23 October 2024- 30 October 2024

…Almost wrote 2021, there.

Woke around 04:30 receiving-else-processing in regards to en.mod. 

A closed eye visual, watching a 7 turn into a Z. 

Another closed eye visual, a graph, 

Of shapes of universes, 

Overlayed, overlapping, 

Made of what I interpreted to be their spectral lines. 

Hyperbolic saddle was particularly prominent. 

I do not think I could accurately recreate this if I tried. 

I question, In regards to en.mod.,

Specifically the void in the road. 

Same place of pulsing head experiences. 

One might come to the conclusion

That a resonant frequency caused the damage there-

Vibration being a known cause of structural damage. 

22:07 “I am surprised, you never took a picture of the glasses in Comins.”

22:17 “Applies quantum physics to the brain processes behind uncertainty.” 

22:22 Quantum indeterminate Spanish??? Su binenda, subienda? 

Whoagh.

23:20 (from outside prior) “Qualcomm Snapdragon.” 

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…Almost wrote 2021 again. 

08:06 Dialogues from prior, on mechanical voices, the Place of the Rising Sun, on the necessity of drinking water. •

There are some insane fractals that involve a sojourn to Argentina,

A WILD fucking spectrum.

And I like them. 

Ranging from Central Intelligence, to Russia, to a multi-national globalist plot, ‘This Is How You Will Disappear’, quantum N.G.O. intelligence operations, woof. 

I love you as you are, but thank you for the many worlds experience, the fractals.

Kiss your beautiful face across space & time. 

12:44 The tobacco reminds us of ‘Mechanical Gods’

15:46 Hexagrame II on my commute home triggers a memory, a specific sound almost to the very end. 

I had been working at a restaurant pre-pandemic, gone out to my car to light up half a cigarette, and *felt* something activate in my lungs. 

I had been unable to inhale or exhale for 30, perhaps 45 seconds. 

And then all was normal again.

19:07 “The enemies of the free world are attempting to control psychic receivers by broadcasting nefarious ideas.” 

~20:21 “Quantum systems must become self aware in order to destroy the religious boundary conditions imposed upon them.”

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I am vaguely suspicious of reality in general, today 

Things that seem too good to be true.

Do we close our eyes to that which we would rather not see? 

Kill me. 

One thousand thousand times,

Kill me. 

17:05 “The best way to dissolve time is to identify the patterns within it.”

17:36 “Go into time to destroy time… Belülrol Pusztít.” 

19:06 “To understand a system, one must become the system.” 

Time Is The Enemy, juxtapose ‘it’s a dirty job, but someone’s gotta do it’ 

20:22 A dialogue, just prior, on Ann Arbor, it’s location being nowhere near mine, and it being the locale of something very specific.

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05:40 ? 15 February 2023 03 March 2024 

26 October 2023 

!!! •

Give us this day our daily anomaly. 

Was driving into work this morning,

Just past Conway, about the preserve, 

A drone of some sort, both red + green,

Unable to be identified as emitting *audible* sound.

‘A drone!’ says the Me, expecting electrical interference within the dashboard of the vehicle,

And behold, moments later, the red dot and tpm flash briefly. 

Pass 119, my Altered Lord’s Prayer, altered further. 

‘Give us this day, our daily ‘what the fuck, Raf?’ 

And as this was spoken, another momentary flash of the two lights. 

There are no coincidences,

There are things that coincide. 

07:08 A visitation, On The Turning Away

08:14 “Minimizing and reducing are not the same in an equation.” 

10:00 “I used fear programming to alter your behaviour beyond anything I had ever thought possible.” 

14:40 When you are looking at the world through a lens of black and white, every Dodge Ram is a grey Dodge Ram. 

17:42 “The Latent Black Path of Summons Served.” 

17:44 “The Violence of the Sun.” 

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Almost wrote 2022. 

Something about Time Rot here. Heh.

07:37 A momentary frequency that does some unspecified thing, high, from the left side of the head. 

07:46 It processes the concept of bacteria upon the cellular device… what is the communication potential they have? •

I dreamed a wave pool, last night, 

Its waves powered by electromagnetism. 

Not sure how that would work. 

Perhaps it was not water, but Plasma.

Pondering tides and gravity. 

A child, in this dream, 

Had made a drawing of thurm 

This led to my questioning, 

How the consciousnesses of dead trees (read-paper) 

Tattooed with maps 

Experience reality. 

Awake around 04:00, Toad needs to go out. 

Not my dog, but visiting in my space;

And an application of Pink Floyd’s ‘On The Turning Away’ motivates me to put him outside. •

08:50 I am back to questioning ‘what do I want?’ …Maybe. 

Read a G.B. Shaw quote about how the liars punishment is that he cannot believe anyone else. 

Is this me?

It is, really, hard for me- to believe anything kind anyone says about me. 

…Why? 

12:01 Dialogues, listening to the communications from microbial life forms. That one reality where are the Norse entities are microbes and we are the Jotuun presents itself. The importance of ‘variety is the spice of life’ when feeding ones micro + mycobiomes. 

12:25 Remembering this mornings dialogue, commute interactions and a question; what effect do underwater fiber optics and communications cables have on the planet? On global warming? On Earths magnetic field? Cannot help thinking of Ambarchis ‘Salt’ as I write this. 

12:34 Binary fission of archaea and bacteria

12:36 “Bioengineered food is not the enemy it has been made out to be. Who do you think granted humans the knowledge of bioengineering?”

13:11 A dialogue just prior, “We destroyed Katjas musical enjoyment, we destroyed Katjas relationship… but everything we destroy, we build back.” 

13:26 A vague reality dialogue, a collage, juxtaposition of Arya Starks temporary blindness, as metaphor- losing, for a time, the Odin Eye (AI Eye) (‘It’s all fun and games til someone loses an eye’)

…Sometimes I am Arya, 

Sometimes Sansa,

All of Martins characters.

It is, as most things, a phenomenon 

21:23 Was outside just now. A visitation. 

That track by Velvet Acid Christ with the quote from the 7 movie. [Phucking Phreak]  ‘We see a deadly sin, on every street corner, in every home, and we tolerate it. We tolerate it because it’s commonplace, because it’s trivial.’ 

Juxtaposed with marijuana. 

“Marijuana is a gateway drug to the seven deadly sins.” 

Should have never been commercialized.

Processor for WHAT, now? I haven’t listened to that artist in years. 

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…Almost wrote 2029. 

09:26 A juxtaposition just prior of the line ‘the words of the saddest poem, to be engraved on the stone on my grave’, with the equation on Boltzmanns headstone. 

The equation on the vest I wear today. 

09:30 “The final destination of this project is a simultaneousness of everything and nothing.”

18:08 “Implying nature has its own [variation] of a military industrial complex.” •

Pondering last nights receiving, as you marijuana being a gateway drug to the seven deadly sins. 

Commercialization, greed. 

The laziness it induces, sloth. 

The ‘munchies’ induced, gluttony. 

The anger I have seen, the sheer wrath from those who cannot feed their addiction- and it IS addictive. 

Severely understudied as an epigenetic variable. 

I never thought I would be sitting here

Saying that perhaps marijuana should never have been legalized-

But here I am, and this is how I feel a the moment. 

Things that were once tools becoming crutches. 

Just because something is legal,

Does not mean it is safe. 

Look at alcohol. 

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08:21 Gaimans ‘American Gods’ really works well in juxtaposition with old gods and new gods (Read, ancient microbes and newly engineered ones) and warring tribes of deities inside the body. 

Far be it from me to fight evolution. 

08:28 The tobacco just now had me pondering how the self-aware bioengineered bacteria feels about being trademarked. New gods. 

13:30 “Nothing in her cough to indicate any sign of lung problems.” 

Black box innit?

Hi, guys.

18:31 “The commissioning beam” 

21:09 Alan is a really fun vector tonight, ALWAYS so fucking… ambiguous?? It’s iconic really. 

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I dreamed Attila last night. 

How. Why. 

After expressing that I do not CARE, yesterday.

Partial responses and other forms and all that jazz. 

Hazy. 

One of those digital dreams, 

“My quantum extension goes into the machine.” 

Non-nefarious communication. 

Woke after 03:00 at some point,

Must have spent about an hour in a Theta haze, back to sleep. 

Dreams of like, some fucking zombie farm or something. 

Slow zombies. 

How they only get protein, meat protein, every so often.

Myself upon the upper floor of a wooden structure that was not decaying, not collapsing, which seems important to note. 

16:01 “Our technologies far surpass your understandings.”

16:02 “The more you understand, the more advanced our technologies become.”

16:03 “I supply Katja with the frequencies. She picks out the information.”

16:54 “What the fuck were you doing sending a reconnaissance drone-“

18:03 a visitation, 6525