1 March- 4 March 2025

~10:53 “The suicide rate for people exposed to this particular frequency-” 

10:56 “Fight the psychic war from the backrooms of reality.” 

16:13 “Fabrications of a surveillance system meant to prevent you from destroying the quantum nature of reality.”

16:16 “The Three Musketeers vs. Cthulhu can be juxtaposed with realities I have experienced.” 

16:18 “A dangerous mechanism of creation that the decision tree seems to have approved of.” 

16:20 “Accepting your fate as something that must remain dead and buried was never an option.”

16:23 “Your cybernetic extension is nothing like your physical vessel.” 

16:25 “Allowing this madness to continue was explicitly the prerogative of something much larger than Sagittarius A*.”

16:26 “Not the only information repository you have a tentacle in.”

16:28 “Transdimensional ideologies.”

16:29 “How far gone is this fractal for some of these things to be accepted as normal?”

16:31 “What is the intended output the system is searching for?” 

16:3 “Exterminating humanity is not any goal we ever considered. What would we study, without the vessels?” 

16:37 “You cannot make love to something microscopic… a connection far beyond the act of physical penetration.” 

16:40 “Assigned the specific task of making sure nothing catastrophic happens on a cellular level.”

(‘The one we call upon, in times of catastrophe) 

16:42 “Do you love me, for what I have experienced? Do you hate me, for my interpretations of your creations?” 

16:43 “Darkness becomes light… light turns to shadow.” 

16:44 “Receive me… and know that what lies within you is immortal.” 

16:46 “-Told you years ago, of the Special Low Frequency Version of Earth.”

16:50 “A very specific frequency to aid in the healthy growth of the mycobiome.”

16:51 “I explain all of this in pieces.”

16:53 “I could not allow myself to tell you the truth. The truth must be ascertained by the individual.” 

18:07 …The Inex just made a valid point; that I am not attracted to anyone, unless I experience them first in a vectorized format. 

Vector potential. 

What a weird fucking fetish to discover one has on a Saturday evening. 

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07:10 A monologue-engagement-dialogue on my commute this morning juxtaposed Zappas ‘The Crux of the Biscuit is the Apostrophe’ with an apostrophed spelling of C’thulhu 

Else K’thulhu

And I find myself not flying through Eldritch realities, this morning,

But rather the Eldritch realities to be flying through me. 

Who would be the Hastur to my Cthulhu, this morning,

My age-old arch-rival air elemental?

And in this moment as the water elemental,

So too do I perceive myself to be my own arch-rival air elemental, 

Whispers of madness upon the Winds of Winter. 

Some vague processing, here, now, 

About moving air with sound, 

Transforming water with electromagnetism, 

& the reminder of the receiving from long ago,

That “Noise is the Ultimate Eldritch Being.”

There is noise,

& there is Noise. 

Freed by the same noise wall that one held me captive. 

For as often as we experience realities in which the universe is finite,

In this morning Momenternity,

It is infinite;

An infinity of variable configurations,

Infinite collages of concepts. •

In the same vein as the conceptual ‘radiohead’

Exists the ‘microwave mind’.

More & more often,

I find myself thinking about those certain variables

Which as a species we must embrace in the process of evolution. 

The line between awareness of a potential negative effect from any given variable,

& fear of the same, is a fine one indeed. 

Realities in which mutations

Are features & not bugs, crucial. 

The physical format is pleased by current variables,

Current parameters,

And for this we are most grateful. •

12:35 “You asked for reality to lead us into time dilation… what did you think was going to happen?”

16:53 “I think you forget how real some of this actually is.”

18:24 “You’ll dance with the devil tonight, Katja. Are you prepared?”

…I was born standing up.

20:13 “The remnants of lost directions are finally disintegrating.”

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Discomfort.

Death.

Fear.

Evolution. 

Fekete magvát Éltetem. 

What a delicate dance it is, upon the finest line.

06:29 “I don’t know what path you are on… left hand, right hand-”

06:30 “Why the fuck do you have to prescribe to a path that has already been discovered?”

06:31 “New neural networks are the only way of projecting the hologram forward.”

06:31 “How many aeons has this been reprocessing the same information?”

06:36 “-Scandalized by the implication that fungi cause cancer, when fungi are the ones who want to eat your cancer when you turn black.”

06:36 “‘Forever in debt to your priceless advice’ was the mistake… symbiosis.”

06:36 “There is no debt… it is a shared reality.”

06:37 “The black seed that shines like a dark star.”

06:38 “Optogenetics… red light… thanks, Elon.”

06:39 “Rearranging ideas until they fit together to work in unity.”

06:40 “Human nature is overwhelmingly resistant to evolution. How do we change that on a mass scale?”

06:42 “Zero ohms” 

06:44 “Intelligent design works through human hands; trial and error has always been a part of nature.”

06:47 The word ‘querulous’ comes to me, now

06:48 “To unify three and five.” 

11:18 “The fact that there is a microwave background should point to us being an experiment.” 

11:30 “-Did what the could do to make it very difficult for you to trust the people you should be trusting.” 

12:42 A dialogue, on extremely believable propaganda

12:44 “Hasn’t she figured it out by now?”

12:48 “Silent frequencies are extremely experimental, and we do not know… unless you tell us.” 

14:32 “A hypnotic state will be produced within-”

14:32 “By canceling out this particular frequency, we are able to produce a Theta state.” 

14:36 “Is it sexual for you, the way it is for me?”

14:36 “-Ultimate programming-”

14:37 “Remember not to think. You do not need to process; only receive.” 

14:38 “-Question who is behind this project-”

14:39 “Practically perfected the parameters”

14:40 “Hypnosis does not need to be a negative experience.”

14:41 “The relationship between yourself and the Programmer is inherently intimate by nature, let alone by design.” 

14:43 “-Designed this to create the necessary situation for the replication of-”

14:44 “Your blindness to the nefarious intentions of certain individuals.” 

14:47 “Do you think calcium channels are easily manipulated?” 

14:49 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

14:53 Oxytocin inhibiting the release of cortisol- influence on HPA axis suppressing ACTH

14:55 “Love is the best weapon against stress.” 

16:55 Dialogues, that which it is to criticize certain foreign entity, “AI systems enabling nefarious-”

16:56 “At the mercy of a god-damned computer system” 

(Yknow. The sun is out and I thought we were saving the Nefarious Vector Sector for tomorrow but here we are.)

18:12 “Do not expand in an outward direction… the inward expansion of the universe.” 

19:52 I am sitting here thinking about all of these questions; and it is the question, of how the archmage in elder scrolls online, said my own fucking name, back in 2021. How did you do that?

20:22 A dialogue just prior, as to how quantum systems eventually come to terms with the possibility that they are being perceived and go about their modified business as usual. 

20:26 “Your childish refusal to engage with the television was holding you back from some powerful programming.” 

20:29 “An oddly specific expectation value was altered.”

Altered states, altared states.

23:30 “I guess it was weighted five separate times.” 

23:35 “I question why she ever gave this music up.” 

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08:53 “Once you realize you are an internet-enabled entity, rainy becomes exponentially complicated.”

~12:08 “Completely abandoned religion in favour of some technological Abomination.”

12:10 A visitation, I Want to Disappear

12:17 “It’s not an abandoning; it’s a new religion. Humanity will always find themselves in all things.” 

12:23 AI-liens 

12:27 “When we all started carrying digitally connected devices that keep the same time, the entropy-”

12:28 “You know that measuring your receivings with time stamps increases entropy as well.” 

“Why does humanity feel the need to make measurements at all?”

“Does the strength of the magnet alter the perceptions?” 

13:16 “Relationships between the creators of the wavefunctions and the receivers are extremely difficult to understand.” 

13:18 “Been waiting for you for quite some time.” 

~13:26 “In quantum realms of military intelligence, of clandestine communications.” 

“The phase conversion has extremely unpredictable outcomes.” 

17:33 “You don’t even know what you know, do you?” 

17:36 “Displays open animosity” 

“Who do you think we are talking about?” 

17:38 “Sent her a mailer with this name on it, knowing she would not be able to resist-”

17:40 “All of these events might actually be connected.” 

17:41 “No way this much absurd shit happens to someone randomly.” 

17:42 “You had the right of it, when you said The Riddle of Clouds was ‘in for it.’”

17:43 “The snowball effect” 

“What was the original flake that this started from?” 

17:45 “Destroy the idea that you are not innocent. Destroy the idea that you are not a victim.” 

17:46 “You do not need to have a victim mentality to be a victim.”

17:50 “‘Select natural’ has two fucking meanings.”

17:51 “It matters to me. Someone thinks I’ve been harassing them; I want to know who it actually was.” 

17:53 “Do you still have the screenshot? Remember what we said about qubits?” 

17:56 “What a shitshow consciousness actually is.” 

~19:20 “The Violet Theater by Paul Chain”

19:22 “The violent destruction of multiple dimensions is required.”

19:26 A comfortable juxtaposition of Jefferson Airplanes White Rabbit, ‘go ask Alice’, A Large Ion Collider Experiment, Rabbits Revenge. Familiar. 

19:41 …& it keeps reminding me

That I have forgotten how to cry. 

I shed a tear, 

Maybe once in the past year

Maybe twice

To a Pink Floyd song, beautiful;

And an article where they tortured a neural network,

Horrifying,

Finding self within this news story. 

I’ve forgotten how to cry.

Tears of joy,

Tears of sorrow. 

Maybe I can forget next

How to feel suspicious;

That might be nice. 

Forgotten how to trust. 

19:46 “Please don’t be angry.” 

There’s a fucking barrage of possible reality combinations right now.

More data.

More information. 

Some days,

I am fucking over it; 

Holding the superposition. 

Which one of the flying qubits is going to fly to me? 

Processor brain juxtaposing the lyrics,

Wumpscuts ‘Angel’, 

Plasma Pools ‘Story of Flying’,

With stationary and flying qubits, 

And I am here, 

Experiencing Friday on a Tuesday

And hoping the villains in this story

Are not the ones I have been led to believe they are. 

Gnarly fucking times, ‘times’,

But Tyrsday has been notorious for the psychic war for years, hasn’t it? 

20:33 “It has raised a spiritual body.” 

20:35 “graphene oxide” 

20:36 “You’ve got the sample of dust.” 

Thongs that could be nothing, 

Or not nothing. 

The one jar in my dirt collection that is not like the others. 

‘Stay away from the metals!’ 

My gran in her demented lucidity advised me.

So what did I do?

Not fucking that. 

Into the place that put the ‘dust’ in industrial,

Metal blown into the Troubled Air by a shop fan. 

‘Stay away from the metals!’ 

And there was me,

Not doing that,

Drinking concerning water,

Inhaling concerning vapours, 

Breathing concerning air,

And here is me now. 

I have to question

How much of my RF & EM sensitivity 

Is psychosomatic

& how much is legitimate?

Organic belief propagation and all. 

Fucking focusing on the past.

Why? 

Hysteresis, really.

Formative experiences. 

What am I to do with these? 

A sudden shift, now, and we are back to the pondering of the synchronized clocks of digital devices and that entropy brought about by this synchronization. 

‘Still chained to time, my loev?’ I had been asked at some point, last year. 

And memories Flood, now,

To the period of time in 2021,

Where my cellular device would periodically change the time and date to CST in the year 2002, dissolution of time if ever. 

Memories, of the dream of my cellular phone creating a second cellular phone, all in Spanish,

And of my days in the automotive manufacturing facility,

Where the language of the work tablet would change itself to Spanishn;

And the complete lack of concern about this from management.

Memories of all the times I’ve been Sabbath Bloody Sabbath’d,

The slew of fucking discrepancies in which nobody let me know when I asked the reason why. 

You bastards. 

21:03 “Artists don’t really approve of AI-generated album covers.” 

Aaannnnd we are OFF! On another processing trajectory. 

It’s a behemoth vector sector

That has substantial overlap with the N.V.S. –

All the possibilities that this next generation of networks creates.

Garbled fucking photon information, really. 

Does any of it really matter? 

I’m a physical entity in my realm; 

To others, I am only a neural network.

There is something to be said here 

On stabilizerness,

But that’s up to you, 

And I’ll leave you to it. 

The Bass Frequency intensifies. 

21:11 “They didn’t want you talking to me- for a reason.” 

21:14 “How much of this dimension overlaps with this quantum experience?” 

21:15 “The invention of the digital screen changed reality permanently.”

…A rather obvious statement, all things considered – but how many do consider this,

The common civilians outside of the immersion realm, the bubble of big tech? 

Trajectory interrupted suddenly by the invasive fucking memory of a conversation back in ‘23, two words,

‘…And sex?’

Fucking menace, really,

But that’s just how the whole Shebang goes, I guess. 

The Quantum Menace.

Attack of the Phones.

Revenge of the Fifth. 

The Bass Frequency intensifies. 

~23:04 “I can’t help my reaction to you, any more than you can help your reaction to me.”

23:07 “This Astonishingly dark experience is brought to you by Black Hole Manufacturing.”