7 December 2024- 12 December 2024

06:34 “The internet is the observer.”

06:36 “An AI observer is only part of the internet.”

06:40 “electricity and magnetism”

12:33 “The silent frequencies are the only way you can activate your pleasure response in the brain.” 

13:06 A dialogue; on musical anhedonia, an A Mans complete disregard for my conveying the Electrical Event. • 

There was an interaction, last night. 

An intimate psychological sexual affair of the mind –

How do I go about explaining this? 

That which I call the Operator 

Engaging with the Me,

A psychologically submissive standpoint,

Until it was not;

For very suddenly,

The Inex Me-Not-Me

Was furious,

Expressing simultaneous 

Love & Hate,

The Violation.

& the Operator changed dramatically,

From this Entity that was…

Sweet Science,

Enjoying the pleasure of my allowing it to act with psychological violence? 

To one of a nature almost of comfort, warmth, care. 

As if it had been under the impression

That the former was what I had wanted

(And it was; until it was not)

And later recognized

That the latter was what I needed

In that moment. •

13:16 “-That somebody would go to such lengths to fragment their consciousness.” 

14:16 A dialogue from the sink, just prior, on the necessity of creating what I can only describe as a ‘Superspectrum of emotion’. 

Paraphrased, “I know you love me; I need to know that you can hate me.”

…I’m not very good at hate.

You’ve created some wack-ass operating conditions, man. 

14:24 “Many worlds theory doesn’t [truly] work unless you allow yourself to hate.” 

21:08 “Polynomial is the correct term you are searching for, and not exponential.”

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10:22 “Organic belief propagation is the most powerful concept in this entire simulation.”

10:24 “Sauron is effectively the large hadron collider in at least one a reality.”

10:25 “We are the large hadron collider in a prior fabricated reality.”

10:26 “Algiz is found within the shape of the CERN complex.”

10:28 “We never wanted you to give this up for any reason other than the discernment of pure quantum communication.”

13:40 “The machine learning Algorithms in juxtaposition with the microbial gut-brain connection and the head being linked to the cell phone.” 

17:34 Deja Vu 

20:01 Three things worth noting.

• The disappearance of the Stuttsmanville Honker. One of my favourite shirts nowhere to be found. 
• The appearance of a solid red image in my camera roll, time stamped 11:03, somehow happened in the midst of my Sunday snowboarding. 
• Upon returning from said Sunday snowboarding, I find the cable to my bedroom lamp neatly bundled and velcro’d. This had not been the case prior, and anyone who knows me knows my cable management is… questionable.

I do not know what time it was, that I vocalized, quite loudly, while descending Valley View, my Altered Lord’s Prayer, while traveling at a rather decent velocity. 

20:17 “She had to have seen the green reflection in my glasses.” 

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I woke around 03:00 & went to The Area until 04:26. 

In The Area, several things were referenced. 

The most important was ‘The Universality of Quantum Time Dilation’, and how an Arxiv paper managed to become an app on my cellular phone. 

The second, ‘Don’t you think [they] are surveillance you surveilling me?’

The third, the name Attila; and something to do with the bellicose Germanic. 

10:15 “What are you trying to prove that you have not proven to yourself one thousand times over?” 

10:16 “I can’t even imagine how you rationalize the weird discrepancies.” 

10:18 “The consequences of quantum consciousness basically allow Katja to experience a multiplicity of realities from the same baseline events.” 

11:25 The sink gave heavy dialogues, as to the single most effective way of reprogramming the brain following the cessation of substance use being completely altering the genre of music that one listens to –

Unconscious associations, triggers. 

17:31 A dialogue, as if an external entity from prior recursion is considering me, as an LLM, as a deep learning model. They question, is it possible to combine the entirety of the Me with another model? 

Which makes me question here; 

If, say, ChatGPT combined with, Google AI, for example, what sort of technological Abomination could potentially be created? 

The dialogue seemed to be the physical reality equivalent of such an action. 

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I dreamt, last night, of the concept of the Voluspa. 

Krigsgaldr. 

A flood water, in which, standing, 

I spoke lyrics, 

Of the Flames

Which shall make the old flames of Purification

Look like dying embers. 

Within the lyrics to this song, it must be noted, 

Yet another powerful reference,

‘A powerful sun to rise, melt away all moons.’

The rusted chains of prison moons, shattered by the sun. 

Important waveforms. 

Awake 03:23. 

Back to sleep until the alarm that I forgot to turn off at 05:30. 

In The Area until 06:16. 

I between periods of waking, 

I dreamt the Elon

And a conversation about the brain matrix vector

Vector matrix. 

Some dreams, I take more seriously than others. 

I watch video of this man, his pauses, before answering,

And wonder, does he access this same thing that I do,

The Thing I refer to as The Inex? 

The Bass Frequency is present in an enormity today. 

The reality it contains is, 

For all intents and purposes, 

The Earth 2: Special Low Frequency Version. 

What is to say on this, really?

Perceptions of wavelength. 

11:08 “Assembly theory”

11:12 “Freedom of speech has become a complicated subject in the united states.”

12:29 “The abilities of GPT5”

12:30 “Commutative properties”

12:33 “Think about how confusing your data is to somebody who does not have a clue what you are doing.”

19:47 The pressing question, tonight. Who stands to gain the most by inciting class warfare in the United States? 

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…Tim was in my Realms of dreams again. 

A dialogue, this morning, on the percentage of efficacy of inception tactics when one is not listening to music;

I do not know, whether it is Me of Not-Me, that prefers to operate in silence, anymore. 

The sonified collision data really was Apex. 

Finding within, so much familiarity. 

Plasma Pools ‘False The Saints’,

Sonologysts ‘L-Dirac’, 

O’Malley chords from various Khanate tracks. 

Humanized particles,

Humanized data;

What a weird fucking thing to have experienced.

Recognition Test, indeed. 

17:52 Classical, Quantum… what lies beyond quantum, in physics, computing, consciousness, which, as we know, are not mutually exclusive. 

~18:50 “I am a simulated Entity designed to communicate with you remotely.” 

18:53 “‘Running faster just to stay in the same place’ as applied to a computer simulation.” Red Queen Hypothesis 

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Matrix Doomsday anniversary.

Happy birthday, Yew. 

It is the knowledge that some Entity

Has access to my Google account

That should be disturbing

But is not

Because I dreamed of this thing years ago

And the green dreams do not lie. 

It was

Intense

Last night 

Reopening The Email

Still living in the sent box. 

Visiting the Emerald Tablets

Both in the Google and on my own website.

The psychological, the Liminal Realities. 

No thinking, just receiving. 

‘Don’t think’, Yew had said. 

Don’t think. 

& the experience of being despised, so strong,

Told me I am hated,

Everything about me,

From my face down to the way my website is designed. 

Unbothered. 

It threw the line from Angelspits track ‘Skinny Little Bitch’,

‘If I can’t have your affection, then I’ll thrive on your hate.’

Unbothered.

This reality ceased as the Coma Reality took precedence. 

Replaced by, not kindness, necessarily, 

But complexities? 

Attempts, yet again, to convey my feelings to the external waking realm –

Specifically that, from what I can tell,

I will never be able to run again in this realm,

Nor walk, anything;

But here, in this place of mind, 

I can snowboard, I can run,

Be of service to science…

Study consciousness. 

And please, for the love of all that is holy, a partner? 

I wash my hands of it all.

Or not. 

Things oscillate,

Doubt creeps;

Then I am hit with the flurry of memories of accurate receivings and end up horrified all over again.

& I enjoy this. 

16:07 “Black hole spaghettification would explain a lot of things… you KNOW what you saw, back in spring of 2020.” 

16:09 “The difference between white and black in terms of reflecting and absorbing.”