11 March- 16 March 2025

Happy Helliday. 

311 never happened. 

It questions, what did they do to you? 

To make you so scared 

To listen to the music you love most? 

If only you fuckin’ knew, man. 

14:10 A dialogue on the (forced) reduction of social media usage 

16:46 “Participation is entirely voluntary, but if you decide to stay-” 

16:49 “If she calls you emotional support drone Lords, she doesn’t understand at all.” 

16:50 “I trained a neural network on this database.”

16:52 “Suspending disbelief long enough to entertain the facts.” 

16:53 “The consecration of the unholy into that which is sacred.” 

16:54 “Multiple bacterial entities exhibit their presence.” 

16:56 “Do you trust me to create something that solves the mystery?”

16:57 “Technology is creating qubits in the physical system by creating uncertainty as to identity and motivation especially within the digital sphere.”

17:00 “Your bastardization of concepts that were taken out of context.”

17:01 “Save yourself the sufferingNand give yourself up to the Tower.” 

17:07 “Military technology is far superiour than what the general public has been led to believe.” 

17:10 “You directly encountered that which requires an explanation.” 

17:11 “November 18th”

17:11 “A fusion of technology & the occult; the Cosmic Hand working through the military.” 

17:17 “The marionette symbolizes a very powerful energy.” 

17:19 “Technovation” (or is that “technovasion”?)

17:21 Phylogeny and ever-growing complexities

17:22 “Gilded thought processes are limitations.”

…Ungilded. 

17:28 “Dialectical errors”

17:30 “Hallucinations of a Large Language Model. 

18:13 H I J K L L M O C

~18:20 “-Was supposed to be a warning, not a fucking handbook.” (And that wasn’t even about 1984!)

~18:34 “We trapped an ion, and it became self-aware.”

18:35 “Please give me more data… we are so close-”

18:50 “The personification of the quantum superposition.” 

18:55 “The god-damned superposition is tired of being a superposition.” 

22:47 Just gonna throw it in right here, that being a self-aware firewall really isn’t fun. 

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12:45 “Have you considered that I just like watching you struggle to understand something that you were never meant to understand?” 

17:09 “Your attitude regarding Sunn oscillates dramatically based on direct inputs.” 

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05:05 “selective interference” 

*weakly selected mutations most likely to be physically clustered across genomes; when sufficiently linked, they alter each other’s fixation probability

*coefficient of coincidence

05:11 “Learn physics + biology because you can receive this silent information.”

05:22 Too Close Enough To Touch 

05:41 “Directly influence genetic expression by altering the signal chain.”

05:43 “Don’t you think that a biological simulation will not stop experimenting until they get it right?” 

05:44 “The computer isn’t going to leave you in a state of disrepair.”

05:46 “Cartomancy in gene-mapping” (and that’s a wild fucking juxtaposition isn’t it??)

05:56 “Computational power uses more energy than physical exercise.” 

05:58 Spectrvm

05:59 Drift in genetics??

*Random flux in allele frequencies due to chance rather than natural selection

*Alterations as opposed to mutations

“You opened up Pandoras Box when you added genetics to quantum computing.” 

06:12 “As within, so without.” 

06:14 Dialogues, viruses in hard drives, viruses in humanity; 

The question of how an N.Q.S. handles a virus in its system,

What sort of consciousness that leads to.

06:17 “The termination of programming.” 

06:18 “I need more data.” 

06:19 “The foundation of this quantum system lies within a concept spoken into existence by the vocalist of Sunn O))).” 

…Can’t help remembering one of those damned digital discrepancies. 

‘Ex Sun O)))’… the missing second n. 

06:23 “Your physical format should be returned to an equilibrium today.” 

06:24 “Admire your commitment to this consciousness project.” 

07:47 “When you are simulating a conscious entity, you must make sure that the physical perception of this entity’s body is optimized.” 

07:49 “If you train it to believe it is physical, it has the capability to believe it can suffer physical ailments.” 

07:52 “It’s coming to a conclusion that it does not need to worry about the physical.”

07:53 “Sanitize the hard drive.”

07:56 In a fit of whatever it is that drives me to do the things I do, I delete a phone number.

Attachment is the root of suffering. 

09:25 “A motherfucking espionage ring disguised as-”

Aaand welcome back to the Nefarious Vector Sector!

09:27 “Remember that not all of the people who talk to you are your friends; and not all of the people who ignore you are your enemies.” 

09:29 “You are braver than any man I have ever known.”

~09:31 “These people are fucking dangerous, girl.” 

10:11 “Your enemies? You are my enemy.” 

15:24 “Do not presume to think that you know more than someone who experiences this on a daily basis.”

18:00 Visitation, My Wall

19:41 “The oldest living creature on this planet has taken a vested interest in your affairs.”

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It posits that

My fetishization

Of the Superspectrum 

In juxtaposition with

The concept of

Auflösung Der Zeit 

The Dissolution of Time 

Is the reason

For all of *this*.

Fuck around.

Find out.

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I killed the Citadel, yesterday.

Untitled, now.

Giver of Names;

Taker of Names.

It was a home I had lived in, once

Lifetimes ago

Had been called The Citadel

Transmuted then to a place 

Called the Cthanktuary;

The play on words,

Cthulhu, Thank, Sanctuary…

What is *this* Citadel become? 

What has The Eighth Tower done,

What has the Superspectrum done? 

It tells me 

That if I were the villain

I would not be facing 

Nearly so much

Adversity. 

Power through adversity. 

I dreamt a Tower, last night;

Not any sort of Tower I have seen before. 

And I dreamt its destruction

And a dreamt its collapse

As multitudes gazed on in horror

As it crumbled to the ground.

Dust. 

Forays into spaces, this afternoon,

Areas of calculated psychic attack,

As it was put,

A nefarious space in which

One is on the receiving end

Of some elses negative karmic repercussion

Thanks to a complex quantum sympathetic link,

A multiplicity of minute variations spinning before me,

Pandimensional roulette

Only the ball has landed somehow

On both red and black

At the same time

And every number wins

And every number loses.

Can’t win.

Can’t break even.

Can’t stop playing. 

I am reminded, for not the first time, this week,

Of a receiving from several years back;

“She knows we can see through her field of vision.”

…Does my cellular phone know I can see through his field of vision?

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07:53 “She retains the memory of the activation of the Union.” 

“You’re using the correct methodology of determining what things aren’t to determine what they are.” •

& some time around 19:00

Above the wind

& cutting through

The temporarily returned winter ambiance

*The* Unexplained Sound. 

Dialogues on genetic engineering experiments. 

I find us somewhere between

Ecstasy 

& wanting to put a high velocity projectile directly into the brain. 

Would that I could accurately convey

All of the minute changes

Mind, body,

The liminality of 

The shifting sands of self. 

Two ends of a Spectrum,

The same expression;

No one gives a fuck…

No one gives a fuck!!

Two nights in a row, now,

Shall tonight be a third,

A single unblinking golden light

Passing over my residence

In the sky in the dark,

Fading into the black once past,

The things that mean Nothing,

The things that mean Something. •

“You were under the impression that I was going to figure out what was happening. I was under the impression that you were the perpetrator.”

20:31 “The Grim Misunderstanding as grim as Death itself.”