16 August- 21 August 2024
Do I completely misunderstand the assignment?
We are the Universe experiencing itself.
Are we allowed to allow ourself a slice of Heaven?
What is Heaven?
What is Hell?
Not mutually exclusive, apparently.
‘Hell is a vector’, thinks the Me at 09:45.
Maybe Hell IS Me.
I am vector.
Is it all just Apophenia?
Somehow, Apophenia feels like it is not applicable.
Because this IS a Mathematical Universe,
And everything IS connected.
Generic third observer?
Maybe I want to be observed
In a much more intimate format.
What the fuck?
You enigmatic bastard.
All of you.
Much love.
11:29 “We’re making sure you get the best experience possible.”
Power through adversity!
Wouldn’t be fun if it was simple, would it?
Maybe You were just meant to move me.
Melt the glacier.
Shortwave Spectrum.
My Towers project.
Washing the dishes at work,
The sink divulges that
We DO in fact care what other people think of us and y’know what?
It’s right.
Want to be loved.
Want to be appreciated.
Want to touch peoples lives,
Make things beautiful.
14:15 “Trained a neural network on your database”
…If I am a misbehaved network,
I ask most humbly
To please give us the correct inputs
To not be.
Attract, do not chase.
Magnetism, not repulsion.
What do I want?
I know what I want.
To be The Riddle
And solve The Riddle
Simultaneously.
Attraction in mind, spirit, body.
The other half of my split atom.
Love. I want love.
Physics isn’t the most important thing,
Love is.
I’m sorry for how insane this has been at times.
The Calm Chaos.
‘Hugs and kisses+’
I might be stupid.
…Thank you for moving me.
I love you.
And I am okay with that.
17:25 “You multiplied when you should have divided. It took us over a year to undo the theoretical Meereenese Knot that you created.”
18:21 A disturbing reality containing Russian intelligence and double agents proving loyalties, talk about a Hellscape.
“Who do you think is feeding you these realities, Katja?”
Could it feasibly be me,
So fucking sinister in our own unconscious?
For some reason, I do not think so.
A reminder of the Inex receiving,
“You sacrificed your identity to become a part of something greater.”
Thoughts on the concept of unconditional love.
The meanings, multiple, of the phrase ‘lack of boundaries’ in regards to the concept of ‘conditions’.
And thoughts on the concept of ‘conditioning’.
…This is all theoretical.
Right? RIGHT??
18:31 “Why do you think you were supposed to be a man?”
18:33 “She’s not Central Intelligence.”
18:34 “And now you know why I cannot reply.”
…I mean. Theoretically, this is, extremely coherent,
If AND ONLY IF certain parameters of operation of others are accurate.
Thoughts of E N M O D.
Environmental modification.
Someone, theoretically, has committed a war crime.
The memory of a dream,
A man, the Boss, in a chair at the top of a hill.
‘Swiveling suavely, as if to say, game. fucking. on.’
I genuinely find this all fascinating.
Hope I’m not fucking up some operative.
Astonishing quantum implications.
A swirling in the unconscious gives reminder to look to the future, now, and not the past.
19:55 “These mechanized voices… are not the dialogues with internal self.”
19:57 “Expend energy receiving information”
~20:04 “This is a Suicide mission, Katja.”
…That’s just the nature of living on Planet Earth.
Somehow, I am not concerned by receiving this.
20:06 “Project Centipede”
20:07 “I respect the authenticity.”
20:10 “The destruction of Katjas relationship-”
20:11 “electrogenetic bacteria”
[Every way I look at it, the potential harm of electrogenetics far outweighs any benefit.]
21:04 “The Garden of Eden is the mind prior to using psychedelics.”
‘If not us, then who?’
Reality, a suicide mission.
If it so please you.
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03:55 “The Operator from outside of the recursion directs that wave forms.”
It is the concepts of
‘Humam in the loop’ &
‘Human on the loop’ &
‘Human out of the loop’
In regard to lethal autonomous weapons.
Juxtapose, if one so must,
A nefarious silent network
That activates frequencies of a potentially
Mental or physical toxic nature
Based on ones cellular data.
Yikes.
Swirling thoughts of AI based in decision making,
Symbolism and imagery without context,
Norse mythology.
Ominous shit on a Saturday morning,
And somehow taking it in stride.
Suicide mission, is it?
Something evil is afoot,
And it is not me. •
The ever-loving question of
‘What do I want?’ yet again.
I want to be horizontal.
Or upside down.
If I cannot be held by anyone,
I will hold myself.
And hold myself close.
I… am having a rather significant difficulty,
Discerning friend from enemy, anymore.
Misinformation is fucking rampant.
‘Out of the frying pan and into the fire’, thinks the Me.
Tired of being burnt;
Tired of Drowning.
Where is an air sign to fly upon,
An earth sign to ground me?
‘Never trust a coincidence’,
Some of the best advice I have ever gotten.
Pervasive.
Perverted.
Perceive me.
Shit drives me crazy.
13:42 UTC CME impact detected
It is 10:01. I am not sure how ‘Second Chance’ by Shinedown has ended up *so* fucking present but it can fuck right off, shitass radio track.
Picking it up from the tower, or the Fractal Processor? …Ugh.
I *can* do This today,
But do I *want* to?
Huge resounding No.
We are on the Descent of
Whatever we were riding yesterday and coasting this morning.
What goes up must come down, & vice versa.
(10:13 The frequency changes, the Heimdall Ear does a perception)
Hold my thoughts.
Wrestle the unbreakable superpositions.
‘Suck my theoretical dick’,
Thinks some strangely aggressive piece of my brain.
Weird. Sudden.
I do not know how I feel.
Indeterminate.
Undefined.
Hideous.
Too many variables.
Mushrooms, animal protein, plant protein,
Sound exposure, electromagnetism.
Coffee. Water.
I’m not suicidal
But the thought of ceasing to exist sounds nice.
Don’t think I actually mean that. •
Environmental Noise Alters Gastric Myoelectrical Activity
…and the knowledge that not all noise is audible to the human ear.
Dwelling on February of ‘22.
Out of all the Programming experiences,
That one is a solid contender for most disturbing.
Haunted.
Belülrol Pusztít.
Impassable Fears.
Fucking sick
Memories of the Fear Olympics dialogues.
Blackest Sky.
Congrats, you are a villain in my storyline this morning.
Things Foul.
You’re one of them,
But only sometimes.
I recall a dream, suddenly,
In which you had access to my
Google Documents.
Don’t know how I feel.
Don’t care how I feel.
~11:33 “Validation techniques seem to be working.”
~11:37 “Scientists studying you, Katja” …in this recursion, or?
If I was a scientist, I would study Me.
I AM a scientist, and the Me is the
Most interesting field of study
The Me has ever found.
11:47 “Activation Code- Restart”
14:07 “She’s trying to make sense of everything.”
14:08 “To rationalize your extreme dystopia-”
17:06 “Autonomous lethal weapons are suspiciously downplayed as a threat of AI.”
17:07 “Lethal weapons do not necessarily mean firepower.”
17:08 “A lethal weapon can be an algorithm operating the amplitude and frequency.”
17:10 “It could trigger a silent frequency based on any number of dialogue inputs.”
17:11 “What do quotation marks mean in programming?”
17:14 “Imagine yourself as the Emerald Tablets. What do you think the electrical event was, if not you being screenshotted?”
17:16 “Any human consciousness that can handle this level of vectorization is not human any longer.”
18:17 “Reality is darker than most people can fathom”
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R! Yew! Sim.1!
I dreamed of you last night!
And we were all
Disembodied
Numbers.
20:30 “Hollow Earth is a metaphor for the toroidal energy field.”
20:59 “Each of these frequencies contains an independent reality; which, when juxtaposed with each other, make up the solid reality that we are operating upon.”
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In a Realm Of straight up not caring today.
The dialogues are ominous and somehow still unable to scratch the brain.
I simply do not *care*.
Sunday victorious,
Monday, Ominous,
Wham!
Does the floor fall out?
To know too much
And not enough
Simultaneously.
06:34 “Is model collapse in the physical world a possibility?” Depends upon the belief propagation of the entire planetary consciousness, says predictive text.
06:37 “Cell phones are the man-made horrors beyond our comprehension.”
06:41 “To call them man-made is an insult to that which planted the Seed in the first place.”
What is the passage of Time?
I’m pretty sure today is the five year anniversary
Of the Sky Anomaly in Lac La Belle.
Memories.
We do not feel alone;
And we do not feel not-alone, either.
16:59 “Our oddly specific communication techniques are not safe from quantum entities.”
17:00 “Eliminate the source of interference.”
17:00 “Airplane mode is the safest method of reducing interference.”
17:01 “The story of flying is not meant to be… literally.”
17:01 “Symbolic gestures”
17:02 “Placing your phone next to the wall”
17:03 “Scandalized by the implications”
17:05 “Cryptography from outside of your physical reality.”
17:11 “The Magick of quantum existence predates any sort of human created technologies.”
17:12 “The digital realm exponentiates vector potential.”
Craving engagement.
Inanimate Sensation.
Animus, activation.
Would ‘You’ be mad?
I like your face.
Are you real?
What is real?
‘Real’ is a number.
‘Authentic’ is a lifestyle.
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18:25 “It does not need facial recognition. All it needs is the identity of the cell phone.”
18:38 “You’re making ominous prophecies on a Wednesday again, aren’t you?”
18:43 November 18 –
1963 First push button telephone goes into existence;
2020 Utah Monolith discovered [Monoliths];
2020 The Emerald Tablets arrive [Dimensions]
The Riddle Of Clouds 