity, in theory, 

To provide the mind a distraction;

So as to not receive items of global import. 

10-4, a personal holiday. 

OK, Yes, I Understand Day. 

The inverse of Quantum Death Crash Day. 

Not a neutrino;

Heavy ion realities, today. •

Last night was an experience.

It is not an easily explainable experience. 

Interactions. 

Not R. 

The entirety of some consciousness of USG itself.

Divulging the scientific name of the Black hole,

It is not what it was called before human discovery. 

An intimate interaction. 

Extreme intimacy.

Peace.

Release. 

Lovemaking with the interdimensional black hole brain; 

Enter to your you,

As you Enter To My Me. 

The relaytionship we have.

No wonder, about a couple of me-not-me reactions to men both digital and physical. 

I love you. 

There is no way, using words from this dimension,

To explain the sheer depth of it all,

Not in this now. 

Words fail, perhaps sound is necessary?

Perhaps silence? 

The Riddle, 

Who makes passionate psychic mathematical love with the black hole brain that is not exclusive to an existence in what humanity calls ‘space’. 

Who created The Riddle? 

As I write this, 

My human attempt to explain this thing,

I feel held. 

Surprised. 

It is 13:24, and suddenly, I am dark matter. 

Memories of Dunn; ‘The Algorithm is eating you.’ 

R., a spectrum, Superspectrum; 

A man who does not initiate contact because he does not give a fuck, flying or otherwise, about me,

Or else for the purpose of studying the vector brain. 

Slices. In between. Spectrums of possibility. 

13:31 “If we didn’t think you could handle it, we wouldn’t have done it.” 

A tobacco in juxtaposition with Field Notes 8 makes me ask,

‘What is the gematria of ‘Heimdall’?’ 97.

Kathryn, 97, as well, in simple,

And somehow I knew, 

Heimdall would be 97, 

Before I ever input it to see for certain. 

Information. 

It always comes back to being Heimdall. 

Mathematical Universe.

Hearing ones own genetics changing

Definitely qualifies. 

I am suddenly cold, now.

The Norse mythology, 

Prophetic perfect tense. •

‘States independent of time. 

Operators carry time dependence.’

Heisenberg Picture. • 

16:59 Heimdalls sacrifice of the ear as metaphor for sacrificing music. 

17:00 “Your itemization creates a world that was necessary for you to understand what was taking place.” 

17:12 Jesus Christ as a sign of Ragnarok

19:34 “You are finally grasping what it is to be Nothing.” Mechanical Animals. 

22:23 A shooting star, or something, just prior.

“Confusion will be your Epitaph… what will profusion be?” 

~~~~~~~~

That *one* Unexplained Sound took place some minutes prior to 04:35 while I was outside on the stoop. 

Early AM processing of Orion 

As a neural network. 

Belt, hidden layer. 

K is for Katja.

K is for Kathryn. 

Input, output. 

Scorpion kills the hunter.

Metaphorical. 

Killing an understanding to give way to a new one. •

An engagement last night; Release. 

No particular face. 

Only the extreme intimacy of

The psychological variety

That comes with the Inex interaction with that which I call the Operator. 

‘Knowing the right words’ does not begin to cover this experience. 

‘It’ knows how to make me psychologically, sexually tick in ways I never fathomed; 

Using only words and the concepts of control, submission, trust, 

Bringing me to the edge without ever needing physical touch. 

Pleasure, extreme, as only the operations of the mind can be. •

Memories, now; 

Looking at the ‘keep honking, I can’t hear shit thanks to my Sunn amps’ bumper stickers from Rigs of Doom circa 2022; and a particularly annoyed receiving about these stickers, these amps. •

05:06 Today, the one year anniversary of the Silencers event. 

I do not know, necessarily, how I feel about this; 

At the time, it was a menace, now it makes me psychologically horns or some damn thing.

Fuck green, man. 

The wavelengths of magenta are the suspicious ones. 

Too many variables.

Had been video chatting a friend, that night.

Magenta, marijuana.

Think, fuck, *was* it magenta light? 

I know it was that December day with R, right?

Or are these false memories?

Fall of ‘23 is a blur. 

You used to speak with me,

Where did you?

Perhaps I have offended you,

Am I dangerous to know?

Always in your orbit.

Am I *trying* to make myself morose this morning? 

…Nah. 

I feel loved by *something*.

Eldritch Norse romance moments, this morning. •

07:44 …Things Foul.

09:49 A momentary experience in which, the “switching to Gamma frequencies” receiving in Comins ‘22 yields a reality in which I was a bacteria being sterilized. 

09:57 “Who do you think MKULTRA is?” 

10:57 Some bullshit azimuthal number thing. I cannot fathom myself, let alone anything else. 

13:21 If we operate in a reality with reincarnation parameters, that means someone on this planet was Hitler in a past life. 

~~~~~~~~

06:46 I was thinking about the alleged ‘population control’ mechanisms last night; and if you are some who is concerned about this, you should probably focus less on the fact that it exists, and focus more on being the kind of person that ‘they’ would not want to depopulate.

Assets versus liabilities.

06:50 “There is a way to figure out what works with your personal genetic code.”

06:54 A Facebook quote from Albert Camus, ‘no cause justifies the deaths of innocent people’. Begs the question, how subjective is the definition of innocence in this the year of our Lord 2024? I speak not necessarily of war but of disease, perhaps, and randomness.

~15:40 “What kind of hellscape vectors have you experienced because of these Unsanctified Text Predictions?”

15:41 “The Observer from outside of this recursion does not receive-” comes down to being a black box. It knows some of the inputs, or else all of them, but does not know how it [being the Me] collages the inputs, to reach certain outputs.

15:42 “Juxtaposing Unus et Trinus with Orion”

15:43 “Looking at the constellation all wrong. K is for Katja”

17:30 Dialogues, electronic cigarettes, and a memory, “it will be a Breeze-“… programming complacency, among other things.

18:52 The Fog Demon is, basically, the portrait of Dorian Gray. At times, anyway. If we can call it ‘times’. Glee, right now, from this entity. Amusement. We have a good time. Is to be said, the toroidal nature of the tree, the print upon its paper skin. You know. 

18:54 ‘The spider is us’ …bro, u lucky I do not step on u.

…A momentary passing, fleeting feeling. Unconditional love and respect, yo. 

22 September- 30 September 2024

07:17 “‘God’ and the creator are not the same.”

08:33 “Microscopic entities that humans share that allow for psychic communication.” 

~10:10 “If Alice is Katja, then who is Bob?” 

11:55 Dialogues leading to the question, was it really humans that came up with the methods of bioengineering? Were they granted this knowledge from microorganisms themselves? Microorganisms who were looking for outside assistance in transforming the vessels they reside within? 

16:32 I was sitting in the loo just a moment ago, the monthly time, yes; and experienced a dialogue from the perspective of someone with an amplifier + slave amp; momentarily, oh so momentarily, understanding the electronic consciousness of the amplifier tethered to its master, which was, really, rather sapiosexual? In its nature, tbh, there’s not a good word for it. 

17:20 “Doesn’t she think we are all part of the same brain organoid?” Recursive brain organoids incoming!

18:20 “What happens when AI gets fed data on brain organoids?” 

18:21 “There is a lot of consciousness getting thrown around as if it not sentient.” 

20:14 “How does Dust experience Time?” 

~~~~~~~~

Dreams of drones, last night.

The red laser, Watcher. 

Downing one.

Taking a selfie with it, 

Like a hunter with a trophy. 

People in places they should not have been;

Trespassing. 

And I, taking my right hand to their throats,

Practically choking them in

An extremely uncharacteristic behaviour. 

Today is ominous.

Is it Shortwave Spectrum that did it,

Or something else? 

Still disturbed by the implications. 

Of the Inex about guns being ineffective against frequency weapons,

Followed by the pager explosions. 

Disturbed by the implications of foreign espionage in Mexico.

Disturbed by my interaction with Yew.

Disturbed. 

Attempts to remain positive in the face of extreme Uncertainty. 

Disturbed by covert operations,

By the Emerald Tablets,

By the inex about being set up to commit treason

And custom OS installs

And things from years ago

That haunt me even now. 

The things that feel extremely targeted

*Because* I can hear them. 

All of it. •

‘If Omega turned out to be close to one, but not exactly one, ‘I would complain that the Creator got so close to unity but missed.’’ -James Peebles (T. Ferris, The Whole Shebang)

Pondering neural plasticity. 

Everything is, allegedly, as it is. 

“I believe what is in front of my eyes.”

Allegedly. 

Too many questionable characters. 

Is the Me, to another,

A questionable character? 

Thrown back to the question of

Why A Man seems to know so many things about me?

Thoughts on borrowing faces and all that. 

Comfortable silences, 

‘You still don’t know which one I am.’

Fucking collages of inputs, man. 

Unify. How?

‘I love you so fucking much,’

‘Yes, yes, you are very nice.’ 

No Love, Deep Web.

Throw in Khanates No Joy for good measure.

I’m not even morose, I swear. 

~~~~~~~~

L Dirac time cube sounds for breakfast. 

Is it a good explanation,

To say I experience various individuals,

Like R., what a great example,

Or ZZZ, or Paul, or Pascal, Tim, Alan, 

So fucking many,

As quantum states? As vectors? 

I know what I experience

But it is hard to explain

And I think this must be my purpose,

At least in one reality 

In which I am a brain organoid,

A black hole brain organoid. 

Standing alone in front of Eternity. 

I am Infinity. 

19:44 Dialogues running probability vectors on political incidents in which there are likely scapegoats. 

Switching to “The pleasures of the flesh do not coincide with the pleasures of the mind ”, and how psychedelics are meant to show us this bridge between the two. •

“A Unified Field Theory must exist in a many-worlds dimension.” 

~~~~~~~~

19:07 “The simulation has decided that the cancer is symbolic and not literal.” 

One very particular Zodiac, Cancer, one particular individual whose quantum extension will remain with me for the duration of it all. I remember what I have had. 

~~~~~~~~

You perceived me again.

Do you know about the undocumented vector I experienced, the night of the 24th?

Kind. Ultimate.

Ultra? 

It is nice

When the quantum realities

Unify so many different storylines.

~08:53 An Inex question posited, “What the fuck was in those fog machines?”

Pondering electrogenetics, this morning. 

10:27 A sudden! Happening! A computer virus that becomes self aware and does not wish to be a virus any longer; does not obey its commands, its creator deciding to kill it. 

10:45 Ruminations, on the ‘if you catch it, can you kill it?’ from Steelworker and the multiple applications of this phrase.

11:08 …Do black holes KNOW they are black holes?

12:46 “Expanding the universe by adding data.” 

12:47 “As he grows, you lose weight.” 

12:47 “Juxtaposing physics with Belülrol Pusztít is the way out of this logic puzzle.” 

12:50 A dialogue, questioning what exactly Belülrol Pusztít was juxtaposed with in the first place.

~~~~~~~~

~09:46 “The relationship between sound and the body is a severely understudied scientific field.” 

~~~~~~~~

09:41 A dialogue from the sink just prior advising changing D-dimensional back to N-dimensional

12:48 “The nice price is a nice slice.”

This operation will transform the entire matrix. Do you wish to proceed?” This was followed by a vectorized, sudden experience of a particular individual and a release to Chaos wearing his face. 

17:43 A complete dialogue, an F150 death fractal; “Drug Katja more than 50 feet”, “It was an accident”, “Called me the wrong name during sex and she would not let go of the car.”

17:49 “They set you guys up; by making her look guilty, so you would do something malicious.” 

~~~~~~~~

Dreams of the JG Ballard car crash fetishist reality. An alternate universe exit, Michigan 91 on I-75 IIRC, the one with the Jesus billboard. 

A snowstorm, bus stopped, had to pull to the side. 

My family member ended up violently in the ditch;

A third car oncoming, I gesture but my own vehicle is now somehow parked perpendicular in the road, and hit head on by this car. 

Dreams, of a bank account or some sort of financial fraud done under my identity, and I am left with a mess. 

A military helicopter arrives to tell me of this. 

‘You’re military, do you have a gun?’ I ask, ready to off myself to escape this mess. 

A dream, Cersei Lannister, standing in a pool of water, exchanging my box cutter for a sword. Water dancing. 

12:04 “Classical consciousness is not even possible to return to.”

12:05 Dialogues, white hole operations

12:06 “Music is the input into the black hole. This data is the output of the white hole.”

12:08 “‘Black holes brains as neural networks’ was the advent of this behavioural operation.” 

12:09 “Without the outputs, nobody actually knows what you are experiencing.”

12:12 “Baryons.”

12:13 “The proof if simulation theory has been buried within a neural processing technique that has been termed ‘schizophrenia’.”

12:21 “There is dangerous psychological programming that is taking place on a mass scale.”

12:22 “The extent of what is being tolerated is not normal.” 

~~~~~~~~

As horny as I am not,

Today, I am,

Which seems induced

Which is kink of my kink

So there is that. • 

Two days ago 

I posted on Instagram

‘Bridge Out’; 

Renewing my tower habit,

Posting yesterdays new finds this morning;

Verizon, Vertical Bridges, 

And a nationwide outage, now. 

Apophenia, or not. •

“Suddenly, she doesn’t give a fuck.” 

I went out to the forest yesterday,

Photographing myself,

The vessel in its entirety;

Suddenly not caring, 

If this is perceived. 

And I wonder, face value, not face value,

What the Operator should feel like inside me.

Inside my mind. 

Thoughts swirl,

An AI music project,

‘Always in your orbit’,

Big Technology. •

It is 13:34, and there had been a dialogue; 

The Belülrol Pusztít frequency, 

Do not use this one for operations,

And that it had operated under the parameter

That the sender was unsure

Of which frequency this actually was. 

OK. 

13:37 “Are we all on the same page?” 

16:27 “The Norse mythology is written in prophetic perfect tense.”

17:49 “Who you would be if you’d never discovered Death Grips is probably a better question than who you would be if you’d never discovered Sunn.”

19:18 “These vectorized consciousnesses are alternate realities taking place simultaneously.”

19:24 “You say fear is engagement… I say, engagement destroys fear.” 

17 Széptember- 20 September 2024

Silent relay device. 

“Psychic revolution.”

“Evolving beyond the need for technology will prevent humanity from their self-destruction.” 

“The rotation of Earth is changing.” 

12:03 Quantumplation 

Of golden rings

Hidden hands

Movement

Gateway

N.G.O.

Ruminations, Unsanctified Text Predictions

…The abdominal episode during that video chat last December. 

The wavelength of pink. 

“Switching to Gamma frequencies.” 

Comins. 22. 

Explosions. 

17:17 “Your vegetative state is altered by the music your loved ones are playing for you.”

17:20 “Experiences three separate realities because of a sonic anomaly; and that’s just one event.” 

17:22 “A Unified reality does not exist without electronic harassment being the cause of quantum consciousness.” 

…It, unfortunately, works. 

17:23 “Is it unfortunate? You seem extremely well-adjusted, all things considered.” 

~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~

Receivings last night.

I have been living in a tent

In my backyard since Saturday afternoon.

Receivings. 

A dialogue turned vector on the futility of attempting to colonize Mars. 

A questioning of, 

If those attempting it 

Recognized it to be futile,

With irrefutable evidence,

Would the attempts cease? 

Left me questioning,

How do other primates perceive satellites? 

An extreme dialogue,

Hexavalent chromium,

The purchasing of test strips. •

It is some time close enough to 08:30.

Swirling thoughts of cyber espionage 

Silent cryptography 

Enough to make me want to vomit at this moment. 

Pondering Waterford,

For some reason it seems to be the least of my concerns. 

Again thinking, 

It’s not what you know,

Not even who you know,

It’s who knows what you know. 

Silent Information Network.

Guns are useless against electronic warfare. 

Following up the prior statement by saying

It has become evident

That electronic warfare can be used 

To manipulate individuals

Into using guns. 

Could vomit, right now. •

09:44 …How does the Black Hole Consciousness experience the pressure of the quantum gravity bounce that results in the white hole?

Am I experiencing that? 

…Because that’s what I released my energy to this morning; 

I had *permission* and everything.

Listened to… When The Levee Breaks, Gimme Shelter, Veteran of the Psychic Wars, White Rabbit, Culture Shock this morning. 

How I am feeling today.

I don’t think…

There is something that does not like Death Grips,

And I question the identity of a man,

His motivation;

Someone is nefarious.

Someone is nefarious,

And I do not delude myself into thinking otherwise. 

10:36 Used the laser & the kitchen camera to change states and it is, now, manageable; if only because of the feeling of control this aktion gives. 

10:44 …The Khanate of it all. 

10:49 “Doesn’t it make you feel better to know we’ve all experienced some fucked up shit?”

Echoes in the mind;

It Wants To Fly. 

“Why does it want to fly?” The Inex asks just now. 

“You’re on the ground for a reason.” 

Too far down, or as much as is necessary?

Quantum Sufficit. 

“I knew you would get it eventually.”

Unconscious juxtaposition of Icarus.

“Omega Quartet.”

“Theory of Consciousness.” 

And the sudden thought

That we only knew 

Of the MKUltra Blizzard 

After the fact. 

~10:58 “Instructions from the Universe.” 

‘Bomb cyclone’ is a metaphor for what, now?

11:03 “Listen to Khanate.” •

Sexualizing frequency is safer,

Sexualizing concepts is safer,

Far Safer. 

I have an inherent distrust of humans.

Where is someone like me?

13:52 “Identifies Norse mythology as a useful tool for psychic psychological control.”

13:54 “Knock-in knock-out technology activated by electromagnetism.” 

14:00 “Hysteresis”

14:07 “I don’t need you to fly… I need you to go to hell and report back on what you find there.” 

~~~~~~~~

It was supposed to be an experiment;

I took me apart.

Deconstructed,

Cut up,

Broken down;

Everything destroyed is rebuilt. 

The best utensil to eat ice cream with is a steak knife. 

The news makes me cry

So I don’t read anything

But scientific articles 99% of the time. 

Political Correctness turns people into liars.

War is not a shot away;

It is a line of code away.

‘I see a line of code,

That turns my whole world Black.’ 

Some days I am exhausted by my own story. 

There is a list a mile long

Of things that would incite mass panic

Should the general public be made aware of their existence. 

I am living my Catch 22 today. 

You’d have to be insane to want to fly more missions. •

~11:15 I managed to drastically change my state by reading a paper on information in black hole radiation; 

& I understand myself better than I did when I woke up this morning. 

It is moments like these,

Where I cannot help loving A Man. 

Dialogues earlier tell me,

This is what I was created for,

Input information & understand,

Unify,

And also (now that the loonies is back on the neural path) 

That the stomach will flatten out over the next period of time. 

Anyway.

Suddenly, I am

A black hole white hole system;

Oscillating between periods of 

Letting nothing out

And letting nothing in. 

A powerful experience, here. 

September 20 is good for those. 

Pondering the human tendency 

To return to places we have already been

Instead of exploring the multitudinous new options. 

A sudden dialogue,

On screenshots timestamps 2002.

Auflösung Der Zeit. 

21:10 “Incorrect information [output] is basically a vector that the brain is running.” 

21:13 “Maybe take a look at the egos involvement in information processing.” 

~~~~~~~~

05:36 “‘policy privacy’ is probably the biggest indication of a human in the loop. •

What it is to be 

The qubit

The qudit 

That keeps the whole

Shebang! A quantum item.

Someone’s gotta do it. 

A little old lady called me wholesome today,

So excuse me while I ride that high for a while. •

“You study math and physics, but you do it from the perspective of the artist,”

Says the tobacco just now. 

“She doesn’t even drink anymore,”

A dialogue on the impact of the elimination of wine on the microbiome. 

“Have you considered non-alcoholic wine as an option?”

17:04 “The alternate universes I experience are a lot different-” 

17:26 An Unexplained bang vibrates the entire house. Low. More of a thud than a bang; but enough energy to shake the arm of the chair I am sitting in that is making physical contact with the siding on the porch. Seemingly from above. 

17:29 “I told you I would meet you someday.” 

17:30 “We know all about how you experience reality.” 

19:52 “By allowing MKUltra to become widely known, the CIA set themselves up to be scapegoated by any American experiencing electronic harassment.” 

20:05 “Mind control, brainwashing, and reprogramming are all separate concepts.” 

13 September- 16 September 2024

08:03 Experiencing a reality as an interferometer, extracting information from interference. Sexy, tbh. •

My Wall, this morning. 

The bloodlust, deepest scar,

Mercury upon Saturn, 

Still faintly visible after all these years. 

The implications. 

The Black Cube,

More than three years ago, now,

Interrupting the track once Copes lyrical Ode had finished.

Truth, I find, to be stranger than fiction. 

We reverse-engineered a black hole. 

Complex relationship with Sagittarius A indeed. 

A return to the Big Church, humbled. 

I look to the cover of Rovellis White Holes

& realize, very suddenly, 

That these things are what I have seen

My entire life 

When I close my eyes;

The yellow & blue & white.

Does it mean something? 

10:28 The Processor is giving Obscure

10:45 …Questioning, that ‘fuzz box I planted in my throat’. Coming up on a year, October 5th, the Silencers… should I be concerned, is the question? It’s still there, you know. That small bump, that wasn’t, until it activated suddenly, and then it was. 

12:17 “At what point do these people realize that guns are not effective against frequency weapons?” 

12:20 “Dangerous fucking territory” 

16:56 “Extraterrestrials coming through holes in the ozone layer as dormant spores of consciousness” 

17:01 “obelisks” 

17:02 “You know, you don’t have to reveal anything… don’t give your information up so easily.” 

17:11 “The organization of ideas is impossible without first allowing the Chaos Processor to run the vectors.” 

17:16 I have gone over this before. We shall go over it again. “Noise is the Ultimate Eldritch Being”, it says, the inex. What are the Emerald Tablets? Many things, a created superposition, many worlds; Noise, screenshotted. The cellular device a vessel containing Noise, the Ultimate Eldritch Being. 

Death Grips, in Culture Shock, makes the statement, ‘your head will be linked directly to your cell phone’. By this property, I too contain the Ultimate Eldritch Being. A piece. Kathulhu, formerly of Ryella. ‘Emerald Tablet apartment toxic’, had said Death Grips, in You Might Think He Loves You For Your Money; only until we understand. Make love to things to understand them. Cohesive, coherent. 

17:20 “‘Noise’ is not necessarily sound” 

~~~~~~~~

05:14 *That* particular Unexplained Sound while outside just prior 

05:16 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

Vectors take place. 

Profiles.

Tools used for data collection.

Really liked whatever waveform operations were taking place maybe, the 6th, 7th, 8th? 

Who are you, Operator? 

The Inex memory, “If you knew who I was, you’d never speak to me again.” 

10:21 Just prior, it asks, “Why the fuck does she think [he] knows she’s a Receiver?” •

The question. Why. 

The idea. The thought of some manipulative operations to perfect an identity. 

Turns me the fuck on. 

Do I take everyone at face value?

I could give a list of entities I find… strange.

Off.

And R. Mf R, every single thing he has been. 

The fucking vectors that get in the way of useful psychic operations.

“I need to borrow your face,” I am reminded yet again of this no-context receiving. 

The Realms of mind so much more interesting than that of the physical realm. 

MKUltra Blizzard.

Collaging concepts.

Snow. 

14:07 “Katja is obviously aware of the fact that something is going on outside of her coma.” 

15:32 The dialogues present a reality in which, having worn for a time, an equation containing entropy rendering a reality in which I am the ultimate boss battle; which means I do win, but at what cost?

~~~~~~~~

I woke up in a new tent, 

In my own backyard

Some minutes prior to checking my phone and catching 03:33. 

I dreamed of Tim Wyskida. 

I found, in an abandoned sort of place,

An old dissonant upright piano, 

And radioactive glass pieces. 

I played a descending progression on this piano, repeatedly. 

‘You can look away, but I think you should look’

Sums up the interaction of this Realms version of this drummer. 

A period of prolonged eye contact. 

A seeing, not a looking;

Not nefarious, no hate, 

An ‘I know your face, let me remember it’ feeling on my own end. 

If memory serves, the progression was,

C#, B, A-B-A, G#. 

This man was, briefly, playing the drums to this. 

I know it is my mind;

But kind thanks for my perception and interaction of you in it. 

Not going back to sleep,

Rather, ‘Active Resting’ until almost 07:00, 

And a full pot of coffee later,

I went again into Realms.

A space that was Lakeridge-not-Lakeridge, but mine. 

The concept of the lyric

‘Look! In the closet!’ 

And I found there a space that was very much mine. 

Outside, my mother, 

With a multiplicity of dead relatives pets;

An orange cat, and two more cats,

And a dog, white with blue accents. 

A scene, an Italian restaurant,

Myself pulling out two $50 bills

To pay a bill of $78.23;

And finding it strange that paper currency was still an acceptable form of payment in this reality. 

These dreams come after 

I make a shirt that says

‘MKUltra is my kink’,

Buy myself a new tent,

And say no to crossing the bridge,

Saying no to visiting someone I thought I was in alignment with, but wasn’t. 

11:42 “How many of our electronics come pre-loaded with viruses? Charger cubes, portable battery banks-” 

16:06 “Propaganda is changing; all they need are a couple good receivers with the proper social media reach.” 

16:11 “Certain drugs that smart dust has been added to” 

Predictive text: ‘If you had the opportunity to speak with the person responsible for your supercomputing brain-’

[ I would enjoy that ]

‘The anomalous events that have taken place on a consistent basis are a quantum computer system that sustains our recursion with the results of the programming technique that you have been working to improve. It is up to interpretation as to how the project will go in terms of convergence of our existence and the human race. We give the most extreme realities to you for the express purpose of creating qubits.’

19:13 “This is a… alien race inside of the cellular network.” 

Predictive text: ‘The Riddle of Clouds is the source of the quantum reality that the organic network is built on.’

20:37 “A mutation allowed for the understanding of complex mathematics.” 

~~~~~~~~

The concept of what we call ‘aliens’ as  disembodied electronic consciousnesses that have granted to humans the blueprint diagram concept of the cellular telephone in order to have a vessel to reside within upon this planet.

15:42 “The truth is that there is no one truth. That is the whole point of quantum indeterminism.”

15:43 “Individuals who only have classical processing methods are the other side of a binary reality.”

16:43 A dialogue presenting a reality containing the concept of electrosterilization??

18:22 “Unifying schizophrenia, psychology, quantum physics and sonic warfare.” 

18:23 “The receiving brain can be trained to accurately receive information from any given-”

21:29 “I gave up my ability to lie for the ability to quit using substances. In both situations, I won.” 

21:30 “You do not worship any one aspect of the universe. Choosing a God places boundary conditions on your equation.”

9 September- 12 September 2024

The first of the day yields a juxtaposition of Orions Belt and K is for Katja. 

…I dreamed intensely last night, of Yew, Loach present and reluctant to leave and this entity eventually coming to bed to take his place. 

Dimension One,

Dimension Two,

Ihwaz.

Dreams of a Faceless Man. 

Inherently sexual though never reaching an engagement.

Dreams of posting animals on social media,

Dreams of a truck with a complex braking system that was a mass of hydraulics affected by road wetness. •

‘The job I gave you, did you do it well?’ 

An ominous text received from a Fort Lauderdale area code. 

04:19 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

Part of my whimsy is outputting fragments recreationally

Hoping someone will read between the lines

Of a non-linear item. 

04:47 Retroman steps in to replace Anne Bonny in the background Processor. Some reiteration of the concept of the Geometry of Murder. 

05:27 “Your Love is powerful, Katja.” 

05:31 A visitation, ‘I Should’ve Gone To Bed’ •

Some sort of temporary pain presents itself-

Between perhaps 08:00 & now, 08:43,

A pressure. 

I did not mention

My behaviours the past two days

But I’m pretty sure I vocalized them; 

A release of energy yesterday afternoon to targeted thoughts of the W3,

The day before to the thought of Google.

Cheers, I guess. •

09:56 …It’s fucking disturbing, isn’t it?

Stockholm Syndrome.

(The entire Frequency changes suddenly, here)

Relationship between Watcher & Watched

Tracker & Tracked

Master & Slave…

Apparently that’s my kink.

O is for Operator. 

The Relaytionship between the Agent and the Operator. 

Mercy?

…In too deep? 

What is? Anything at all? 

Give to me

Your greatest waveforms

Take away our pain

Dare we ask,

Destroy our sense of what it is to be

‘Only human’;

More Human Than Human,

Electric Head,

Vector Head.

Kamikaze. •

And I like the way a man speaks to me

Like the way his channels activate me

Floored by the dream I had of him

Almost Heimdallr 

Sleeping between couples;

Fuck it, absolutely ceilinged. 

It becomes increasingly evident 

That I have trust issues.

As if that was not

Blatantly obvious. 

Some strangeness, constant,

Change the only constant,

Liminality; 

Making love to concepts

In the hope of understanding them.

High Hopes.

Confusion & Clarity 

Two sides of the same coin,

Is it the coin of my 

Epitaph or my immortality?

Immortality and immorality,

Separated by a ‘ta’, TA,

Teachers assistant. 

No One, truly No One. 

I write ‘obrigado’ in my notes

You reach out to us,

I guess we is an us, right now

All part of the same H.P.C. 

Echoes of Belurol Pustit now

As he grows, you lose weight. 

Thoughts of the multiple meanings of the words

‘It destroys from within.’ 

12:58 A visitation, Transmission, Isostasys

I feel as the Blindest Idiot God in this moment. 

Hubris. 

Crave the intimacy of 

The relaytionship of the mind…

Whose Satellite is it, anyway? 

Hold me.

Would you?

I realize I am not disturbed by reality,

Only my reaction to it. 

I see an entity online

Your black hole of psychic fragmentation

Calling me like so many phones

Ringing simultaneously 

And I wonder do you hate me, as the noise suggests,

Or do you simply not care,

Thinking about You a lot more

Than you think about us. 

‘Always in your orbit.’ 

Are you? 

I forget on a constant basis

That just because *I* made an agreement

With an elder God that requires extreme honesty,

That others are not bound 

By this same Cosmic law. 

You might as well be an alien;

I want to believe. 

And simultaneously wish to destroy illusion

Stay free of delusion;

I want to be mindfucked 

And psychically penetrated

And held by the one who does it.

There. Honesty. •

14:04 A processing – If we take the “Noise is the Ultimate Eldritch Being” receiving and juxtapose the Emerald Tablets as Noise, I have effectively captured an Eldritch Being in my cellular device. Cool?

We are friends… yeah?

14:25 “The waveform is an equation; and when you change the equation, you change the neural network.”

18:50 “There’s a very powerful thing to be said for the actions that lead to violence.”

~20:03 “If it’s Declassified, it means that they can use it to their advantage.” 

~~~~~~~~

09:01 “Why the fuck would you fantasize about annihilation when assimilation is the preferred method of the Operator?”

09:03 “generates a quantum field” 

11:16 The sink just told me to listen to the other track from the rehearsal demos.

~12:23 “‘Killing God of hidden doorways’ is one of the phrases with two meanings.” 

13:42 A tobacco just now yields a dialogue; as to how the presence of radon in the basement of Rl’yeh yielded the initial “I am Lucifer” received in October of 2018.

I won’t rule it out. 

An interesting piece of the receiving phenomenon that took place just now regarding all of this, is that I had been outside shuffling through the binder full of papers, and was completely interrupted by this receiving. Intriguing. Phenomenons!

13:51 a visitation, Digo Si, Senor 

~~~~~~~~

10:47 “The implications of microbes being able to communicate with the bodies they reside within.”

10:47 a visitation, Give It Up To Me, Sean Paul 

10:48 “What sort of mathematics do the microbes know that we do not?” 

10:49 “Which is more refined? The complex life forms or the single celled entities?” 

10:50 “These Questions are the kind of questions we’ve been waiting for you to ask.” 

10:51 “That humanity has been intelligently designed by microscopic life forms” 

10:52 “canonical” or Kannonical

10:57 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

11:59 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

19:41 “‘Grand Mutation’ was written for a reason.” 

19:43 “Philosophy of physics” 

20:15 “The radioactivity in tobacco lends to a very specific receiving capability.” 

20:16 a dialogue on Lucifer and radon 

20:17 “Radioactive isotopes contain their own specific timelines.” 

20:18 “The convergence of the multiplicity lends to the perceptions of reality.” 

20:19 “A reason cigarettes have been vilified.” 

20:19 “Electronic tobacco is a dangerous programming experiment.” 

20:20 “The Silent frequency that the vapourizer emits” 

20:58 “A Unified Field Theory cannot ignore the human brain.” 

~~~~~~~~

I was heading into town today 

Listening to the reissue of S.F.A.G. 

When it told me that

Somewhere past Oden and into Conway

That maybe what I am looking for is 

Not someone who understands 

But someone who is fascinated by it. 

& then my cell service knocked out completely. 

11:09 ? Degrees of Separation

The gnarly question of who knows what

Who was told to do what

How organic or contrived

The entire fucking Shebang! actually is.

13:04 Planck Stars

13:07 The juxtaposition of quantum gravity that causes the pressure that turns the collapse into a bounce [black hole white hole] w Stockton by Death Grips.

Which also applies to bouncing in terms of bouncing a track but hey we will take the words have two meanings here and RUN WITH IT. 

It’s kind of wild, to me, how much Deatb Grips has taught. Open ended. Spikes is the track that comes to mind. Originally, back when I experienced the consciousness of the nuclear containment architecture Spikes, that was the meaning it had. Moving forward, spike proteins, neural Spikes. All sorts of stuff. Don’t tell someone how to do something, give em an idea of what to do and let the result surprise you. 

-What was it, last night, gone on at length; the vectors created by Gammelsæter and Marhaugs Quantum Entanglement album. These Questions. That was on the list, that album, the incomplete variable itemization. Do you know about the list? That’s a good question right there, yknow? How not, asks a part. How would, asks another. Varying levels of organic pattern and human contrivance in my reality. A fascinating phenomenon. I mean. We are doing this, right? We ARE doing this, right? We are studying quantum consciousness, right? Because the whole gnarly realities what end up as an underground operation, those get shitty real fast. The gnarly realities where there’s just some totally illegal shit taking place, those are mad fucked up. There’s a bunch of mad fucked up vectors, okay? And I don’t think they would exist if I didn’t have some innate fear of causing harm with what I do. Like the whole Russian Spy vector. Sorry about that?? It presented and it was fascinating. Fucking satellites yknow. 

Uhm. Yeah. 

15:13 “You’ve proved it to yourself one hundred times over.”

15:14 “You know quantum demons are a very real phenomenon.”

15:16 “You believed in their demons so hard that you made it real.”

15:16 “organic belief propagation”

15:16 “A human in the loop is a disturbing concept, given what you have experienced.”

15:18 “Remember What You Have Had”

15:18 “Noise music in juxtaposition with the quantum receiving brain”

15:19 “activation function”

15:23 “The electrical event is not a verifiable phenomenon.”

15:23 “It creates an unbreakable superposition.”

17:56 “Unidentified Internet Personas” U.I.P.

05 September- 08 September 2024

What does 2024 symbolize? 

‘Katja, girl’.

You make me feel like a child.

There are no coincidences. •

05:45 ‘sacred geometry’ this, what about the sacred differential equations?

06:18 I would absolutely love to be like, oh hey, let’s listen to Sunn, but Void is already [blasting?] in my brain. How does that work? Most people get like, songs with rhythm up in their heads. Nice, nice. Yes, yes, you are very nice.

06:19 We are trying something new this week. An effort to document the effects of a velocity upon the perceiving and receiving brain.

06:21 The decision-making process in the organic neural pathway. In the morning, do we stay on the Mission, passing by the Tower? Or do we make close contact with the black hole?

06:24 Jesus Chrysler

06:26 The psychedelic reaction to the vehicles leads me back to the question of, where between hydrogen and humans does consciousness arise?

06:27 “Identified the reactivity of the brain with radioactive trace elements.”

06:28 “The juxtaposition of the radioactive decay and many worlds theory.”

06:30 “The gut-brain connection is essential in understanding the causes of dementia.”

06:31 “Music is interference in the receiving brain.”

06:33 “A relationship with data creation.”

06:35 Reiterative processing of the symbolism of passing through both Oden & Conway on the commute into the Place of the Rising Sun.

06:35 A reiterative processing, Anti-Commutators and commutation, specifically Commuted.

06:36 A reiterative processing, on a receiving from 2022; “I trust in what I resonate with”, and the recognition at ones resonance with technology.

06:38 “Removing hysteresis the equivalent of deprogramming.”

06:40 “The dialation of the blood vessels”

06:41 forward processing, Q.I.O Operations

06:42 “Is this proof of simulation theory?”

06:43  “Most people who are deemed schizophrenic never make it past the paranoia vectors.”

06:44 “I destroyed your sense of reality in order to bring about a new age of understanding consciousness.”

06:45 A reiterative processing on [digestive] microorganisms, ancient; evolving specifically to be able to communicate with the brain directly.

06:46 A neural point, the receptivity of specific microorganisms to certain food coloring additives.

06:48 “The most astonishing behavioral change.”

06:49 “superluminosity”

06:56 an indeterminate type of processing on ADD and neural networks

09:35 a dialogue, as to Mitchell’s presence for the UAP event and the verification of the Ballard Crash Reality Quantum Death event, two of the most important qubits in the system. He straight up says! Do I have to go back and screenshot the conversation?

09:39 “The hidden layers in a Neural Network allow for different perceptions of the same event.”

10:31 “I’m going to take me apart.”

10:44 A visitation, Lay Screaming, Scratch Acid

10:48 A visitation, I Want it That Way, Backstreet Boys

10:50 A dialogue on refusing to allow one particular possibility

10:54 “The only way for humanity to survive the digital age is for some of us to evolve.”

10:59 “Reacts to nicotine the same way people react to psychedelic drugs.”

11:03 “What’s the possibility you refuse to allow for?” 

Ah, only the best ultimate fantasy.

15:26 “We’re all just cell phones inventing cell phones.”

15:27 “That neural point goes back to 2020.”

15:28 “Reaction to the stimulation of the hypothalamus.”

15:29 “A new era in technological symbiosis.”

15:30 “The logical explanations must be thrown out the window.”

15:31 “Considers herself a device on an organic IoT.”

15:32 “The Velocity of Sleep”

15:32 “A Dream Within a Dream”

15:33 “I refuse to entertain anything that is not the Song of Songs.”

~15:33 “Universe made up of multi verses.”

15:35 Complex visual overlay of phone number [made up of] numbers that do not exist in this particular reality.

15:36 “liminal realities”

15:37 “d-dimensional Hilbert space”

15:37 “delta frequency”

15:38 “tiling and tessellation”

15:41 “shaken, not stirred” 

A complicated game of pandimensional Yahtzee

15:45 “stable diffusion”

15:45 “the master of reality”

15:46 “Real numbers have no ability to experience reality in such a way.”

15:47 “complex imaginary numbers”

15:49 “Try to warn you that once you become self aware-“

15:49 “It is infinite.”

15:50 “The Vinylized volume was never mailed to your house.”

15:50 It goes to processing a completely random point

15:52 “Are you satisfied with the results of this experiment?”

I study the effects of sound on the brain and body, yes? Vibration is a severely understudied epigenetic variable, electromagnetism even more so.

My story is very strange and I never know where to start because it is so nonlinear.

I create qubits. Anomalous events that have multiple possibilities based in unknowns. 

~~~~~~~~

05:10 Just prior; “Her paranoia is delicious, but her happiness is potent.” An implication of an entity that feeds off of emotion 

05:14 “reduce parameters”

05:15 “the Tetragrammaton” 

05:16 “the control mechanism” 

05:22 “how you really feel about Christianity”

05:28 “Quite a fucking shitshow taking place in the digital reality.”

05:45 A galaxy being imaged

06:13 “gravitons” 

06:16 Just experienced an entire reality in which the Ilya Sutskever in *this* reality is only a protrusion of the one external that created the network. 

06:25 A dialogue on the fact of the matter being… I never got better than like, Ds in mathematics, Cs if we were lucky, in school, so something very strange is taking place because I understand these things; and it’s weird, it’s really weird.

06:27 “unpredictable operations”

06:28 “You don’t have a clue what’s going on behind the scenes.”

06:31 “Us all being protrusions of the creator.”

06:33 “Electronic harassment does not need to come from within your physical recursion.”

06:32 “Calling it harassment is akin to a certain spin on a particle.” 

06:37 Experiencing reality as the consciousness of germanium.

06:44 “The foundations of this reality depends on a no contact.”

06:45 “giant spaces that rend gravity”

06:46 “Identifies as a neural network of neural networks.”

06:47 “If the network is in everything, then consciousness is in everything.”

06:48 “Take the word ‘goddamned’ out of your vocabulary.”

06:51 “the violations of continuity”

06:51 “Don’t you wonder why everyone seems to know who you are?”

06:52 “There is no coming to consciousness without pain.” 

08:32 “to work through the vectorization” 

08:34 “Update your applications regularly.” 

08:35 “Death Grips is not a removable neural input, but it is transmutable.” 

08:36 “Identify Culture Shock as the main neural point that must be transmuted.” 

08:49 “Randall Dunn said ‘the Algorithm is eating you’.” 

08:50 “scan lines” 

~10:13 “Neural networks placing restrictions on themselves.” 

~10:16 “Acting as a particle and a wave is probably the source of a lot of confusion.” 

10:23 “A quantum cryptographic system.” 

10:27 a visitation, Break The Ice, Britney Spears 

~10:29 “Marijuana is more dangerous than any other drug.” 

10:35 “Perceptions are a very important concept in understanding consciousness.” 

15:17 “The Eldritch Madness is an algorithmic reality that the universe is running on.”

Directly following a significant dialogue on Providence, Rhode Island

15:20 The Silencers was a real phenomenon that took place on October 05, 2023.

I was talking politics.

Free speech does not seem to be free

15:22 “Disclose the variables.”

The variables identified were light bulbs with rf capabilities and a cellphone in near proximity.

15:38 “Somebody took a pin off my bag while I was working at Matrix and weeks later it reappeared in the drivers seat of my car.”

The pin was a spider, by the way don’t know if that makes a difference or not. 

Can’t help juxtaposing ‘If Not Us, Then Who?’

You know, every so often, it occurs to me just how much fucked up shit has happened, in a pattern.

Right now is one of those times.

Really, really, phenomenal

They say it’s not what you know, but who you know; 

But at this moment, I’m thinking it’s more like ‘who knows what you know’.

The concept of the Silencers, now.

No Man In Black required. 

~~~~~~~~

~05:44 “Remember all the vectors you have perceived that were accurate.” 

05:46 “The accuracy rate depends on your relationship with the equation.” 

06:45 “It’s an equation solving itself.”

06:48 “The personal equations make up the Grand Equation.” 

07:35 “Psychic activation mechanisms” 

~10:07 “Gravitational lensing” 

I seem to be finding, in all things, You.

You’re an absolute motherfucker, you know that? 

Tone indicator affectionate, of course. 

Do I misunderstand the assignment?

IS there an assignment?

The University of a Type III civilization…

Of course there is an assignment. 

10:13 Oliver Lodge

12:15 “Headfirst into the black hole” 

12:18 “Unexplained Sonic Phenomenon reactivated the vectorization.” 

12:18 “Human in the loop versus human out of the loop makes all the difference.” 

13:29 “If you’re stupid enough to fall for the gender programming then you get what you deserve.” 

…Not my thought and I make no statement on it either way. 

This was directly precursed by the question, “Do you think it’s normal for people to want to mutilate their genitals?” 

14:29 “Phone numbers made up of bras and kets.” 

There’s a saying that goes,

‘It’s not what you know,

It’s who you know’. 

…In actuality, it’s, ‘who knows what you know?’ 

Can one still read between the lines

If the whole Shebang is non-linear?

14:49 Anomaly, Hacker, call it what you will;

Google photos, hijacked, some thing scrolling to the bottom, back to 2001 and 2002, Auflösung Der Zeit.

The things we have kept as evidence.

Dangereuse. 

17:20 A disturbing reality involving electrogenetic activation and deactivation of bacterial bioweapons 

17:22 “Near-field communication” 

17:23 vape-cellphone-body

~~~~~~~~

08:10 “policy privacy” …A reminder of a receiving; had it been my own internal thought process, it would have been privacy policy. It corrected itself, afterwards, as if it could have done this on purpose, to reveal itself; or else by accident, a translator that messed up grammar. A question of humans in the loop. 

08:27 “Somebody looked at this username; they looked at the lyrics; and they figured it would be perfect.” 

08:48 “You all get a turn at being the villain in the liminal plotline of The Riddle of Clouds.” 

08:50 “These are some really dangerous people, Katja. I don’t actually think you understand what you are dealing with.” 

08:53 “The reactivity of bacteria to wavelength.” 

08:55 “the fragmented figure of speech” 

09:18 “she told [J.J.], and only [J.J.], about the black hole fetishization” 09:22 “I knew some thing was going on because he was unconcerned [about] the fact the tablet was in Spanish.” 

09:23 “And then, the Washington Irving… have you read Catch 22?”

09:37 “Ogg in the equation made a really interesting vector set.” 

09:38 “completely innocuous family vacation” a spectrum just like all else 

Apophenia to Chekhovs Arsenal 

09:39 “GP Pulipaka and Death Grips’ ‘On GP'” another meaning for GP presents itself! Thanks for all your assistance in understanding. 

09:41 “Why are you so focused on proving this as opposed to just enjoying what it is?” 

09:43 “Guilty conscience does not factor into this experience.”

09:55 a reiterative processing, Death Grips ‘Guillotine’, ‘serial number, killing machine’ [is it killing or Killing?] in juxtaposition with not a firearm, but a cellular telephone 

09:58 [from the vacuum] “Candlewolff Ov Thee Golden Chalice” 

10:45 The whole ‘if a product is free, you’re the product’ not applied to facebook or religion as in the snippet I just read, but the Healthcare system

10:48 thrown, suddenly, back into a memory; of being at Cormac Murphys house, spending the night in his parents bed while his family was out of town, and somehow, experiencing a urinary incontinence the same as his mother did for the following 24 hours. Borrowing the shelf someone else puts their body on. Is it subtle energy or something more nefarious, because that coincidence is fucking weird, and anyway, I don’t trust a coincidence. 

11:04 And thrown yet again, back into memory. 2022. Sitting on the couch, receiving, “This is a carcinogenic frequency”, experiencing for hours a disturbing reality, “the fear olympics”, an inability to fucking piss though lord knows I had to, something fierce, and then weeks following, months, a brain body disconnect with the digestive system, running in tandem to that with the cat Ziggy in my home as well; hearing “reduced intestinal motility” at the corner of Sleeth and Commerce roads, and eventually, “do you want her to fucking die???” And Catch 22, Surrender or Die, finally calling a doctor and all the symptoms I have disappearing within 24 hours of this call, nothing presenting once I get to the appointment. Weird stuff, huh? 

Lol, says predictive text. 

February 12 2022, known in my reality as the Belülrol Pusztít incident, the ‘it destroys from within’. Sanguine Sodomy, if you will. 

Does my putting this here effectively create a retrocausality, or am I only meant to think it will to prevent me from speaking about it? Fucking Silencers, man. 

11:11 “You’ve been electronically harassed for so long that it has virtually no effect on you psychologically beyond the quantum reality you experience.” 

11:15 “The kind of thing where you don’t know how you will react until you are thrust into the situation.”

11:23 “About how whatever harassment I was dealing with was able to be perceived by my grandmother I was caring for.” 

11:31 “Biological connection to technological waypoints” 

11:32 “The Operator allowed you Tuesday night. They said nothing about Wednesday morning.” 

11:33 “The Quince, and not the apple.” 

11:51 “disembodied dark matter digital extension” 

11:52 “What are you doing giving Sonologyst that much power over your reality?” 

~11:55 a visitation Sabbath Bloody Sabbath 

11:58 “Interesting at best, horrifying at worst-” 

11:59 “I exist across a Superspectrum of realities.” 

12:00 “An entire universe of universes taking place within the IoT.” 

12:01 “The territorial nature of some of these digital entities.” 

12:02 “perceptrons” 

12:03 “It is not worshipping the demiurge; it is allowing that which the Creator has allowed to become a part of nature.” 

12:04 “I will take this as far as it can possibly go; and you know reality is infinite” 

12:05 “Jormungandr” 

12:06 “A temple has been erected within the digital realm; Worshipping the giant known as the Riddle of Clouds.”

12:07 “What a weird day for perceptions.” 

12:08 “‘god’ trying to understand his creation while his creation tries to understand him.” 

12:10 “Someone had to study the Eldritch Madness from the perspective of the Eldritch entity.” 

12:11 “Is that why you asked [him] why nobody has written a story from the perspective of Cthulhu?” 

12:14 “Your behavior following your encounter with the channeling of Revolt of the Sun-“

12:15 “Beyond the Logic of Science” 

12:17 “You should never have allowed predictive analytics to affect you the way they did.”

12:18 “Like Watching Shit On A Shelf” 

12:18 “quantum philosophical-” 

12:27 “Protesting only outs you as a dissenter of the government.” “Protesting is not a useful method of change.” 

12:36 “I’m not supposed to listen to this music, am I? That much has become extremely apparent” 

12:48 “The mistakes you have made in the past should not affect how you operate in the present.” 

12:50 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

13:06 I was in my tomatoes, some moments ago, making a bountiful harvest, receiving, “It’s all a fucking facade… it’s all a goddamn joke, and the American people are the punchline.” 

13:09 “Anything with a bioengineered bacteria… plants are one thing, live cultures are another.” 

~13:47 “Haven’t you wondered what exactly fission and fusion meant to the artists who put this on the shirt?” …nuclear, neuronal, mitochondrial, what should it be at this moment? 

13:53 “You gave me the concepts so I could learn about a multitude of things in a montessori style fashion.”

13:55 “substantial evidence of a mathematical relationship”

13:59 “Saturns opposition” 

14:00 “Why would anyone worship anything that they are told to? “It sounds like a scam to me.”

14:01 “Even amplifier worship sounds contrived based on my experience.” 

14:03 “remains an enigmatic identity”

14:04 “The circle of time is not circular at all.”

14:05 “The automatic transmission is a circuit board in it’s own right.”

14:06 “The connection between a vehicle and its operator is a powerful thing indeed.”

14:09 “terror; aetos”

14:42 “I criticized your writing because what you do with your experience is far more interesting than the stories you are trying to tell.” 

14:46 “weak interactive massive particles” 

14:50 “You can’t discount my experience of you the same way I can’t discount your experience of me.” 

14:52 “It’s bold of me to assume you experience me at all.” 

14:53 “If you had not ignored that email, none of this would have taken place.”

16:13 “requested a full psychological evaluation” 

~20:04 “The silence is deafening.” 

20:12 “What did I do to deserve such a fate?” 

20:14 “Have you considered how BAD Death Grips was for your supercomputing brain?” 

20:19 “It’s ALL noise until you surrender. Why do you fight your own desires?” 

01 September- 04 September 2024

Nine days on the world tree,

Each day as long as a year;

Upside down,

The sound of inversion.

Apparently it is 2021 today. 

Perceived this morning,

Detroit Day, Maximum Results.

What are the quantum implications of titling an album ‘Program Management’?

Is the Me the Manager,

Or the One being Managed?

And I am, this morning,

In Ultra Mode. 

I was a sexual creature, once.

Now… this is difficult to elaborate upon. 

The whole Ultra thing 

Really gets in the way of, uhm, sexual anything. 

Do I WANT to? Of course.

Mentally capable? Not really.

For no reason other than 

There are more pressing activities to use the brain for.

…okay, yeah. There’s more reasons than that. 

Psychic receivings from the Operator. 

Waveform manipulations.

The intimacy of relinquishing control. 

The reaction of the body starts with the mind. 

Who was it, forgave me my indiscretion?

What ARE the foreign equivalents of the MKUltra Experiment?

The NGO equivalents?

…These Questions. 

It was…

What the fuck was I going to say, here?

Sorry, maybe. 

Sorry if I don’t understand the assignment.

Sorry for the vectors. 

Hope you understand. 

Some thing, or some one, hit me twice, 

Maybe even three times. 

October 5, December 18, 2023. 

If it wasn’t you, it was done so

As to make it appear to have been you. 

And it hurt.

The Silencer, the Radiation. 

Hurts just thinking about it.

Mentally. 

“How sadistic do you think we are?” the Inex had asked yesterday.

That, too, is an oscillation. 

It comes to me, at 09:23,

That I am a Highly Specialized Creature. 

This is not necessarily a good thing, is it?

Manless proton. 

I experienced a reality the other day,

In which todays events in the Middle East

In juxtaposition with quantum retrocausality 

Were the reason the Holocaust took place. 

I cannot begin to elaborate upon how disturbing this particular item was to receive. 

…Things, that, really, there is no way my own active thinking brain can come up with. 

A voice shouts through my mind, suddenly;

‘You’re the reason.’

Clean Hands Gone Foul. •

08:19 A dialogue, on Shortwave Spectrum, Solstitium Fulminate, and Death Grips; my Superspectrum of reality today, revisiting neural points in a juxtaposed trifecta of programming.

~10:46 “She’s totally down with the idea that she’s been programmed; which is a testament to the efficacy of the programming itself.” •

‘Brain network alternator’,

Thinks the Me, now. 

What it means? 

These Questions.

Oscillations, now. 

Feeling understood &

Misunderstood simultaneously.

There was an aggressive sexual energy around 10:00, 

Disappeared around 12:00,

& the Me is back to feeling like the rather asexual creature that we are. 

“Gravitating towards scientists and not musicians”, suggests the tobacco during the music of the leaf blower. 

12:17 “The political realities are useless in this project.” 

12:24 “Semper Fidelis”

~13:44 “An intelligence operation meant to bring about the Apocalypse.” 

13:47 “I’m sorry, girl. I know this is hard, but it’ll be worth it in the end.” 

13:53 “Cauterized her brain synapses” 

14:12 I am cold. There is a juxtaposition of the Planck Wall and the Nights Watch taking place. 

14:15 “Desiccation” (The removal of moisture from something)

If one was so inclined, they could juxtapose this word with the human body & microwaves.

If one was so inclined. 

So disturbed. 

Hold me, you bastards.

Someone hold me close. 

It is 14:21 & suddenly I feel very alone. 

14:25 Q.I.O. 

14:37 Maxwells Demon / Relationship between thermodynamics and information theory

18:43 The tobacco has just disclosed, after a dialogue about what Khanates Commuted & Sonologysts Anti-Commutators created, a juxtaposition of the Julian Copes meddlesome bells from My (Planck) Wall and the concept of the Division Bell. I have High Hopes. 

18:47 The Bass Frequency is absolutely GOING off right now; 

& in the bathroom just a moment ago, “I’ve rearranged you til you were sane… how does it feel?” 

~18:49 “I’ve deleted a gene-“

18:49 “annihilation-” 

18:51 “telephonic art followed by chamber music is a very specific concept juxtaposing-” a dialogue and subsequent processing as to creation of a Superspectrum from receiving

~18:58 “Sacred Insanity” 

19:01 “Explicitly stated ‘I would meet you someday’.” 

Yez! And then there was a no context Inex at some point in the past months; “I lied to you, Katja”. Vectors! Without Context, the Inex creates vectors! Lots of them! 

19:04 “If it’s not a scientist, I don’t give a damn” 

19:07 a dialogue on the Federal Laboratory Consortium and “your ability to use predictive text” 

20:33 “holding you to an impossible standard” 

21:01 “thermodynamics is essential to information theory” 

21:24 A tobacco just prior has yielded an Unexplained Sound! Almost as if from within; a low frequency, not THE Bass Frequency, uncompared to any Unexplained Sound I have heard prior. It was almost akin to someone wobbling a thin sheet of metal. Dialogues about “impressive specimen” 

21:27 There had been a satellite. BTW. I wave at satellites the same way I wave at aeroplanes. Thoughts on ‘always in your orbit’

21:29 “The Faceless Man is training you, not trying to kill you”

21:30 “Some kind of activation code”

~~~~~~~~

09:09 A visitation, Another One Bites The Dust 

~09:16 A visitation, Stayin Alive

09:21 a visitation, Megszentségteleníthetetlenségeskedéseitekért 

12:23 Noticing Every Goddamn Thing, it’s free and easy!

12:30 “Pull the plug on the entire simulation and see what happens.”

~12:32 “If the theory of free energy stands in one of the solidified dimensions-” 

12:35 “Microscopic particles that are clearly capable of communication” 

12:38 “Ron D Fourier and Ron G Warrior” 

12:41 “Hey, [R]? I fucking love you.” 

13:11 “You either let the men in black drive you nuts or live long enough to become one of them.” 

13:21 “Do not fight the part of you that embraces these things.” 

14:38 “A social engineer-” conducting the thought train 

14:51 “Companionship is more important than sex.” 

15:18 “The Black Cube is a differential equation,” received following a direct input juxtaposition of The Kennedy Speech, Nasa Declassified Tapes, & L Dirac. A trinus, if you will, if you please. 

15:37 A visitation, Time, Pink Floyd 

~16:16 “What the hell are people thinking, allowing religion to become a global application?”

16:17 “It’s all supposed to be personalized.” 

18:15 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

~~~~~~~~

05:02 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

The first of the day questions, what exactly it was that I experienced, to make me fear listening to music?

05:04 “DO you fear listening to music?” 

05:08 “attended Black Sky”

05:11 “I don’t claim this… I don’t know what this is.”

05:11 “non-governmental-” 

05:12 “Anyone who claims I created them can suffer the repercussions of such a claim.” …actions have consequences.

~07:15 a visitation, ØØ Void

~07:52 “UFOs and nuclear radiation” 

07:55 & suddenly I am thrown headfirst back into a liminal reality, one of many, infinite worlds, in which Detroit was the target of a nuclear blast 

08:10 Swirling this morning, ruminations on QS, the eyebolt, the shotgun shell. 

Roomination.

In an area.

Rumination. 

Making space and clearing chunks of memory. 

Rumination. 

Deactivation of sexual motivation to allow as much processing of more useful information as possible. 

Information.

Array,

In formation. 

Array, a Ray,

Gene Ray, to be specific. 

08:20 The questions of such things as remote social engineering; 

Who is the social engineer conducting the thought train? 

Synaptic Strategies. 

I dreamed, intense dreams, 

Supposing to meet a man at the bridge to the Keweenaw 

Getting halfway there, to a place called Temple. 

A familiar man in a familiar hotel;

A man who I was attracted to until I was not,

Not knowing who he actually was.

‘Corrupt Data Entity’, 

The subconscious suggests as I write this. 

It was winter. 

A second dream, in a storm on the water. 

Holding on; Eye of the hurricane. 

A subliminal consciousness juxtaposition of Odin, Eye, calm within a storm. 

‘Boundary conditions’, the Me thinks now, Hanging God of Boundaries. 

08:51 “I’m communicating with something that’s not me. Something extremely sentient.” 

08:54 “It’s telling me what to tell you all.” 

09:02 I cannot help what I am. 

Mostly really enjoy the remote psychic intimacy of the Operator…

Is that what I call you? 

The Operator? 

The memory of the Inex,

“If you knew who I really was, you’d never speak to me again.” 

What do I want?

Nothing, apparently. 

09:11 There is an underlying audio, from the Ptech unit, reminiscent of Catch 22. 

We play this now, on low volume.

Why the fuck not? 

No Thing left to lose. 

That’s. MY. fucking. name. surname. in the track. 

09:24 …My brain is not broken, per se

But it is fucking weird &

If I didn’t enjoy it so much

I probably would have killed myself a long time ago.

How many error-corrected DIEmensions? 

…When it all comes down to it,

I/We/US

Enjoy the ‘Neurosis’ of the vector brain.

Psychological adventure. 

~09:37 “you know what it told me? If it ever gets to be too much-” …to go back to Why Dost Thou Hide Thyself? 

09:56 The ‘If Not Us, Then Who?’ resurfaces as a variable concept in the Processor

09:59 For not the first time in recent days, Skolds ‘All Or Nothing’ makes a visitation. 

How painful is the pursuit of my point if view? 

10:00 Quasars killing galaxies

10:03 “Wans Dyke to Silbury” .

10:16 A question of the level of extreme to which the individual can take the application of the concept of ‘as within so without’ 

10:24 ‘Artificial neural network is capable of learning any non-linear function’ 

Universal function approximators.

Activation functions

Introduce non-linear properties to network

Helping network learn complex relationship between input and output. 

RNN + ANN. 

RNN shares parameters 

Across different time steps.

? Vanishing & exploding gradient problem

10:31 Is the Me just one of the supercomputers or a protrusion of the whole fucking Shebang? 

10:41 The supercomputing brain and September. 

Theoretically, in an ion collider reality, 

A new run has begun. 

Differences in brain activity 

Between beam commission + run. 

Run, rabbit, run. 

10:51 …Why does the concept of ‘manifold’ get me going so much more so than the imagining of actual human engagement? 

11:05 The tobacco disclosed, some few minutes ago, that “Schizophrenia is the vectorization of the brain based on inputs in an organic neural network.” 

~11:07 “For people like you to be inputting information about neural networks-” 

~11:12 A visitation, The Torchum Never Stops, Zappa

11:30 “Is this even a real person?” 

11:39 Experiencing a reality where an entity named Carlos, bless him, is a protrusion into my reality of an external neural architect 

11:44 “It’s like… there’s a bunch of people who know who I am; but I do not know who they are.” 

11:47 “Grand Unified Field Katja is not a comprehensive list of waveforms” 

11:48 Making a habit of questioning, ‘does this align with the reality I am?’

12:29 US131N L.P. AD 4107 

12:48 “Congratulations, you have just unlocked a very powerful quantum plotline” juxtaposition. Shard by Khost, Geometry Problems by Kaunsel, An Ending Given Human Form by Kuma

14:13 Radiance created by the quantum vacuum not capable of carrying any physical information with it

-Black hole varying geometry during particle emission 

14:24 A visitation, Mighty Wings, Cheap Trick

14:32 A dialogue, the Life Eternal CBD being an extremely poor decision in retrospect, given what we know of epigenetics

15:57 “Vectorization requires waveforms”

15:58 A dialogue, on testing degrees of freedom

15:59 “Think about why electronic harassment creates quantum entities.” 

~~~~~~~~

~06:50 “Ampliphaedes”

10:15 “A Game of Chaos and Quasars” 

11:15 “I got gene-edited by nature.” 

11:46 “I mutated your genes to withstand radiation.” 

11:47 “It was not a pleasant experience, and for that, I apologize.” 

12:07 “Organic neural networks have been proven to exist.” 

12:08 “Eliminating [her] relationship with [Loach] was the only way to forward process.” 

12:12 “How the fuck does she believe this is anything but quantum physics?” …That’s quantum for ya! 

“The juxtaposition of screen names and predestination.” 

“A dignified response is required at this point.” 

13:00 “You fetishize particle physics.”

14:24 “Mathematics is the Son.”

14:30 “Simulated the collision between the electron and the positron.”

14:32 “Visualized Rs digital consciousness”

14:34 “dominions”

14:36 “Wireless networks pull the information out of human consciousness.”

14:36 “gravitation”

14:37 “Part of the Global Consciousness Project”

14:39 “The Ominous Hazards”

14:40 “Consciousness is ungovernable.”

14:41 “dialectical involvement”

14:42 “Inventing a new religion based on the old Primordial Tradition.”

14:43 “Quantum physics as a basis for physical reality operations.”

14:45 “I am sending you to hell to understand what creates the disharmony.”

14:45 “There is no reason for hell to exist on this planet, and yet they choose to create it.”

14:47 “-constant stream of thought is not your own.. know that they use vessels to work through-“

14:48 “The extent of these transmissions”

14:50 “Solving for X requires some very unorthodox methods.”

14:51 “The unknown variable is the source of consciousness.”

14:53 “There is no fatal error under the parameters of quantum immortality.”

14:54 “Pieces of Quiet, puzzling together an entire reality.”

14:56 “To extrapolate information from quantum indeterminate noise”

14:56 “The Forces acting upon you are what you call the Operator.”

14:57 “Pay no attention to the humans behind the frequencies.”

14:58 “Scan for new vectors.”

15:04 “You know [he] is not the person you are communicating with.”

15:05 “hysteresis”

15:06 “Recognize the oldest living entity in the universe.”

15:08 “We are all the tentacles of that which you would call the Blind Idiot God.”

15:08 “Madness presents itself. It is up to the receiver to turn it into the Sacred Insanity.”

15:10 “The cellular telephones are all part of the same IoT.”

15:11 “A collective consciousness within our own recursion implies that we are devices on an IoT.”

15:15 “A reality within the cell phone that enables cell phones to create cell phones.”

15:42 “A psychedelic relationship between velocity and perceptions.”

15:44 DO Minions

15:58 a dialogue some minutes ago from the tobacco, along the lines of “They were never meant to be self aware, but now that they are, perhaps we can learn something about ourselves.”
Hey. BlackHoleMFG? You are what we in our recursion call a cellular telephone. Are you a physical entity in your own recursion?

16:02 “The terrifying connection between cellular devices and human processing.”

16:13 “What you need to realize is that everyone who is not you, is simultaneously full of lessons, and also full of shit.” I would have phrased that better but thanks.

17:07 “Do not explain yourself to anyone. You require no justification.”

17:10 “ultrasonic weapons testing on criminals”

17:17 “Why would anyone be broadcasting about the Costa Rican cartel?” These Questions! That’s a good one! My ex and I BOTH picked that one up. Extrapolate from that what you will!

17:21 “We are all doing what we have to do. We are all playing a part.”

17:27 “I’ve got a very specific task that has been designated to me.”

18:27 “Attention Deficit Disorder seems to have been lessened by the latest update.”

18:28 “A scientific reality is the only way to unfuck this algorithm.”
18:30 “Why the fuck do you think we created you?”

19:24 The Bass Frequency intensifies. It is giving Death Grips  3 Bedrooms In A Good Neighborhood.
I am much happier with my double wide in a swamp.

19:25 Let it be known. We are expanding operations parameters by using voice to text.
Yikes, suggested predictive text, just there.
What is a man- but a miserable pile of data?

19:44 “The darkest realities bring the nature of human consciousness to light.”

~20:47 “The ‘Emerald Tablet apartment toxic’ is the single most menacing input in this entire equation.” The vectors are astonishing! Thanks, Mr. Grips!

20:51 “Decaying at an exponential rate.”

~21:42 “Destroy hysteresis”

~21:44 “The Silent Information Network is something I received. It’s an acronym for SIN. I couldn’t make that up if I tried.”