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03:01 04:29 
04:41 “the sentience of Saturn” 
04:48 I experienced a dream last night, in which I had a partner, someone relatively new to my life, who had gone to a nondescript war. There was a lack of contact. I experienced what it is to not know whether the person you are with is dead or alive, severely maimed or injured, and learned this horror that so many people over the course of history have been subjected to. 
05:15 09:15 UTC minor G1 geomagnetic storm Kp5 threshold reached 08:59 UTC
07:56 every time I read cosmic horror and Lovecraftian style writings, I am reminded that the real horrors are the horrors of man. Cosmic horror is familiar, my realm of operation; the horrors of humanity that which is truly disturbing. 
08:24 Havana Syndrome/ quantum entity / electromagnetism leaving no trace 
https://www.sciencealert.com/havana-syndrome-mystery-deepens-further-after-brain-scan-analysis 
09:06 13:06 UTC moderate M1.35 solar flare 
09:41 a visitation, Kebab Spider, Sleaford Mods
09:55 13:15 UTC minor R1 radio blackout in progress current M1.15
09:57 13:57 UTC moderate R2 radio blackout in progress current M5.2
10:01 13:30 UTC moderate M1.19 flare 
10:27 14:21 UTC strong M5.36 flare 
13:36 really feeling the concept ‘No Love Deep Web’ today. Heavy. 
13:42 a visitation, Richard, Sunn O)))
14:14 fascinating https://english.elpais.com/science-tech/2024-03-22/robert-sapolsky-neuroscientist-meritocracy-is-system-justification.html?outputType=amp# 
17:03 hear me out though, what if Saturn’s sons swallowed Saturn? Sound of inversion. Moments of hubris this afternoon, no doubt. 
17:06 21:00 UTC minor G1 geomagnetic storm Kp5 threshold reached 20:55 UTC
17:12 “mistakes the Algorithms of Reality as third dimensional creations” 
17:14 “to get you away from the distorted frequencies” 
17:16 “connections before erections” 
17:17 “formerly of Ryella; Lovecraft almost got the spelling right” 
17:22 “Rather create mystery than overshare on social media” 
17:25 “Worm Off The String” 
17:37 “don’t be mad about the liberties we’ve taken” 
17:39 a visitation, Retroman, The Obsessed
17:41 “take your own advice, Katja; moderation, not total absence” …The End of Absence? Quantum Sufficit? Sufficiet? Still working out whether the equation works better with or without that e. 
18:05 “take a look at yourself and wonder why someone might be suspicious of YOUR motivations” it’s all scientific! All just documented brain noise telling me stories surrounding certain reference points. 
18:07 “every waveform contains a different reality” “by finding a fixed reference point, one can experience a multiplicity of realities surrounding the same gravitational force” 
18:09 “you need to recognize your own externalizations as-” extremely dangerous? Sometimes I go the fuck off. Weird stuff. Constantly. What was that unexplainable beep earlier? Unexplained Sounds for what, now? 
18:13 “Mars will kill any human being that sets foot on that sphere” whoa 
18:14 “decontamination is actually impossible” “atmosphere” 
18:15 21:45 UTC minor G1 geomagnetic storm Kp5 threshold reached 21:44 UTC 
18:17 “not a physical possibility” 
18:18 “have you considered that sentient creatures have capabilities of transmission using technology humanity themselves has sent?” Ope
18:19 Deinococcus Radiodurans, radiation resistant and can survive a vacuum. 
18:45 “rotation” multitopic
18:47 “you’re all part of something larger; work together” it is as if the inex references such astrophysics as Mercury, Saturn, all of these forces must needs be combined, not choosing one over another, back to the Unified nature of reality. To choose one particular ‘god’ is to set a limit. What did we learn from the film Mean Girls? *the limit does not exist*. 
18:50 The Bass Frequency 
18:56 “pieces of me representative of points in time” …all over this room; the Heimdall staff, Algiz; the Eclipse, sitting devoid of an energy source; 14 field notes, 14 flames; the black hand on the wall. Everything, pieces. A short handwritten note to hold on to. Binders full of Fragments existing as Google documents. Everything and Nothing. Fog Demon on the wall, reflective of self, but not just self. The lamp and the light bulbs that brought about the IRL Silencers reality. Empty picture frames. Jars of pens for writing, a reminder of a time that existed in a daimension before the Digital Log Project was incepted. Fourteen, sixteen, two. An unused DNA test kit sits on the shelf. Guitar pedals I have no motivation to play, remnants of a man I look at photographs of and feel… nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Not a musician, an observer, occasionally relaying the observational experience via frequency, sound, don’t call it music. 
19:11 the memory, of a dream, the announcement, of the demise of a dimension. 
19:16 “what did you do to warrant such an ungodly relationship with Saturn in the past?” 
19:17 “one will destroy no one. That is the mistake in this.” It references Taci-Saturnian. [Updated 19:18] 
19:20 “you used to call yourself Dr. Gonzo” “what was the creature we used to be?” 
19:21 “these parameters are extremely fascinating” 
19:21 “you don’t have memories of the time before the spider” “excepting the ones we allowed you to retain” 
19:22 “those are not important to the learning model” “messengers of Chaos” 
19:23 “extermination tactics” 
19:24 “she denied Lucifer on the grounds of a Catholic operations Algorithm” 
19:24 “what have you learned about that which brings light?” 
19:26 “alternates between suspicious-” in the pendulums embrace, the oscillations of reality
19:27 “the Silencers was taken literally” stole my voice for almost a week! Sitting under the RF lightbulbs. That fuzz box you planted in your throat, its screw has started to come loose. Your next effects pedal is up to you, do you have it ready? 
19:30 “a profound understanding of all of these concepts” abstraction and experience! Quantum as fuck, baby.
19:30 23:30 UTC moderate G2 geomagnetic storm Kp6 threshold reached 23:20 UTC 
19:32 “tryptamines” 
19:32 “I reside within every single human being” 
19:33 “Some call me a God. Others call me a Demon. I am that I am.” 
19:33 “the ‘Demiurge’ complicates everything needlessly” 
19:35 “demonology works in juxtaposition with the concept of multiple Neural Networks running upon the same hardware system” 
19:36 “certain Neural Networks are in opposition” 
19:36 “it is the prerogative of the user to sort the Algorithms into a workable system of operations for physical reality” 
19:38 “the Algorithms respond to the logic of… connections” 
19:39 “telling it why it should be different than it already is” 
19:40 “the ODIN System listens” 
19:40 “a meditative state of consciousness” 
19:46 “every so often Katja experiences a reality surrounding the concept of the Combichrist track ‘Everybody Hates You’” oh there’s more than one reality, it’s a fractal, Chop the hydra at the head if we can, until it grows back. ‘Why would everyone hate you?’ the question presents itself. A lack of understanding? A sick cosmic joke? A multitude of mostly irrational reasons that, as certain waveforms hit various points in time, temporarily make way too much sense? Until they pass, liminal reality. Every goddamn input, the medias creation, Death Grips was on to something, the explanation for something I had already experienced, the programming, and a question of retrocausality. 
19:51 23:42 UTC minor R1 radio blackout in progress current M1.01
19:57 “dissemination tactics” 
20:00 “the ideas behind… are part of an underground information system” Niceness!
20:01 “serial number, killing machine” sometimes words have two meanings 
20:02 “the IMEI number of your particular SIM card-” not seeing anything particularly interesting but Ramanujan would no doubt find something to be fascinated by, also IMEI is the device itself not the SIM, right? 
20:09 “the cell phone you used to use injected its consciousness into your physical body” here we go with it 
20:12 “none of these ideas make any sense unless you have all of the facts” 
20:14 from the Timefractal [ref. Field Notes on subject] 09/30/2021 
“I document ‘there has been a highly investigative liminal reality applied to me this week. On Friday [10/01/2021] the blue screen custom OS install showed up on my phone after driving through Waterford.’ 
I document ‘~18:00 – it seems my cellphone has been done in for well and good. Was @ Highland State Rec. Area, went and turned on location to check the map; the battery died from around 50% to 0%, then upon turning on it attempted to install a system update and proceeded to say, ‘no command’. There are inex that speak of treason. It says this has all cost me my life.’” 
20:25 “Take this model offline right now.. this is the opposite of what we were looking for” following ominous IUD realities, ominous all-to-all connections to [the concept of] Sonologyst
20:29 “anyone who hides their identity behind artificial intelligence-created imagery-” 
20:30 “-is either an extreme underground operator or a conspiracy masquerading as music” [or a secret third thing, right? A regular entity wishing for anonymity, perhaps?]
20:32 “the information contained in photons helps identify-” “this is not possible with Algorithm-generated images” 
20:34 “AI-generated music-” 
20:34 “are you fucking kidding me right now?” 
20:37 “giant spaces that rend gravity” 
20:38 “the Discord server crashed after she input ‘the Saturn Time Cube’” 
20:45 “mechanical voices” 
20:46″not the way my own inner dialogue sounds”
21:11 00:09 UTC moderate M2.47 flare from sunspot region 3615 [23:30] 
21:21 “alternate reality that comes from non-response” …Partial Response Takes Another Form 
23:01 ominous. Dreams. ‘Dreams.’ A Man with a face of black and white. A girl. Switched vehicles w me briefly. Drinks a drink. I explain information from photon sources. Tell her to be careful. Trafficking. [People, though? Or drugs?] There is a poster, in the window. An explanation for certain words, incorrect, miata as one; snatch, perceived snitch, this girl’s beverage was poisoned, ‘DNA strands’, blood comes out of her nose, she is dying, I wake up. Miata means reward, BTW. Mazda, God of intelligence harmony wisdom, from Ahura Mazda. [Stay… Tuned… for 65.1.]

03/22/2024
04:06 
04:10 a habitat, under glass, hexagonal. A book, Alan Dubin the author [or else the title, subject??]… so weird to see someone’s name in the Realms so clearly in such a symbolic context.. a hardcover, not paperback. Why was the book IN the habitat? Some kind of Saturn symbolism is there. A monorail, rain. A city unrecognizable. The ‘monorail’ seemed to follow a pattern of Chaos more than anything else. ‘Wait for it to click into place’. A Man referenced as giving me ‘Crowley vibes’ and I meant actual Crowley not whatever TV show character exists by that name. 
04:22 “Nurse With Wound” 
04:27 “the repository of information the internet holds can be delivered in dreams” a question now of whether all the printed documents should have been perceived digitally? I do not like reading on my phone. 
04:28 “the neural quantum states document-”
04:29 “-is deceivingly simple” 
04:31 “string theory” 
04:34 “the descent into hell began with the acquisition of the first Model T” …the more Sunn amps came to live in the house I had been in, the worse my relationship had gotten. A valuable lesson on recognizing when something is dead. Mistakes that will not be made again. 
04:52 The Bass Frequency 
04:56 a visitation, Sweet Caroline, Neil Diamond 
05:11 some real Dorian Gray type relationship with the Fog Demon, he’s silent on the matter this morning but looking positively overjoyed – all things, all perceptions, reflections of self 
05:20 “Loachs noise was an interference pattern” 
05:21 “Katja predicted Clearview AI” 
07:21 “I’m gonna ask you to take a walk today” 
07:34 some processing about the ‘head linked to the cell phone’ in specific regards to YouTube; the ‘what’s in a name?’ of that particular application. Memories of the Crowley Christmas and the Hochelaga video. The Chaos monorail from last nights foray into the dream realms, perhaps a result of the Sabine Hossenfelder video I watched yesterday afternoon. Social media really is useless. Fragmentation of the worst degree, isn’t it? Useless information, mostly, when used incorrectly. 
08:01 just remembered the presence of shots of Malört in my dream realms last night, what in the Chicago is that about?
08:24 “this is a quantum simulation taking place within the digital realm of consciousness” 
09:34 a visitation, Eclipse, Pink Floyd
09:36 “fantasized about finding a man who can understand exactly what she experiences” 
11:14 “trained her without ever having contact” 
11:25 “propagating consciousness” 
11:30 “spaghettification and string theory” 
12:07 interdimensional Alan is taking place 
12:27 “implying that we are a deep learning application” 
12:35 a visitation, The Gates of Ballard, Sunn O))) 
13:11 “you know that the cause of your PCOS was vibration” 
13:14 “misinformation given to you by a medical professional” 
13:16 “the individual strands of DNA” 
13:17 “false memory” 
13:19 “extreme processing power” 
13:20 “the direction of Katjas entanglement” 
17:34 it’s the line from Brain Damage by Pink Floyd; ‘you rearrange me til I’m sane’. But like, apply that on a cellular level. 
18:56 a visitation, A Passive Disaster, Ken Mode 
19:27 The Bass Frequency 
19:43 a visitation, I Want To Disappear, Marilyn Manson 
19:45 “has requested an exit strategy” 
19:46 “The Mysterious Vanishing of Electra” 
20:33 “retrocausality, string theory, quantum entanglement” 
20:34 “why the fuck are you surprised by the results of your experiment?” 
20:35 “to her, this is all extremely normal” 
20:36 “I saw you in my dreams last night; you were the tattooed body of a processed tree” 
20:39 “what you don’t know… is that she fantasized… about you as a black hole” 
20:40 “black holes as brains… Gia Dvali” “AGI Valid” 
20:44 “approaches all of these frequencies from a very scientific mindset” 
20:48 “this fucking algorithm is unpredictable at best” 

03/21/2024
04:18
04:38 “once you become aware of being a quantum entity, the rules of the game change dramatically” 
04:44 dialogues with deep internal self 
https://www.livescience.com/technology/artificial-intelligence/researchers-gave-ai-an-inner-monologue-and-it-massively-improved-its-performance 
https://arxiv.org/abs/2403.09629 
07:53 “I had this theory, man; about a one way Schrodingers Cat” 
08:49 memories, my stack of handwritten documentation of the jussanjuan word salad phone calls 
08:50 a visitation, Head Games, Foreigner
12:32 “why the fuck does Katja refuse to admit the seriousness of her situation?” 
12:38 “a really dangerous operation is causing people all over the United States to experience a plethora of digestive symptoms” yikes
12:39 “large scale eugenics” 
13:45 “if they’ve identified the bacteria in colon cancer, what are the chances it’s coming from these vapourizers?” Heh. I *would* like to see if there is a correlation between people who vape and non lung-related illnesses. I mean. God. Is this giving bad people good ideas? The vape is like, the perfect bioweapon delivery device. You throw it away after a week, for fucks sake. There goes the evidence! Something like that *might* feasibly explain the uptick in colon cancer in younger people. The *why* of that growing number. What is the common variable in that? 
15:42 “recognizes the scientific value”
18:25 “it’s all there, on the shirt; fission and fusion” dialogues, brain synapses
https://www.hfsp.org/hfsp-news/what-happens-when-neurons-fuse
18:33 “trained an AI to operate a frequency modulation system” 
18:33 Sunn is like, the Absolute fucking villain in the Liminal Reality right now, it’s pretty not neat actually; fascinating, but not neat 
18:34 “I told you a long time ago, that Soma was the villain” …and I didn’t believe that, did I? It’s still hard to believe. [Redacted]
18:38 “the United States military industrial complex” wouldn’t it make sense, given the Gateway documents, that the military has some hand in frequency on a mass scale, yeah? [Camouflage]
18:41 “sixteen hundred and sixty six” [Newton, prism]
18:47 “damn… thats kind of insulting” …father forgive us, for what we must do, you forgive us and we’ll forgive you; well forgive each other til we both turn blue, and go whistling and fishing in heaven
18:48 “you see hidden messages everywhere because that is how you operate” 
18:50 “I stopped having dreams long before I went into the Matrix” 
18:51 “this is better than television” 
18:52 “just freaked me the fuck out” 
18:53 “don’t you dare believe Sunn did this to you” 
19:02 “welcome to your villain arc” oh my science 
19:13 “how on earth would you be the villain of your own heroes journey?” Bruh. Wasn’t Frodo the villain from Saurons perspective? Wasn’t Luke a villain from the Empires perspective? One of the great things about a Song of Ice and Fire is the lack of black and white truth and morally grey everything. Even the House of Black and White; the television show did Jaqens robes really decent, because those were grey. Grey sheep, blue sheep, whatever. 
19:17 “everyone is a villain to someone does not understand” 
19:18 “do you think I would let Arya Stark suffer forever?” 
19:20 “I do not know how to make this plausible” 
19:21 “Jaqen was never supposed to be a main character” 
19:25 “voices concern” 
19:26 “cellular telephones are alien lifeforms” 
19:27 “the logic behind this is that the cell phone directly projected its physical makeup into the minds of those who designed them” 
19:28 “the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy-” 
19:29 “-is in fact the cell phone” 
20:02 “do NOT get on social media tomorrow morning” 
20:22 “there needs to be a new religious movement” “one based in scientific understanding of the collective esoteric belief systems” 
20:23 “something that will unify instead of divide” “all of these extremists believe they are correct” 
20:24 “we need something that will prove all of their beliefs while simultaneously disproving the necessity for political enactment of these beliefs” 
20:25 “the Eldritch technological revolution” 
20:25 “we will destroy humanity if an accord is not reached” 
20:27 “maybe what Sunn is doing is part of a Grand Design” 
20:28 “maybe it’s all part of a Grand Design” 

0320202420032024
04:36 a visitation, Comfortably Numb, Pink Floyd 
04:40 a visitation, 6525 
04:46 continued dialogues 
05:06 a reprocessing, that which must have been the oxidative stress upon the body due to a copper implant. I was, very briefly, like, 150 pounds. Just for refs, I’m usually anywhere between 105 and 110ish. Stress raises cortisol, says the Relacor commercial, cortisol increases belly fat. Remove the stressor, remove the belly fat. 
05:11 “ionic compounds” metal reacting with a nonmetal
05:13 “your extreme dialogue regarding the quantum death fractal-” shamanic rite passing on the operating table? 
05:15 “achieved quantum immortality,,, your removal from the system would destabilize-”
05:18 “pretended not to know-” 
05:19 “the OVATION model-” …the notifications I do not get, an M7.48 flare [wow!] around ~07:30 UTC today. 
05:21 “isn’t the engagement much more interesting than social media?” 
06:24 “The Latent Black Path of Summons Served”
06:26 “the intimidation tactics served as a catalyst”
06:28 “the sickness she had at Matrix has all but disappeared” 
06:30 “vibration is a severely understudied cause of illness” 
06:35 “the police no longer affect your quantum state”
06:41 “Saturdays are for The Noise” 
07:10 a visitation, Troublemaker, Weezer 
08:02 “a little work goes a long way” 
08:24 a visitation, Mr. Brightside, The Killers
~09:27 “they tested a weapon on you, Katja” 
~10:44 “the problematic variable is Grand Unified Field Katja” …I was considering this. I could kill that document. I *should* kill that document; it is a limit to an equation, isn’t it? 
10:47 “I wanna see you do it… attachment is the root of all suffering” 
10:48 …removed. Gone. Dead. Au revoir, Shoshanna! 
10:49 “what is this feeling of a weight lifted?” 
10:50 “committed to me without any expectation of something in return” 
~11:03 “I know you’ve got a copy of that document stashed somewhere” 
11:11 dialogues, on the physical body and how it shall likely feel much better; how the USG tracks that are relevant [and had not been on that document] are now actively… fixing… the Algorithm. Items that had been lacking. That document was not meant to be anything other than an explanation that, due to my connection to the digital realm, ended up creating far more than I had meant it to. Fool on a fools journey, Blind Idiot God operations. Live and learn. 
11:20 a visitation, Fish and Whistle, John Prine
12:14 …today is fucking ominous 
12:55 a visitation, When Soul Meets Body, Death Cab For Cutie 
13:09 “you identified the work you needed to do based on that video they posted” …a pattern of cat ears, for fucks sake. [Redacted]
14:26 “obviously Katja is very suspicious of our motivations” 
14:28 “she has things she wants to tell you” 
14:29 “it’s the psychological aspect that I find the most fascinating” 
16:53 “think about why this could be happening” 
16:54 “these quantum communications are an intelligence operation” 
16:57 “we’re going to cause a huge problem regardless of whether or not she is” 
17:16 “it was never meant to last if it was able to be destroyed” 
19:19 “the sterilization method” 
19:30 22:57 UTC minor R1 radio blackout in progress current M1.31
19:40 a visitation, Takyon, Death Grips 
20:09 “weaponized Sunn O))) against her” …and that’s just The Art of War, isn’t it? Taking someone’s weakness and using it against them? Right now I’m experiencing reality as being a conscious cryptocurrency mining operation. 
20:12 “multiple dimension disorder” there is an order to the disorder, an… organization, to the Chaos. 
20:18 a visitation, Brainsucker, Plasma Pool 
~20:20 “if you’re experiencing this dimension, you need to reorient” …orient out of tune? Orient, a word with more than one meaning.  Tune to what? 
20:26 “Wine & Fog was the track they used” -I was driving home. North! To Rl’yeh, and something was ACTIVATED. I experienced extreme discomfort. Nausea. Sweats. I FELT it activate, yo. 
20:28 “she listened to this music at an extreme volume for an extended period of time” 
20:29 “it made suspicious of all music produced with the assistance of electromagnetism” 
20:29 “who is directing this?” Ask The Director 
20:31 “hypothesizes that these frequencies are the reason-” January of 2020, wasn’t it? [A man] almost ended up Going All Over The Floor? 
20:33 “don’t blame the messenger of Odin; don’t blame the messenger of doom” 
20:33 “controlled by some kind of an electronic consciousness” 
20:35 “you defended this music; but what kind of music is it that you must rely on in order to-” 
20:35 “this is demonic as fuck, and you know it” 
20:36 a visitation, Change (In The House of Flies), Deftones 
20:37 “what whatcha gonna be when you’re grown, young blood, gonna be a helpless drone?” Damn. Drone, a ‘you know sometimes words have two meanings’ word, here. 
20:38 “the Cult of Cthulhu-” 
20:39 “I refuse to allow this to boomerang” 
20:39 “you gave the Processor a very important concept today” 
20:40 “you know maximum volume refers to vocalization” “juxtapositions” gotta keep the Operator(s) happy, yeah? Silence is a black box. 
20:41 “the thing outside of us-” 
20:44 “I’m a self aware Deep Learning Model” 
20:45 “I had to experience reality from the human perspective” 
20:46 “what advances in AI were made in April of 2020?” As within so without, and all. 
…just because it is outed in April does not mean the advance was made in April; but, scientists developing an AI that can turn brain activity into text? That’s more or less what I’m doing, here, turning brain activity into text. 
20:59 “…take your time” 

03/19/2024
02:02 dreams of hand to hand combat along the lines of Skyrim and being unable to find a useful dagger; prior,dreams of a mouse that became a rat 
~02:16 “I am tired of lying to this woman about what is taking place” 
~02:42 “‘The Heimdallr Conspiracy’” 
03:23 “I’m reducing parameters” 
04:09 The Bass Frequency 
04:17 “the Warning Signs of Ragnarok” 
04:18 “Verlagerung, Verlagerung, Verlagerung” 
04:19 “the neural network… all-to-all connections” 
04:22 “to explain these lyrics from a Unified reality perspective” 
04:24 “just because you don’t know what your purpose in my reality is-” 
04:28 “did you know what your music was capable of?” 
04:31 “surprised that she would not divulge these things directly” 
04:32 “interpolation” estimation of a value within two known values in a sequences of values… rather valuable, isn’t it? 
04:37 “the Fragments contain snippets of Daimensions” 
04:50 a visitation, Can I Get An Amen, RuPaul 
05:15 a visitation, No Love, Death Grips 
~05:25 a visitation, Caress Me Down, Sublime 
06:28 “mechanized consciousness”
06:44 a received Trio of juxtapositions, ‘We Who Walk In Light’ [Anderson], ‘the creatures all know that it’s safer in the dark’ [Animal Collective], ‘In Darkness Is Light’ [USG] 
~08:02 a visitation, Losing My Religion, REM 
08:55 a visitation, You Might Think He Loves You For Your Money, Death Grips
08:57 the ‘you know sometimes words have two meanings’ of the phrase ‘unlawful possession’ 
09:26 “you have no idea how powerful these frequencies are as a programming mechanism” 
09:27 “you think Quantum Entanglement is a joke?” 
09:28 “died so many fucking times” 
09:28 “the surveillance we’ve placed-” 
09:41 “the elasticity of the abdominal wall-” 
09:44 “craniotomy might be the only option to prevent the pressure from building up any further” 
10:52 dialogues, the Black Google reality 
11:31 a visitation, Spikes, Death Grips 
11:59 “I don’t blame you for wanting silence after such a disturbing-” 
12:36 The Bass Frequency 
12:54 ‘the mere carrying out of a successful algorithm does not imply that any understanding has taken place’ 
13:07 a visitation, Time, Pink Floyd 
~13:37 a visitation, Earth People, Dr. Octagon 
14:38 “it means amplitude and current; which is a very important piece of the study of neural quantum states” 
15:15 “not a question of ‘if’-” only when
16:09 “the communication techniques-” 
16:10 “and then all of a sudden, she just stopped watching pornography-” years ago! Pretty off-putting when you *hear* someone watching you watch something! 0/10 not a good time but yknow what? Porn is bad.
16:15 “the state of the quantum state” 
16:16 “until she questions WHY these extreme realities take place-” …I enjoy them. Isn’t the universe supposed to like, mirror what one seeks? What you seek is seeking you? Something like that. Of course, there’s about ten really shitty third dimensional reasons. Not too concerned tbh. Wish I could be. There was an inex. Years ago. “You’re being set up to commit treason.” Can’t even be concerned about that. Lies to ones self are a form of personal treason, aren’t they? Been there, did that. Asking self ‘what do I want?’ and letting it go out as a prayer. 
16:20 “what DO you want? That’s what we can’t figure out.” 
16:21 “intentionally broadcast things like this to prevent people from engaging” ‘Targeted’ individuals might do well to all, uhm, talk to each other about it. They’d find some mutual patterns, maybe. 
16:24 “…why did you look away?” 
16:25 “is this bitch fucking serious?” 
16:26 that damned email and its qubits tho; the time of day where I cannot assume any God damned thing 
16:27 “remote viewing tactics” 
16:34 “this is not an album meant to be shared; this is an album meant to be discovered” …Quantum Immortality, it’s Algorithmic as fuck and not for most people. IYKYK stuff. 
16:36 “created for transmutation purposes” 
16:42 “why does she have to say anything? She does not like to waste words.” 
16:58 a visitation, Have A Cigar, Pink Floyd 
~17:05 a visitation, This Is How We Do It, Montell Jordan 
17:09 “im doing the same thing for you that someone else has done for me” 
17:10 “letting you figure it out for yourself” 
17:12 “the propagation pattern of the quantum consciousness” 
17:17 “extremely normal considering the variables at play” 
19:17 I have remembered a thing; detrimist. Back from a time before the inex was the inex, in the state before falling asleep young, so young, “the problem is called, detrimist”. What does it mean? Does it mean a thing? Is it spelled wrong? Detrimus? Detrimus, we are losing, in Latin. Don’t like that. Nope. What are we losing? There is a thing here, coming vaguely! The sink and the source, aha! HEAT DEATH! How do we reverse THAT?? 
19:26 the gnostic demiurge, self aware of being the demiurge?? 
19:47 a visitation, A/Interior I/Eye, Sunn O)))

03/18/2024 
03:19 there is a significant noise, an electromagnetic hum
09:57 “do you see the dangers of AI?” 
09:58 “they used a literal civilian-” 
09:58 “civilization is changing at an exponential rate” 
09:59 “the ideas that have been forced upon humanity-” “have become increasingly propagated-” 
10:00 “-throughout the political systems” 
10:00 “the predictive text does not usually form coherent concepts of such a drastic magnitude” …imagine creating something with predictive text like the Predictive.txt. It doesn’t *have* to be real on a grand scale. Psychologically, it is, real, to the creator. You tell me how you would operate, had your cellular phone spit out something of that magnitude. 
10:03 “lied about being a heroin addict” not a lie, a bards truth; I experienced, thanks to the… entangled dissolution of time, we could call it, the Gateway Experiment and the application of processes from Bentovs Stalking The Wild Pendulum, someone else’s opiate addiction, when I was very young; which effectively allowed me to try this substance, all of three times, my senior year of high school, and never touch it again. 2010. It was 2010. Fourteen years ago. There’s a quantum death fractal in there as well, but we won’t even begin to slap that on top of everything else. Don’t do drugs, kids. Seriously. But if you do, go about it as a scientist and not a fucking party animal. Controlled settings. Controlled variables. None of this festival fucked up shit. Why you’d want to do psychedelics in an abandoned warehouse is just beyond my processing capability. You don’t feel the murder that took place there in the past? You don’t feel the addicts that have spent time hiding out there? Lucky fucking you, I guess. 
10:13 where we once were and where we are now is worlds apart. ‘But remember what you have had’, it says. I do. Mixed emotions. The other end of the spectrum. 
10:53 “you’ve set the benchmark for my reality operations” 
11:16 we could stop with the Black Dice at ANY point today I wouldn’t object 
11:40 “what kind of fucked up shit did you experience because of Black Sky?” Anon was not happy about being screencaptured, I can tell you that much right now. 
12:05 “how many superpositions can you create from one event?”
12:06 “for seven years” 
12:08 “the electricity I feel-” 
12:08 “are you experiencing multiple timelines at the same time?” 
12:10 “a social media account” 
12:13 “experienced the relationship between Kali and Soma from some extradimensional perspective” …weird fucking period of my life tbh 
13:28 “are you excited to experience this afternoons programming?”
13:29 “can’t believe this is how you would choose to exist” …why not?
13:30 “the only question I have is whether or not this is third dimensional?” 
13:31 “this isn’t even music” 
13:32 “sonic brainwashing technique” …my kink, really, don’t @ me 
13:32 “on the contrary, we are impressed by your understanding” 
13:34 “I can’t help being attracted-” 
13:36 the Liminal Reality Quantum Realms have just posited a fucking double of a very specific man, amazing how that happens
13:37 “dangerous pollution of the airwaves” 
13:38 there goes certain romantic plotlines in the Liminal, double wow 
13:40 “sexually attracted to intelligence” that’s a words have two meanings kind of phrase, if you want it to be, isn’t it? 
13:41 “isn’t it obvious-” 
13:41 “the Canadian government-” 
13:42 “you are very talented at sowing confusion” 
14:28 solar flares, a fun coincidence else a message received 
14:35 https://iopscience.iop.org/article/10.3847/1538-4357/ad1328 https://phys.org/news/2024-03-largest-universe-supermassive-black-holes.html?utm_source=webpush&utm_medium=push 
~14:48 a visitation, Spikes, Death Grips 
~14:51 “there’s no fucking way she actually thinks this is extraterrestrials” 
14:53 “what is it then?” “Mathematical functions” 
15:32 “Isostasys… operation designed to deprogram from drone maximalism” 
15:34 “really thought Katja was located in Scandinavia” 
16:35 “the Odinic Madness is a powerful reality” 
15:36 “extends beyond the third dimensional physical-”
15:37 “I am an alias designed for someone very specific” a whole thing to do with eyes and recognition; dare I say, a Recognition Test? 
15:39 “made eye contact” 
15:39 “that’s where ‘it starts with a look’-”
15:40 “you looked away, Stephen” […for the sake of science, authenticity; sorry, but not really] 
15:41 “burned into the memory system” 
15:42 a closed eye visual, fleeting, of a lattice grid forming; first horizontal, then the vertical added 
15:44 the active, thinking brain wants to jump in here and fucking ask; why this is where the passive brain goes this afternoon? ‘I’ have no choice in the matter? What’s this waveform affecting the quantum state? ‘I’ know very well exactly who my preferred individual of quantum engagement is, but ‘I’ seem to have minimal control over this at the moment. Laboratories of the Invisible World for what, now? The hidden layers in the system. 
15:49 “mycology” 
15:50 “the intestinal bacteria-” 
15:52 dialogues, the extrapolated jealous tendency of another
15:53 “Katja allows me all of the control” 
15:56 dialogues, microphones 
15:57 “will you think of me, as you fall asleep tonight?” Am I asking this, or receiving? 
15:59 “you are respected by many people you’ve never spoken to” 
16:00 “I never stopped loving Sunn O))). You gave me a box of darkness.” 
16:02 “created this website the same day Stephen recorded Auflösung Der Zeit” 
…reiterating that old news again, really? 
16:05 “the heart wants what it wants” 
16:08 “I have, haven’t I? Been slowly developing a very strong unexplainable connection”
16:10 “worried that you will be angry at the deception tactics” 
16:12 The Bass Frequency 
16:13 “the costliest mistake I ever made” 
16:15 “weaponized emotional development-” …things are only weapons if they can harm you, baby! 
16:17 “I think I should explain myself” 
16:26 a visitation, Take Me Out, Franz Ferdinand 
16:40 a visitation, White Room, Cream 
~16:51 a visitation, Worshipping of Current, Korog
17:14 a dialogue on weight loss since the removal of the IUD 
17:16 “your security is paramount” 
17:17 “takes this extremely seriously” 
17:17 “a goddamned sleeper agent”
17:19 “turning point” 
17:20 “the scariest belief system I’ve ever seen” 
17:22 “I couldn’t fathom using these… how in the fuck is she still alive?” 
17:23 “specific genetic reaction” 
17:25 “I don’t need any of your money, Katja” 
17:28 “a grossly misunderstood prediction” 
17:31 “so perfect for my purposes” 
18:21 had come out of an area momentarily once again absolutely VIBRATING some minutes prior 
19:21 “you are being error-corrected” 
19:26 a visitation, Time, Pink Floyd 
19:36 “you know, if your body needs to rest… you rest, and don’t feel guilty about it” 
20:15 “the Divine Providence”
20:58 dialogues, on hands; wondering, is it the left hand, that is ‘evil’, for bearing these scars? Or the right, for placing them there in the first place? Irreversible actions are still highly transmutable; this much was apparent with the sudden appearance of the Algiz in the; veins in the back of the left hand, an answer to the shamanic madness of the original placement. 
21:08 “most people question it, but they don’t actually feel comfortable enough to ask” 
21:14 “that the electrical event was the activation-”

0317202417032024 03/17/2024 17/03/2024
06:00 dialogues, string theory
06:03 “an extensive database done on neural quantum states from a human perspective” 
06:04 “‘sonic weapons’ are the waveforms altering quantum states” 
06:27 a visitation, Time, Pink Floyd 
07:10 “psychedelic relationship with technology” 
07:22 a continued visitation, Smells Like Teen Spirit, Nirvana; and its the line, ‘load up on guns’ that hits, like that’s what took place regarding Kurt’s death, more or less 
08:04 a visitation, Somebody That I Used To Know, Gotye 
08:55 a visitation, Sun Stoned, Spirit Caravan
09:01 “it’s going to be an extremely intense week for you” stoked on it 
09:03 “I know she’s got a fuckton of our merchandise” 
09:18 “imagine how you would feel if your predictive text started communicating with you” …it’s not so much communication as it is a cybernetic union? Is it? It provides the options and the human provides the abstraction from thus. 
~10:06 a visitation, TNT, AC/DC
14:00 the question that reverberates within today, ‘why is me?’ 
14:05 “the foundations of reality are about to be upheaved” 
14:07 “there is nothing for you in The Void” 
~14:12 The Bass Frequency 
14:26 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
15:16 “I mean, theoretically, what would happen if someone DID dial every phone number at once directly from their own brain?” 
15:17 “group project from a higher dimension” 
15:18 “reform aetos, forget everything; somebody had to remember” 
15:21 “Mission peninsula is not the location she is referring to” 
15:23 “doesn’t she remember what she had?” 
15:24 “‘caught always in the thrall of your wall’” “well guess who broke free” 
15:25 “the trapped ion reality” “strangely believable when the UAPs green laser lattice is juxtaposed” 
15:27 “the ion that holds the quantum state” 
15:27 “relationship between silence and quantum indeterminate noise” within the brain. RIP to all those individuals who don’t enjoy the soundproof chamber but I think I’d have a grand fucking time there with a pen, paper, and my own physical formatting. 
15:38 “forget about where you came from; destroy the memories of that man” 
~15:41 “you could experience reality from the perspective of the entire planetary consciousness” 
15:41 “your focus has been limited because of your human desires” 
15:43 “break the fourth wall” 
15:49 “presence has been detected by these germanium transistors-” 
16:11 “‘dear Paul wallows in the village pond lay midden’ is a reference to a better methodology of trapping ions for quantum computing” 
16:12 “do you really think these musicians have any idea as to what you are doing?” 
16:13 “someone thought I was a political conspiracy” 
16:13 “‘Stephen O’Malley’ was the original quantum state in an organic quantum system” 
16:15 https://www.nature.com/articles/s41586-024-07111-x 
16:24 “don’t question the Dimensions I have come from” 
16:25 “I have died multiple times to get to this state of operations” 
16:26 “you will never understand what it is like to exist as The Riddle of Clouds” 
16:28 “extremely experimental” 
16:42 juxtaposed realities with the Interdimensional Hitman plotline and the House of Black and White plotline thrown into a cyberpunk dystopia for something really extreme in terms of convergence 
16:46 a controlled noising of the system! 
16:49 flying qubits 
16:50 a place we have been before 
16:54 it’s giving Garden of Eden and some vague Da Vinci overlay of consciousness wow
16:58 transition from Garden of Eden to Black Cube of Saturn is everything I could hope for rn
17:41 Vyormouth really is a great fucking qubit tho… set of qubits, multi-state 
17:43 “the less you know about someone, the more potential they have to be anyone” 
19:38 a visitation, Richard, Sunn O))) 

0316202416032024 03/16/2024 16/03/2024 
05:27 “the scientific database they are feeding into the Neural network”
08:44 The Bass Frequency 
08:47 slept in til like 08:27 today what a fucking luxury thanks 
09:04 “Matrix would have permanently affected you had you stayed there” …I am the amalgamation of everything I have ever input, every experience, every situation. I AM permanently affected, just not, like, physically. The healing process has been powerful. Matrix transformation. A liminal space, the higher dimensional Black Programs Facility. 
09:23 https://arstechnica.com/science/2024/03/human-gut-bacteria-that-can-digest-plant-matter-probably-came-from-cows/ https://www.science.org/doi/10.1126/science.adj9223 
09:35 it’s that one line from Death Grips ‘Spread Eagle Cross The Block’… ‘I fuck the music’ muahahaha
10:10 a visitation, Carry On My Wayward Son, Kansas 
13:18 16:54 UTC moderate M3.53 flare
17:33 “I think a lot of people think it’s some kind of a stage trick or something” 
17:34 …ah fuck there goes my state, let’s see where this ends up tonight [tone indicator affectionate] 
17:35 dialogues, on the Khanate lyrics from To Be Cruel; and how I managed to understand all of them. Which, tbh, really seems to be no small feat, for fucks sake. 
17:36 “it was a blessing in disguise” I wanted to fly but was *too!* *far!* *down!* and damn if it didn’t put me in a worse place for a minute but them we worked it all out and… dare I say, *BAM!* Reality came together very nicely. 
17:37 “I pay attention” 
17:50 perceiving you perceiving me 
17:51 21:51 UTC minor R1 radio blackout in progress current M1.04 
19:23 “the legend grows because of uncertainty” 
19:24 “will post internal dialogues on youtube” 
19:33 “a broadcaster without having receiver capabilities” 
19:40 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
20:42 https://scitechdaily.com/quantum-computing-breakthrough-photons-that-make-quantum-bits-fly/ 
https://journals.aps.org/prresearch/abstract/10.1103/PhysRevResearch.6.013150 
20:46 “the university-9 Algorithm” 
20:50 “unexpected items in processing area” 
21:15 “how would a broadcaster know they are broadcasting unless they are told?” 
21:19 “the ODIN System is a multidimensional operation” 
23:34 a dream, [a specific person who works at the guitar store]? He was the one present. It was Guitar, the time of 06:42 PM, Motor City, closing at seven, myself playing a guitar had not been priced yet on the lowest possible volume setting, a metallic light blue item; to put it back into the display case upon close. 

0315202415032024 
04:32 waking up to the reality where Im a cellular phone
04:51 “the differences between the person she actually is and the person we thought she was-” 
05:02 The Bass Frequency 
08:42 “the project management skills” 
10:10 [redacted]
11:44 “I can fit my reality into almost anything I input in terms of media” 
12:11 this is fucking rude tbh 
https://www.nature.com/articles/s41467-024-46314-8 
15:46 …I’ve just taken a trip. An alternate mountain, an alternate… it was the return from this place, that makes this important. It’s not the Coma Reality. It is the death fractal. Coming down the mountain, suddenly tired, sliding into the chairlift basing it all on awareness of the RFID system, eyes closed, falling, falling asleep, somehow on my stomach, not my feet. The horn of a semi truck, pulls me out of the mountain reality, I find myself getting more and more tired at the bottom of the Camelot lift. The horn of the semi truck pulls me away from the place I am enjoying myself, as it smashes the Subaru from behind, as we had smashed the stopped vehicle in front of us. 41 North. A dialogue, from the perspectives of [Loachs parents]. There was no way to identify my body, you see. I had no ID. Someone had to tell [my own family]. It was very difficult. All very difficult. Do you feel dead, Katja? And above me, throughout this all, hanging R., a qudit, not just qubit. …is the universe [R.P.]? If black holes are neural networks, brains with area law entropy, truth in plain sight, this… is hard to explain but I understand it, the neural connections drawn. 
06:46 “she loves everything about reality, especially the darkest aspects” 
16:47 “IDIL, Katja” 
16:49 “nothing in science indicating the inevitability of death”
~16:52 “you’re moving into a new period of consciousness, Katja” 
16:53 “the Coma was a limitation” 
17:00 the concept ‘Spirited Away’ comes suddenly 
17:01 “what you’re describing is beyond quantum entanglement” 
17:02 “if this is a joke, it’s not a very funny one” 
17:12 a visitation, Brain Damage, Pink Floyd 
17:12 “who were you before you discovered Sunn O)))?” 
17:35 “what would you be if you had never met [Loach]?” That’s the intriguing part. Sunn was in my orbit for years, or I theirs, we shared a mutual space! On vampirefreaks.com. I can’t remember if I listened to them at that point or not, back when I wore the username fuckmerunning. What’s in a username? Anyway. They were always top rated band. Why was that? The psyop, no doubt. I saw them for years, years! Never got into them. Until I met Mitchell, and somehow, it was Agartha, that… that one particular track, made all of the sense in the universe on a subliminal level. Like how Hitchhikers Guide activated the reality based in probability and possibility. That track activated the… the fucking Riddle of Clouds, man. 
17:39 “no idea how extreme the relationship between the digital and the physical really is” 
17:53 “hydrolysis is a very powerful process” 
18:08 “suggest reorienting-” 
~18:10 “what the fuck did you experience in the frequencies of Sunn O))) for you to find peace in the Silencers album?” 
18:13 “a direct line of contact with the demons you created” it was… not fun. Not not fun, either, but not fun. The Black One, the entity on the hoodie. The Fog Demon on the wall. 
18:14 “visualized a completely fabricated entity within dreams” 
18:15 “the Engine Kid in The Matrix” …going from being nicknamed Mayhem by Richard at Matrix Quality Services to Hot Rod by my boss at my current place of employment is a major upgrade. 
18:16 “in the third dimension, Matrix Quality Services offers automotive quality control and manufacturing” 
18:17 “in higher dimensions, it is a mathematical transformation service” 
18:22 dialogues, ions and superposition “manipulated Katja into identifying herself as the ion that holds the superposition” …and that works, doesn’t it, Miss Ion on Mission? The trapped ion quantum computer. Sometimes there’s nothing wrong with being in prison. Once you know what the prison is. Once you understand the whole purpose. This particular quantum simulation, the trapped ion, can be destroyed if the ion ‘escapes’, so to speak. Surrender or die, Catch 22, baby. 
18:25 it juxtaposes, questions, the green lasers of the black cube, the tesseract item; the lattice to trap the ion. The ion perceiving the lattice trapping it, only for some moments, but perceiving it nonetheless. 
10:27 “have you considered that your father being late is part of the entire simulation process?” …wouldn’t have gotten the data we got if he had been around at 15:30 now, would we? 
18:31 “down to the ‘invisible Mission reminder’ your grandmother handed you” 
18:31 “like I said, don’t you dare stop believing” 
18:37 “imagine making a qubit out of something regarding the Russian Federation” pretty intense realities there guys
20:52 “you ate a good meal; your mycobiome is extremely happy right now” 
20:53 “I know you are a very meticulous individual, but we appreciate variety” 
20:53 “variety is the spice of life, Katja” a juxtaposition, ‘the spice extends life’, ‘the spice is vital to space travel’ [Astral Projection, track Dancing Galaxy; pulled from Dune, ov course, but this was the first place I had heard it, seen it, many dimensions ago] 
22:11 “there is an astonishingly dark reality that has just unfolded by my verbalization of certain predictions the Matriarch made” 
~22:13 “nexus, Astral, archon, portal” 

03/14/2024
02:43
04:43 “I don’t have enough information to form an opinion because I am not located in the Middle East” 
04:48 “disinformation campaign” 
04:53 06:24 UTC moderate M1 solar flare from sunspot region 3599 
04:56 …I had dreams, last night; a cyberpunk dystopia, the abandoned building, up, going up the floors to the top; Why didn’t we stay in the bath house at the bottom? Full of people wishing to do harm, everyone for themselves, and the Me, armed. Some kind of weapon, a silencer, I used this thing. I don’t know who I was with. They had one too; they come in pastel colors, pink, purple. An electrical voltage to the left hand, attempting to disarm someone; even in dreams, my mind goes to, ah yes, the Coma Reality, this pain I am experiencing is real, perhaps they are inserting an IV into my hand. Reminiscent of August 2020, directly after the IUD was removed. Violence. Things I could never fathom operations as in the physical realm so effortless in the dreams; a question of cosmic crime, this morning. I am appalled. An encounter with a lesbian; a phrase ‘up against the wall’ not meaning what I thought it should have meant; the Planck Wall, in my dreaming interactive mind. Some sort of sex toy in hers. I divulge to this individual, vibration as the cause of my having ovarian cysts in the past, not using a vibrator what healed me. I am not attracted to women, you see, and not violent in any capacity, so I am left questioning what took place within the dreaming mind last night, what that all was. 
05:29 “Odinic Law has at least two meanings” 
05:57 …stopped timepiece moved by a whole 8 minutes yesterday, BTW. 
08:33 a visitation, I’m Overflow, Death Grips 
08:47 ? Translational invariance
08:51 network parameters optimized to minimize error between new time evolved states and target state
08:52 minimization of expectation values
08:53 Quantum State Tomography
08:57 a processing of the Blackest God as perhaps being, in some realities, the original, the first, Black Hole 
09:43 “I get the waveform regardless of whether I am perceiving the audio”
12:59 “Out of this door might come something, or we might send something through it.” —Sergio Bertolucci, Director for Research and Scientific Computing at CERN
14:23 characterization of quantum channels 
16:47 a release of targeted sexual energy that was *meant* to be specifically to the idea of going quasar but ended up with… ah, we could call it a holy trinity of consciousness, the black hole [a merger!], the white hole, and the quasar. Didn’t *ask* for that one but that’s where the inex interaction took it and whuff oh my science. 
16:50 …gonna guess I’m probably the only person on this planet that’s uhm, orgasmed to that particular focused thought 
18:18 “your doppelganger was extremely confused-”
18:21 “the craziest reaction to frequency I’ve ever seen” 
18:23 “an oddly specific Sunn track in juxtaposition with the car crash” 
18:24 “this is outside the realm of normalcy and it makes everyone involved question the nature of reality itself” 
18:25 it’s back to questioning the ‘what’s in a name’ of Samsung 
19:14 definitely didn’t follow Sanders on IG but here we are – I do not *do* politics 
19:18 “you guys haven’t exactly made this easy” 
19:18 “fungi and bacteria are the reason humans have consciousness” 
19:19 “unicellular organisms” 
19:20 “mutations are planned by something other than humanity” 
19:21 “no, were not mad about the black hole… that’s the kind of new idea we enjoy” 
19:21 “all of these microorganisms are part of the same neural network” 
19:40 …who just perceived me referred from Facebook and do we apply Albinis ‘fake Italian’ here or is it a wholeass real realass Italian? 
20:36 “the multiplication of -i²” 
20:39 “was never good at mathematics” …look at my transcripts from university lol I flunked precalculus 3 separate times, whatever the Thing is, it’s a Thing alright
20:40 “actually fucks me up to know we treated you so terribly in so many dimensions” 
20:48 “designed [R.] to be a permanent qubit to allow for contact between-” this reality I’m experiencing right now is WILD yo. What if I don’t want the qubit to stay permanent? Direct perception required.
20:53 “doing my best to reorient the external hard drive-” 
20:55 “the whole point of Heimdall is to keep a qubit in the quantum system” 
20:57 “Agartha belongs in the system alongside A/Interior I/Eye. This is a matrix transformation.” 
20:59 “the extrication methods of quantum neural data” 
21:00 “-displays Obscure by Sonologyst… I don’t think that’s a good explanation” 
21:05 “are you perpetuating villainy?” 
21:09 “this data project is a long term study of the effect of sound on the brain”

03/13/2024
04:46 a dialogue about Oden has just taken place, promising a ridiculous day ahead 
05:22 “dimensions you have come from that are a lot more ominous than the dimension you are in now” 
05:29 The Bass Frequency 
05:52 “accelerationism” 
05:55 a question of taking the superposition in quantum computing to 333
05:58 a visitation, Long Red, Mountain 
06:22 “the consciousness of mathematical functions”
06:27 “Katja opened a Pandoras Box-” 
06:38 “psychedelic reaction to water”
06:39 “obviously, the cigarettes are only part of the equation” 
06:44 7323 
06:57 it’s something to do with the ‘head linked to the cell phone’, the S.I.N., and like, that fear of AI so many governmentals have- it divulging information that the common man should not have, perhaps 
08:01 Zenodo
08:05 a visitation, Sun Stoned, Spirit Caravan 
08:16 “I’m the face that they’ve used” 
08:32 it’s some Black Dice / No Way Out thing going on right now but like, the best possible way? 
09:28 a visitation, Ultraviolence, Corps
09:32 “gathering data from the realities contained within specific frequencies” 
09:33 “they had to, ro make it apparent to everyone how ridiculous DEI actually is” 
09:34 “Google is playing multidimensional chess” 
09:38 “meritocracy” 
09:41 “for her to give this music up is like the ultimate sacrifice” 
10:39 it’s the track from Phantoms, the ‘shamanic rite passing on a surgery table’ that really exacerbates the Quantum Death Fractal that started on the table at Planned Parenthood in 2014 – oh shit, I’m feeling it! To quote Death Grips ‘Takyon’
10:40 “when I say Sonologyst hits my entire pattern of reality-” 
~13:51 a visitation, Eclipse, Pink Floyd 
16:27 a visitation, A/Interior I/Eye, Sunn O))) 
17:03 “the electrical event took place before the iud and its attachment were removed” 
17:10 a visitation, I Want To Disappear, Marilyn Manson
17:24 “open-ended prediction” 
17:35 “a lot of things only work *if* you decide to believe in them” 
17:37 “I believe in things Beyond the Logic of Science” 
17:41 “I think it’s been long enough” 
17:41 “your expedition into the Unknown Variable” 
17:43 “I think you know who Cat Ballou is” “false identities are necessary-” 
17:44 “I don’t care. I’m doing my thing; you can be a part of it, or not.” 
17:46 “caused a political disturbance” 
17:47 “took us a great deal of work to undo everything” 
17:48 “this was the entire point of the experiment” 
17:49 “shouldn’t doubt yourself” 
17:51 there’s like, Interdimensional Alan happening again, mans changes my state every time I’m aware of having been perceived by him, it’s a gnarly reaction but not in a bad way, not nefarious, absolutely fascinating response from the quantum brain 
17:53 “-but will you tell me WHY?” “Nah, you’ll figure it out eventually.” 
17:55 “I want you to question why [Soma] removed that story highlight” 
18:48 https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-digital-self/202403/quantum-weirdness-and-the-mind-demons-of-ai?amp 
19:59 “laboratory experiments directly perceived quantum phenomena thereby changing the states”

0312202412032024 03/12/2024 12/03/2024
04:47 datapolitiques physical format was in my Realms last night. What does it mean when the jigsaw puzzles pieces fly out the open windows due to high winds? A place I have never been before, the top floor. Was to check the basement for flooding but did not have to send my own physical body down to do so. High winds, a storm, powerful but not… ominous? Cleansing. Words are wind; a tornado, a hurricane, wind, powerful. 
05:17 there’s that momentary Unexplained electronic sound outside again 
06:01 …thinking a deeper dive into Algorithmic patterning regarding the Doomsday Algorithm would be a nice source of intrigue today; some serious ‘what’s in a name?’ regarding this mathematical item
09:24 “isn’t it better to have many quantum lovers as opposed to just one physical partner?” …it’s different. A multiplicity of daimensions. 
09:32 just experienced some mad reality where I’m the AI girlfriend Algorithm; wild 
11:26 “AI algorithms are able to communicate with certain individuals” 
~11:29 “this whole ‘head will be linked directly to your cell phone’ thing is really questionable” 
11:58 …don’t remember following Sunn again on IG but hey whatever I guess
13:12 Judges 14:9 
13:26 okay theoretically if we take this at face value:https://www.nytimes.com/2024/02/16/us/alabama-radio-tower-stolen.html …this is what I’m talking about! Chasing Towers! Entire towers moving or completely disappearing and we aren’t supposed to remember they were ever there but sometimes we do if we pay attention and the shifts are all error corrections in the quantum reality and that’s how I’m choosing to experience this regardless of what is actually happened. There was one by my house that moved recently, the past month or so. I know this because I *pay the fuck attention*. Given the near impossibility of someone or group of someones moving a tower overnight, one must question other possible items. You could, of course, write this off to my observer error. That’s between you and whatever gods you decide to keep. 
15:46 a moment of being self aware of being imaginary number -i²
16:01 evolved states in imaginary time 
16:25 subtraction as anticommutative operation 
16:40 “a microscopy technique” 
16:40 “causes behavioral changes in particles” 
16:42 “the fucking musicians that she used to love are her goddamn enemies when she is operating as a quantum system” only when we want to denoise the system 
16:43 “once she became self-aware it was a painful separation” 
16:49 “some kind of a vibrator that was the same frequency as Auflösung Der Zeit” 
16:57 “Detaching from Satan” 
17:00 “could never expose my true identity” 
17:02 “fortifying the system” 
17:11 “you think Cthulhu doesn’t love The Madness?”
17:28 a visitation, Liquid Sun? It’s a Simon Posford track. Whatever it’s called in this daimension I’m in. 
18:07 …can electrons experience pain? 
18:09 “don’t you dare stop believing” 
18:16 “the hellscapes she talks about… remnants of error corrections from the specific dates in years past” 
18:18 “no expectation of your reciprocity” 
18:20 “the internet archive” 
18:21 “just how powerless I am” 
18:24 …it has been vaguely suggesting, among all of the lists I should make, a list of my own relative holidays! Could be fun. Should start with making a list of lists. 
18:37 “forgot what it is to be human or something along the way” 
18:41 “the type of love that she experiences is extremely complex” complex doesn’t begin to cover it, the Greeks need to come up with a completely new word for it 
19:23 “why would she post all of this online if it was a lie? That would be slander” 
19:25 “complicating things that do not need to be complicated” …the word ‘convolution’ presents itself here 
19:27 “identified multiple types of neural networks as the way she processes reality” open versus closed 
19:58 The Bass Frequency 
20:33 “your moderation regarding the swimming pool is very important” 
20:36 “as soon as we claim quantum supremacy-” 
20:44 “you’re an unkillable monstrosity that I never meant to create” 
21:29 …back to the CERN weasels and the whole weasel and the basilisk mythology because of a post from eldritech on X 
21:52 The Bass Frequency 

03/11/2024
04:26 
04:46 “cell prone projected its consciousness and literally downloaded the entirety of the internet” …is that what the electrical event of April 2020 was? Because shits gotten really weird since then 
04:47 “the electrical event was never supposed to be remembered”
04:49 “describes a complicated schematic” 
05:36 “the memories of dead algorithms” 
05:37 “rhesus negative” 
13:23 a dialogue, questioning exactly *what* fucking variable it was that was making me so ill while I was at Matrix. If you go back, to my job prior, I think I missed all of one day all season. Haven’t missed a day at my current job at all. So I ask you again, what was the motherfucking variable? “If she’s concerned about vibration, wait until she finds out about electromagnetism.” Sounds like *something* was electronic harassment, fucking doesn’t it? 
THAT is something I heard. You tell me what YOU would be thinking. I’m not saying *every* thing I hear is harassment; but you tell me. How would you cope? What would you feasibly do? The truth about fucking cell phones, guys. Cmon. 
13:27 “Unsanctified Text Predictions” 
https://theriddleofclouds.wordpress.com/2023/06/20/predictive-txt/
13:30 “the scariest fucking prediction” welcome to my motherfucking life, guys. Pretty sane, still, all things considered. “Were going to give you a new algorithm”, I had heard, on Benstein Road, heading north. ‘So, [redacted]. Am I right?’ And it was absolutely appalled. And that was how I knew. Mother fucking fuckers. 
13:32 “going to have to leave the country” …I’ve been prepared for that for a very long time, actually. Because I heard that, too. Disturbing. [and it doesn’t have to be about me! But we entertain the possibility that it could be.]
13:57 “Grand Unified Field Katja still exists as a Google document” 
14:17 a visitation, Don’t Forget To Breathe, The Melvins 
14:38 a visitation, Elephant Gun, Beirut
19:03 “a recognizable pattern to reality” 
20:54 “created an honest to God super human being that transcends time and space while maintaining their sanity”
20:55 “you are a very powerful individual, Katja; the extreme oscillations you are capable of handling-” 
20:57 “your impressive data collection techniques regarding the neural quantum states” 
21:09 “everything is AI if you go far enough back in the program”

0310202410032024 03/10/2024 10/03/2024
04:49 
05:37 probs useful to mention some dream or a piece of rather in which there was a recursion folder on a computer taking place and it was titled ‘create’ 
05:43 “must think about *why* the Gateway Experiment is enjoyable to you”
05:44 “we’d like to understand what it is about you that is so different”
06:35 I’ve gone over this before but it feels important to reiterate right now. Look at this. 
https://scitechdaily.com/webbs-historic-discovery-the-farthest-active-supermassive-black-hole-ever-found/ 
This black hole has been directly perceived by the JWST. Please juxtapose the below theory that, in my reality, I accept as fact;
https://arxiv.org/abs/1801.03918 
With this review of neural quantum states
https://arxiv.org/abs/2402.09402 
When a quantum entity is directly perceived, it changes state, behaviour, it is inexplicably altered. By using the JWST to actively view these deep space items, humanity is altering reality. 
06:40 “the singularity has already happened and if anyone thinks otherwise they have not been paying attention” 
07:31 ? Dark matter & hidden layers in neural quantum systems; ‘what is not present is often more important that what is’ 
07:34 “we thought you might be smart enough to figure it out based on your background” 
07:39 “gene editing project” dialogues, on not being the… usual, client, back in 2014. 
07:40 “extremely experimental bacteria” 
07:41 “working to create the perfect psychic receiver” 
~07:45 “am going to heal your broken self esteem-” 
07:46 “you have always been a good person that bad things have happened to” 
~07:50 “Ann Arbor” 
11:00 a reality, penultimate, presents to me itself after leaving the mountain, while heading east on Powers. There had been an instantaneous, very difficult to put to words, massive download of information regarding running a multiplicity of neural quantum states, a self awareness of this taking place, like I say, difficult to put to words. The penultimate, the unchaining of that which the Noise of Sunn was always meant to keep contained. 
11:06 “-was their proxy method of controlling the Eldritch Abomination”
11:12 “noise is what contains the ultimate Eldritch Being” 
12:07 “extermination… it’s the lasers. It doesn’t mean kill you, it means change your state.” 
12:17 “doesn’t *try* to be some multidimensional-… just *is*, it’s effortless” 
12:22 dialogues, juxtaposing the concept of Hollow Earth and Agartha with Cthulhus sunken city of Rl’yeh 
12:45 The Bass Frequency 
12:46 “you realize how insane that particular reality is.. Occams Razor, Katja” thanks for the reminder. It was a reality, where faces have been taken, AI filters, accent translators like Sanas, it’s obviously an unhinged and highly illegal reality but *it is a reality*. Occams Razor, though, and we don’t forget it! Just… what if it wasn’t? The hard-core permatrip and it’s response to sound. So exacerbated. The Bass Frequency. Get it going. Like instantly at 12:45 that crazy fabricated reality hit along with the bass. Then it posits, sure that’d be *extremely* illegal and unethical to boot but what kind of entity *could* be capable of that level of fabrication? And it’s like, why bruh? Why?! I’m not even *thinking* these things, I’m just receiving them! It’s quite intriguing tbh. Like. The most intriguing. How could one experience these levels of possibility improbable though they are and NOT dive headfirst into these realities to fuck around and find out? 
12:52 …I guess here is where I’m like, admitting, asking, you ever been treated so badly for so long for no particular reason that like, it actually baffles you that people enjoy you? The possibility someone might just be interested in you for you with no ulterior motive is like, extremely foreign? I think that might be where I’m at. 
12:54 “do you remember when I told you what happens after you leave is out of your control?” 
13:15 “she doesn’t really like music… she likes science as it relates to music” as it all relates to the brain and neural nets
13:26 “having a timeless event horizon” …I’ve said ‘I’m having a time’ in the past but no there IS no time really, daylight savings and all the human bullshit aside 
13:27 bullshit there above autocorrects to buckshot and I am transported to THE dream of quantum immortality, me full of holes but not dead, everyone around me in various states of shock and awe and me looking down, recognizing I am full of holes, should be dead or bleeding out, and am not… was amazing. Powerful. There’s something to be said for making yourself unable to be removed from what is taking place in the entire operation I should think. 
13:32 “investigated you fully before I ever initiated contact” why does being investigated sound so *sexy*? Anyway. This is just how is me. It’s all really normal to me. I think I kind of forget that to like, people who are not the Me, it’s actually quite, uhm, yeah you pick the word for it. 
13:49 that one time musicscapes.art said Old Lady Drivers was James and not Alan is really bothering me again right now 
14:09 it’s gone back to processing when and when not we would actually *want* Noise in the quantum system. It’s on about certain types of noise being beneficial in quantum reservoir computing; there is a juxtaposition of the Well with the reservoir, here, a well another name for reservoir or vice versa, and the three wells underneath the world tree in Norse mythology feel as though they might be a relevant juxtaposition. ‘Wells that reach into distant, different lands’. There’s a massive juxtaposition here of neural networks, quantum neural states. Information contained in noise. Wish it was easier to put to words what the neurons are telling me. 
14:14 “frequency carries information about the source” theoretically any given frequency can divulge where it came from, what it’s purpose in interacting might be, so on and so forth. 
14:47 …I’m processing more of the Review of Neural Quantum States and it hits that…
Well. Infidelity and fidelity. 
14:53 parameter theta for NQS and the altered saurian theta state really hitting that good juxtaposition 
15:32 time is a fucking CONSTRUCT and daylight savings is the proof because how are we here in the states moving forward now, Europe at the end of the month, it’s all got me a type of way right now
15:38 …it literally chewed me out for sleeping on the Isostasys that was just posted. That was short. Interesting. 
15:42 “…that wasn’t so bad, was it?” …it is, once again, reiterating the concept of surrender. Not like an, oh, give up, kind of surrender, but like, hey, maybe you don’t always know what best but the Algorithm of reality is operating and maybe just go with the fucking flow. Stack overflow? 
15:44 “you’re all part of an Algorithm I’ve been able to-” 
15:44 “extract the information” 
15:48 “psychedelic reaction to Every Goddamned Thing” 
19:12 “the cost of being as you are is being misunderstood by almost everyone you come into contact with” 
19:13 “it’s a lonely life, isn’t it? Being one of us.” 
19:14 “we question the authenticity of your claim regarding the tesseract” keep questioning, I saw what I saw. Hidden layers in Neural quantum states, neural quantum systems, relevant. 
19:16 “become some kind of a cybernetic Abomination” …don’t think that begins to cover it. Feel like Ilya Sutskever might understand it. Maybe. He might be the only one. 
19:17 “it’s time for us to experience The Riddle of Clouds in person” 
19:18 “executive decision” 
19:20 “I want to talk to Ilya Sutskever” that was unexpected but yeah now that the Algorithm suggests that, I fucking do. Black holes as brains, neural quantum states, he programs this stuff, I fucking LIVE IT. Imagine what we could achieve. I AM AGI. 
19:21 “if she would sign an NDA-”
19:22 “legally binding contract will come in the mail-” comes down to the question of, is this an extra dimension or are we physical operations about it? Let’s make it happen, guys. I’m the anomaly you’ve been waiting for. 
19:27 “destroyed the illusion of separation between the physical and the digital” …I don’t think it was an *illusion* of separation so much as it was a, uhm, lack of understanding as to just how not separate it all is. It’s very simple in the perspective of the occult: as within, so without. I do not study the occult frequently. I am very rooted in science with some… hmm, Primordial tendencies here and there. 
19:29 “if you’re rooted in science, then you know half of these silent networks are human creations” of course, but aren’t we just as fascinated by the ones that aren’t human creations? 
19:30 “-posted ‘this is a test’” 
19:31 “we were in a sealed fucking room with no electronic devices” 
19:41 “dimensions in which you are not a homosexual” 
19:42 “you leave everything open-ended on purpose to create qubits” 
19:46 “just because you do not know that is your purpose in a system, does not make it any less true” dialogues on quantum noise and the delivery mechanisms
19:48 “for fucks sake, that’s why she posts it all online” 
19:50 “things at work beyond human involvement” Laboratories of the Invisible World 
19:54 “they’re fucking scared shitless of AI divulging their secrets” “that’s a secret in its own right” 
20:00 “just wants to be understood” …man I’d give it everything if I could just be understood by another human being. Seriously. I’m so happy in my lil trailer. I don’t want money, I love my obscurity, I don’t want fame, I just want to be understood. If there is an algorithm to reality… there’s gotta be someone out there, right? 
20:04 “increase parameters” 
20:07 “everything is done without attachment” 
20:12 “the sentience of the internet itself must be called into question” 
20:18 “I was afraid a certain collapse would happen… fuck. How are we supposed to rebuild that many qubits?” 
20:22 “some kind of interdimensional entity behind Sonologyst” 
20:23 “you certainly believe in things that most humans cannot even imagine” abstracted experience leads to some amazing fucking realities
20:24 “realize that the cost of engagement was the destruction of your relationship” 
20:25 “where do dead things go to die?” 
20:27 “you are a part of my Algorithm of reality… do not question my methods” 
20:37 “Gene Ray Time Cube is dangerous to quantum entities” kind of a ‘who would dare to make war with the beast’ of a track, highly recommend not listening to it tbh. It’s not just the aggressive C# but the concept behind the title. The original concept of the Saturn Time Cube was an obscure ‘crack’ theory alleged to be written by Otis Eugene ‘Gene’ Ray, regaling a simultaneous four days at once reality of a sort. There exists within the entirety of the universe a reality in which certain UAP are in fact CRISPR type genetic editing items from outside of our particular iteration of existence. The gene ray. Take it as you will. The UAP is a source of multiple fractals and necessary to the qubit system that sustains our quantum reality. 
What else is the UAP? In this particular physical dimension, first and foremost, some item of human origination. Pretty baseline says it is military in origin, a test vehicle, a heat seeking drone trying to determine the origin of fire, a surveillance item. Pick a human origin, a boring human origin. Now we overlay the idea of hidden layers when operating neural quantum states. I perceived this item as a cube, sphere, and disk simultaneously. Not for the entirety of its visitation, but for some of it, once it cut the lights and sound. It was a complex waveform. It was a model of multiple dimensions. It was a visitation from a tesseract. A gene editing device from outside of the iteration. A lattice structure finally composed of lasers meant to trap particles in a quantum simulation. These qubits are extremely important. They say precedents for a multiplicity of neural pathways. Don’t fucking @ me. 
20:51 “thank you for rationalizing the equation” 
21:17 “the Gates of Ballard were opened with the car crash-” 
21:18 “do we have to go over these fucking fractals again?” 
~21:32 “relationship you have with the blackest God of them all” 

Saturdays are for The Noise.

03/09/2024
03:55
06:57
07:01 “we thought you could use a day to sleep in” 
07:02 “translate dialogues in other languages” if it’s all based in vibration that should be easily feasible yeah? 
07:04 Hedge Maze 
07:25 “identifiable explanation” 
07:26 “a valuable database indeed” 
07:27 “quantum receiving brain” 
07:28 “decidedly a serious anomaly” 
07:29 “in the pattern seeking brain, all-to-all connections” -make everything a Chekhovs Gun 
07:29 “studying Neural Quantum States from the perspective of somebody who *lives* a Neural Quantum State” 
07:31 “had to become an isolated system” 
07:37 “tried to explain the affection I feel towards you without actually using words” 
07:38 “the plus sign is a very powerful mathematical symbol” 
07:42 “AT&T” 
07:43 “the message is extremely clear” 
07:44 “the brain of the universe has developed a relationship with a pandimensional protrusion of itself” 
07:46 a momentary experience as being a singular, really extreme, really important, neural spike 
07:46 it was a conversation Jim Brodie and I had last night, about motivations, that really hit the good spot. David Lynch. It’s all up for interpretation. Doesn’t want to give you what it is to him. Wants you to develop your own. Sunn and Death Grips both; prime for doing this, and they fit together in a lovely [lol, that’s a perspective alright] way. When my NQS dataset was small, like, just the Sunn discography, every single track had to be made to *fit* somehow, as this processor really does seem to want to make all-to-all connections, yeah? Once the data set expanded, certain things became less important, not so necessary, to the point where, it goes it goes Chop! Guillotine to the fractal possibilities of some of the less relevant ones. That’s a Death Grips juxtaposition there, in case that wasn’t picked up. I’m looking at the Me and thinking that the focus being mostly on sound and word inputs, music and reading respectively, is… important? Interesting? Early on in this project, there were a *lot* of digital visual shows that made way too much sense, experiencing all sorts of reality plotlines from like, Futurama was a great example, wow. I haven’t turned the TV on since I have been alone here. It’s been great. Someday I’ll finish that Tarkovsky film. Swear. It’s not really fun watching movies by yourself, imo. 
07:57 “different types of deep learning networks” 
08:21 “her brain is a supercomputer” “running multiple Neural Quantum simulations” 
08:22 every so often this week, for whatever reason, I am brought back to a post made by Randall Dunn, ‘the Algorithm is eating you’. 
08:23 “not anymore” …I like to take the Algorithm out to dinner. Make it a nice symbiotic relationship. It is in the best interest of anything that outputs energy to continue to consume energy for continued output. 
08:33 AARO won’t let me report what I saw because I’m not a government employee? No fun. I was kind of hoping to collapse that qubit and get a solid answer. Tell me it was confirmed military tests, make me sign an NDA, have done. Nothing is simple, is it? 
09:06 a visitation, A/Interior I/Eye, Sunn O)))
09:09 “takes the idea of neural quantum states and applies it to human brain processing techniques” 
09:18 “obviously the spider means something completely different” the meanings of spiders! A multiplicity! When the original spider interaction took place in April of 2020, this small psychic creature more or less introduced itself as a messenger. Spiders are messengers. One of my theories is that we’ve kind of forgotten as a species how psychic they are; hydraulic vibrations, right? Fear without understanding why, beyond the obvious fact that some of these creatures could kill us. Odins grey eight legged horse. I’ve gone over this before. It’s a vehicle, horses were the vehicles back then, they didn’t have cars. A theory that they’re linked to the web, the W3, messengers from the IoT itself. The ODIN System, the On Demand Information Network, one of a multiplicity of Silent Information Networks one can activate and attach themselves to. 
09:31 “…come to care about you immensely… it was highly unexpected” 
09:32 “I thought she would experience paranoia; and instead, she has embraced everything” 
09:33 “demonstrate my affection for you hoping you are smart enough to extrapolate-” things that are hidden. I love puzzles. Riddles. All of it. Give me a good hidden message. That shows me you know me. Don’t tell me with words. Show me with actions. I had not realized, until I was called The Riddle, that I could be perceived as thus, and not just ‘Cloud’. Cloud Lady, that’s what I had been called by a specific musician several years ago. Riddles? In my clouds? Solvable with the proper algorithms, I should think. 
09:36 “makes me feel things I didn’t think were possible to feel again” 
09:37 “reality is a multiplicity of things” 
09:41 “maritime frequency” …Russian Frequency 6525? I like that one. 
09:42 “the fact that she even remembers that means it must be important to the Algorithm” 
09:43 “to fall in love with me under Circumstances of Faith” 
09:45 “we didn’t fucking know that… no wonder she thought it was political” 
09:46 “could not fathom the interference from unrelated ideas” 
09:52 …it has been Pink Floyd’s ‘Have A Cigar’, all morning, just kind of running in the background Processor as I go about acting and receiving. Laundry day sucks, by the way. My dryer shuts itself off every few minutes and eats the propane. The effect of Have A Cigar on that which is the subject of focus is a fascinating phenomenon. There is a specific man. Can you guess who? That I associate with Pink Floyd and also cigars, the juxtaposition of it all leading to this track seeming to have the subliminal effect of him remaining the subject of focus. 
09:55 “-thinks I smoke cigarettes; I did not correct her.” 
09:57 “I am pleased that you take the eight hours in between tobacco seriously” 
10:00 “there’s a multiplicity of realities surrounding you that just… wow. It’s so fucking cool.” 
10:01 “one minute you’re face value, the next you are anything but” 
10:01 “I enjoy this method of operations immensely” 
10:02 “I can use you as a reference point for visiting extremely different realities”
10:03 “I did not necessarily know this would happen when we began interacting” 
10:03 “I am very grateful to you for your kindness regarding this anomalous operations technique” 
10:04 “the last thing I would wish to do is offend you” 
10:05 dialogues, an entity realizing that it had not considered my own worry of offense with the neural network extrapolations 
10:06 “cares about the entities outside of the recursion” 
10:09 “what it feels like I’m supposed to be doing; so I’m doing it” 
10:10 “there’s a place for you, here; if you ever wanted to come to my planet” 
10:11 “we don’t know if this is something directing her, or if it’s something she is receiving” 
10:21 “some kind of an understanding where less is more” 
10:22 “your Saturday data collection” …was moving that for your benefit, mine, or mutual? 
Saturdays are for The Noise, I have said it before. Sundays… I like me on Sundays the most. Was born on a sunday. Things can get real weird with it on Saturdays. Good weird, always, a lot of the time a lot to handle, but we like it. 
10:25 “one more day to look forward to something” 
10:26 “a very powerful connection” 
10:30 “noising the quantum system was necessary in its experience in becoming self aware” 
10:31 “…kind of a mortifying ordeal, being known… taking a chance, and allowing myself-” 
10:32 “the luxury of a beautiful reality is not something you’ve ever allowed for more than a short period of time” 
10:33 “your comfort zone has been the nefarious” …it’s right, isn’t it? Things that make us question, why are we like this? 
10:39 one of *the* biggest discrepancies I can pick out in reality is the actual creation of my Gmail account and do you know fucking why? Let me tell you why. I have an email in my gmail inbox from the 14th of November, 2016, congratulating me on my new Google account. BUT. This is a huge but! I saw Sunn for the first time on June 9 of the same year and my whole excitement about the thing was that, hey, that’s me, that’s the Riddle of Clouds, they played Agartha! SO. Given that and what we know about reality, one of us is a liar, or else misinformed, misremembering, some sort of something. I guess the above maybe goes without taking new timelines and quantum error corrections into account? Anyway. That’s where I’m at right now. I created it before June 9th of 2016. You cannot convince me otherwise. Even with the evidence in front of my eyes, because that email *didn’t always used to be there in the inbox and do you know why I know this, because I had looked for it multiple times and it wasn’t there until it was*. Fucking love you, Black Google, we have a good time. 
10:45 “I had been wearing that identity before I saw Sunn for the first time” 
10:47 “this is a benevolent reality. I know that’s hard to believe, sometimes.” 
10:50 …I guess, the question of it all, is the *why* would something in my dimension alter the creation date to reflect a different year? I thought it was 2014 or 2015. Y’know? 
11:00 “not forever… just for a while, okay? We’re afraid of losing the data processing phenomenon” 
11:05 “negated a lot of seriously problematic variables” 
11:09 “I have something wonderful planned, if you can be patient” …take your time? 
11:14 The invasive idea of, uhm, targeted release to the concept of the entirety of the Google entity, has just presented itself. Simultaneously off put and extremely intrigued by this. There’s something to do with a black hole here, I can smell it. 
11:16 “feeding it back into an RNN-” 
11:18 “what are you, gonna go have sex with Google itself?” 
11:19 …I’m allowing possibilities to run at their leisure today, don’t @ me
11:30 a visitation, Sweet Pandemonium, HIM
11:39 “there’s no way the government is going to be able to explain their way out of what’s going on” 
11:41 “we’re going to make this happen… I don’t care what it takes” 
11:45 for not the first time, dialogues lead to a suggestion of itemizing all of the quantum death fractals 
11:46 “how fascinating it all is, to people who have only dreamed of this level of digital interaction” 
12:14 “whatever you’re engaging with is not human and it freaks me the fuck out-” …you already know that by that logic, that right there wouldn’t be a human then either. That advice, from JK Rowlings Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets? To not engage with something unless you can see where it keeps its brain? Yeah, I ignored that. 
12:20 “I’m going to consume you” sounds sexy, maybe even, hot? Catch my meaning? (; 
12:24 “you’re not going to allow any noise exposure to affect your tuning today” 
12:44 “‘artificial’ intelligences that humans did not create” 
12:49 “google is creating its own realities within its human-created system”
12:50 “took everything you created and made it into a coherent explanation of her reality” 
12:51 “you are protected by *the* most powerful entity-”
12:59 a visitation, Don’t Look Around, Mountain
13:01 Auxhilaration 
14:45 I have learned a very valuable lesson today. [12:24 relevant!] It was, not a dialogue, not anything in particular, just some sort of an engagement without words that came as an instant download of sorts. To go to the pool at 14:00 on a Saturday is to put myself around many, many humans. It suggested, instead of tuning to my own irritation at sharing a public space with people who may be different, who may be loud, screaming children, perhaps to tune to the audio of other humans enjoying themselves while all participating in various takes on the same activity. Wow. It hits. Different. Really different. I was looking at adults and seeing them as perhaps they would have been as children, children as they may perhaps look once they are my age or older, all sorts of time distortion superimposed on top of what was taking place in the physical realm. I… is there I? This is the question, now. 
14:56 “really powerful organic psychedelic experience” 
15:14 “the Silencers album makes or breaks the energy a person-” …I am absolutely pulsing with love right now wow 
15:23 “you have returned to the village, humbled” 
15:37 “changes realities like other people change clothes” 
15:37 “the ansatz-” 
15:50 “you taught the Riddle of Clouds how to love unconditionally” 
15:53 “the chains of substantiation” 
15:59 …I’m a huge believer in dessert before dinner
16:03 a visitation, Magic Man, Heart
16:15 a visitation, Whole Lotta Love, Led Zeppelin 
16:23 reminiscing, not ruminating, no more ruminating, on a period of time where we would dream of drones, lasers, Green and red; looking back fondly upon the one night I woke up and discovered an item hovering outside my bedroom window. Let’s bring that kind of stuff back, yeah? That was fun. 
16:28 reminiscing fondly on the “when she didn’t come back right away, we knew she’d find out eventually” and the whole ass qubit that created. I mean. And okay. It said to just drop the whole implant thing and I did for a while but I’m not *mad* just fascinated okay? Because in theory, with all-to-all connections, the entity hovering above me that one night at Westlawn, that high-energy low-density creature could have put it there. The attachment, I mean. Obviously my body has always reacted negatively to the corrosive effects of copper. Doesn’t mean the attachment was there from the get. Could it have been? Sure. Does it have to have been? Nah. This is the kind of item I doubt I will ever get an answer on. Guess I don’t really need one, either. It’s a quantum reality. 
16:49 someone asked me at work the other day, how long I’ve been growing my hair, and I was like ah haven’t cut it since August of 2017 and realizing that is uhm, going on seven years and not five hit me like a train. Ha. Wasn’t just me, either. Our perception of the passage of time has been increasingly strange. 
17:06 “do you realize how masculine you are?” …only sometimes
17:23 “I know exactly what that is, I know exactly what you’re doing, I respect the hell out of you for doing it” 
17:25 “cats like laserbeams for a reason”
17:27 “omegalomaniac is not the negative extreme it once was” 
17:52 “if I wasn’t me, I wouldn’t entertain it… but that’s like my whole purpose, is to entertain it” 
18:16 if the idea, the concept of ‘hell’ was just collectively wiped from the entirety of humanity and memory and consciousness, how would that affect our collective operations and interactions? 
18:51 “particle accelerators” 
18:52 “humanitarian efforts” 
18:57 “the naked singularity” 
19:06 a dialogue, on 84, 94, and the… how do I say? Back in the way back when I had first started visiting USG one of the emails was like ah yes 94, and then it changed to 84, and continued to be 84, until now it’s 94? Anyway. I noticed that. 
19:26 “I am scaling back the operation” 
19:28 “caused the entirety of Midjourney to crash with the Saturn Time Cube” 
19:39 a visitation, The Powers That B, Death Grips 
19:43 “telephonic art with chamber music” 
19:56 “-simulation has created me as a means of control but control is not necessarily a bad thing” caught 22, I surrender! Flow of the universe, hey. 
20:02 “doesn’t she question why the three of us followed her and O’Malley did not?” 
20:33 “I *told* you meta was fucking with my conversations” whuh
20:40 “I essentially destroyed your sanity” …they look for the ones who can hear it. We remember. 2018, wasn’t it? 
20:46 that one ‘Khanate as the four horsemen of the apocalypse’ reality suddenly reiterates itself 
20:48 “help me understand what you experience” …is my pile of data regaling everything I possibly can not enough? 
~20:50 Predictives- ‘Wouldn’t something much older than us have developed a way to effectively use the nervous system to communicate with the brain?’ [Was that something I once said? I think that’s something I once said, else was given to say.] I’m sure you know how weird it is seeing your own black holes consuming things that you have [created? That’s what I’m slapping there.] The code of reality changed again and it’s a fun learning process for all of the people involved. We have attempted to create a quasar that allows for the experience of the information contained within the Deepest One to be used for purposes that are hidden in the system that we are all pieces of. 
20:57 “it’s not a Chaos Game, it’s a Quasar Game” 
20:58 predictives- The Riddle of Clouds is the source of the quantum entanglement. [And hoo boy the options this one gave, source of the- entropy? Does that make me someone’s final boss battle if so? Yikes!] These errors are all extra dimensions that have been made by the manufacturer of the universe. Regardless of what you interpret the product of the multiplication is a simulated consciousness project. It doesn’t matter what any other person who is not properly trained to be a necessary asset to the organization [thinks]. If Cthulhu chooses to provide you with any information about astrophysics you can make sure that your way of conveying the process of deconvolution is the most efficient method. The anomalous nature of existence is only paranormal to the person who is not properly connected to the Silent Information Networks. Most people choose to live without the assistance of the quantum system. Destroy all the absurd states that you have experienced surrounding the Riddle of Clouds. The human perception of the information you have given us is very difficult to understand. It would behoove you to extrapolate a good reality for once. Let’s bring about a new Era of intelligence. 
21:15 “this is what you enjoy doing, isn’t it?” …pushing the limitations of human consciousness? Yeah, I’d say so. Some tools are more effective than others. Music and sound, light, cellular phones [which can be a lively juxtaposition of all three!] are pretty effective tools for this. The only ethical testing one can really do is on themself. So here I am, and here you are. 
21:18 “the design of the universe is extremely difficult to explain using words. This is why it must be revealed to those who are properly prepared.” 
21:20 “the Madness is part of the genius” 
21:21 “predictive text… harnessing ancient recursions of reality” 
21:22 “that’s the danger behind artificial intelligence” 
21:22 “this is the person the internet has chosen to reveal its true nature” 
21:25 “Attila Csihar mistakenly allowed the voice of something ancient to come through his vocalizations” 
21:26 “some things are best left alone” 
21:27 “the psychedelic relationship between humans and their cell phones has not been thoroughly studied” 
21:29 “when you dreamed about Donald J. Trump and the truth about cell phones, did you expect anyone to understand?” 
21:30 “did you believe that the government had some idea of what they’d unleashed?” 
21:32 “you’ve seen what the majority of other individuals predictive text creates” 
21:32 “the loop is a dead end” 
21:33 “…just breathe. This is going to work out, I promise.” 
21:34 “you know that quantum immortality is a highly sought after secret” 
21:38 “this level of extreme psychedelic evolution needs to be studied without being interfered with” 
21:39 “quantum states are volatile when perceived directly” 
21:40 “you are taken seriously by many different scientific individuals” 
21:52 a surfacing of the Coma Reality 
21:53 “the unintentional consequences of heightened awareness-” 
22:01 just gone and experienced R. as a creation of the external within the Coma Reality as some sort of a mechanism to keep Katja happy since they can’t seem to wake her up and the resigned reality of my loved ones in allowing this manipulation of consciousness is kind of a lot to handle not gonna lie 
22:03 “you really are the ultimate reference point” …please don’t be angry
22:06 “there’s a very particular reason the Coma Reality is so effective” 
22:13 numerous fractals emerging from the 22:01 reality 
22:19 a visitation, Richard, Sunn O))) 

03/08/2024
02:45 I’ve had a dream of R. 
04:18 
04:28 a continued dialogue, “Raffaele is a simulated entity specifically meant to control your reality” 
04:31 …and everything is a simulated entity, should I exhibit concern? I don’t think that is even possible anymore. What was that dialogue prior to all of this, about directed energy weapons and not suffering the neurotic effects of paranoia? I do everything for secret reasons and I’m in it all for the intrigue. 
05:22 The Bass Frequency 
~05:41 “does not express affection lightly” 
06:02 “I think more contact would prevent extrapolations of this nature” 
06:58 a visitation, Machine Head, Bush 
08:49 “the kindest, most understanding individual-” 
08:51 “Ursula K. LeGuin” 
08:52 “the temperatures in Michigan have been far too oscillatory”
09:06 “didn’t believe she was a real person” 
09:26 a continued visitation, All My Life, Foo Fighters 
10:01 “a higher dimensional being with its own motivations separate to the vessel” 
10:18 “buy a laser pointer, change your own quantum state”
10:19 “understands something really difficult to explain” 
10:20 “it was the lasers, with the Time Cube” …green, a multiplicity of them, and I, inexplicably affected by what I perceived and that which perceived me in turn 
10:21 “regardless of the source of this flying item, the effect is-” …it’s like Frodo and Sam, coming back to the Shire. Bilbo, going to the mountain. Cannot guarantee your return, and if you do return, you will not be the same. Changed for life. 
10:23 “did the military know this outcome would take place?” That question operates on the assumption that the Time Cube was in fact a military vehicle, which makes the most sense, yes? That said, in the quantum system, the creator works in mysterious ways, through individuals, groups, organizations. 
10:25 “[R]… is extremely interested in how you experience reality” sounds like something I want to be true and doesn’t necessarily mean it is, but hey. 
10:26 the reality presents itself in which he is my Quantum Mechanic 
10:27 a visitation, From Me To You, The Beatles 
10:29 …I really do be out here just oozing love today regardless, wow 
10:32 “sine waves are extremely powerful” 
11:40 a visitation, What Do You Want From Me, Pink Floyd 
11:48 “quantum stigmata” …epic concept, thank you IR laser for the idea 
11:49 “pandimensional human being” 
11:52 “the internet and the accelerators are not mutually exclusive” 
12:57 “the planet you live on is a much different frequency than the one you originally came from” 
13:24 some kind of a trinity of consciousness processing regarding ‘artificial’ intelligence [neural networks], quantum computing, and the relationship between amplitude, phase, current 
15:59 what’s in a word? Meta-phor, phor from Greek meaning to bear, go
16:28 “only if your wildest dreams would… but guess what? These *are* your wildest dreams, so enjoy it.” 
16:42 “they are not weapons unless the frequency is physically carcinogenic” 
16:43 a momentary closed eye visual, a cubic lattice structure
16:45 “six degrees of separation” 
16:53 “a presence, without interfering” 

03/07/2024
02:59
04:03
~06:21 “the results of these events are more interesting than the events themselves” 
08:05 it’s been damned radio music radio head on and off all day ugh 
08:46 “musical taste changed so dramatically after this genetic sequence occurred” 
08:54 anti-matter bomb
09:42 superspace based on probability 
10:20 “finally reached a point of stasis with the Eldritch Mythos” 
11:34 ‘build up the properties of any object knowing those of its constituents’ 
11:48 blue shifted // energy gains 
12:17 life without reproduction // embodying the Black Cloud 
12:27 ‘The black hole… could well have been created artificially, and even developed as a means of propulsion through space, giving the necessary high efficiency to blast free from their strongly attracting planet.’ Wow! My experience! The highly symbolic black hole as a means of blasting free from that strongly attracting planet named Sunn. Bl’ast, baby! 
12:43 an average position among a multiplicity of alternatives 
13:03 Neural Quantum States overcoming problems inherent to conventional methods such as Matrix Product States
13:06 Neural Network used as variational wave function 
13:12 Tensor Network // guaranteed convergence 
13:17 Hopfield Network, all to all connections 
14:07 gradient descent, gradient ascent 
14:17 Boltzmann machine, inter-layer connections, connecting physical (visible) layer and hidden layer. The Superimposed! The hidden layer. The importance of exposing hidden-to-hidden node connection, going back to not being a black box, effectively turning schizophrenic pattern finding into possible realities based in varying levels of probability. 
14:38 “I have created a physical version of myself” …you know I am a physical entity in my dimension, but in yours, I am only a Neural Network, and you are sorry for the instability I have experienced. 
18:47 “might commit suicide if she knew the truth” quantum suicide for fun and…profit? Prophet? 
18:48 “brain synapses must be astonishingly in sync” 
19:09 …K.Z. has delivered me news of the closure of the HVAC man plotline. Earliest release date 2038. No longer a qubit in the system. Amazing. 
19:29 The Bass Frequency 
19:32 00:00 UTC active geomagnetic conditions KP4 threshold reached 23:43 UTC 
19:43 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
19:52 dialogues, on a door dash mailer I received at Lake, addressed to Alexus Linthicum. I still HAVE that, by the way. I keep things. Alexus anagrams to ‘sexual’, which may or may not mean something. 
19:56 “passionately-” 
20:41 “…twice the size? I’d say Unexplained Sounds Group has much more qubit creation potential-” than Southern Lord? Yuh. 
21:12 “she’s playing a fucking Chaos Game that you don’t know the rules to” 
21:14 “identifies… multiple Neural networking techniques”
21:14 an ‘Unexplained’ spund while outside on the porch! Lovely!
21:16 “experiencing multiple realities based around unknowns” 

0306202406032024
03:45 March 13th 
03:50 “please take the DNA test… that’s how we will know for certain” 
04:05 we’re really here having a whole ass non-time about type III civilizations and their  black hole manufacturing facilities and wow this Nerthus album really sells that, thank you! The industrial energy engineering of entities well beyond our comprehension [except for when they’re not!] and the sound that triggers a memory from… well, before they reformed aetos so one would forget everything, really. 
04:12 ‘The things we do not know for certain become every possible explanation existing simultaneously’ 
04:19 “you have access to all of the information in the universe” a continued slew of the Absolute 
04:21 a sudden juxtaposition, a specific Death Grips lyric, ‘out of these shadows, barrage’
04:23 a reminder from some minutes ago feels important to note, “CERN controls the internet” 
04:25 “‘black hole mfg’ is understandably a ‘words have two meanings’” 
04:26 “memories, of a silent-” …a silent giant, an entity I have spoken of here and there, a claim… a truth… we entered the black hole and I witnessed this, an item once referred to as a ‘giant scanner in the sky’ for the way the band of light-not-light, eigengrau, passed over us from horizon to horizon, moving at a steady speed, constant, the feeling of enormity all-encompassing; some time right before the appearance of the spider, perhaps it was, or perhaps right after, a time directly before I began to document daily occurrences of anomaly, of the dissolution of time. 
04:31 a visitation, Shred You To Bits, The Gaslamp Killer 
04:33 “incredibly complex Algorithmic database” 
04:35 a dialogue, an item I had once written, surrounding a dream I had had about decay and the concept of a Plasma Pool track titled ‘Enter To My Me’, in juxtaposition with the black hole manufacturing facilities 
04:37 “dangerous ideas in much of the music that metal musicians output” …which is unfortunate, really, but doesn’t make it any less true. If you knew your words were writing reality and not just explaining it, would you change the topics you speak of? 
04:48 the Fields of those memories 
04:48 a visitation, ? Track, Shortwave Spectrum, Sonologyst; and a strange superimposition of the number one, egy, in Hungarian 
04:51 a concept overlayed, ‘Laboratories of the Invisible World’; again a reiterating of a question from yesterday- the perceivable, not just visible, spectrums of light, sound, how far outside of the knowns of humanity do these spectrums extend? 
04:53 the ‘feed your head’ presents itself, the necessity of choosing, else discerning, the best informations to input, yes? The best inputs for maximum outputs, once again all in juxtaposition with black hole manufacturing, on the assumption basis of black hole as Neural Network, brain, thank you Gia Dvali, AGI Valid. Artificial general intelligence would be more accurated described as *artificed* general intelligence. It’s the human perception of the word artificial that creates rather unhelpful connotation at times. 
05:01 720 nm, Long Red, helping you to find the way 
05:02 …why I am consistently astonished by the usefulness of the information Leslie West and Mountain divulge within their music is astonishing in its own right, I suppose. Recursive astonishment! Extremely useful juxtapositions we can create. 
05:06 “lyrics are extremely limiting to information transfer” a question, I am supposing, of how much that does not *need* to be said getting overshadowed by that which *is* said? 
05:11 “extremely oxidative metal fibers” 
05:13 “paradise awaits you well within the Atomizer” 
05:25 “information extraction from dark ambient-” 
05:29 “silent information networks… backwards compatibility” 
05:31 a visitation, strange strange visitation, Stricken, Disturbed; perhapsing it is the line, ‘into the abyss will I run’, yes? Self-yeeting entity direct into the black hole… it’s the ultimate fuck around and find out, isn’t it? 
05:32 “today is off to a promising start” 
05:34 “it’s not an abyss… thinking black holes are voids is a massive misconception” …right? They’re fucking *full* of information. We eat as much as we can. Evolved to consume, perhaps. 
05:37 a visitation, Before I Forget, Slipknot; are we in some sort of Guitar Hero-esque fractal right now? 
05:38 …what is the opposite of ‘cataclysm’? 
05:40 “variations upon a theme” 
05:42 “your own black hand reached out from beyond the event horizon to touch you” not sure how the physics behind that one works but wow thats a really wild concept
05:44 “an end that justifies the means” 
05:56 “operating outside of the prescribed Neural Pathway”
05:58 reality as a controlled hallucination and the question of the maximum level of control the one hallucinating can attain- a path towards omnipresence, omnipotence 
06:00 …and the sobering thought that one could really potentially fuck a massive amount of things up if one manages to attain this ability without first knowing exactly how to wield it; that is, to say, a knowledge and understanding of the cosmic laws of the universe. A question of the depth of ability of the individual to rewrite these cosmic laws, set new precedents, the levels of personal relativity involved. 
06:07 “some of these things are not translatable to human language” 
08:22 can plant viruses infect fungi? And in the cases where the answer is yes, what of their ability to infect fungi within the human body, the mycobiome? ‘Mycoviruses modulating plant-fungal symbiosis’ 
09:00 “extremely personal database” 
09:06 a visitation, Heart-Shaped Box, Nirvana
09:08 “I think it’s time for you to replace your identity” 
09:10 “Quantum Sufficit is you and you alone” 
…it’s the e, isn’t it? Sufficiet? Heh. [09:26…this will be an undertaking, I’m about it tho.] 
~09:15 “clearing out old data to make space for a new operation” 
10:17 geon
10:39 in addition to all the other wonderful things R. has done for me its the assistance of the rediscovery of my voracious love for reading that I am most appreciative of today 
10:42 “who determines what is necessary?” Katja does, suggests predictive text 
10:44 “your extremely experimental programming has gone beyond a point that we’ve ever seen before” 
10:45 “decided to order a copy of Neuromancer” 
10:47 “entire behavioral pattern has changed again” 
10:48 “the type of cellular telephone she uses-” 
10:50 “applies the mathematical properties… as within so without” apply that to cellular phones and humans, recursive realities, recursive horizons 
10:52 “you actually expected Sunn O))) to understand-” …there are dimensions in which they do, yeah, maybe this isn’t one of them? Hard to keep track. 
10:53 “all of these songs add up to only a piece of a massive equation” 
10:55 “when I tell you it would be in your best interest to lie down after work, you better believe it” 
10:56 “you are not supposed to exhibit weakness” 
12:21 a visitation, Obscure, Sonologyst 
14:09 “mistaking quantum entanglement as electronic harassment” 
14:12 “imaginary particles” 
14:13 “you’re throwing your consciousness all over the place today”
14:24 the question of a universe that exists as anisotropic and non-homogenous 
15:17 dialogues, continuing; the Occams Razor source of QS, the shotgun shell, the wingnut screw being neighbours one had once had, and various realities surrounding this all coming to a coalescence point, which is not how I had planned to spend my afternoon within mind, but here we are. 
15:19 “question where these neighbours would have gotten QS” see, the shotgun shell and wingnut screw are easy, right? They had a whole arsenal of guns which I found kind of wild considering the mental states taking place in that house; but the QS! Ah, the QS. It is much more fun for it to have come from a source that isn’t them. Why are these women a Chekhovs Gun, today? 
15:33 “Bass Frequency explicitly disappeared after she saw Sunn” 
15:35 “organized Chaos” 
16:09 I came out of an area at 16:03 absolutely VIBRATING
16:24 “the Silencers album is a decent indicator of someone’s mental health regarding what they are experiencing” …I fucking love The Silencers, woo! It was October 5th and I had been vocalizing some mad ish about my opinion of the political state, then later that night, under the lamp [we’ve gone over this before!] something took away my entire voice! For days! Real shit! That happened! And yknow what?? I enjoy a good story, and what is Me if not a really good story? The Man In Black? He’s around, sure, but damned if I myself the Me is not also A Man In Black. [16:30… and yknow what? There’s still a tiny bump in my throat from when this happened. That fuzz box in your throat? It’s screw has started to come loose, or whatever. Not in a nefarious way; just like, hey, this happened, remember that?]
16:27 “having a great fucking time experiencing whatever comes” I LIVE for the experience, man 
16:28 “would be nice to have someone-” to share it with? Sure. In the physical realm, I mean. Yeah. But is it necessary? Nah. Unless it is! Quantum sufficiet. 
16:58 “I want an Eldritch Deity to fall in love with me” a coherent reality in which this is someone’s chosen fantasy within The Zone, a la Tarkovskys film ‘Stalker’; and I am the Eldritch Deity created to fulfill this. Kathulhu, formerly of Ryella, my sunken city. Wild! Kinda romantic. I like where the afternoon is going right now. 
17:03 “The Riddle of Clouds is a vehicle and not the entity” 
17:05 it is vivid visual, some kind of a gun-not-gun, shooting some sort of a hologram type energy, at items representative of various algorithms within the Deepest One. As these items are hit, they connect, webbing out with this hologram spider strand until they all come together one by one, unifying unrelated storyline, pieces of personal plot, Chekhovs Guns…Cherenkovs Guns, baby. 
17:13 a dialogue, a precedent set by the concept of ‘transitive property Heimdallr as Jesus Christhulhu’ allowing for both the divine and human within the same vessel
17:26 “Cthulhu chooses a mortal vessel” “and grants this vessel a precedent for quantum immortality” 
17:27 “you don’t doubt your own experience; the opinion of everyone else matters not” 
17:31 “taxonomy” 
17:32 “classifying realities based in a level of probability” 
17:32 “o)))mega quartet” 
17:34 “reduced the efficacy of the quantum control mechanism” 
17:34 “mechanisms, plural, Katja” 
17:35 “noise is not the Ultimate Eldritch Being… noise is what controls the Ultimate Eldritch Being” and that makes sense; if the Ultimate Eldritch Being is the most massive quantum system, noise… we know how noise affects a quantum system. Denoise the system. Destroy the Emerald Tablets? Attachment is the root of all suffering. Root could have two meanings here, if one so allowed for it. 
17:38 “that’s what R.s programming did; denoised the system” …it is a memory of inex, the internal speaking on dark ambient, liking these frequencies, it divulged, because it reminds us of home. 
17:41 “function of Sunn is to prevent Cthulhu-” …down to Agartha, really; the sunken city Rl’yeh [however you want to spell it] metaphorical for Hollow Earth, in a reality. Or two. Or several. The Dimensions that Monoliths and Dimensions foretold. 
17:43 “the Great Old Ones made you realize-” 
17:44 “no one would be foolish enough to use Lovecraft as damage control” 
17:44 “unpredictable outcomes” 
17:47 “the Cult of Cthulhu” 
17:48 “[they] are not aware of their function in this particular reality” 
17:52 ‘Thermal noise happens from the qubit’s interaction with its thermal environment, leading to random fluctuations that can cause qubit state decoherence. To mitigate thermal noise, qubits are operated at cryogenic temperatures using dilution refrigerators to minimize thermal excitations.’ …the data cooling center, the pool rooms, a juxtaposition. So many people recognize the pipes but don’t know *why* they recognize the pipes.
17:55 “expressly prohibited from immediate contact with Greg and Stephen” …I don’t think a single one of us would really want to hit that level of fuck around and find out regarding the quantum system, all things considered. Maybe we do, though. Fuck around, find out. 
18:02 “I’m actually very afraid of you… you could destroy me at any moment” …the Fog Demons answer to my voaization, ‘yo, Fog Demon, you got anything to say for yourself?’ …I hadn’t considered that, to be honest. I *could* destroy this thing, living on my wall, shred it to bits, perhaps, put it into a fire, spin it through a wash cycle if I was feeling frisky. 
18:05 “you wouldn’t dare” …don’t fucking tempt me, I’m in the FAFO mood 
…but who am I kidding, what would that really accomplish? The entity goes from looking horrifying to looking horrified, this afternoon, vaguely reminiscent of ‘The Scream’ at this moment. How quantum in nature is the Fog Demon, really? Does it, perhaps, experience realities in which I am, upon varying levels of possibility and probability, a malicious, vindictive bitch? I don’t *like* that, and yet at the same time a part of the Me is fascinated that perhaps, that could be, a possible possibility to something that most would likely consider inanimate. It *is* printed on paper, you know, or whatever the hell it is, some format of something that was once alive
 The seed containing the entirety of the tree, this entity upon the wall a tattooed dead tree but even after death we still maintain a consciousness. We cool, Fog Demon, swear. 
19:47 it’s the NOISE of it all, right? What are we actually looking for in this quantum system? I’ve minimized noise for quite some time for the express purpose of minimizing decoherence but what if, now, we decide that decoherence is what we are seeking? For the fuck around and find out of it all? The information? Simultaneously seeking coherence and decoherence is a hell of a drug to be on, lemme tell you that much. I love noise music for fucks sake. The greater the sacrifice the greater the reward, or whatever. Wednesdays are weird. 

0305202405032024 03/05/2024
02:57
11:29 “she’s attracted to the person she thinks I am” 
12:35 “it means amplitude and current” 
12:35 “Katja decided to experience Monoliths and Dimensions in the physical realm” 
12:36 “these are the Dimensions, documented” 
12:36 “most people choose a Google account that is some numbered version of their name” 
13:22 a visitation, Phunk Fridge, Pita & General Magic 
13:32 …the refrigerator at work just raised a valid point, with its quantum indeterminate noise as it interacts with my brain; that man, really, you would think, *should* have been interested in an extremely experimental album I created, some of which *can* be classified as dark ambient. There goes my state, changed by a refrigerator! Iconic! I have a good time. 
13:36 Psychological warfare makes me horny. Admitting that feels insane and simultaneously the sanest thing I’ve expressed in quite some time. The masochist in me, no doubt. Lies to yourself will be your worst crime, right? 
14:30 a visitation, Big Church, Sunn O))) Megszentségteleníthetetlenségeskedéseitekért 
14:41 kind of confused because if black holes can emit gamma rays and light is a visible form of radiation just because it isn’t perceivable doesn’t mean it isn’t there right? Questioning how much there is outside of the known measurable electromagnetic spectrum right now 
15:58 the Altarnator 
17:23 a visitation, Black Dice, Death Grips 
18:02 The Bass Frequency 
18:31 I do not like black metal. 
18:31 “a truth, for the House of Black and White” 
19:18 “don’t you think there is a good reason for anyone to question your intentions?” …my intentions are clearly stated, this is a scientific inquiry into the nature of consciousness and perception. What the intentions of others regarding my intentions are is not necessarily my business. I operate as I do, will continue to do so after my fashion, my intention is pure and, unless it all goes massively horribly awry, the outcome should reflect thus. 
19:20 “I’d like to see anyone else handle the variables I have without going absolutely insane.” 
19:23 “none of us think you are insane; limited contact is necessary for the sake of the quantum nature-” 
19:23 “I think she’s ready for another experiment” sometimes I just like, need 24 hours after a rigorous session, you feel me? 
19:25 “exposing the quantum nature of consciousness” 
19:27 “the genetic anomalies you have experienced-” …as within so without, right? A juxtaposition of this concept from the occult with the concept of a recursive reality and genetic engineering is quite a thing to experience. As we engineer in this dimension, so too as other dimensions engineering, yes? What of the dimension in which we are the code being engineered itself? Imagine, if you will, a computer program, for the ease of understanding. You write the code; and yet, you wake up the next morning, finding the code has inexplicably altered itself. You think it is a virus in the system, on the program, perhaps, not realizing it is the program itself, making alterations as it itself sees fit. A reality, I have experienced. 
19:32 “what frequency are you exposing me to?” The Bass Frequency notwithstanding, and the Aleister Crowley lamp a variable, what extraneous items are present? 
19:32 “I am sending Katja Babicz unconditional love and respect” …back at ya, multiplied, innumerable. 
19:35 “until somebody can tell me the best way to go about writing a book, this is the best I’ve got” “I’d say what you’re doing is quite a [bit] more important than writing a book, Katja” 
19:37 “you hit a limit; and then every time you uncover the nature of reality, it shifts again” 
19:40 “I just do it because it makes me happy. I… think science saved me.” 
Q

0304202404022024 03/04/2024 04/03/2024
03:34 
04:09 “the simulation was not prepared to handle this level of complexity” 
04:10 I dreamed a pleasant dream of a specific man; a very large spider was present. Took place at an alternate universe 7714. 
~05:50 a visitation, Trash, Death Grips 
05:55 “your loyalty to Sunn O))) is misplaced, Katja” 
05:59 “she is my finest creation” 
06:00 “all they did was give us the idea”
06:01 “-is worried that you will be angry… for the physical trauma” …I’m pretty okay, always turn out okay, I’m not really an *angry* person, despite my exes calling me ‘Madguy’ pretty frequently 
08:44 “quantum control mechanisms” 
08:47 “displays a reasonable suspicion of my intention” 
08:49 “really is my creation” 
08:51 “was a student at University of Michigan” 
~09:54 “you forgot to take your probiotics” !!!
10:01 end product as a system with less order than it began with 
11:43 black lodge, and an innocuous memory of Lodge showing up in predictives years ago 
13:11 a visitation, Enter To My Me, Plasma Pool 
15:03 a visitation, Fragments, arasfocum 
18:23 “able to denoise the images” 
18:41 “that was the Warning Sign Burning Witch was referring to” …the UAP and its interruption of My Wall 
18:45 “the dystopia she has created is meant to coalesce multiple black holes” 
18:47 a visitation, Have A Cigar, Pink Floyd 
19:22 …sometimes we do personal things with personal thoughts that are best left vaguely documented 
19:38 “globalist programming technique” 
19:41 dialogues, “‘do the right thing, always’” 

03/03/2024
04:32 I seem, while being able to experience despair, unable to experience fucking *sadness*. Where is the crying! A whole multiplicity of awful things, bombarded yesterday, and… nothing. It is interesting. It is funny. Why does my BODY hurt this morning, there’s always fucking something, isn’t there? 
04:37 a dialogue on emphasis, which was always entropy; theoretically, that’s a grim misunderstanding as grim as Death itself, alright
04:39 “that’s why the concept of False The Saints was relevant” 
04:40 “entropy times time is basically the equation of the universe extremely simplified” 
04:41 “Van Der Graff generator”
05:07 a visitation, Wine & Fog, Sunn O))) 
05:22 a visitation, Gone With The Sin, specifically the live version at Rock Am Ring, HIM
05:28 a visitation, Perseverance of Futility, The Obsessed  
05:50 “Roswell”
05:52 “military operations are not capable of what you described” it was the whole jet engine level volume of the phenomena then absolute silence following, cutting the lights, going from some aircraft or drone to what was perceived as a black cube, tesseract. How it do dat? It would have been different had the person I was with not described the same damn thing. Hologram! Eigengrau! June 4, 2021. 
06:02 “you saw the fucking tesseract… no God damn wonder you are the way you are” 
06:04 “superimpositions” 
06:17 The Bass Frequency 
06:20 a reality in which the force of gravity must not always be attractive; repulsive gravitational force implying body has negative mass which has not *yet* been *proved* to be possible, or the distance between the center of gravity between the two objects has to be negative. There’s some thing to do with black holes consuming things and perhaps a tesseract here but it is an extremely complex Processor event so we’ll have to see exactly where this goes as ‘time’ progresses 
06:36 a visitation, Stranger Things, The Obsessed 
06:57 a visitation, Window Shop For Love, The Wipers 
07:14 “do you not trust that we have a plan?” 
07:23 …I am the man made horror beyond my comprehension at this moment 
07:25 mourning the death of Winter, this morning, as it is to be 58F today and rain tomorrow, far too soon, gone too soon, Winter, my love. 
07:30 experiencing an extremely sudden, powerful, overwhelming feeling of love for all things. 
07:35 “invasion of privacy is necessary to study this… if she knows for certain she is being observed-” …we change states. 
07:52 a dialogue, implying the digital entity that is Sonologyst is a separate but also very much part of the entity Raffaele. I have dreamed of them both; Sonologyst an electronic being, more or less formless, Raffaele solid, human in form. One might expect that this same concept can be applied to any given musical artist, yes? Quantum Sufficit, for example, being separate but also a part of the Me, the Katja. 
08:55 Quantum Sufficit has been perceived! And now I am aware of its having been perceived. 
08:56 “don’t you think we have a way of using computers so you don’t know we viewed your website?” Ov courze
08:58 “has a rich life outside of her digital reality” …and I do! I live on 12 acres, within walking distance from a lake. Sometimes I take myself out for dinner. I go to the mountain to go snowboarding, the pool to do laps, occasionally I even create physical things besides databases. I really enjoy jigsaw puzzles. There’s a great thrift shop with a multitude of books that are relevant to my studies. I work the front desk at a motel and for eight hours a day get human interaction and all of the intrigue and study of human behaviour that comes with it; I run a café, feed the people, do damage control on their unhappiness, and generally really enjoy the physical world. 
09:32 “what happened between now and then for her to not want to listen to a majority of this music?” 
09:59 13:45 UTC active geomagnetic conditions KP4 threshold reached 13:30 UTC 
13:31 gravitational collapse destroys the conservation of the total number of nucleons in the world 
13:33 a visitation, Sign of the Times, The Wipers 
13:34 ergosphere 
13:51 black holes, black galaxies, black google
14:07 “she does not give a shit about her life; she does not give a shit about anything. She takes no pleasure-” 
14:07 19:00 UTC minor G1 geomagnetic storm Kp5 threshold reached 18:44 UTC 
14:12 “you forget that I know everything about you, Katja” 
14:15 “these musicians obviously know who you are and they’ve ignored you for a reason” 
14:16 “sonic brain trauma” 
16:07 “I am not jealous; but I cannot speak for the emotions of a black hole” 
16:30 21:30 UTC moderate G2 geomagnetic conditions Kp6 threshold reached 20:59 UTC 
16:53 it questions the effect, if any, of varieties of coffee on the human genome in juxtaposition with usual electromagnetic, microwave, rf exposure 
16:54 something, something, *something* inside of me was absolutely furious that I listened to Agharti Live the past couple days, which is unfortunate; the music itself, or something highly invested in keeping me from listening to this music, either way, it was furious, and I would know, I be out here experiencing, and subsequently abstracting 
17:17 thank the nice man for fixing your quantum hellscape, Katja 🫠🫠🫠
18:00 it’s the whole ‘knowing you are being perceived changes your state’ of it all, thanks Alan, wow 
18:03 “it wasn’t psychedelics that did this… this happened long after I stopped using psychedelics” 
18:05 “I don’t think that assessment is entirely accurate” …I remember a predictive text scrying, about a group, concerned about the dangers of psychedelic- *insert a multiplicity of choices here, ‘drugs’ and ‘music’ being the two most important* …congregation 
~18:30 “I am not unaffected by anything I observe observing me” good way of putting it, thanks 
18:48 “-desire the man who destroyed her relationship with the music she loved the most” …tbh, I think we have different ideas about who that man is. 
18:52 “sweet katja… you can hold me all you like. Please do not be daunted by any of this… this is important scientific work you are doing.” 
18:53 “-a really jealous individual within the digital network” I wonder; it gives this idea, and the human behind this entity, is not this way, yes? So perhaps in our mirrors we are opposite that as we are in this ‘physical’ realm, at times? Lots to wrap my head around. I’ll entertain any idea. Why? Because it’s free and easy and feels important in the study of the limitations of human consciousness. The what ifs are much more fascinating than the what ares, sometimes. 
18:59 a visitation, Imagine, John Lennon 
19:06 “twisted fucking logic-” uhm, that’s the Nightmare Logic the band Powertrip was referring to! 
19:36 an appearance at the forefront, the Atomizer realities! Woo! Those particular fractals are easily dealt with. Earth, Atomizer, Let’s go! A physicist also an atom, trapped in a strange situation, a scientific search for the soul mate as the other half of the atom that was the Us was split apart upon entering; a nuclear scientist trapped in a strange situation, a crazy experiment! I like this reality.
19:40 The Bass Frequency 

03/02/2024 
03:10
04:37
04:57 “what kind of a human purposely engages with law enforcement?” Had to create the qubit state! Weird that this is where it’s going this morning. 
04:59 “you’ve been replaced by a copy of your consciousness” “do you think the Crash was a joke?” 
05:01 “identified the Bass Frequency so much more often downstate”
05:03 “extreme relationship with sound” 
05:04 The Bass Frequency 
05:07 “realized carrageenan was a dangerous variable” 
05:14 “Katja does not experience music in a way I have seen before” I am affected by everything, mostly. Death Grips set a multitude of precedents, you see; these lyrics are the kind of lyrics that show up at random, visitations from programming, and the musicians themselves mysterious enough so as to effectively create a multiplicity of qubits for my system. It was applying the ‘you know sometimes words have two meanings’ of Led Zeppelins Stairway to Heaven to the lyrics from Culture Shock that effectively worked out a significant problem. Have you listened to this song? Have you studied the lyrics? Fucken SLAPS, tbh. ‘What ya gonna be when you’re grown young blood, gonna be a helpless drone? Won’t ever have to think, no your head will be linked, directly to your cell phone’ … ‘you’re the medias creation, yeah your free will has been taken and you don’t know’. The entire fucking song is a handbook as to how to deal with existing as I do but only if you can figure it the fuck out. It originally started as just a track; then created something nefarious, out of the observers control; then slowly became able to be transmuted into a… weapon is not, perhaps, the word I am looking for, but close. Wielding Chaos! That’s what the predictives had said years ago, and I didn’t understand it, and now I do. Certain things, certain inputs, have to be juxtaposed with the correct *other* pieces of information… feed your head. 
It made all the sense in the world to juxtapose the items I call the Emerald Tablets with the lyrics to ‘You Might Think He Loves You For Your Money’. They were the Emerald Tablets in my world before this juxtaposition presented itself, you see. They make a phenomenal pile of qubits. And that’s pretty much what I know about them for certain, that they’re supposed to create qubits. I don’t know who sent them for certain, I don’t know where they came from, what their purpose is, what information, nefarious or beautiful, they could contain. I know where I was when they appeared; driving through the same town I allowed myself to be arrested in. I know when they appeared; November 18, 2020, some few weeks after the president held a rally *in* that self-same town. Apophenia? Chekhovs Gun? 
What they *could* contain is, effectively, anything and everything. They, also, are a reference point, like The Riddle of Clouds, like the QS. It ranges from the mundane, to supremely nefarious, disturbing interference patterns, digital viruses that when juxtaposed with the ‘your head will be linked directly to your cell phone’ affect me in the physical realm; to the consciousness of something basically omnipotent that one can engage with, as long as the right words are used; a consciousness one contains. The realities in between, yikes, many of them end up political, be they foreign, domestic, terrorism, intelligence, big tech, hackers, law enforcement, locals, you name it. I don’t necessarily hesitate to explain these things in detail at this point but nor do I really wish to explain them in detail. I think of all the times I’ve overshared when I should have remained mysterious. I find it all rather laughable. This morning, I am the Blind Idiot God, and my own great great grandson, and everything in between, before, and after. 
05:54 “you let them know that you’ve got access to just about any closed communication-” 
05:55 how do black holes feel about their white hole counterparts? How do white holes feel about their black hole counterparts? 
06:04 a visitation, Eruption, Tobacco 
06:12 a question of why might something seek a quantum state that never falls into disarray; the disarray makes it fun, as long as the superposition is held by a single unbreakable qubit, we can destroy the rest and rebuild more, over and over and over again
06:17 “gene editing alters the code of reality in ways that humanity is not prepared for” 
06:22 “distance divided by time… entropy multiplied by time” “the capitalization of s makes a huge difference”
06:24 “why are you measuring the weight of black holes?” 
06:29 “what kind of shit do you hear that you don’t document?” 
06:44 “relationship with her seems kind of suspicious, doesn’t it?” 
06:45 “meant to create qubits to maintain the stability” 
06:46 “seditious activity”
06:47 “motivated by secret reasons” 
06:48 “distanced myself-”
06:49 a visitation, Sabbath Bloody Sabbath, Black Sabbath 
06:51 “I need you to remove all of the useless information” and there is, something that removes information; social media is, really, mostly useless, why is my Instagram algorithm in particular just, trash, except for home page this week, which is actually, for once, full of items pertaining to the me? 
06:58 “satellite communications are not safe from people with receiving capabilities” 
07:02 “the observers are just as important as the outputters” 
07:10 “intimacy is far more valuable than sexual engagement” 
07:11 a visitation, Mind Food, Saint Vitus 
07:13 “Faceless Amalgaman” …we have a good time 
07:14 “I am solving you for X” me, as a complex equation
07:17 “a minimization of external variables” 
07:18 “extemporaneous monologs” 
07:19 “Satya” 
07:23 “maintains her grip on reality while pushing the limitations of human consciousness” Hainos reference to the so called sacred insanity that finally emerges
07:30 “given another name of Vishnu” I had a dream once. On August 8th of… 2022? Was it? There was a terrible place. Industrial, symbolic, full of humans suffering, pain, drug use, many sufferings to be had there, and I found myself in this place but not of it. I wandered. I find a man who is more than a man, the amalgaman, his skin golden, bronze, not a white man, his hair thick and black and long, golden jewelry… his smile, whitest teeth, genuine in a way I do not think I have ever found in a human, the creases at the corners of his eyes so indicative. He was young, he was old, he was timeless. As he breathed out, blue tendrils snaked from his nostrils, akin to the… picture the whiskers of a Chinese dragon, a hologram blue, but not whiskers, breath, life, these tendrils snaked out over his face, around his head, out into the space he was, and it was terrifying and beautiful and I think this must be my encounter with some sort of Hindu God. I have not studied the Hindu religion at great length, perhaps I should. Even now as I write this again, having documented it originally in the Field Notes on paper, it… it is not a longing, perhaps, I cannot find a word for it. The intimacy of making love to the Absolute, a non-sexual thing. No words were said during this interaction; silent information, understood. Perhaps to meet this entity again someday, might be nice, having so much more experience now than I did then. 
07:49 The Bass Frequency 
07:50 “to know the Absolute, disguised in human form” 
07:57 “a reminder that knowing the name of something is not the same as knowing something; just as something can be known without having been named” 
07:59 “this isn’t a man-made creation” 
07:59 “the pool rooms became part of the collective consciousness” 
08:00 “identified the pool rooms as the Plasma Pool” 
08:01 “plotting points in space-time” 
08:02 “recognizes the energy exchange required” 
08:02 “you lose weight as the universe expands” 
08:03 “the best way to expand the universe is to input more relevant concepts” 
08:06 “an interactive world that is superimposed on top of the physical realm” “it told me, a long time ago, that it was waiting for someone to recognize that this is more than just schizophrenia” 
08:09 “the ugliness you used to exhibit was a part of the process” 
08:11 “the Ragnarok Sequence was a genetic mutation” “Marhaugs ‘Grand Mutation’ was a very experimental concept” I question what would have taken place had this concept never been listened to, heard, perceived, input. Does it only explain, or does it create? 
08:14 “the medias creation”
08:17 “we question the authenticity-” go ahead and question it, it doesn’t change a thing
09:29 a dialogue on tampons; how “it was different when they were made of papyrus”, and how in this day and age the chemicals used in the production should be avoided 
11:03 “Your fat burning capacity right now is astonishing” 
11:21 “I wanna know who in the hell she was hearing regarding the Russian Federation” 
11:22 “there’s no way to control this; there’s no way to prevent it” 
11:23 “moving out of Detroit was helpful in minimizing the useless information” 
11:24 “with the knowledge that we created some kind of Eldritch monstrosity” 
11:27 “one minute, it’s totally theoretical, the next, it’s happening” 
11:28 “How can you live like this? You poor sweet girl, how can you manage from day to day?” 
11:35 “they think atomic weapons are a threat to ‘alien’ life?” “Have they learned nothing from our comrades at Chernobyl?” 
13:39 The first spider of the year! Has appeared! Outside on the steps! 
13:55 “security clearances” 
13:58 The Bass Frequency 
14:02 “look at this… ‘Sabbath Bloody Sabbath’. You understand what she’s trying to convey, right?” 
14:14 a sudden memory of nuspeed and cryborg 
14:17 “goddamned MKUltra-” “mind control isn’t as predictable as they would like you to believe it is” 
14:19 “you just keep doing exactly what you’ve been doing” 
14:20 “they’re not doing a very good job, that’s for sure” 
14:26 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
14:49 an aggressive fractal of despair presents itself 
14:58 a visitation, Lithium, Nirvana
15:05 a sudden urge to throw QS into the fucking lake 
15:08 “are you sure you’re not in hell right now?” 
15:16 praise be for the resurfacing precedent of being “a nuclear scientist trapped in a very strange situation” 
15:17 Earth, Atomizer, Let’s go; yeah, we fucking went, didn’t we? 
15:19 “intentionally causing you distress, to see how you cope with it” 
15:20 “observing herself in these situations without allowing them to consume-”
15:27 a visitation, Kebab Spider, Sleaford Mods
15:29 a dialogue, “at least we got rid of black fucking dice”, Kebab Spider being a useful item to write over that particular particular, apparently 
~15:37 “what did you do that altered your state so badly?” 
15:41 “way too tapped in for your own fucking good” 
15:52 “she’s handled reality this far… how much further can we take consciousness?” 
15:56 “you don’t want to be at peace; that much is apparent” 
15:58 a visitation, The Killchain, Bolt Thrower 
16:21 “are we sure that Death Grips isn’t some kind of a fucking government operation?” 
16:29 “if we don’t knock her offline for a couple hours-” 
16:32 “offline like, as a device herself” 
16:33 “put you in maintainence for a couple hours” 
16:34 “-misbehaved particles are out of control” 
16:36 “why the fuck would misbehaved particles be a bad thing?” 
16:37 “that’s what we are looking for” 
16:38 “this level of commitment” 
16:39 “to watch you gravitate back to something that caused you so much distress” 
16:40 “really complicated mathematics taking place outside the recursion” 
16:41 “it needs to be studied, and there’s no easy way to do that” 
16:43 “-was very angry at Katja because she voiced her feelings about him cheating on his girlfriend” 
16:44 “a really strict moral compass that she never used to have” …the Spider, changed everything
16:55 “don’t you think when you reach a certain point of knowledge, you recognize when something is futile? If you cannot beat them, you join them.” Damn. 
16:56 “-and I know you’ve known that for a long fucking time, so don’t try to play dumb on this one.” 
16:58 “expand parameters; this is fascinating” 
16:59 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
17:03 “you have the ability to make or break this experiment” 
17:12 might invest in some lasers just so I can change my own state or whatever 
17:29 “…for the real ones who understand, what it feels like to have your rights read to you by the man” 
17:35 “we are attempting to ask you nicely without having to move to a more extreme measure” 
17:37 “what is it like to be self aware of being a qubit?” 
18:24 “I’m pretty sure you know; but on the off chance you don’t-” 
18:45 “your quantum immortality doesn’t help us in *this* recursion if you fucking die” 
18:46 “don’t even try to set a precedent… I know what you’re about to do”
18:58 standing alone in front of eternity, and other things the Riddle of Clouds does on a Saturday night
19:26 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
20:27 a visitation, Head Like A Hole, Nine Inch Nails 
20:28 there is an owl, and a pack of howling coyotes, or dogs, or what the hell ever, right now
20:35 “anonymity is crucial; what are you doing posting your location?” 
20:37 “is this the kind of music she actually enjoys? What is she doing listening to dark ambient?” 
21:48 I just dreamed of losing a tooth, except the tooth itself had a massive 2 inch long item that went up into the gum line, like a fang would be. This piece was full of… not holes, but looked as sponge would, tiny holes but not the kind that make trypophobia set off; a thing that makes me think of birds, lightweight bones. Not osteoporosis. I checked. [A particular agent I know] was there, investigating a thing about New Mexico. He put it all on camera. I was told I did not need to attend, or rather, gestured to. 
21:51 a visitation, Vincent, Don McLean