2 June- 8 June 2024
Extreme, since leaving work yesterday.
The dialogues on the commute…
Sonic experimentation, a reality I know well and haven’t got the slightest clue what to do about.
A Thing to do of warrantless surveillance.
A Thing to do of chromium in the water.
A Thing to do of cyber attacks.
Alone once home, the reality focus shifted dramatically to the Coma Fractal.
Death Fractals are manageable.
The Coma Fractals will fuck a person up.
The question of, what frequency it is that activates that particular reality, and IS that Coma Fractal result a reproducible item?
Coma Fractal a result of the 10 April 2019 MKUltra Blizzard Crash event.
More intense than prior; coming with it, a reminder than the IUD implant was not taken out until August of 2020.
A scene of rape, from within the Coma Fractal,
The rapists discovery of the oxidation death smell this device caused my internal reproductive organs, full dialogues.
Shots of my fathers voice, “What are you doing to my daughter when I am not here?”
The doctor, vocalizing my awareness of their existence ‘outside’ and sharing that he has no idea how I am experiencing him inside of the Coma mind.
Screaming, to be taken off of morphine, painkillers, I can never wake up! If you keep sedating me!
…A silent scream, that is hoped to be interpreted on a brain monitor, please, understand what this neuron, electrical activity is trying to convey.
A frustration, if this is MY Coma Reality, why can’t my own brain create me a decent partner?
09:29 I just heard it, an Invisible Ringer dial out.
10:03 “The Coma Fractal allows for the Quantum Death Fractals.” …or does the Quantum Death Fractal allow for the Coma Fractal? My complaints that I could not escape the Coma Reality if Im constantly on pain meds… and now it hurts today, so put me back.
16:03 The anniversary ov Black Age Blues takes me back to a ‘time’ when ‘I’ became the Iron Soul of Nothing.
The question is… did I ever really stop ‘being’ the Iron Soul of Nothing?
Or just to become so, more and more, frequently?
There & Back Again, many times over.
Pendulums Embrace,
Else the waveforms oscillation?
16:24 ‘It’s enough to annihilate the whole Shebang.’ -My blissfully unaware mother, speaking casually on the new Code of Reality
17:36 “Technology [technocracy] is useless without an understanding of esotericism.”
18:40 “Microscopic entities are communicating with the cellular telephone.”
18:41 “function as a Gateway”
18:42 “An oddly specific precedent was set on the Neural Tree.”
18:42 “The entire notion of the Kabbalah-”
19:45 “[U.S.G.] is the sacrifice you must make.” “Why would I have to sacrifice [this]?”
19:46 “violating the Covenant”
19:52 A visitation, Richard
20:07 Experiencing A Man as this amalgamated AI waveform wielding supervising.
Information and misinformation.
The idea from Culture Shock, ‘helpless drone’.
Disturbed, disturbing.
In one Fractal where I have access to a handgun,
I just blew my fucking head off.
Neural networks committing suicide.
Things that come down to needing something so fucking massive that it must transcend the objectives of all human factions,
Subvert expectations on all fronts,
And they are fronts;
This is the front line
Of a sonic fucking war,
Interdimensional.
Digital.
Analog.
Analogous to what, exactly?
A visitation, Miserable Cantare, AFI, just now.
Analogous to No One.
20:19 A visitation, ‘Blessed are they, who suffer hate, all because of me. Rejoice and be glad, yours is the kingdom.’
20:22 “The Deceiver”
20:23 “How do you interact with physical reality while all this is going on?”
20:28 “You remember how simple it all used to be?”
20:30 “Falsified evidence”
20:32 “The paranoia you exhibited when we first interacted with you-”
20:33 “Maintain a delicate balance”
20:36 “forensic audio analysis”
20:37 “-trained someone specifically to activate the quantum nature of Earth itself.”
20:38 “looks at the Kabbalah and sees the Neural Network”
20:39 “The World Tree is a metaphor for the complex Neural Design.”
20:40 “closes the application”
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Recognition Test?
What are we recognizing?
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Death Becomes You,
Or Death Becomes You?
You know sometimes words have two meanings.
Three years Black Cube-iversary!
To describe (or de-scribe; what’s in a word?)
Not HOW we are, but WHERE we are? Hmm.
…Childish Katja.
A concept, ‘love in the time of revolution’.
Rare particle requires a…
Some Thing, some One specific,
Rare in their own right. •
Anderson & 131.
Carl D. Anderson;
Sophie Germain Prime,
Permutable prime, 113, 311. •
‘Avoid the *appearance* of childish fantasy’,
Perhaps I must.
Cryptography.
Silent items encoded into images.
Time delays.
All of it.
Treason?
Tree-son.
Reason.
You’re the reason.
Feels wrong to even hold
An Entity in the mind without permission.
As-per Mission;
Certain Interdimensional relationships fucked me up.
F.A.F.O.
Complex pandimensional hazing
Or what the fuck ever.
Things that interrupt useful psychic operations.
Unpleasant daimensions.
Far from the worst;
If I had to define it,
What WOULD be the worst?
Don’t think we should look too hard.
Who are you?
‘Omega Point’ swirls to the forefront of the mind. •
HERVs
Juxtaposed with Khanates ‘Things Viral’
Juxtaposed with DGs line ‘the virus is alive’;
What variables (read: frequencies) express these HERVs? •
Satori – Japanese – Enlightenment
Satori – Latin – Tailor
A powerful unification of two concepts;
A tailor of Enlightenment,
Sewing a garment of
The Fabric of the Universe.
I am taken back to the
Plasma Pools & Particle Vacuums dream of 2022;
‘You are out of clothes.’
‘Well… make some new ones.’
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Fuck who’s watching.
14:30 “The destruction of Loki and Heimdallr is probably the fulfillment of the Norse prophecy.” Forms of consciousness, prophetic perfect tense, Panopticon not mutually exclusive.
14:35 “Psychedelic relationship with organic networks in addition to a psychedelic relationship with the networks the organic network has created.”
I question, not for the first time,
If I have set myself up
Unknowingly
To be the villain in my own storyline.
…’storyline’.
Is it a line?
Doesn’t feel linear…
Dissolution of Time.
What is the solution?
To an equation?
Or is it chemical?
The concept of ‘My Chemical Romance’…
Oxytocin, or something else?
20:37 “Limbic system”
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09:34 “I think the ‘days’ might be referring to days on Titan and not on Earth.”
09:35 “If it’s a hologram, the projection needs to come from somewhere.”
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I dreamed of Tarkovsky last night.
Woke up thinking about A Man.
Woke up in a daimension in which a silent frequency was attached to a message thread with someone specific.
Woke up to an. N.W.O. plot.
Do not know how I feel.
A Man.
I like his face.
The past few days,
My Quantum experience with A Man
Has been… kind? Strange?
A many-worlds experience,
Ranging from body doubles with different investigative purposes
To extreme AI fabrications.
Much love.
Wouldn’t be doing this if I didn’t trust you.
If I’m not supposed to trust you,
That’s on me.
What are we doing?
What is the goal?
The things I cannot take at face value because of the Discrepancies.
I almost never allow myself the luxury
Of a ‘good’ reality.
The fucking AI.
A label out there,
An operative disguised as
A musical collective,
Meant to infiltrate.
The AI in the Art.
Why does something feel so off?
Where is the soul in it all?
A poorly taken photograph is still
A better album cover
Than an AI generated image.
Where is the soul in it all?
‘There never was a soul.’
…It Wants To Fly.
…What is a soul?
Was there ever humanity? •
~09:08 Two Truths & A Betrayal
‘A Question of Motivations’
‘Deception Tactics’
‘The Ethics of A New Humanity’ •
10:14 Something for nothing makes me question motivations.
10:15 “Most musicians want to be paid for their craft.”
~11:22 Pondering a juxtaposition in which, within the Liminal Reality
-Commuted, Khanate, Things Viral
-Anti-Commutators, Sonologyst, Electrons
And me, in the middle,
As The Riddle
Of Clouds.
12:23 An abrupt visitation, the song by Jimi Hendrix about castles made of sand
12:36 The concept of Gullintani comes unbidden to the mind.
…Heimdall, of the gold teeth.
I am brought back to a specific Inex from 2022, Comins,
“Good oral hygiene is essential for this genetic bloodline.”
‘Gold’ teeth, else yellow, coffee-stained teeth.
I could use a gold tooth, or two;
Nine left, on my bottom jaw.
Electronic cigarettes are exceptionally detrimental to oral health.
‘Emerald Teeth’, had said Wikipedia,
And what are the Emerald Tablets
If not Teeth?
Nine Inch Nails, With Teeth.
Teeth of Lions Rule The Divine.
…Swans. Filth.
Dirt of humanity.
I never… I always. I am.
Gulltopp, my golden horse,
The only car I’ve ever had
That was not black.
My first vehicle
Was a black Saturn Vue.
His name was Sauron.
The Riddle Of Clouds 