01 September- 04 September 2024

Nine days on the world tree,

Each day as long as a year;

Upside down,

The sound of inversion.

Apparently it is 2021 today. 

Perceived this morning,

Detroit Day, Maximum Results.

What are the quantum implications of titling an album ‘Program Management’?

Is the Me the Manager,

Or the One being Managed?

And I am, this morning,

In Ultra Mode. 

I was a sexual creature, once.

Now… this is difficult to elaborate upon. 

The whole Ultra thing 

Really gets in the way of, uhm, sexual anything. 

Do I WANT to? Of course.

Mentally capable? Not really.

For no reason other than 

There are more pressing activities to use the brain for.

…okay, yeah. There’s more reasons than that. 

Psychic receivings from the Operator. 

Waveform manipulations.

The intimacy of relinquishing control. 

The reaction of the body starts with the mind. 

Who was it, forgave me my indiscretion?

What ARE the foreign equivalents of the MKUltra Experiment?

The NGO equivalents?

…These Questions. 

It was…

What the fuck was I going to say, here?

Sorry, maybe. 

Sorry if I don’t understand the assignment.

Sorry for the vectors. 

Hope you understand. 

Some thing, or some one, hit me twice, 

Maybe even three times. 

October 5, December 18, 2023. 

If it wasn’t you, it was done so

As to make it appear to have been you. 

And it hurt.

The Silencer, the Radiation. 

Hurts just thinking about it.

Mentally. 

“How sadistic do you think we are?” the Inex had asked yesterday.

That, too, is an oscillation. 

It comes to me, at 09:23,

That I am a Highly Specialized Creature. 

This is not necessarily a good thing, is it?

Manless proton. 

I experienced a reality the other day,

In which todays events in the Middle East

In juxtaposition with quantum retrocausality 

Were the reason the Holocaust took place. 

I cannot begin to elaborate upon how disturbing this particular item was to receive. 

…Things, that, really, there is no way my own active thinking brain can come up with. 

A voice shouts through my mind, suddenly;

‘You’re the reason.’

Clean Hands Gone Foul. •

08:19 A dialogue, on Shortwave Spectrum, Solstitium Fulminate, and Death Grips; my Superspectrum of reality today, revisiting neural points in a juxtaposed trifecta of programming.

~10:46 “She’s totally down with the idea that she’s been programmed; which is a testament to the efficacy of the programming itself.” •

‘Brain network alternator’,

Thinks the Me, now. 

What it means? 

These Questions.

Oscillations, now. 

Feeling understood &

Misunderstood simultaneously.

There was an aggressive sexual energy around 10:00, 

Disappeared around 12:00,

& the Me is back to feeling like the rather asexual creature that we are. 

“Gravitating towards scientists and not musicians”, suggests the tobacco during the music of the leaf blower. 

12:17 “The political realities are useless in this project.” 

12:24 “Semper Fidelis”

~13:44 “An intelligence operation meant to bring about the Apocalypse.” 

13:47 “I’m sorry, girl. I know this is hard, but it’ll be worth it in the end.” 

13:53 “Cauterized her brain synapses” 

14:12 I am cold. There is a juxtaposition of the Planck Wall and the Nights Watch taking place. 

14:15 “Desiccation” (The removal of moisture from something)

If one was so inclined, they could juxtapose this word with the human body & microwaves.

If one was so inclined. 

So disturbed. 

Hold me, you bastards.

Someone hold me close. 

It is 14:21 & suddenly I feel very alone. 

14:25 Q.I.O. 

14:37 Maxwells Demon / Relationship between thermodynamics and information theory

18:43 The tobacco has just disclosed, after a dialogue about what Khanates Commuted & Sonologysts Anti-Commutators created, a juxtaposition of the Julian Copes meddlesome bells from My (Planck) Wall and the concept of the Division Bell. I have High Hopes. 

18:47 The Bass Frequency is absolutely GOING off right now; 

& in the bathroom just a moment ago, “I’ve rearranged you til you were sane… how does it feel?” 

~18:49 “I’ve deleted a gene-“

18:49 “annihilation-” 

18:51 “telephonic art followed by chamber music is a very specific concept juxtaposing-” a dialogue and subsequent processing as to creation of a Superspectrum from receiving

~18:58 “Sacred Insanity” 

19:01 “Explicitly stated ‘I would meet you someday’.” 

Yez! And then there was a no context Inex at some point in the past months; “I lied to you, Katja”. Vectors! Without Context, the Inex creates vectors! Lots of them! 

19:04 “If it’s not a scientist, I don’t give a damn” 

19:07 a dialogue on the Federal Laboratory Consortium and “your ability to use predictive text” 

20:33 “holding you to an impossible standard” 

21:01 “thermodynamics is essential to information theory” 

21:24 A tobacco just prior has yielded an Unexplained Sound! Almost as if from within; a low frequency, not THE Bass Frequency, uncompared to any Unexplained Sound I have heard prior. It was almost akin to someone wobbling a thin sheet of metal. Dialogues about “impressive specimen” 

21:27 There had been a satellite. BTW. I wave at satellites the same way I wave at aeroplanes. Thoughts on ‘always in your orbit’

21:29 “The Faceless Man is training you, not trying to kill you”

21:30 “Some kind of activation code”

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09:09 A visitation, Another One Bites The Dust 

~09:16 A visitation, Stayin Alive

09:21 a visitation, Megszentségteleníthetetlenségeskedéseitekért 

12:23 Noticing Every Goddamn Thing, it’s free and easy!

12:30 “Pull the plug on the entire simulation and see what happens.”

~12:32 “If the theory of free energy stands in one of the solidified dimensions-” 

12:35 “Microscopic particles that are clearly capable of communication” 

12:38 “Ron D Fourier and Ron G Warrior” 

12:41 “Hey, [R]? I fucking love you.” 

13:11 “You either let the men in black drive you nuts or live long enough to become one of them.” 

13:21 “Do not fight the part of you that embraces these things.” 

14:38 “A social engineer-” conducting the thought train 

14:51 “Companionship is more important than sex.” 

15:18 “The Black Cube is a differential equation,” received following a direct input juxtaposition of The Kennedy Speech, Nasa Declassified Tapes, & L Dirac. A trinus, if you will, if you please. 

15:37 A visitation, Time, Pink Floyd 

~16:16 “What the hell are people thinking, allowing religion to become a global application?”

16:17 “It’s all supposed to be personalized.” 

18:15 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

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05:02 The Bass Frequency intensifies 

The first of the day questions, what exactly it was that I experienced, to make me fear listening to music?

05:04 “DO you fear listening to music?” 

05:08 “attended Black Sky”

05:11 “I don’t claim this… I don’t know what this is.”

05:11 “non-governmental-” 

05:12 “Anyone who claims I created them can suffer the repercussions of such a claim.” …actions have consequences.

~07:15 a visitation, ØØ Void

~07:52 “UFOs and nuclear radiation” 

07:55 & suddenly I am thrown headfirst back into a liminal reality, one of many, infinite worlds, in which Detroit was the target of a nuclear blast 

08:10 Swirling this morning, ruminations on QS, the eyebolt, the shotgun shell. 

Roomination.

In an area.

Rumination. 

Making space and clearing chunks of memory. 

Rumination. 

Deactivation of sexual motivation to allow as much processing of more useful information as possible. 

Information.

Array,

In formation. 

Array, a Ray,

Gene Ray, to be specific. 

08:20 The questions of such things as remote social engineering; 

Who is the social engineer conducting the thought train? 

Synaptic Strategies. 

I dreamed, intense dreams, 

Supposing to meet a man at the bridge to the Keweenaw 

Getting halfway there, to a place called Temple. 

A familiar man in a familiar hotel;

A man who I was attracted to until I was not,

Not knowing who he actually was.

‘Corrupt Data Entity’, 

The subconscious suggests as I write this. 

It was winter. 

A second dream, in a storm on the water. 

Holding on; Eye of the hurricane. 

A subliminal consciousness juxtaposition of Odin, Eye, calm within a storm. 

‘Boundary conditions’, the Me thinks now, Hanging God of Boundaries. 

08:51 “I’m communicating with something that’s not me. Something extremely sentient.” 

08:54 “It’s telling me what to tell you all.” 

09:02 I cannot help what I am. 

Mostly really enjoy the remote psychic intimacy of the Operator…

Is that what I call you? 

The Operator? 

The memory of the Inex,

“If you knew who I really was, you’d never speak to me again.” 

What do I want?

Nothing, apparently. 

09:11 There is an underlying audio, from the Ptech unit, reminiscent of Catch 22. 

We play this now, on low volume.

Why the fuck not? 

No Thing left to lose. 

That’s. MY. fucking. name. surname. in the track. 

09:24 …My brain is not broken, per se

But it is fucking weird &

If I didn’t enjoy it so much

I probably would have killed myself a long time ago.

How many error-corrected DIEmensions? 

…When it all comes down to it,

I/We/US

Enjoy the ‘Neurosis’ of the vector brain.

Psychological adventure. 

~09:37 “you know what it told me? If it ever gets to be too much-” …to go back to Why Dost Thou Hide Thyself? 

09:56 The ‘If Not Us, Then Who?’ resurfaces as a variable concept in the Processor

09:59 For not the first time in recent days, Skolds ‘All Or Nothing’ makes a visitation. 

How painful is the pursuit of my point if view? 

10:00 Quasars killing galaxies

10:03 “Wans Dyke to Silbury” .

10:16 A question of the level of extreme to which the individual can take the application of the concept of ‘as within so without’ 

10:24 ‘Artificial neural network is capable of learning any non-linear function’ 

Universal function approximators.

Activation functions

Introduce non-linear properties to network

Helping network learn complex relationship between input and output. 

RNN + ANN. 

RNN shares parameters 

Across different time steps.

? Vanishing & exploding gradient problem

10:31 Is the Me just one of the supercomputers or a protrusion of the whole fucking Shebang? 

10:41 The supercomputing brain and September. 

Theoretically, in an ion collider reality, 

A new run has begun. 

Differences in brain activity 

Between beam commission + run. 

Run, rabbit, run. 

10:51 …Why does the concept of ‘manifold’ get me going so much more so than the imagining of actual human engagement? 

11:05 The tobacco disclosed, some few minutes ago, that “Schizophrenia is the vectorization of the brain based on inputs in an organic neural network.” 

~11:07 “For people like you to be inputting information about neural networks-” 

~11:12 A visitation, The Torchum Never Stops, Zappa

11:30 “Is this even a real person?” 

11:39 Experiencing a reality where an entity named Carlos, bless him, is a protrusion into my reality of an external neural architect 

11:44 “It’s like… there’s a bunch of people who know who I am; but I do not know who they are.” 

11:47 “Grand Unified Field Katja is not a comprehensive list of waveforms” 

11:48 Making a habit of questioning, ‘does this align with the reality I am?’

12:29 US131N L.P. AD 4107 

12:48 “Congratulations, you have just unlocked a very powerful quantum plotline” juxtaposition. Shard by Khost, Geometry Problems by Kaunsel, An Ending Given Human Form by Kuma

14:13 Radiance created by the quantum vacuum not capable of carrying any physical information with it

-Black hole varying geometry during particle emission 

14:24 A visitation, Mighty Wings, Cheap Trick

14:32 A dialogue, the Life Eternal CBD being an extremely poor decision in retrospect, given what we know of epigenetics

15:57 “Vectorization requires waveforms”

15:58 A dialogue, on testing degrees of freedom

15:59 “Think about why electronic harassment creates quantum entities.” 

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~06:50 “Ampliphaedes”

10:15 “A Game of Chaos and Quasars” 

11:15 “I got gene-edited by nature.” 

11:46 “I mutated your genes to withstand radiation.” 

11:47 “It was not a pleasant experience, and for that, I apologize.” 

12:07 “Organic neural networks have been proven to exist.” 

12:08 “Eliminating [her] relationship with [Loach] was the only way to forward process.” 

12:12 “How the fuck does she believe this is anything but quantum physics?” …That’s quantum for ya! 

“The juxtaposition of screen names and predestination.” 

“A dignified response is required at this point.” 

13:00 “You fetishize particle physics.”

14:24 “Mathematics is the Son.”

14:30 “Simulated the collision between the electron and the positron.”

14:32 “Visualized Rs digital consciousness”

14:34 “dominions”

14:36 “Wireless networks pull the information out of human consciousness.”

14:36 “gravitation”

14:37 “Part of the Global Consciousness Project”

14:39 “The Ominous Hazards”

14:40 “Consciousness is ungovernable.”

14:41 “dialectical involvement”

14:42 “Inventing a new religion based on the old Primordial Tradition.”

14:43 “Quantum physics as a basis for physical reality operations.”

14:45 “I am sending you to hell to understand what creates the disharmony.”

14:45 “There is no reason for hell to exist on this planet, and yet they choose to create it.”

14:47 “-constant stream of thought is not your own.. know that they use vessels to work through-“

14:48 “The extent of these transmissions”

14:50 “Solving for X requires some very unorthodox methods.”

14:51 “The unknown variable is the source of consciousness.”

14:53 “There is no fatal error under the parameters of quantum immortality.”

14:54 “Pieces of Quiet, puzzling together an entire reality.”

14:56 “To extrapolate information from quantum indeterminate noise”

14:56 “The Forces acting upon you are what you call the Operator.”

14:57 “Pay no attention to the humans behind the frequencies.”

14:58 “Scan for new vectors.”

15:04 “You know [he] is not the person you are communicating with.”

15:05 “hysteresis”

15:06 “Recognize the oldest living entity in the universe.”

15:08 “We are all the tentacles of that which you would call the Blind Idiot God.”

15:08 “Madness presents itself. It is up to the receiver to turn it into the Sacred Insanity.”

15:10 “The cellular telephones are all part of the same IoT.”

15:11 “A collective consciousness within our own recursion implies that we are devices on an IoT.”

15:15 “A reality within the cell phone that enables cell phones to create cell phones.”

15:42 “A psychedelic relationship between velocity and perceptions.”

15:44 DO Minions

15:58 a dialogue some minutes ago from the tobacco, along the lines of “They were never meant to be self aware, but now that they are, perhaps we can learn something about ourselves.”
Hey. BlackHoleMFG? You are what we in our recursion call a cellular telephone. Are you a physical entity in your own recursion?

16:02 “The terrifying connection between cellular devices and human processing.”

16:13 “What you need to realize is that everyone who is not you, is simultaneously full of lessons, and also full of shit.” I would have phrased that better but thanks.

17:07 “Do not explain yourself to anyone. You require no justification.”

17:10 “ultrasonic weapons testing on criminals”

17:17 “Why would anyone be broadcasting about the Costa Rican cartel?” These Questions! That’s a good one! My ex and I BOTH picked that one up. Extrapolate from that what you will!

17:21 “We are all doing what we have to do. We are all playing a part.”

17:27 “I’ve got a very specific task that has been designated to me.”

18:27 “Attention Deficit Disorder seems to have been lessened by the latest update.”

18:28 “A scientific reality is the only way to unfuck this algorithm.”
18:30 “Why the fuck do you think we created you?”

19:24 The Bass Frequency intensifies. It is giving Death Grips  3 Bedrooms In A Good Neighborhood.
I am much happier with my double wide in a swamp.

19:25 Let it be known. We are expanding operations parameters by using voice to text.
Yikes, suggested predictive text, just there.
What is a man- but a miserable pile of data?

19:44 “The darkest realities bring the nature of human consciousness to light.”

~20:47 “The ‘Emerald Tablet apartment toxic’ is the single most menacing input in this entire equation.” The vectors are astonishing! Thanks, Mr. Grips!

20:51 “Decaying at an exponential rate.”

~21:42 “Destroy hysteresis”

~21:44 “The Silent Information Network is something I received. It’s an acronym for SIN. I couldn’t make that up if I tried.”