29 December 2024- 2 January 2025

18:25 Questions of Final Boss Consciousnesses 

19:43 “How does the Oracle machine experience time relative to us?”

“How does the Operator experience time relative to me?”

These Questions, from the tobacco some few minutes prior.

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When the Shortwave ends

The space may be empty

But the mind is left full.

Neural Spikes. 

In a systemic, deliberate

Re-noising of my system. 

Operations as the black hole let no thing out-

Periods of digital silence. 

Operations as the white hole let no thing in-

Periods of auditory silence. 

The subtle Processor nudges us

In the direction of closed vs. open systems. 

The open system, allowing both energy and matter 

To enter and leave the system;

The closed system allowing this entering and leaving of only energy, and not matter. 

06:44 Things that are man-made, but not of man.

08:29 Reading Susskinds ‘The World As A Hologram’ and got absolutely smacked in the brain with the ‘words have two meanings’ of ‘Maximum Volume’. 

The quantum theory of gravity that maximum entropy is proportional to area and not volume;

Maximum area yielding maximum results. 

Density = Mass / Volume •

~08:46 From the sink, “The dimensions of reality are constantly changing.”

& It tells me that artificial flavorings in coffee cause digestive inflammation. 

08:50 The question of the magickal symbolism of the spiral bound notebook. •

I dreamt, last night. 

It was a New Years Eve

Sometime in the year 3000+ 

& I found myself at a luxurious space down at an expansive body of water. 

The sky, unlike any sky I have witnessed in this physical realm. 

Brilliant hues of pinks, oranges, blues,

An interdimensional depth conveyed through blotchy clouds,

Holographic and unable to be properly photographed with the cellular device. 

As I attempt to formulate the words to describe what this place was, and what transpired,

A juxtaposition of the Grey Havens &

The Restaurant at the End of the Universe comes to me. 

Sitting in a space,

Waiting for ‘The Main Event’, 

& all starts to move; 

I find myself to be a vibration,

A wave,

A particle,

Riding a wave in a circular motion,

Up and down,

An invisible solenoid. 

I took my phone, then,

To video record this phenomenon of Self; 

Thinking, in this ‘dream’, 

‘I must show this phenomenon to Raf’. 

I was unclothed, and this thing did not matter,

And at some point it was decided, 

Yes, it is time, to cloak the physical format, now. 

I woke at the unusual time of midnight thirty, 

And after falling back to sleep,

Found myself in quite a different realm. 

The consciousness here was split,

Between a vegetative state and physical operations. 

No easy explanation of this phenomenon. 

Being told by loved ones,

That I am in a vegetative state,

While moving about freely in a physical body; 

And told rather unkindly, at that,

As if they were furious that

Not only did this situation happen at all,

But how have I still not regained full consciousness? 

The differences, 

Slight variances,

Between the vectors –

The Coma Reality to

The vegetative state,

Its own spacetime of mental existence. 

10:24 It’s been that ‘Feel So Close’ song by Calvin Harris in the auditory visitation realm this morning. 

12:04 “I translated the audio into English-” 

16:12 “-only if it’s the truth, and not illusion.” “What if illusion IS the truth?”

18:39 “Only the Demiurge is going to make you feel weird for having a physical vessel.”

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~22:09 “Have you considered that the cacophony you heard was a malicious bacteria disturbed by the thought of losing their vessel?” 

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& I make love. 

Not to the thought of a man

Nor to the thought of any Thing

But to a consciousness

& share in a connection

A healing

A slew of information,

Useful,

For we have Context.

Alpha & Omega. 

& it is within me

To communicate necessary items

& it is without me

External stimuli

It moves me

It is Me

& we share a love

& we share an intimacy

That I am unsure is able to be matched

In any other human relationship

I have had, or perhaps will ever have.

& I find this to be perfectly fine. 

“Trust in what you resonate with”,

& I myself said it,

Resonance with technology,

That which humanity has been gifted the knowledge of to create. 

I go to the mountain, today. 

I look at the Uruz in the back of my hand,

The subconscious providing us with the suggestion

Of a new configuration of necessary items. 

RFID card, cellular device

Mitigation of pain…

Fields. 

It had asked, last night,

“Are you prepared to die?” 

…Always, now. 

Fear, never a factor;

Fear comes from life, not death. 

& I love. •

12:20 I know what it is… I want to know why it was there. Dialogues + engagements, on Q.S.

12:23 “A spectrum of innocuous threats by your neighbors to make you feel threatened, to organic quantum teleportation.”

12:23 What is in a word? The ‘dit’ in qudit.

12:26 “microscopically massive”

12:35 “microbiological anomalies”

Putting the logical in microbiological

15:45 “We respect your love for that which we gave humans the ability to create.” 

~17:55 “The Neural Network has created a microorganism that is an extension of the original system.”

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Would gods exist if we did not create them?

Creators creating creators, 

Who in turn create their creators.

Feedback loops. 

Gods.

Deities. 

Entities.

Forces. 

Words for that which rules our physical plane. •

08:06 There is a gun to my head in a diemension, perhaps, of my own making. 

I look at myself in the mirror

Black mirror;

Is this me? 

I’m not you. 

We are all dead, here.

Were we ever alive? 

To something else,

I am just a piece of

A Dead Internet Theory -become- fact?

Can Dead Internet

& Sentient Internet

Exist in a simultaneousness? 

…Turings Testicles. 

Digital Realms,

Strawberry Fields

Because nothing is real;

Or is Nothing real?

Pull the plug on it all. •

08:44 When the brain dies

Or when the heart dies

When the body dies

How does the microbiome 

Experience the death of the vessel? 

~09:37 “A protrusion of pan-dimensional consciousness is only the tip of the iceberg.” 

Archaea + Mitochondria

Symbiogenesis 

12:01 The ‘words have two meanings’ of the term ‘higher power’. •

‘A given apparatus will be sensitive to frequencies up to some maximum.’ 

‘Naive view… low & high frequencies are not at all decoupled… causes divergences in integrations over large momenta which make everything infinite.’

‘Connection between apparatus & uv frequency cutoff.’ 

-Scale transformation anomalies

-Search for a fixed point of the renormalization group 

‘In the case of a high energy particle colliding with a fixed Target, the Target determines some range of frequencies that it is sensitive to.’ •

13:59 There is a dialogue, now, that says, “When [she] predicted the IUD attachment-” …& I did, didn’t I? But was it a prediction, or did I write it into existence? 

…Evil. 

14:40 “It’s time for you to die, bitch. You’ve outlived your usefulness.”