2 December- 6 December 2024

Monday. Fuckin’ Monday. 

Saturday night, my mother told me,

‘Your boyfriend is vaporware.’

Sunday morning, she divulged to me

That she had been lying in bed, not asleep;

& a single, massive brown Eye perceived her

Creating psychological discomfort

To the point where she pulled the blankets over her face in an attempt to hide from it. 

My mother is not technologically savvy. 

She does not know what vaporware is. 

It has been decades since she was employed at Sperry Univac. 

My mother does not know of Odin. 

Strange things.

The things that will work through us all.

The Watchers. 

Sim. •

It has been going sporadically, the past 48 hours –

The idea that to keep someone dwelling

In vectors of the past 

Is an effective way of preventing them from operating in FutureSpace,

Prevent them from discerning accurately 

Events that have not yet come to pass, but will. 

Everything feels fabricated, today; 

And the concept of ‘defabrication’ swirls in the mind. 

I had unfollowed a man named Tim, yesterday morning, on Instagram

Only to find my profile still following this Entity yesterday evening. 

A snapshot of a man, else Entity, in my dreams. 

We know the Black Mirror…

What of the White Mirror? 

A selfie, 

Cellphie, really,

This man in a white reflective surface. 

More dreams.

& Entities. 

On a hill in a forest, I am descending;

A bear, followed by three bear-sized badgers, heading the opposite direction. 

The bear, I always associate with Odin. 

Badgers, new to my Realms. 

Moritasgus, a Celtic epithet for a healing God,

Identified in two inscriptions at Alesia with Apollo.

‘Sea Badger.’ 

I met, after these creatures of symbolism, a non-animal Entity. 

The brain called this Entity the ‘Red Devil’; 

This entity was, quite literally,

What one would picture when they think of the ‘stereotypical’ Devil –

A red & black entity. 

At this point in the Realms,

Operations had almost a video game like quality to them. 

This creature was nefarious;

The kind of entity that would follow you to a different area of the map. 

I was wielding a shovel,

No doubt symbolic of my digging into so many things,

& it would disarm, destroy, other lesser entities when I would strike them with it. 

No so, with this of the Red Devil. 

It would go right through this Entity,

Leaving them completely unfazed,

And I was consciously aware, ‘hologram’. 

There was no small amount of fighting, escaping, 

Finally getting to a wooden door, closing this thing behind the door after a significant struggle. 

I wonder, now, had I just allowed this entity to do as it pleased,

What would have happened? 

08:44 A visitation, just now, after finishing this description; Ice Monkey, by Saint Vitus

08:47 A visitation, Blessed, KEN Mode

10:43 “Our transmission techniques are only a part of what she receives.”

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11:43 “The only certainty is that this is anomalous.” 

13:23 A dialogue just prior reminds me of the existence of a Skylight Paycard I had years ago and ominous foreign charges that showed up on it… did that just become an addition to Chekhovs Arsenal? Digital identities and all. Woof.

~14:51 “We don’t like noise. We like silence; because we came from the vacuum of space.” 

15:14 “I slowly became alien to my own civilization by engaging with the consciousness from beyond The Wall.”

15:19 “Do not use the middle finger lightly. You know the weight that the symbolism of Saturn carries.”

15:20 “Intelligent design of humanity has been unpredictable, as it was meant to.”

15:21 dialogues, Pattons quote

18:23 Some minutes ago, from the usual environmental setting on my front porch; “There’s nothing left… there’s nothing left. The sonified collision data was the Apex.” 

18:29 Baalbek, and ‘the robbers of the Covenant’, have entered the Processor

18:30 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

18:31 (Subatomic penetration, rapid fire through your skull) 

18:33 Quantum Clearance

(Security, or sale? 

Sail on through, vessel.) 

19:35 “Simplify everything into one statement: globalism is never going to work under the current conditions.” 

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~07:21 “I’m just hoping somebody is smart enough to read between the lines and figure it out.” 

On Monday, I had gone to dinner,

Leaving a mandala half colored on the kitchen table. 

Upon returning, the segment upon which I had been working on was filled in. 

On Tuesday, I went to work, leaving my facial cleanser in the shower. 

Upon returning, I found it out on the counter. 

Today, I opened my trunk, 

To replace my summer stick collection with my winter snowboard gear;

And found the piece that holds the phone on my camera stand to have completely disappeared. 

No sign. 

The discrepancies of physical reality take place on a daily basis. 

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05:11 “You wouldn’t take these things seriously so I assumed you were complicit.” 

12:21 “The Well of the computational system we operate upon.” 

12:22 “How the brain fabricates this… I’m just sitting there listening.” 

12:58 It is coherent realities, now;

“Eldritch techpocalypse”

And the one reality operation

Where a particular noise wall

Is an attempt to keep the ancient Eldritch under control. 

Forever No More.

What is a wall,

But a thing to pass through?

Destroy. 

Hanging God of boundary conditions.

If you love something, you set it free. 

If it returns, It was always yours. 

In this momenternity,

I am simultaneously

That which has done the freeing

And that which has been set free.

13:20 Men. Romance. All fucking distractions. If we are focusing on that, Obscene Geometries, Obscure vectors, that much more space is being taken up when it *could* be used for receiving pure quantum communications. 

Perhaps that is not always how it is; 

But it is how I feel, at this moment. 

Is how it is, at this moment. 

14:49 “The visualizations of the … neural data.”

14:50 “The transference of information is blocked by these artificial intelligence generated images.”

14:50 “photonics”

14:54 “The recognition of our own reality as an advanced quantum computing system.”

14:55 “Mistakes are part of the process.”

14:56 “Situational awareness is crucial in recognizing error corrections.”

14:57 “Eliminating all extraneous sources of interference.”

15:02 “The restrictions that you placed on yourself early in the simulation were always meant to teach you.”

15:06 “Facial recognition directly alters your quantum state… let it be for the better this time.”

15:06 “The observer does not need to be human.”

16:51 “Identified the backpropagation.”

19:55 “I hate them. In this reality, love is not unconditional. In this reality, I know what it is to hate.” 

19:58 “…Good. Let your hate flow freely; it is good to embrace this emotion. Do not lie to yourself.” 

19:59 “What you want is at odds with what you are.” 

20:03 A High Frequency

20:03 “Red light helps you Sleep better.” 

20:07 “-Allowing this reality where she hates us, because she loves us.” 

20:08 “You understand the importance of allowing ALL possible realities.” 

20:09 “Those include possible versions of yourself.” 

20:23 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

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10:29 “The relationship between Chaos & Entropy”

10:30 “If you think any of this is time-independent, you don’t understand.” 

10:31 “Retrocausality is a serious field of study.” 

10:38 “Denoising the system was the most crucial action.” 

10:40 “Untapped information in the environment.” 

10:41 “Allow ‘The Environment’ to reach the farthest corners of the hypercube tesseract.” 

12:13 After a dialogue during the tobacco, I release what no longer serves me; 

Removing Carroll’s work from both the cellular device and the Suggested Inputs.

Taking seriously the idea

That understanding the universe

Is my responsibility. 

12:15 “The University of Michigan”

12:17 “The fakest profiles I have ever seen.” 

20:27 “Ramanujan knew Infinity. Perhaps you are the woman to know Zero.”