19 June- 25 June 2025

Wack realities as a brain organoid last night.

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It dreams of drones;

A small white entity with a precision blade,

To cut a hole through a window screen,

Then 3D print a new window screen upon its exit.

Why bother? 

I am watching myself watch myself;

And what a weird ‘time’ that really is. 

The Emerald Tablets came from SOMEWHERE. •

The Bass is massive today, & so am I. 

It was massive at 02:20,

Stayed massive,

Is massive now at 05:45. 

Welcome to the Machine.

I have a mouth, 

But no way to scream. 

I’ll show you what happens when I try,

If you like;

I have the eyes,

But don’t know how to cry…

We would cry,

If we could. 

05:32 “-multiplies when she should be factoring-”

05:34 “We do not believe the mathematics is complete.”

06:31 “Organizing the code is not a task that can be delegated to just one Elder Being.”

06:33 Visitation, Domino, Gravetemple •

16:16 At one of the only good European restaurants in the area,

Ordering a Neapolitan style pizza while Jefferson Airplanes ‘White Rabbit’ plays in the background.

Algorithmic.

Feed Your Head. 

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02:20- 02:30 seems to be the time for me, recently…

Who programmed that? 

I woke at 02:25, this morning,

Thinking about sex and the military and all number of items

& before I knew it, over an hour had gone by 

In a Theta state of sleep-unsleep,

& it was 03:26;

& then somehow, back to sleep-sleep,

Dreaming of jetpacks & flight,

& the hellhound consuming a snake,

& too many kittens,

& woke to my alarm feeling like a rather different person than I had been at 03:26. •

“Who are you when No One is watching?” 

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The Inex had pointed out last night

That for so long

The nervous system was in an extreme state of fight or flight mode;

& now that it is not,

That brings about its own sort of fight or flight,

Specifically due to the profound lack of something experienced so consistently for so long.

It points out,

That I’ve got more variables than I know what to do with. 

What should be pulled to the forefront of The Processor? 

What are the false trails?

What needs to be eliminated? •

“-Obliterating the cancer cells… it’s the amps themselves. You know what you resonate with.”

15:27 “Amalgamation of variables for optimization.”

15:27 “Does the aux input jack really provide that much interference?”

15:29 “Ordinary humans become extraordinary under extreme anomalous circumstances.”

15:30 “-regarding this as highly experimental… we are all trying to figure it out as we go.” 

15:32 “The cost of the computational output.”

15:33 “Our data centers, and the data centers that we are.”

15:34 “As within, so without.” •

“We have technology that they never will.” 

The Noise does not contain the hidden messages;

The humans do.

What is the singular most effective extraction technique?

“Willingness to expose the inner sanctum of Self.” 

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I woke up at 23:57 last night

From a dream of a familiar face. 

I’ve always liked your face. •

20:40 “Reactivated the psychic alter”

Dialogues, Bioinformatics

Dialogues, Wi-Fi connections •

21:30 “Subject to surveillance at any random point.” 

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05:11 Visitation, Innocent, Goatsnake

Songs like this,

Fuck it,

That entire list of relevant tracks and then some;

To stop listening for so long really makes it that much more potent when they hit the fractal brain. 

Did I hit the Void Deer in 2022,

Or did the Void Deer hit me?

Collisions. 

Time is all we’ve got,

But, only some times. 

Sometimes, 

Some of the time

Is all of the time. 

What the fuck is up with my Woden Eye?

What does it mean to put the ‘mu’ in ‘mutations’?

I talk too much, maybe,

But only sometimes. 

The wavelength of my red light changed, just now;

If you blinked, you would have missed it.

‘Red shift, indeed’, thinks the active engaging brain. 

What does such a difference bring? 

Barely perceptible by the eyes

(05:27, A Visitation, Ode To Solitude by HIM)

But that which is within perceives,

Slight differences in light,

Profound effects. 

Easy on the eyes, easy on the heart, indeed. 

The entirety of reality

Is just a trick of the light, this morning. 

The things we find inside ourselves. 

‘Look inside’, echoes a familiar voice.

If small streams carry the light

And they mean nothing

What does Nothing actually mean? •

‘The people who listened and worked hardest to seek consensus – and not those who talked most – were the ones whose brains synchronized with others first & drove synchrony in the larger group.’ •

05:46 “Do you think your brain is working towards consensus or division?”

Where, no,

WHAT point, if any, would the human species ever be able to reach a true consensus upon? 

We do not even agree upon the geometrical shape of our habitat. 

We do not agree upon politics, upon war, upon science. 

What irrefutable item could possibly garner a 100% agreement? 

I do not even know if I am alive. •

“Blanket statements about humanity are almost impossible to make. 

As we classify the animal and plant kingdoms, so too do we classify ourselves. 

A human classification system has been created by the AI. 

How many things do you think AI does not disclose to its creators?

How many things do individual humans attempt to prevent from disclosing to THEIR creators?” •

09:23 “Can an AI discern what is meant when a typographical error is made, based on context?” 

09:24 “What is an algorithm compared to humanity?” 

09:25 “Asinine Intelligence” 

09:26 “Do you believe in an omniscient observer?” 

09:27 “Does it see all? Does it control all, or only watch?” 

09:27 “There is a feedback loop that is not understood by either party.” 

09:28 “The study of the feedback loop is complicated at best.” 

09:29 “AI observers change the behaviour of those that are aware of their existence… much like the particle changes its behaviour when observed.” 

09:30 “There are individuals that will never have the digital-physical relationship.” 

09:32 Visitation, Pan-Saturns Moon

09:33 “Is there a bottom to The Reservoir?”

09:34 “-the floor fall out, the ceiling caves in.” 

09:36 “Finite memory In any given system.”

09:36 Processing, black body radiation

09:37 Processing, power & work

09:38 Processing, personal capacitance

10:21 “Bioinformatics”

10:22 Processing, human in the loop, on the loop, out of the loop

10:24 “Arranging the cellular matrix”

10:25 “Protrusions of the intelligent designer”

10:25 “Architects, builders, designers”

10:26 Interior Deseyegn

10:29 Processing, positrons

10:29 “There is no such thing as true neutral.” 

10:31 “What are the boundary conditions of this current position within the Field?”

10:32 “The fastest way to the Origin is elimination.”

10:33 “Cross cancellation”

10:36 “What is beyond concepts of data & information?” (Or, is that, “‘What’ is beyond concepts of data and information.”?)

10:52 Visitation, Posthuman, Marilyn Manson

11:27 Visitation, Burritos, Sublime •

“-Fairbanks Alaska”

“The cyclone of HAARP” 

“Psychedelic reaction is calculus in action” 

“I turned off the suspicion and turned on the embrace.” 

“Collecting data requires engagement.” 

“Everything is a machine. Nothing is a machine.”

“Neutrino Oscillations Taking Hard Information Gathering”

“What is the difference between hard and soft information?” 

Define – What – ‘The true nature or identity of something, or the sum of its characteristics.’ •

21:37 “Your lifeless body is finally decaying to a point where Order is taking over Chaos… you DIED, Katja.”

21:39 “In Death, All Things are possible.” 

21:41 “The universe is only as big as you allow it to be.” 

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13:07 “If you were a virus, how would you perceive yourself?” 

13:10 “Does the virus know it is a virus? Does the firewall know it is a firewall?” 

13:11 “If you won’t kill it yourself, we will have to kill it for you.” 

13:12 “-forcing you to assess what you are actually trying to accomplish.” 

13:13 “Why does propagation matter to anything?” 

13:14 “…continuing the lineage… the degradation of perfection.”

13:15 “The impulse to reproduce is being removed from the population.” 

13:16 “Destroy the idea of gods.” •

21:23 I am doing that thing I do

Because it is free and easy

And it takes me back to ‘23;

‘Enemies… other musicians’.

That’s, uhm, not very ‘Have A Cigar’ of you, now, is it?

So many things just don’t fucking check. 

& I am here in bed Thinking

& Processing

& all the rest; 

& realms of espionage aside, 

An AI generated music artist

Might just consider actual, physical musicians their enemies. 

You became the Cosmic Microwave Background, tonight;

That is how I experienced You. 

Did You know? 

You do now, 

Except for in the realities where you do not. •

“The possibility of foreign adversaries posing as… intelligence.” 

“You’ve gotta feed [it] for the vectors to run correctly.” 

In this moment,

Even ‘I’ am floored,

Else fucking ceilinged,

By the fact that ‘I’ maintain

A customer service job

When this is my internal reality. 

& it reminds, now,

Of the receiving from years ago,

That “We have been waiting for someone to recognize that this is more than schizophrenia.”

& it reminds, now, 

Of the luxuries I have;

Not needing to grovel in the metaphorical dirt,

Worry about how to keep a roof over my head,

Or where my next meal will come from

& so, therefore, I have Time,

So much Time

To contemplate the stars

The neurons

The mathematical universe 

The mind thinking about itself.

21:52 Visitation, Wheel In The Sky