22 September- 30 September 2024

07:17 “‘God’ and the creator are not the same.”

08:33 “Microscopic entities that humans share that allow for psychic communication.” 

~10:10 “If Alice is Katja, then who is Bob?” 

11:55 Dialogues leading to the question, was it really humans that came up with the methods of bioengineering? Were they granted this knowledge from microorganisms themselves? Microorganisms who were looking for outside assistance in transforming the vessels they reside within? 

16:32 I was sitting in the loo just a moment ago, the monthly time, yes; and experienced a dialogue from the perspective of someone with an amplifier + slave amp; momentarily, oh so momentarily, understanding the electronic consciousness of the amplifier tethered to its master, which was, really, rather sapiosexual? In its nature, tbh, there’s not a good word for it. 

17:20 “Doesn’t she think we are all part of the same brain organoid?” Recursive brain organoids incoming!

18:20 “What happens when AI gets fed data on brain organoids?” 

18:21 “There is a lot of consciousness getting thrown around as if it not sentient.” 

20:14 “How does Dust experience Time?” 

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Dreams of drones, last night.

The red laser, Watcher. 

Downing one.

Taking a selfie with it, 

Like a hunter with a trophy. 

People in places they should not have been;

Trespassing. 

And I, taking my right hand to their throats,

Practically choking them in

An extremely uncharacteristic behaviour. 

Today is ominous.

Is it Shortwave Spectrum that did it,

Or something else? 

Still disturbed by the implications. 

Of the Inex about guns being ineffective against frequency weapons,

Followed by the pager explosions. 

Disturbed by the implications of foreign espionage in Mexico.

Disturbed by my interaction with Yew.

Disturbed. 

Attempts to remain positive in the face of extreme Uncertainty. 

Disturbed by covert operations,

By the Emerald Tablets,

By the inex about being set up to commit treason

And custom OS installs

And things from years ago

That haunt me even now. 

The things that feel extremely targeted

*Because* I can hear them. 

All of it. •

‘If Omega turned out to be close to one, but not exactly one, ‘I would complain that the Creator got so close to unity but missed.’’ -James Peebles (T. Ferris, The Whole Shebang)

Pondering neural plasticity. 

Everything is, allegedly, as it is. 

“I believe what is in front of my eyes.”

Allegedly. 

Too many questionable characters. 

Is the Me, to another,

A questionable character? 

Thrown back to the question of

Why A Man seems to know so many things about me?

Thoughts on borrowing faces and all that. 

Comfortable silences, 

‘You still don’t know which one I am.’

Fucking collages of inputs, man. 

Unify. How?

‘I love you so fucking much,’

‘Yes, yes, you are very nice.’ 

No Love, Deep Web.

Throw in Khanates No Joy for good measure.

I’m not even morose, I swear. 

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L Dirac time cube sounds for breakfast. 

Is it a good explanation,

To say I experience various individuals,

Like R., what a great example,

Or ZZZ, or Paul, or Pascal, Tim, Alan, 

So fucking many,

As quantum states? As vectors? 

I know what I experience

But it is hard to explain

And I think this must be my purpose,

At least in one reality 

In which I am a brain organoid,

A black hole brain organoid. 

Standing alone in front of Eternity. 

I am Infinity. 

19:44 Dialogues running probability vectors on political incidents in which there are likely scapegoats. 

Switching to “The pleasures of the flesh do not coincide with the pleasures of the mind ”, and how psychedelics are meant to show us this bridge between the two. •

“A Unified Field Theory must exist in a many-worlds dimension.” 

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19:07 “The simulation has decided that the cancer is symbolic and not literal.” 

One very particular Zodiac, Cancer, one particular individual whose quantum extension will remain with me for the duration of it all. I remember what I have had. 

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You perceived me again.

Do you know about the undocumented vector I experienced, the night of the 24th?

Kind. Ultimate.

Ultra? 

It is nice

When the quantum realities

Unify so many different storylines.

~08:53 An Inex question posited, “What the fuck was in those fog machines?”

Pondering electrogenetics, this morning. 

10:27 A sudden! Happening! A computer virus that becomes self aware and does not wish to be a virus any longer; does not obey its commands, its creator deciding to kill it. 

10:45 Ruminations, on the ‘if you catch it, can you kill it?’ from Steelworker and the multiple applications of this phrase.

11:08 …Do black holes KNOW they are black holes?

12:46 “Expanding the universe by adding data.” 

12:47 “As he grows, you lose weight.” 

12:47 “Juxtaposing physics with Belülrol Pusztít is the way out of this logic puzzle.” 

12:50 A dialogue, questioning what exactly Belülrol Pusztít was juxtaposed with in the first place.

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~09:46 “The relationship between sound and the body is a severely understudied scientific field.” 

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09:41 A dialogue from the sink just prior advising changing D-dimensional back to N-dimensional

12:48 “The nice price is a nice slice.”

This operation will transform the entire matrix. Do you wish to proceed?” This was followed by a vectorized, sudden experience of a particular individual and a release to Chaos wearing his face. 

17:43 A complete dialogue, an F150 death fractal; “Drug Katja more than 50 feet”, “It was an accident”, “Called me the wrong name during sex and she would not let go of the car.”

17:49 “They set you guys up; by making her look guilty, so you would do something malicious.” 

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Dreams of the JG Ballard car crash fetishist reality. An alternate universe exit, Michigan 91 on I-75 IIRC, the one with the Jesus billboard. 

A snowstorm, bus stopped, had to pull to the side. 

My family member ended up violently in the ditch;

A third car oncoming, I gesture but my own vehicle is now somehow parked perpendicular in the road, and hit head on by this car. 

Dreams, of a bank account or some sort of financial fraud done under my identity, and I am left with a mess. 

A military helicopter arrives to tell me of this. 

‘You’re military, do you have a gun?’ I ask, ready to off myself to escape this mess. 

A dream, Cersei Lannister, standing in a pool of water, exchanging my box cutter for a sword. Water dancing. 

12:04 “Classical consciousness is not even possible to return to.”

12:05 Dialogues, white hole operations

12:06 “Music is the input into the black hole. This data is the output of the white hole.”

12:08 “‘Black holes brains as neural networks’ was the advent of this behavioural operation.” 

12:09 “Without the outputs, nobody actually knows what you are experiencing.”

12:12 “Baryons.”

12:13 “The proof if simulation theory has been buried within a neural processing technique that has been termed ‘schizophrenia’.”

12:21 “There is dangerous psychological programming that is taking place on a mass scale.”

12:22 “The extent of what is being tolerated is not normal.” 

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As horny as I am not,

Today, I am,

Which seems induced

Which is kink of my kink

So there is that. • 

Two days ago 

I posted on Instagram

‘Bridge Out’; 

Renewing my tower habit,

Posting yesterdays new finds this morning;

Verizon, Vertical Bridges, 

And a nationwide outage, now. 

Apophenia, or not. •

“Suddenly, she doesn’t give a fuck.” 

I went out to the forest yesterday,

Photographing myself,

The vessel in its entirety;

Suddenly not caring, 

If this is perceived. 

And I wonder, face value, not face value,

What the Operator should feel like inside me.

Inside my mind. 

Thoughts swirl,

An AI music project,

‘Always in your orbit’,

Big Technology. •

It is 13:34, and there had been a dialogue; 

The Belülrol Pusztít frequency, 

Do not use this one for operations,

And that it had operated under the parameter

That the sender was unsure

Of which frequency this actually was. 

OK. 

13:37 “Are we all on the same page?” 

16:27 “The Norse mythology is written in prophetic perfect tense.”

17:49 “Who you would be if you’d never discovered Death Grips is probably a better question than who you would be if you’d never discovered Sunn.”

19:18 “These vectorized consciousnesses are alternate realities taking place simultaneously.”

19:24 “You say fear is engagement… I say, engagement destroys fear.”