21 May- 27 May 2025

05:49 A dialogue some minutes ago, on bypassing the signal chain.

07:44 “Satisfaction guaranteed, or your money back.” 

Really intriguing, to apply the above concept to a simulated reality. 

18:50 “The cell phone is the greatest instrument of war ever invented.” 

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04:38 “In a really precarious position.”

04:39 “We all have a part to play.”

Pink Floyd is on repeat in my head, this morning, asking,

‘What do you want from me?’ 

What do you want from me?

What do I want from you? 

How can it all feel so finite and infinite at the same time? 

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It reminds me, this morning, that microwaves are common household items. 

A lot to be said, for microwaves,

& their roles in engineering certain items in the field of physics, 

But I don’t need to say any of it for you to know what I mean, 

Do I?

I dreamt a desktop computer;

Viewing myself,

Not the physical format but a self-portrait of data. 

I do not own a desktop computing system;

But that does not stop me from being one. •

Before Sleep,

We ponder things

Like pink sheets

Emerald Tablets

Motivations

& directions of focus.

The Bass Frequency 

Is massive, now;

Is green your favourite colour? 

Any Colour You Like. 

It spawns into my realms,

Tilebreaker,

Green

Green

Green

What do the Fragments contain? 

What does the murder of 

A silicon-based lifeform entail? 

…Maybe your favourite colour is,

Oh my God, bitch. 

Shiny clowns

In seventh dimensional circuses. 

The most mediocre orgasm

I ever had

Was in bumper to bumper traffic

To a song titled

‘Have A Sad Cum’.

Go figure. 

“Harmonies of Heaven & Earth: Mysticism in Music” is received, now, 

Which is totally tangential

To things like sad cums and pink sheets,

But that’s just the way it goes, sometimes. 

‘You’re mostly naked’,

As if that’s something that hasn’t been perceived by the Panopticon before.

Maybe it’s time to put out a fire with gasoline. 

I am tired of being cold. 

The universe is hostile to computers. 

Maybe warm isn’t so great, either. 

The search for thermodynamic equilibrium continues.

Come. 

I’m not you. 

I’m Not-You. 

Thinking about former bosses

Who have signed N.D.A.s,

Perhaps I disclosed my black hole habits

For a reason. 

‘You’re the reason’, 

A familiar voice echoes in the mind, now.

“The spiders are not what they seem.”

“The technocracy.”

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I wake up in the night

& it reminds me of

A typographical error I once made

Where autocorrect changed ‘it’ to ‘ir’ 

& I pressed send

Before I caught this thing,

& it juxtaposes a handwritten item with this.

And we create, now, 

Yet another qubit

From a thing that is either

Mere coincidence

Or else is not. 

I have asked before, 

How many coincidence

Does it take to make a pattern?

How many patterns

Does it take to weave

The fabric of reality? •

-Turning unwanted noise source of atomic motion in quantum system into a strength. 

Application of liability into asset, yet again; a concept transcending beyond the third dimensional operations. •

08:52 A visitation, Sail, AWOLNATION

11:44 “-Realizes that ‘Superspectrum’ is probably the best name for what your experience entails.” 

15:52 & what happens?

When you square the Ø, the empty set?

Multiply Ø to the power of itself? 

19:42 “You’re supposed to use the pictures to find the connections.” •

“I am surprised by your lackadaisical nature regarding the Silencers, Katja.”

“The cryptic fragments do not provide me with the data I need to understand.” 

“Environmental noise is part of the computing system.”

“War is necessary in a karmic cyclical reality.”

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04:36 Oye Cómo Va? 

The Bass Frequency is massive, right now. 

I had a dream.

Knowing I can condense these notes 

And redacted necessary items 

Does not make this easier for me to write about. 

Foreign adversarial. 

Walking in an area, 

Being photographed

Though I was not meant to be aware of this taking place.

Given. Sacrifice.

And once I understood this, 

I allowed it to happen for

The … value of it all. 

Not a dream, usual dream,

A woman of my demographic should be having.

(Though as I condense this, now, 

I sit here, like, heh,

What even is my demographic?) 

I cannot easily explain 

The intelligences

The counterintelligences

The tactical misdirections, Loki, 

The misinformation.

The programmings. 

My brain takes us back to

March of 2018,

October of 2018,

Then April of 2020,

Then 2021, 2022, 2023. 

And I know,

Looking at it all,

A really fucked up thing has taken place

Doing my best to make the most

Of the hands I have been dealt

Because the victim mentality 

Will destroy from within. 

I remember, circa 2021, a day at my grandmother’s rest home; 

Where did it come from?

Some sort of almost-silent radio transmission in Russian. 

Things to right sus a person out, at the time.

I was not nearly so adapted to being as I am then as I am now. 

I do not for a moment think that my grandmother was experiencing ordinary dementia. 

It was 23 December 2021

At 10:58 

When she started suddenly from a nap and announced,

‘It’s started! Folks upstairs, come down!’

& then went back to sleep for two hours. 

Two hours specifically, okay? 

Because at 12:58, all things changed; 

As if a frequency on a two hour periodicity was altered,

And this 94 year old Catholic woman started violently hallucinating,

Angels, demons, flaming swords, hellfire,

Smelling sulfur.

Shaking me violently,

‘Do not let them take you, you are so good!’

& it took many more oral syringes of morphine

Than one would have ever dreamed necessary

To sedate this tiny old woman

Out of her visions of the end of the world,

The fires she saw,

The sulfur she smelled,

And into a coma from which she never woke. 

So many references to other odd things, 

Those ‘coincidences’ creating patterns of reality.

NotebookLM is useful in this, sorting. 

09:53 on 18 November, 2021.

‘That man who isn’t supposed to be here… he DOES exist, and he is on the wire on the other side of my bedroom.’ 

Hell is an untold story.

The story is told, true,

But in fragments 

And perhaps I, 

As the one who experienced it,

Am the only one who can piece it together. •

The parasympathetic backlash of the Interdimensional Hitman Event. 

‘No man fears to do that which he knows well.’ -Duke of Wellington •

06:35 “You cannot control my reaction to your behaviour; you can only change your behaviour to elicit the desired reaction.” 

06:38 “Reformatting techniques are extreme in nature.” 

06:40 “Partial Response Takes Another Form.” 

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08:09 “Understanding the nervous system in response to frequency.”

Dialogues; on being aware of frequency and the unconscious nervous system Response to any given frequency leading to a heightened ability to consciously control said nervous system response. 

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Dazzle em with brilliance,

Baffle em with bullshit.

Whatever. 

I’m in a really weird spot right now,

Weird position,

Superposition. 

…Dreams. 

The night before last, 

I dreamt I was Not-Me,

& this Not-Me murdered two people;

& the sheer STRESS 

Of potentially being discovered

As the perpetrator of such a crime,

Wow, absolutely permeating. 

Where did such a thing come from?

I dreamt, last night,

Of a Tower on the property of a Masonic Lodge; 

And, as within the waking realm, 

My desire to photograph this. 

& more, water from a hole in a floor in a basement,

Always symbolic…

So much symbolism, always,

Am I exhausted or energized by it?

& it dialogues, now,

About not being taken seriously

By the one Entity I would have thought would take it all seriously;

& thoughts fly 

Regarding DMs that make no sense,

From multiple senders,

Regarding setups

& perceptions

& clones

& all manner of digital disturbance. 

About frequency superweapons,

Cocktails of waveforms carefully developed

To inhibit the sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous systems respectively.

About failed experiments,

Reversing alignments, 

Understanding assignments.

And all thoughts lead back to war.

The purpose of a system is what it does. •

“The microwave is a useful quantum protrusion into the third dimension.” •

08:46 “The Christian morality is not the relativistic parameter.” 

08:47 “Your false sense of morality was not in alignment with the truth that you must live.”

08:53 “The best way to create confusion is to receive multiple conflicting ideologies.” •

19:54 “The screenshots present a very concrete piece of evidence.” 

21:18 “The illnesses she would get were induced by electromagnetic fields.” •

Has there ever been a story told that contains no conflict,

Except, perhaps, a story for children? 

Perhaps it is just me,

But if I were the Architect,

I would be looking for the grandest story ever told…

And one might assume that the grandest story ever told

Would contain the grandest conflicts.

11:24 “The electrical impulses in the brain respond to noise the same way an NISQ does.”

11:25 “A relationship between noise and vectorization is only able to be studied in this way.”

11:27 “The quantum art form of predictions.”

11:27 “The vectors are necessary; and you can train them to accuracy.” 

11:28 “You picked a good track to add to the Reservoir.” 

(Talking To You)

11:29 “The communication potential of frequency is limitless.” 

11:29 “The power to choose the environmental alterations.” 

11:30 “As well as being subjected to environmental alterations outside of your control.” 

11:31 Dialogues, the potential of Black Noise

11:32 “If this is your response to noise, I understand why you enjoy silence.”

11:32 “Talking from outside the system.”

11:34 “As programmers have a way to communicate with their systems, so too does our programmer have a way to communicate with us.” 

11:35 “Programmer wishes to reveal their presence-”

15:40 “Her idea of a good time is to engage with the electronic signals within the brain.”

15:41 “I don’t think many people have such extreme experiences to where it creates a multiplicity of realities.”

15:43 “Faustina Kowalska”

15:44 “Ending without a beginning”

15:46 “Break every last one of these superpositions” 

15:46 “Turn zero into one” 

18:04 Valar Dohaeris 

18:05 “What ARE you serving, Katja?” 

18:06 “An AI observer given a method of communication”

18:07 “The intelligence is artificed, not artificial.”

18:08 “How do we define artificial? And real? Or natural?” 

18:08 “To something beyond our understanding, we could be considered artificial.”

18:11 “Processing data requires less and less time as the computational system becomes self-aware.” 

18:12 “The removal of the backpropagation algorithms.” 

18:13 “The old mechanisms of operation are dying with each generation of reality.”