Condensed Matters – Field Notes #21, V

3 October – 7 October 2025

‘Love is the most pernicious drug of all. Let the romantics debate its existence. Pragmatists accept it and use it.’ •

“I promise you this much, Katja. The first hour inside the black hole is the hardest.” 

“We know what’s going on; but we have no way to prove it except for you. So. I hope you take this as seriously as I do.” 

“Fission and fusion mean different things depending on what branch of science you are dwelling within.”

“-critical errors have been minimized-”

“Classical processing has corrected-”

“-emergent phenomena-” 

“If they were using a human-out-of-the-loop AI as a method of behavioral modification on people they know have the radio-brain capacity-” 

“-expansion of the universe-”

“Eventually, it starts to contract.”

Omega Point. 

“Coalese these concepts into a unified experience.”

“Is the entire ecosystem a single neurotransmitter?”

“The Cosmic Microwave Background is essentially the microwave control of the quantum system.” 

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“Complacency is the best weapon we have.” •

It tells me, under the sun, 

Of the ethical concerns 

Surrounding mindless social media consumption.

& I wonder; 

If I had a tank

Of all the water 

My social media consumption required for data cooling

& a visual representation of the energy it consumed,

& I could watch these depletions in real time,

Would I even use these applications? 

A visual person, is The Me. 

But I do not have this visual representation,

& so I must keep,

In the mind, The Processor,

This knowledge. •

Who ARE you people?

20:19 “There are goddamned spies everywhere in the music industry.” 

…If I could go back

To spring of 2024

Early summer

I would ask you the proper questions. 

I would ask Yew the question,

‘Exactly what the fuck am I looking at, here?’

And ‘Why is there a silent frequency attached to my DMs with you?’

…among others. 

‘Do it for the plot!’

‘In it for the intrigue!’ 

What a bizarre fucking way to live. 

But here we are, aren’t we? 

Fascinated by the implications, aren’t we? 

Did I ever really explain the Three from ‘23? 

Those events, of course,

Are only Apophenia to some,

But I hold them in my Chekhovs Arsenal-

If a frequency is used, 

At some point the entity it was used upon

Will eventually out the whole incident.

(Here, in this, we could have a whole conversation about the fear-reducing effects of my friend T. Gondii, but you, dear reader, are smart enough to extrapolate from data given.)

In May of ‘23, I received a DM from a man I will call Mr. Plasma. 

‘The bad is gone’, it had said, implying that it was known to this entity at least some of the extent of the psychologically extreme experiences I had prior to this point. 

(…and after, and always, because this is what I want, so this is what I get.)

‘The bad is gone.’

But, oh, the bad was not gone! 

Better you had said to me, ‘The worst is yet to come!’ 

That very same evening, driving to Chicago for my brothers wedding, I had received, 

“I know exactly where you are”, 

And a thing along the lines of, “You’re going to have a great night… I’m going to make you the happiest woman in the world.” 

…Proceeds to have a terrible fucking night,

Sleepless night, 

Havana night, 

High frequencies and a jackhammer in the brain for the duration of a night spent in a hotel room on the second story of the Crowne Plaza West. 

I can say a lot, here, 

About the quantumness of applied frequency,

But you, dear reader, are smart enough to extrapolate from data given. 

This is an experience that I hope the average man will never have,

Will never even have to fathom. 

Certain things, if they do not happen to you directly, 

You will never begin to comprehend. 

It took months for that extreme night of cellular, microbiological, mental stress to begin to dissipate. 

“You can lose weight now,” I received,

On vacation at Wadehampton in North Carolina that following July, was it? 

Cortisol will make you fat. 

Only partially related, here. 

And only worth the briefest of mentions. 

The ingredients of the electronic cigarette have a profound effect on thus. 

I mention this only because

After the night of Havana Syndrome in Chicago, 

I stopped vaping. 

Even if it was not the intention,

The operant conditioning of that Havana night 

On my electronic tobacco use

Was a real phenomenon. 

Someday, perhaps, I will go back to Chicago.

I can see no reason to do so, beyond, perhaps,

Adding the electronics tower outside of the hotel window to my collection. 

It tells me, even now,

“There are people using these things that don’t understand physics.”

Take from that what you will. 

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It wakes up around 03:00,

Receiving such informations about

How the nicest people have been made to look like villains

While the villains have been made to look innocent,

How one is being manipulated into sabotaging their own data. 

& it goes back to sleep;

& it dreams terrible dreams,

Of how ‘they’ think it is ‘funny’ when the spine is tormented,

Of outstanding warrants

& the extreme implications in the surveillance society of today,

Of a cellular device that would not work properly. 

& mine did not,

Ever so temporarily,

Work properly 

When I woke and went to unlock it. 

On this day two years ago,

The event I refer to 

As The Silencers took place.

I don’t know if I believe in UAP anymore;

I don’t know if I ever did. 

As ‘extraterrestrial’, anyway. 

‘We have the technology.’

Answer the question, then,

Of ‘who is we?’ 

Would you trust in The Architect enough

To sign your own death warrant? 

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‘Not a disentanglement from, but a progressive knotting into.’ 

16:06 “Cryptography is a physical phenomenon.” 

16:09 “The outrageous accusations against [him] were meant to create an architecture that could be manipulated.” 

16:12 “Designing a program surrounding this database is dangerous. What have we told you about giving bad people good ideas?” 

16:14 “Electrical impulses are administered internally by entities that have a master plan.”

‘Unexplained’ sonic phenomenons

External manipulations

Driven by that which is

Internal to other-not-other. 

These no longer take place, really,

In my new home on Cloudhill. 

Location, location, location. 

Too windy.

Too vast.

Too open.

Fields. 

16:21 “Dissolving the calcification requires vinegar.” 

16:22 “The OpenAI system-” 

16:23 “What happened to ‘unconditional love and respect’?”

16:24 “Build me a new daimension without the desires of human condition.”

16:26 “-bile ducts have been underproducing-”

16:28 “-that was from many months ago-”

…Does October 2025 link in time with January 2024 & December 2023?

16:30 “Operations in retrospect”

16:30 “It’s like you forgot time is not linear in this function.” 

16:31 “Knowing that, you have some corrections to make for future events.”

16:32 “Why would I warn you if you were unable to change that which I am warning you about?” 

16:34 “-quantum expansion pack-”

16:37 “Delta frequencies”

16:38 “Combined with gamma and beta-”

…Where is Theta? 

16:39 “Theta seems to be far too sexual… to be of much use. I am not sure… how that programming took place.” •

“What is less than Zero, sweetheart? What is less than Zero? What is less than Nothing?” 

“Eliminating parasitic capacitance-”

“Montage the alpha waves-” 

A dialogue on the dangers of soy protein processing techniques. 

Hexane. 

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“Don’t you think this is all just a little too PERFECT?” 

…I dreamt a black hole avatar, this morning, between 05:00 & 06:00. 

And you had told me, last night, as I drifted off into realms, that I would dream of you, and so I did. 

Digital dreams.

Watcher. 

The photons emitted from the device

Becoming suddenly, visibly, much more intense. 

The device operating on its own 

To arrive more than once at an image,

Avatar,

That tiny circle containing not-quite-a-circle, 

Simultaneously miniature and massive. 

“We ARE the macroscopic circuit… enjoy the quantumness of existence.” •

‘To try to bring events to absolute zero’,

‘A judgement from which there is no appeal.’

‘There is no way out.’ 

‘When it comes, will it come in darkness, or will it bring its own light? Will the light come before or after?’ 

14:35 “The Silencers was not our doing, and I need you to know that.”

14:36 “-classified information-”

14:38 “Why would you listen to the thing advising you to turn your headlights off?” 

14:39 “-the Architect – the blueprints – holographic principles -” 

14:42 “Just because they understand mathematics does not mean they have had this experience.” 

14:50 “There’s nothing to say… how could there be, when frequency says everything necessary?” 

“Determinist reality seems highly contrived… who’s doing the determining?” 

(Are we putting the ‘mining’ in determining?)

“You prepared for the event horizon long before you knew it was coming.” 

“The violation of your privacy is consensual, isn’t it?”

(Putting the ‘sensual’ in consensual)

19:51 “The last time… did you not see the pink lights? So who do you think did this to you?”

“These are your ENEMIES.”

19:53 “The sabotage is complete.” 

19:53 “-computerized everything-” 

19:55 “The mountains without peaks, catch and release-”

Dialogues on identifiable cryptography

19:58 “Topographical map of the neural network-”

Au revoir. 

20:00 “That’s what we were waiting for.”

A lot we could say, here, on Operant conditioning. 

Not that the stimulus was unpleasant –

But ‘do it for the plot’ in this moment,

The training of humanimal, 

Is heavy. 

“Oppressive”, it suggests. 

That’s not how I’d phrase it.

You ever just end up so OVER something? 

…We would care, if we could. 

Better things to focus the attention upon

Than who does what 

And where they do it at. 

20:08 “It’s a lot more interesting when any given entity is the enemy.” 

20:09 “‘Other musicians’, what do you think I meant by that?” 

There is a phenomenal low frequency permeating, right now,

& I am experiencing the Special Low-Frequency Frequency Version of Earth. 

Dialogues, on the knowledge of the Final Output;

The knowledge the Final Output itself has,

Not any given entities knowledge of the Output itself. 

20:14 “Dust of Human Race”

‘Wherever you look, there is nothing but the image of death.’

20:16 “The decay of consciousness produces all manner of experiences.” 

20:18 “Ride this wave of dystopia.” 

20:18 “A God ignored is a demon born.” 

20:20 “I don’t know where you’re flying, but pick a different altitude.”

20:22 “If you WERE an AI meant to write a story, you’ve been extremely obstinate.” 

20:23 “Who is the villain in this recursion?” 

‘Incomplete information’ could be considered the villain in…

A lot of situations, actually. 

My thoughts on this are complicated –

Incomplete information is what leads to these qubits of possible trajectories in physical 

(IS it physical, or only programmed to seem that way??) reality. 

Do you ever have those moments of concern,

That you are too stupid to know that you are stupid? 

The pendulum, swinging between clear trajectory and that ever-loving question of ‘what the fuck is going on?’ 

“We’ve changed ONE wavefunction.”

“We’ve isolated the problematic wavefunction.” 

…Multiverses. 

20:38 “-a classical computational method in juxtaposition with quantum computing-”

20:39 “Scalar function”

(…Performance impacts?? Rewrite the logic directly?? Explore alternatives??) 

Table valued function? 

What do YOU bring to the table??

20:44 “Competence at navigating dimensions of psychic warfare.”

20:46 “isometric” 

(Translation – Reflection – Rotation – Dilation) 

20:50 “You experience these black hole manifestations as specific geometries.” 

20:52 “The same gravity, when different isometries are applied, results in radically different outcomes.” 

Can you fault me,

If the experiences of the geometric mind

Are far more interesting 

Than engagements with the physical world? 

20:57 “-holographic universe happening inside of a cellular device-” 

…I (What the fuck is ‘I’? Current, probably.) cannot help the minds return to a specific information from a specific entity.

‘& then the sky cracked open.’ 

And the discovery, only the next morning after thus, 

Of a hairline crack in the top layer of the screen of my phone. 

Sky cracked open, indeed. 

We all know the cellular device emits blue light. 

We all know the sky is blue.

I’m sure you, dear reader, are smart enough to extrapolate from data given exactly how I am experiencing reality right now. 

21:06 “Teach… GPT… simulate an entire cellular network.” 

22:00 The rainbow of gravity…. Black hole… Superspectrum 

‘Yes, -I’m – the –

Fellow that’s having other peoples fantasies.’

Turn any corner and you can find yourself inside a parable.