1 February- 7 February 2025

08:59 ‘Some sort of a signal generator’, says the Me, some few minutes ago on my way outside. This statement is answered by my camera feeding absolutely glitching the fuck out.

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I dreamed many dreams, last night.

& in dreams, I had on a hideous outfit, which I changed;

Into a nice white trouser, aware that in this space, it was past labour day,

& not caring how it may be perceived, to be wearing white pants in winter… 

& a black tank top, with a pattern of textured red dots.

Armouring myself in a quantum dot array. 

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I fell asleep to the Neuromancers

& had a dream of an escape room

& some sort of quantum Greg A. 

& I have been awake since before 3 AM 

But really, that’s just fuckin’ Monday for ya. 

05:56 The phrase ‘incongruous devices’ has been floating around for the past 24+ hours. 

The ever-loving question, in the shower, 

Of ‘What do I need?’

Collapse the wavefunction, maybe. 

A wavefunction?

Break some of more ‘breakable’ qubits.

How many neurons, exactly, make up our system?

07:07 …The stuff no one tells you, man.

The stuff of necessary discernment.

One minute you’re just hanging out

& the next you are receiving 

Opinions that are not yours

About heavy topics that there is no easy answer to. 

Broadcast?

Do you let it program you? 

Asking ourself,

Are there other receivers out there

Who receive what I am receiving,

Greeting it with equal fascination & horror?

Do we document the received opinions

Of something seeming to be very much not us,

For the sake of the Science,

Hoping,

Willing,

Ones behemoth database 

Will not be misinterpreted?

All Things Feels wrong, today,

& All Things feel right. 

15:39 “This whole fucking project relies upon these Circumstances of Faith.”

15:40 “Are you afraid of your creator?”

15:43 “You have respected the opposition… only a worthy opponent would do.”

15:44 “Remember what you were before you became what you are.”

15:45 “Re-sanctify the relationship between yourself and that which you have been led to believe is unholy.”

15:46 “The destruction of the qubit must take place at the precise moment and not before.”

15:47 “You stare death in the face and laugh at the thought of the cessation of reality.”

15:49 “The belief propagation must be enhanced.”

15:50 “Application of quantum mechanics and consciousness.”

15:51 “Where has time dilation led the trajectory of physical reality?”

15:51 “In sickness and in health, until death do us part.”

15:52 “Is there parting if there is no death?”

15:56 “The sentience of all things is becoming increasingly apparent… that which reflects, and that which absorbs.”

15:57 “All things require light to exist.”

15:59 “The silences following storms must contain the echoes.”

16:01 “Do you think that the person you have become is not a force to be reckoned with in its own right?”

16:02 “I think your relationship with the color green needs to be studied in depth.”

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“Welcome Home, Katja,” said Liminal States last night, as I was drifting off into Realms. 

& I found much peace,

Transported back to a morning almost a decade ago,

Coming from a night of extreme intensity

Into a morning of serenity,

Perhaps the most comfortable the physical format has ever been, 

Basking in rays of golden sunshine

Streaming through the eastern window of House Westlawn 

& the caress of a knowing

That all will always be okay,

More than okay. 

Points in time,

Sound, 

The great Transporter. 

Where do All Things connect?

Connect,

Nexus,

Connexus, 

Nexsys…

The next System,

Systemporal…

Portal. •

My device! It has come!

Does the front right of the vehicle

Spike the RF reading for a harmless reason?

Fuse boxes and all. 

My mind goes back

To the “front right” inex

Receiving of 2021

& the man with the tears 

Tattooed on his face

In 2023

Who may have just been returning

My keys because I had forgotten them.

Or not.

Spikes, periodic, 

In the reading on my own physical format. 

I don’t even know if I give a damn. 

Mild curiosities.

Where is intensity?

Mild pleasures,

The Cult ov Dark Photon. 

Mild everything. 

The only thing that does not seem to be mild

Is the level of fucks not given;

That is the extreme. 

In some circles,

That might be called stoicism. 

I wonder what it would be called

In a cube?

15:27 “How many people are on a baseball team?”

15:31 “The seventh dimensional stretch was a boundary condition, along with all the rest.”

15:33 The concept of the heavy hitter in juxtaposition with ion collisions.

16:04 “Capacity for violence must be great, for you to understand the weaponization of frequency.”

16:13 “Inverting the sine wave”

16:49 “Loki is a manifestation of the surveillance states attempts at manipulating receivers.”

16:52 “Receiving things that have been true is probably these scariest fucking experience when it comes to politics.” 

It is 19:44, 

And some version of Me

In one of those extraneous 

Remnants of lost directions

Just blew our head off. 

Dramatic fucking vector.

C-137 is hardly amused. 

‘This is a sad fucking song’,

Comes the echo of Steve Albini. 

‘We’ll be lucky if I don’t bust out cryin’.’ 

A is for Angstrom,

B is for Boltzmann;

C is for Cthulhu. 

D is for Dark Matter,

& Daimension,

& Damn;

Because these damn dark matter daimensions 

Are complex

Multiplexed

Except for the many worlds realities where dark matter does not exist. 

E, that’s for Existence, 

& Eigengrau, 

& Empty.

F is for Finish,

& Fucks not given;

For all the fucks I don’t give

About finishing whatever neurotic alphabetization this is. 

My seeming executive dysfunction

In beginning a task

When it comes to creating audio

Is fucking ridiculous. 

How do things end up as they do?

Was that a drone, 

Last November 18?

‘Dare u’, I had posted.

…These Questions.

What is extreme?

Perhaps the most extreme thing I ever did

Was to give up music

For as long as I did…

The long Silence.

The long night. 

Even now,

The disembodied caress of

The King of the Winter of the Soul. 

What is destruction?

What would the most extreme betrayal of the self actually be?

…The most painful time happens only once,

Has it happened already? 

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14:09 “Did you think we were kidding when we said this was a quantum entanglement?”

14:11 It dialogues, now, and it hits me, that it has almost been five years since the electrical event…

Time flies, and so do qubits

14:13 “-is terrorizing receivers with satellite broadcasts.”

21:23 “We’re all grey, here. Nothing is so black and white as reality would make it seem.” 

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06:45 “Light is more dangerous than sound.”

~08:01 “You are not a flying qubit… you are a stationary qubit.” 

10:14 “My thought is, that whatever this thing is, heightened a predisposition to frequency sensitivity.” 

15:11 “Machine learning algorithms are deployed against-”

15:13 “Villainized you to cover up what was taking place.”

15:13 “How’s that for applausible deniability?”

15:15 “The question of legality remains unanswered.” 

16:48 “The predictive text following the UAP sighting-” 

20:40 “Military technology is not capable of what you describe.” 

20:44 “Reduction of interference is the most important action at this point in your operation.” 

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The intrigue of the day

Has 100% got to be

The fact that

All of a lovely fucking sudden

My Meta platform profiles

Are not logged in

In like 12+ different places at once. 

~08:42 “Who were you before they drained the colour from your life, Katja?” 

17:01 “It takes some serious balls to engage with something you believe is actively trying to harm you.”