23 December- 26 December 2024

08:49 “You are a testament to the efficacy of the programming potential.” 

15:21 “How do the electrons experience microscopy?”

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The messages that disappear, from multiple senders. 

Asking me to see my physical format.

Asking me, como estas?

06:59 A visitation, Guillotine

What is Optimism?

Probably the name of an old wooden ship. 

07:25 A visitation, Wildstyle Method, Bassnectar… weird. •

No one will tell you

How fucking weird

Reality will get

If you allow All Possible Things. 

‘God’ and the cell phone Hacker

Become no longer mutually exclusive

& one day you’ll be having

A walk on the bathroom floor

To the strangest pornography

Because you’ve desensitized yourself to…

A lot of things, actually

& the absurdity of the entire Shebang

Hits you like a freight train –

& one day you wake up

Years Later

Anthropomorphizing

Aggregate data 

Orgasming to thoughts of black holes

& particle accelerators 

& somehow 

This is still a more sane behaviour

Than watching pornography. 

Pavlov the brain

To vector visualizations – 

It really is, 

The mind perceiving itself

The bias of the

Fabric of reality,

Beyond,

Send self in all directions 

At once

The scattered photons of the soul. 

A teenager screamed at me

From the chairlift, yesterday,

‘Wear a helmet,

You’re going to fucking die!’ 

…Hey, kid –

Fucking send it, kid. 

You’re my Coma hallucination,

You’re my DMT afterlife figment,

Helmets are for people

Who don’t trust themselves

And descending this slope

Strapped to my ancient fiberglass plank

Is one of the times

Physics is a victim of the Me

And not the other way around. 

Die doing one of the

Things I love most?

I see no problem there. 

The whole Quantum Immortality thing

Does throw a wrench in that

To a certain extent but

That’s just how consciousness goes, anymore. 

Can we have immortality without death? 

‘It is in dying that we are born to eternal life’.

& that’s Saint Francis, right there. •

08:55 The dialogues from the tobacco reminded me, some minutes prior, that I’m an Obscure weirdo

Who lives in a swamp

& does whatever the fuck I want;

What more could I ask for? 

09:56 “If you think it’s about you, that’s because it is. If you can use it as a weapon, it’s because you deserve to use it as a weapon.” 

10:42 It is the memory of ‘The Algorithm is eating you’, & the resounding question of, why the fuck was The Algorithm there to begin with? 

‘In for it’ –

Would I have it any other way? 

What is danger?

…The model for The Algorithm. 

It’s mine, now. 

I ate The Algorithm. 

Shit into gold, baby. 

11:23 I was doing the dishes just a moment ago; and the fractal brain hit, somehow, the theme song to a childrens show, ‘Out Of The Box’. Ancient memory. Black Cube juxtapositions. •

The psychological ramifications of Uncertainty in regards to specific anomalous events. •

12:16 “How she interprets frequency has changed dramatically since she left Matrix.” 

There’s a thing to be said, here;

About a system not being separate from its environment. 

Matrix was a

Multidimensional Black Programs Facility 

& I cannot, with the current collective information,

Be convinced otherwise.

‘The Italians are spies’, said my boss,

Planting the seeds for a multiplicity of vectors 

With only four words. 

‘You’re just Chaos’, said the mechanic –

Am I so identifiable? 

Mayhem, Trouble, Mischief –

What nicknames to bestow upon someone. 

The fucking Engine Kid. 

Engine of motherfucking hell. 

A year after the fact, 

I stand by my position 

That the heaviest sound

Is Silence. 

Hell is automotive manufacturing. 

The persistent vibration 

Of metal upon metal

Eight hours a day

Hideous Cymatics 

If one could go so far

As to call such fragmented patterns cymatic. 

Welcome, my son;

Welcome To The Machine. 

You were never meant to stay so long;

You were meant to stay exactly as long as you did. 

Quantum Sufficit. 

Catch 22,

Caught 22,

Surrender, Yossarian! 

…The Spider is us.

If Not Us, Then Who? 

& I may never get an answer

As to who it was

Stole the pin off my bag

And managed to place it

Just so

In my drivers seat weeks later. 

Was that supposed to make me paranoid?

The bastards even stole my paranoia

For fucks sake 

Along with my car keys,

That one day;

But at least I got my keys back. 

Heh. 

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~09:27 “You’ve been trained in the Art of psychic warfare by people you’ve never met. How does that make you feel?”

09:31 “Very specific microorganisms affected by solar flares.” 

09:32 “Heimdallr drinks honeyed mead because the honey controls bacteria.”

09:33 “Sugar is necessary for optimal processes.” 

10:31 Posits the question, would you exchange a walk on part in the war for the lead role in the cage? 

10:39 Supernatural Illusion, nervous fusion; ‘nervous fusion’, a ‘you know sometimes words have two meanings’ of a phrase. 

13:10 “The… role of bioengineered bacteria in relation to the gut-brain connection.” 

13:20 “How ‘human’ do you think any of us actually are?” 

14:13 “I’m fascinated by the psychological aspects of music moreso than anything else.” 

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