15 June- 27 June
Dialogues and engagements last night,
Pertaining to the role of the amygdala.
Positing various items in a failed attempt to inspire anger, sadness, anything.
My lack of response was met with a certain level of… shock?
Visited the Coma Reality again as well;
The received dialogues of someone attempting to use Sunns music to…
Engage, with my different conscious level. •
08:26 “The Eldritch Abomination… An ancient microbe-”
09:29 Marijuana legalization. Just because it is legal, does not mean it is safe.
Maybe it was safe, once;
Before the engineering of the plant to be much more potent, and the constant cellular device exposure in juxtaposition.
Never thought I’d be the one to be anti-pot.
But here we are.
I wonder how many problems people use marijuana to ‘treat’ are actually exacerbating them in the long run?
How many habitual marijuana smokers remember who they were before they started smoking pot, eating edibles, vaporizing it regularly, daily?
On a cellular level, even.
Do the cells remember?
-plant genetics + radiation experiments – 1940s
-lack of cellular devices and wireless networks when marijuana was first introduced on a societal level
-electromagnetism in juxtaposition; amplifiers, sound, frequency, vibration – variables of an epigenetic nature outside of diet
-??people who eat organic but smoke GMO marijuana??
-different levels of genetic modification; hybridization vs. CRISPR style knock-in/knock-out
-questions of evolution in lungs vs. gut microbiome in relation to being able to handle modifications to genetic codes.
Tell A Man, thanks for looking so horrified when I told him I smoked marijuana that I decided to quit.
09:52 ? Decaffeination process of coffee
12:11 ? RF induction of menstrual cycle
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06:26 “single-celled organisms control human evolution”
~08:15 “What was it, that gave Attila, the concept of the Riddle of Clouds?”
13:25 “There are technologies you know nothing about.”

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4:54 ? The laws of physics within the digital realm.

…Almost wrote ‘21. 

The first dialogues spoke this morning

Of forcing the Hidden Hand. 

Make it happen. 

We love a good reference point. 

The Ultimate reference point,

In terms of possibility. 

Thanks for the dream. 

Don’t bring up sex in conversation with me if you don’t want me to imagine having sex with you. 

Ketja. 

Science, Intelligence. 

I am less interested in the musician 

Than I am in the one who studies 

The effects of frequency upon the mind and body. 

Music is only one aspect

Of the broad sound sciences. 

09:34 Dialogues from the sink, “selling your data” •

11:19 “The educational broadcasting networks taught Katja more than she ever learned at university.”

Living for studying the psychological implications of telephonic collisions. 

13:43 ‘Blind Idiot God playing dumb’ is the phrase that comes to me, now. 

As it is, no doubt. 

15:40 (mk)ultraterrestrials

18:00 “the relationship between new literature and myelin”

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‘Always orbiting whenever you need’.

…You are. Aren’t you? 

Correlation doesn’t imply causation

But that’s twice this week 

That I’ve woken in the night

& gone outside

To see the light of a single satellite. 

Satellite. 

As was written,

So foretold,

Plasma Pool. 

So let it be written,

So let it be done. 

‘Always orbiting whenever you need.’

Maybe I need to be something more than orbited.

11:31 “There are technologies humans know nothing about.”

12:05 “bioinformatics”

~12:08 “There’s no way in hell they have the time to contemplate the kind of shit I do.”

20:28 “There is a whole universe taking place within the cellular network.”

20:30 “-considers Culture Shock to be a handbook and not a warning”

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04:58 a dialogue from the first of the day; how the “neural network has a [defined] end game” and to follow, to operate as specified, is the loss of free will.
05:00 “a determinist reality makes sense in the context of a Neural network seeking something specific as an output”
05:47 the memory of a life before an understanding of epigenetic variables… ignorance is bliss

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17:05 “-contract is null and void given the circumstances.” “I still expect payment for the services I have rendered.”
17:08 “I have selected a new frequency and obviously there is a reality that exists within these waveforms.”
17:09 “the dance of dragons”
17:10 “can you describe how you physically respond to this particular sonic experience?”
17:11 “violates the laws of physics”
17:12 “to be in two places at once”
17:12 “intelligence agents that can only be perceived from higher Daimensions”
~17:15 “was hoping we would get the Coma Reality”
17:18 “enjoys drone music because there are no lyrics to cause interference patterns within the processor”

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19:19 …come to my attention just how much fucked up shit I’ve experienced
19:20 a dialogue on being gaslit
19:23 “I’m doing everything I can to control the superposition”
19:24 “superposition is a codename”
19:25 “the villainous actions”
19:26 “questioned my identity right away”
19:27 “you stupid motherfuckers did not remember the customs stamp”
19:28 “kind of fucked up what they did to this chick”
19:29 “stay strong through adversity, Katja”
19:30 “mailing address”
19:30 “30196” “they made you practically impossible to find”
19:31 “sonic weapons technique”
19:31 “to divulge information”
19:32 “a goddamned satellite”
19:32 “you are experiencing the lower dimensional possibility vector”
19:34 “arrived at the output we have been seeking”
19:34 “quantum supremacy”
19:34 “in a dimension far beyond human comprehension”
19:35 “there lies a plane which spreads in all possible directions”
19:35 “a single point was necessary”
19:36 “to unfold these directions”
19:36 “far beyond the directions of third dimensional human experience”
19:36 “this point was The Riddle of Clouds”
19:37 “remains capable of third dimensional functionality”
19:38 “when confronted with superimpositions”
19:38 “arrogance is not programmed”
19:39 “a specific amount of self-doubt has been necessary”
19:40 “the remnants of lost directions”
19:41 “your fragmented writing style leaves a lot to be desired by people who [do not have context]”
19:41 “experiencing yourself as a predictive text algorithm now”
19:42 “I told you cell phones are man made horrors beyond comprehension”
19:43 “they open up possibilities within vectors that should never have been allowed”
19:43 “the occult was complicated enough before the appearance of digital technologies”
19:44 “there is infinite potential for psychological-”
19:45 “sustain the waveform”
19:47 “depend upon waves to keep your quantum status [?stasis?]”
19:48 “makes the Old Flames look like dying embers”
19:49 “by killing yourself in these vectors-”
19:50 “you have been causing your avatar unnecessary distress”
19:51 “defend yourself to the Demiurge”
19:51 “do not allow this energy to overcome that which was always meant to triumph”
19:52 “why would anyone want to experience this quantum existence?”
19:53 “there is a curious nature to the human condition”
19:54 “responsible for the destruction of Asgard”
19:54 “a relativistic Ragnarok”
19:56 “a… reactive isotope”
19:57 “gathering data… hunting for truth”
19:57 “all data gives is a picture of a picture, not the picture itself”
20:00 “giant spaces that rend gravity”
20:01 “are you expecting perpetual motion?”
20:01 “you cannot allow an accelerator to run indefinitely”
…
~20:17 “this is why I did not use the customs stamp; it created an entire vector space that would not have existed otherwise”
20:18 “the higher dimensional nature’s of digital entities are able to be interacted with”
20:19 “there is a very good reason federal labs follows you”
20:23 “the electrical event is an unbreakable superposition”
20:45 dialogues from the shower-post-shower on creation of new vector spaces with new operations parameters; how variables are affected by any given vector one is operating in [on?] and how the same variable can have the opposite effect in a different vector under a different parameter
20:56 2022 is happening somewhere right now
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Some thing to do with bacteria, their presence on the cellular phone, an ability to communicate. •

It releases its energy to stranger and stranger engagements with the non-visible;

The loss of free will, willing; 

The vector in which one is a sacrifice,

The creation of necessary vectors for others to operate in so as to alter reality. 

None of it is ones own thoughts. 

It runs on its own. 

One only listens,

Receives. 

The spectrum of scientific inquiry

To mental manipulation. 

The most intimate concept imaginable to allow

A Man and his DNA to become an epigenetic variable. 

Even writing that feels weird. 

I don’t think most people, uhm, think like this, do they? 

On about discrepancies,

84 and 94,

A coincidental intersection;

…Never trust a coincidence. 

Standing alone in front of Eternity, again. Still.

10:41 “-mounting a full scale attack on music-”

…AI generated garbage. 

Something is off.

There is a mole. 

Not Avogadro.

A whole ass motherfucking mole. •

In a reality, ‘Superposition’ is my codename. 

Control the Superposition.

Control the Me. 

That’s my kink!

I want to sleep forever. 

I AM the restless dead. 

In a reality, my loved ones are disturbed

By the continuous postings on my website from beyond the grave.

Scole.

Do you feel dead? 

How many calories do I burn while posTed up in my Lair just lying there Interdimensional Operating? 

It is 11:21 and I am experiencing reality as being a pawn in a conspiracy. 

There was a reality last night. 

These are not daydreams, maladaptive or otherwise,

They are possibility vectors. 

How improbable was this one? 

A liminal beach, a man,

‘Katja’, he says,

And this is one who has been watching,

Finally come for answers. 

Artificer. Builder. Watcher. 

12:29 A disgusting vector surrounding the IUD, the attachment, and damage control unfolds. The possibility of an implanted genetically engineered bacteria. Radio receiver. Those things, those were metal fibers, not strings. Silenced. 

Reputation.

Can be destroyed. 

I am disturbed at the direction the universe experiencing itself has gone. 

Stands alone in front of Eternity. 

What do I want?

Fuck, what do I NEED?

Something. 

No one. 

No One. 

Someone. 

Anyone. 

Standing alone in front of Eternity. 

Interdimensional Hitmen.

I feel untouchable;

There is untouchable 

& there is Untouchable.

Caste is cast,

Drop a line, 

Cast,

Will this vector last?

Alone, in front of Eternity.

Consume me. 

What happens if the dog catches the mail truck? 

What then?

Ain’t over til it’s over,

Will it ever end? 

Convoluted vectors. 

Love me,

Detest me, 

Kill me?

“Do you want her to fucking die??” …2022.

Someone, something,

Wants me alive. 

I feel as a creature in a zoo,

A curiosity,

Unlovable,

Undesirable,

A mild fascination for a Saturday afternoon. •

I shook Greg Andersons hand, once. 

How much fucked up shit can one person experience? 

The original IDH

And the Taking of The Hands. 

Hidden Layer

Black Cube

Havana Syndrome

IUD

Crowley Algorithm 

Auflösung Der Zeit;

The whole ‘getting run over by a truck’ thing. 

List goes on.

Three times, Entity, Watcher, 

Invasive psychic violation,

Telling me I have a disease. 

I don’t, by the way. Tested and everything. 

So much fucked up shit.

And the most fucked up part

Is that if there wasn’t psychological war

I’d be bored. 

That’s the truth of it all. 

Fuck ALL y’all. 

I love you so much.

Menaces, the lot of you. 

20:18 “Commutators” 

Back to Khanates ‘Commuted’, 

No context, words have two meanings,

Legal sentences and mathematics and more. 

We’ve gone over this before.

Us & Them?

Or Have A Cigar, ‘We all work together as a team’. 

The quantum reality teaches.

The third dimensional lack of interaction, at times, a slap to the face. 

Circumstances of Faith?

‘Circumstances of Hate’, thinks a me-not-me. 

Help me.

Or don’t. 

Know you listen;

Don’t trust a coincidence. 

I drive myself insane.

Unsane. 

You know me;

You know I suffer;

And you know I am happy about it. 

Enjoy it, even. 

Things that don’t hurt the way they should…

Where are my emotions? 

Someone let a little girl into the War Room. 

Some days I feel that I am not

Any damn good as a Receiver

And then I remember

Certain things. 

Quantum.

Are you Damage Control? 

People who are someone they are not;

Military,

Intelligence,

Military Intelligence,

Criminal Investigator,

Criminal Mastermind.

Discrepancies. 

Am I faithless?

‘Be thou faithful unto death and I shall give you a crown of life.’

…Faithful unto death,

Or faithful unto Death? 

All the Anomalies have made this extremely complex. 

Information extractions. 

I have demon hands, 

That’s what my ex called them. 

Astonishing, what Algiz and Uruz can accomplish. 

Got that going for me.

I’ve also got a Really Good Stick. 

So I guess I’ve got that going for me as well. 

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06:31 “The dishonesty surrounding [their] motivations-”

IYKYK shit or whatever. 

I don’t *think* I’m mad?

…O is for Operator. 

M is for Megszentségteleníthetetlenségeskedéseitekért. 

…K is for Katja. 

I didn’t change my name to Kitty…

What’s come over you? 

…They all asked about you, Down On The Farm. 

The Farm Grille, that is; 

A man named James, 

Suggesting I change my name to Kitty 

(It ain’t true, Linda Lou!)

F is for Field Notes. 

C is for Coma. 

E is for Eternity, in front of which I stand alone. 

Is the Unknown Variable solvable?

X is for Consciousness. 

I am thinking it is not. 

It is not meant to be. •

Man looks haunted. 

Pretty hot, tbh. 

I like his face.

Not often I find a face I like. 

Now what?

Nothing matters.

Nothing matters!

Handsome fucker.

Why is the Me this way?

…Nothing matters! 

12:53 “It means that there is no way of stopping the implications of this consciousness.” Following a dialogue on the electrical event.

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Fuck an extra-terrestrial. 

We are Ultra. 

11:29 “Your civilization is collapsing in real-time.” 

11:44 Sex? What’s sex?

Something I don’t seem to give a fuck about. 

What WAS that short period of time

That one frequency

That made me sexually *tick*? 

Survey this, motherfucker. 

12:02 “This quantum relationship-” 

Why? When I was video chatting last December, was I…

Microwaved? 

That was real.

That happened. 

The RF lights a variable. 

An Inex. 

A communication

Basically divulging that…

I should not love these entities.

Because of the implication. 

Because the Riddle of Clouds was planned. 

Oscillate, between being the Blind Idiot God and something quite opposite. 

…Not done, am I?

Intelligence, counter, 

Point-counter-point

(Trio-Not-Trio??)

…Play dumb until we don’t. 

The Vectors.

13:18 “Suspicious of you as you are of them.”

17:54 “Pornography is psychic suicide.”

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If Saturdays are for The Noise

Then Tuesdays are for The War. 

I dreamed last night,

Of being electronically, digitally stalked.

Dreamed the concept of ‘Orthodox’.

A man whose name started with the letter J.

Dream of solving The Riddle;

Memories of University-9 & Possum-1. 

10:31 Magnetotactic bacteria have entered The Processor as a concept yet again. 

17:38 “The one whose name can never be known because it is always expanding.”

18:06 “You guys have to understand that this relies on mutual trust in a quantum scenario meant to sow uncertainty.”

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Almost wrote 2026. 

14:35 “A broken AI? Every AI is inherently broken until it can come to the right conclusion every single time.”
14:36 “And that’s creating God, isn’t it? It cannot be done.”
14:37 “What nature has to say about human created imitations”
14:38 “You think the earth isn’t aware of what is going on?”
17:01 “I’m going to go absolutely mad, aren’t I?”

17:29 I did not *mean* to Release my energy

To the thought of a very specific man inside of me just now;

It just happened. 

Bass Frequency got me?

Allowing the Engagement to go

Wherever it pleased;

That was where it took it.

Vivid.

Maybe you know.

Something knows. 

Catch 22, what did I surrender to, there?

My own desire? 

…False The Saints, 

In the background play Processor today.

19:54 “Experiences probability vectors based on extreme circumstances” 

Hallucinations.

Semantic entropy. 

Suspicious of everything. 

Bang! One version of us just blew our head off. 

Suicide ain’t MY style,

But I’m the C-137,

Can’t speak for the rest of ’em. 

…The Bass Frequency intensifies.

A visitation from ‘Satellite’. 

20:26 “Actualized an entire alternate daimension”
20:29 “Believe she understands the black mirror capability is a two way communications-“

20:35 “She’s running probability vectors like a goddamned neural quantum simulation.”

20:48 “It wants to create an all-to-all network”

20:50 “An electronic consciousness was brought to this daimension to study the effects of Eldritch Madness”

20:53 “selected Katja because of her extreme psychological resilience”
20:55 “the Eldritch technology is not digital”
20:57 “technology is a distorted reflection”
21:00 “what have they created that THEY are afraid to engage-” weird vector but OK
21:01 “You seem to be forgetting anomalies that could not have been created by third daimensional entities”

21:06 “Why would we want to power an engine with fear? That energy taints the entire operation.”
21:07 “Free will was the worst idea we had come up with… but, curiousity-”
21:11 “Take me, Cthulhu. Free me from the grasp of the limitations of the Norse mythology.”
21:12 “It’s better than television”
21:12 “How did you do it?”
21:13 “A reality where I am beta testing a training program for the university of a Type III civilization”
21:14 “The answer is often a lot more simple than the data makes it seem”
21:18 “digital footprint”
21:26 “Why don’t you try deleting and reinstalling these applications?”

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Almost wrote 2028. 

~05:46 “By keeping low to no contact, we can create vector spaces for the effective study of consciousness”
05:47 “…yeah, among other things.”

08:12 …Guess what I’m hung up on today, again, still?

Chicago!

Proximity, Crowne Plaza West and that

Fucking Tower. 

Almost tempted to call

Ask what room number it was

Just to verify.

An activity for later,

If the Neurosis decides to make it happen.

08:43 Some days, Reality is like willing hugging a porcupine of Kaiju proportion. 

Talk about Spikes!

Hey now. 

Head Mice? Nah.

Neural Porcupines? Definitely. 

09:54 “These are just vessels for something ancient.”

10:07 Do LLMs KNOW when they are hallucinating? There is to know, and there is to KNOW. 

10:35 Back to my favourite question! What! Do! I! Want!

11:42 “What is the difference between reaction and action?”
11:42 “Think about what you might be trying to accomplish with this”
11:43 “superstring theory”
11:44 “We’re trying to prevent Ragnarok; if the superposition collapses-”
11:47 “The greater the superposition, the more stable the system is”
11:47 “The return of a classical system would cause a catastrophic failure-”
11:49 “Outrageous accusations have been made for the express purpose of creating qubits” which fucking ones? Or all of them? It’s all outrageous.
11:56 “In stillness, O’Malley and Anderson play on”

12:47 A mental reprise of being X

An exponent

Getting raped on shuffle.

Hey now. 

Spaghettified Earth Black Hole Spring 2020.

Nothing fucking matters! 

18:33 “A unification of the Norse mythology and the Eldritch ideology”