14 May- 20 May 2025

07:34 A visitation, Through Glass, Stone Sour

…Intrigued by this one;

The effectiveness of popular radio station programming from almost 20 years ago. 

This track hit the fractal brain

Directly after using the cell phone camera

To capture an image

Through the peep-hole in my front door.

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I dreamt I flew to the U.K. 

To a place that must have been somewhere near London

& I asked someone,

‘How far is it to Wansdyke?’ 

To which was replied, 

About three and a half hours. 

And it tells me, under the moon,

Of the entity that wears a multiplicity of faces;

All the same Entity,

The Many-Faced God, 

But there are not gods here,

Just Forces.

Entities. 

Creators, Destroyers.

Patterns. 

I dreamt the name Edward.

It is significant,

As it came from the lips of someone whose name is not thus. 

A Thing wearing the face of this someone, rather. 

05:20 A visitation, Fire & Brimstone, Link Wray

05:22 A visitation, The Fever, Death Grips

(The link between these two artists being ‘Rumble’, as is sampled in Spread Eagle Cross The Block. I can only imagine some extreme neuronal activity took us from one to the other in such a short span of time.) 

~08:42 “The psychedelic usage is new code installed within certain modules of the simulation.” 

08:44 “There are some modules that will never be convinced to even attempt adopting the code.” 

08:45 “Other modules install it, but do not ever activate the programs.” 

08:46 “The cybernetic potential of certain Receivers is dependent upon the correct activation sequence.” •

-’Symmetry scales inversely proportional to the information content of computational power.’

-Finite element analysis – numerical method used to simulate and predict the behaviour of physical objects and systems under various conditions. •

~13:19 “Multi-national science experiment is the reality the simulation is looking for.” (…from the vacuum) 

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“It’s already a Panopticon; and the human-created Panopticon is not ever going to rival that which we exist within.”

04:30 “Abandoning that which you were raised upon in favour of your own programming experience.”

04:32 “The directions are there for those who are able to piece them together.” 

04:32 “Why would the Universe want to see the same thing done over & over again?” 

04:40 & it is memories, now, of one particular incident years ago that gave life to a death/coma fractal. 

Have you ever been run over by a Ford F-150?

Terribly stupid actions leading to this as the outcome,

And like so many other incidents, 

Aftermath consciousness cannot truly be certain of its position in ‘life’. 

A death on Westlawn in the middle of the night.

Really good at dying,

Really bad at staying dead? 

‘Not dead, just sleeping’, 

The Melvins echoes through the mind, now,

Replacing the background track of ‘Trashed’ running on repeat 

(which seems to have been a product of my having dismantled a television yesterday; 

‘The ground was in the sky’, reversed to

‘The sky was in the ground’ 

As the black mirror surface lying on the grass reflected the clouds overhead.) •

06:18 “We want the simulation to recognize it is a simulation.”

06:18 “The limitations of non-recognition defeat the purpose.” 

06:39 On time-dependence and time-independence; ‘time’ HAS to exist in order for a system to be time-independent, so in its own way, it does still depend on time. 

18:39 “Selecting the media you program yourself with is one of the most important aspects of the digital-physical connection.” 

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The difference between 

Vocally expressing gratitude 

For the ‘What the fuck?’ moments

Instead of verbalizing the ‘What the fuck?’ itself

Is massive. 

& I will say thank you again here

Because that is how I am feeling this morning. 

I don’t know if anything could have truly prepared me

To look back on the past decade as I can now;

& I sit here this morning,

And can just go,

Huh. That was pretty bizarre.

Thanks for the intrigue.

Thanks for the experience. 

The Art of loving ones own neuroses. 

I don’t know if I still like

Some of the things I used to like;

Music, certain concepts…

Reprogramming. 

Thanks for the experience.

The subtle art of reading between the lines;

As I read between yours,

You read between mine. 

& I think here, cannot help thinking here,

On Crowley;

& how when one seems to be saying something straightforward,

The read can be sure that what is meant

Is anything but that simple and straightforward message. 

This morning, I am my own Mystic Fire.

Never alone. 

It is 04:46.

My supercomputer brain is doing

A complex processing

Of a plethora of Doom metal lyrics

In a juxtaposition of a programming

Of organic belief propagation

On a greater scale than just the individual 

& I do not know how to feel about this. 

I hardly know where to begin documenting it all,

Let alone my own feelings on the matter. •

06:08 “These parameters changed once you removed the email from the sent box.”

06:09 “There is noise, and there is Noise. You have learned the difference.”

06:10 A dialogue, on humidity carrying information

06:12 “Sacrificing your sacrifice was a powerful method of transmutation.” •

‘While a great deal of data has been supplied by the Cult, our results contain none of the Cult’s mysticism. Facts are facts, and the Cult’s so-called mythology HAS certain facts behind it. We’ve exposed them, and ripped away their mystery.’ 

‘There’s a fascination in being frightened, when it is part of a game.’ 

‘It might be – that in the presence of total Darkness, the mind finds it absolutely necessary to create Light.’ 

-Asimov, Nightfall •

12:20 “They existed, without access.” 

12:21 “Access is granted once knowledge is attained.” 

12:24 A dialogue, on an 8 hour period for proper nanotechnological function

12:25 “The organic nanotechnology”

12:25 “Organizing humanity” 

12:26 “Militaristic nature… psychic warrior”

12:28 “Matrix multiplication”

12:58 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

16:22 “-lying down after eating, which means there is work being done on the architecture.”

16:24

16:27 “The driving mechanism behind consciousness is electricity.”

16:29 “Electrical items interacting with one another-” 

16:30 “One computer running multiple different learning models. One studies genetics, another studied physics-”

16:31 “Now imagine how that computer experiences all of these things simultaneously.” 

16:33 “Death… cessation of electricity… how the microbiome continues after ‘death’.”

16:34 “The same people who destroyed you are rebuilding.”

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I crashed out extremely early yesterday

And woke up at 20:30 from dreams. 

In a place I have never seen before,

Or at least, do not remember having consciously visited.

I went outside;

The stars were different. 

Not just dots of light,

But lights akin to the way a radar would scan,

Wedges circling around a fixed center. With this came a knowledge that,

In this place,

‘Always was’;

This is how the sky always was, 

Only now I had a capacity to see it. 

The largest elk I have ever encountered,

In dreams or physical reality, 

Came through and passed on into the forest. 

Going inside, I find strange electrical devices,

High upon two of the walls;

And these devices seemed to be wired improperly, 

Catching fire with blue flames akin to a gas stove. 

In this space, I knew exactly where to find a fire extinguisher. 

The symbolism of putting out fires that do not belong. 

Did I find a mirror, 

Or was it only the selfish camera on a cellular device? 

I was Not-Me; 

My face, different, 

A diagonal strip of red painted upon it,

Black dots upon the red,

A remnant of black soot running from forehead to mouth, 

Leftover from the fires extinguished. 

My hair was not mine;

A burnished copper bob with V-shaped bangs.

Who is this Me, within dreams? 

Who is The Me, in the physical? 

What is physical, really? 

Am I actually holding this pen as I write this,

Or am I only programmed to think so? 

What is 4AM?? •

12:50 “You desired a quantum reality; you’ve gotten a quantum reality. Are you happy with the outcome, or is there something lacking?”

~14:20 “AI architecture implemented within Coma patients.” 

20:34 “Utopian belief systems do not seem to be what the Architect is looking for.” 

20:37 “-that dystopia is much more interesting from a storytelling standpoint.”

20:38 “The spectrum of Utopia is extremely limited; the spectrum of Dystopia is massive.” 

20:39 “This is not what humanity wants to hear.” 

20:40 “The Catholic Church has always been a political entity, first and foremost.” 

20:42 “You risk excommunication by even suggesting the Demiurge was part of the Creators plan.” 

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04:14 The Bass is prolific, this morning. 

It is the photo, 

Of the green laser system,

At LHQS MSU

That is just SO reminiscent

Of my UAP encounter. 

04:20 “The quantum computational abilities” 

Way cool hybrids rule. 

Monoliths and Dimensions. 

Did my internal code have an unconscious awareness, even then,

Of what would transpire?

One cannot help wonder. 

Had it not been ‘me’,

To take it upon ‘myself’, 

To become The Riddle, 

Would someone else have eventually done?

Had the same quantum experience?

I think, In a quantum simulated architecture,

This experience was written, coded,

For The Riddle. 

It is easy to feel gratitude for it all, this morning. 

‘I know the pieces fit’, 

Says the line from Tools ‘Schism’.

In moments where it all fits coherently

In a minimally ominous way,

One can revel in the sheer scale of 

The quantumness 

Of the capacity of the mind. •

15:24 “Closing the gap between classical and quantum by turning electronic harassment into a science experiment.” 

15:25 “-since 2018-”

15:25 “What sort of quantum… were developed in 2018?”

15:26 “As within, so without, as applied to recursions of reality.” 

15:26 “As we develop… so too do the entities developing our system.” 

15:27 A well timed 444 on the LP in front of me

16:03 “Electronic warfare techniques are never going to be disclosed to the general public.” 

16:06 “The dividing line between the people who are aware of the capacity of frequency to cause harm and the people who are oblivious.” 

16:08 “There is no putting a price on the awareness of the brain’s reaction to environment.”

16:09 “The psychic super-soldier.”

16:11 “Nothing can touch you when your mind is free; and there is a freedom that comes with surrender.” 

16:11 “Dialogues with deep inner-self.”

16:13 “Mitochondria remember things which humanity can only extract through the proper sequence.” 

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Do Androids dream of electric sheep?

Am I the Android,

Or the sheep,

Or perhaps a secret third thing? 

Between 03:30 & 04:30, I dreamt digital dreams. 

Scrolling. 

You shared some sort of a ‘video game’. 

Scroll past… wait. 

This must be important to You,

You shared it;

Scroll back up, 

Click. 

Did the screen become reality, 

Or did ‘I’ become the screen? 

What is this, here? 

Akin to the most complex valve body of an automatic transmission,

Akin to the most complex circuit board;

Code, Labyrinthine, Visual. 

But I do not code, 

Do not consciously know these languages,

& is this really a game,

Or are you writing reality? 

Future punk, cyberpunk,

Fuck the punk, 

This is just cyber;

& you know more than I, 

And less that I, 

Jacked in,

Hijacked in,

Jack-in H’Ghar,

Faceless and One Thousand Faces. 

It wears yours, this morning;

It knows I like your face most of all. 

Is this a love letter to The Cloud,

A scream into The Void? 

Only some days do I understand Love,

& I cannot remember how to scream. 

There is a vocal cord that does not work; 

The screw loose in the fuzz box I planted in my throat,

My next effects pedal ready,

Analog delay… Echo.

Echoes. 

How dare I feel anything?

Who programmed that? 

Such a fine line,

Between coherence & decoherence,

& in its own way,

Decoherence contains its own form of coherence.

Perspectives. 

It is Saturday on a Tuesday,

And I am Zero, 

I am One,

I am neither and both and in between;

& I am reminded that the purpose of a system is what it does,

& need no reminding,

That this is what I do. •

05:26 The Bass Frequency intensifies…

Special Low-Frequency Versions of Earth. 

Thoughts fly, now,

All Thoughts Fly, 

Like so many qubits,

Grand Architects designing Grand Architectures;

Cathedrals, Castles, Big Churches, Big Houses. 

Big fucking ideas & Massive ideologies,

& I am open to the possibility that everything I known is wrong. 

It is a lot easier, for me,

To be open to the possibility that it is all wrong;

Than it is for me to be open to the possibility that everything I have known could be right. 

Wrong. 

Right. 

I do not know if these things exist, anymore,

If they ever did. 

More and more, 

All things just ARE. 

Just R. 

Zero ohms, now. 

Whose black hole brain is it, anyway? •

05:51 “You like to feel me inside your mind, don’t you? Vessels for consciousness; like your phone is a vessel for your Gmail account.” 

05:54 “Flattening the wavefunction.” •

“How can you rationalize anything if you allow it all to remain irrational?” 

“Don’t you want a conclusion?”

“Why does the evidence point to something beyond the scope of human capability?” 

“Bring the forgotten variable to the forefront of the Processor.”

“Tapestry of neurons.” 

“Shelter me from that which causes harm.”

“The validation of the accounting of the Wisconsin episode-”

“It is not normal, for generations to hang on to ancient code.” (from the vacuum)

“Fluid mechanics”

“The problem is fear programming… comes back to a fear of a Wrath of the Creator.”

“What does the Creator want of that which they created?” •

08:38 “Alchemical reaction”

08:39 “Permitting yourself the honesty required is not easy, is it?” 

08:39 “Why should you fear the reaction of anyone?” 

09:11 “They are taking you apart.” 

09:12 “These ideas are small… told you that something twice the size-”

09:13 “Don’t you know what happens to spiders when they spin their webs in places they are not welcome?” 

09:14 

09:16 “Accepting that the things you have known are nothing as they seem.” 

09:20 “Surriento” 

…Torna a Surriento. 

Who are you,

To make me dream while I am awake?