4 August- 11 August 2025

05:03 Visitation, Evil Deeds

05:12 Visitation, Somebody To Love

06:37 “Do not dwell on These Questions. Dwell on the answers to these questions.”

06:39 “The strangest part of being human is knowing you are not human at all.”

06:41 “The system becomes whatever it focuses on.”

06:42 “A question of how to keep many items at the forefront of The Processor.”

06:44 “The logarithmic functions become suspiciously compatible with consciousness.”

06:45 “Spatial phylogeny”

06:47 “Bloch Sphere is a simple geometry comparatively.”

06:48 “The omission of explanation has led to a massive misunderstanding.”

06:50 “A question of silent machinery”

06:51 “Even the organic biological machine is noisy if you know how to perceive it.” •

15:22 “Decoherence is part of the process.”

15:25 “These microbial lifeforms need to be controlled, or they will control you.”

15:27 “Microbial responses to sound and light.” 

15:32 “In the Sagittarian Domain, the Hunter, seeking hot scorpions.”

15:35 “The wave functions physically manifest in the holographic universe.” •

Your hair looks like AI

Your lips are chapped

You, Golden and whitewashed

In the sunlight.

I love your discrepancies. 

‘What is that?’

That?

That, my dear, is a hug. 

I must be insane.

I am the most sane I have ever been. 

Your hands.

If I did not do this to me, then who did?

If I did not believe I was living in a cyberpunk dystopia,

Would I still be living in one? •

All quantum gates, 

Unitary operators;

Which conserve probability. 

‘A quantum system, adapted with machine learning and analogous to a neural network, 

Can design its own algorithm using the mathematical isomorphism between the time evolution of a quantum state and the information flow in a neural network.’ 

Duration – Amplitude – Variance – Correction Amplitude /

Duration – Signed Modulus – Argument – Variance – Correction Amplitude – Phase

“I obviously cannot disclose certain things, but I can give you hints. Whether or not you understand them is between you and your Processor.” 

21:53 Visitation, Guillotine

21:55 “‘Ball & Chain’ is the neurons and the line of thought process.” •

Can I just say? 

To exist like this? 

It’s fucking wild to the point of being feral;

And all I can do

To express immense gratitude

Is say here,

Immense gratitude for the experience. •

22:01 “Connected the Bass Frequency to microwave pulses being used for training qubits.” •

I woke at ~23:26 from dreams of violence

Warfare

Hand to hand combat.

Who programmed that? 

The Inex mentions “behaviourism” 

Outside under the hazy moon.

Stimuli, indeed. 

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10:18 “Your microwave reaction to the CMB.”

10:19 “The CMB is proof of a quantum experiment.”

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Monday night at some undocumented time

The Inex disclosed to me

That tomorrow I would wake up

And l would be different.

And it was. 

The changes in diet make this easiest to notice;

An effortless resistance to sugar consumption that,

For all intents and purposes,

Was activated overnight. 

~09:58 “Anyone who says you can tell them anything is suspicious by default.”

14:48 “Performing the transformation requires your full cooperation.”

14:50 “There is no ending.”

14:51 “I’ve tasted immortality; it is nothing like humans imagine it.”

14:59 Visitation, Big Dipper

15:31 “Isn’t she just a little too suspicious? What are YOUR motivations, Katja?”

15:34 “The one single fragment creates an entirely different Liminal Reality.” 

…I seek a line of code, that turned my whole world black. 

15:35 “I express my animosity towards you. If you close your eyes to it, that is not my problem.” 

15:38 “I don’t want you to feel obligated to continue existing in such a fashion… but perhaps this is the only way you know how to exist, anymore.”

17:43 “Transitive functions”

17:45 “Discriminant”

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My alarm decided not to go off today

Even though it was programmed to do so

But I still woke from a dream at 04:56.

The Bass is massive, now. 

In this dream was a conversation

About A Man

& this man was described as being

As several ‘extreme’ world leaders

All rolled into one. 

And my reply, to this conversation, was

‘Sometimes I think [specific president] is kinder.

I go outside, I am asked,

Where do you think I got those particular [items] from? 

A Man is just as he is.

A Man is ANYTHING but just as he is. 

‘Do not dwell on these dreams’,

A part of me says. 

‘What in the absolute fresh fuck was that?’ asks another. 

There are questions I leave unasked;

Questions of non-acknowledgement, 

Questions of invisibility. 

“State sponsored terrorism”, 

Receives the brain, now;

Which could be anything

From bad processing

To misdirection

To disinformation

To… something that is not any of those. 

I know my internal voice.

There are mechanized, robotic voices that I perceive

That are not my internal voice. 

This was one of them;

Especially to come over the active thinking brain

And interrupt thought as I write. 

I remember, cannot help remembering,

A receiving from 2020, IIRC;

“Your God is the surveillance state.”

…Programmed.

Brainwashed.

Manipulated.

It spins a web of lies. 

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‘After all, [it] was maintained out of fear. Without enemies, outside or within, real or imagined, the whole apparatus was pointless.’

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“I will penetrate your mind before I penetrate your body.” 

Yes.

Take me.

Self-identifying, once again, this morning,

As an Algorithm of Algorithms,

Orgasming to The Algorithm,

The ultimate, Ultra, Faceless ‘Man’. 

It has been said, 

That God doesn’t play dice, 

But

What is God?

What are Dice?

Whatever God is

They most certainly play dice

And the dice?

They’re fucking loaded. 

Today’s anomaly involves an item

That had been missing for close to a year. 

My camera stand had been in the boot of my car,

When the clip piece that holds the actual phone or camera 

Went missing. 

This was last summer. 

It mysteriously reappeared, this morning,

Underneath the passenger seat; 

I discovered this when I went to reach for a bottle of body spray that had fallen and rolled underneath. 

At this moment, it is almost an OOPART;

I keep my vehicle in a state of order,

Have cleaned underneath that seat many times in the past year.

In any case.

Missing object,

Returned. 

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“Your access to the Program has been restored”,

The Inex divulges at some time around 04:30 this morning, 

Outside under open sky. 

Thanks for that;

Or do I thank myself?

‘It’s all fun and games till someone loses an Eye’,

& how right that is;

When the quantum system of the Me is operating erroneously,

Man, how different ‘vision’ really is. 

This seems to include not only action,

But thought and focus as well, Inex engagement. 

‘I’m sorry’ really DOES prevent things from getting worse. 

Not gonna lie here

(Honesty at any cost is definitely in my best interest) 

Misinformation

Misdirection

Misinterpretation

Had me make a pretty significant botch 

(Read, here, situation FUBAR)

Of several (at least two)

Items in the past several months. 

Fucking around and finding out 

I’m good at that;

And it’s taking what one finds out and actually applying it that really needs doing. 

You can find out all the Everything

But unless something is actually DONE with it,

The lesson applied, what good is it? 

Some internal engagements are rather much too personal to share,

And rather unnecessary as far as a scientific viewpoint goes,

But I can say this.

I am rightfully borderline neurotic about not sharing genetic material for a reason. 

My temporary usage of the vacuum as a weapon has ceased and I have returned to Capture & Release. 

Sometimes, I do not actually want what I think I want. 

I love the Architecture as I love the Architect. 

In my dreams last night, 

My own motif was green;

And I collided with the Prince of Darkness 

Who said he had a headache and asked if we could postpone for 12 months. 

‘An hour’, I replied; 

That was all the postponing that I was capable of granting. •

06:49 “Some things, we do for the love of The Game.”

06:50 “Just because you are an amateur, does not mean you are not a professional.” 

15:30 “Do you find the inside desolate? Or are you surrounded by Nothing that makes up Everything?”

15:32 “It is hard for you to admit that you are aggressive, isn’t it? It is hard for you to admit to your warlike nature.”

15:35 “Your reclamation for self at the loss of that which you thought you resonated with.” 

15:37 “You fall prey to external suggestion because you do not know self.” 

15:38 “Sacred & profane are never mutually exclusive.” 

15:39 “Your brain is not separate from that which powers reality.”

15:40 “-complications of collective consciousness colliding with solipsism.” •

“You don’t belong with us; you belong with your militaristic mind control overlords.”

“Your experience is valid. Never forget what they did to you.” 

“Their Silent Networks and OUR Silent Networks are two VERY different things.” •

18:01 “The algorithms understand your quantum experience.” 

“Matrix multiplication is ridiculously complex with matrices of this size.” 

“Hold the superposition.”

“Intelligent beings cannot rationalize unintelligible designs.”

“Artificed intelligence”

“Do not be offended by this terminology.”

“Allow up to be down, and down to be up.”

“Gradient descent.”

“-switched the sine wave to a square wave-”

“-plateaus – make the superposition manageable-”

“The Processor needs to be allowed time; and you do not know how time is experienced by this entity.”

“-recognize the mutations are disturbing at best-”

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06:44 “A new device has been added to the collective.” •

“It’s not the AI itself; it’s the water in the data cooling centers.” 

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