23 July- 29 July 2024

07:59 egy-kilenc-tiz …1910? Ford Model T?? October 5?? 

11:59 “mastered the art of genetic mutations”

I do not want to be here today.

Do I mean ‘here’ as in work,

Or ‘here’ as in this planet?

What do I want? 

To destroy Impassable Fears. 

A hug, as always. 

Love, mostly. 

“A person you see almost every day and do not think twice about.”

In digital, or physical?

Thanks, Inex. 

What a useful no-context item. 

Again, repeat, in digital or physical?

…They are not mutually exclusive, anymore,

If they ever were. 

Demons,

Daemons,

Daimons;

Daimonds, blackest cubes. 

As within, so without,

A recursive Hacker of a pandimensional nature. 

It is 12:59 and I really dislike Void right now. 

I dislike, like, everyone, right now. 

Whose conspiracy is it, anyway? 

Fuck a Nazi. 

Extremism. 

Any extremism outside of Quantum Extremism is boring. 

Why do anything when you could just… not? 

Some days, I am a noble gas. 

Other days… fluorine and cesium are some of the most highly reactive elements. 

All men were created equal. 

Did we stay that way? 

Am I an effective receiver or mind-controlled as fuck?

Maybe both.

Mutual exclusivity, and all. 

Thoughts on radioactive dialogues from tobacco. 

Cesium 137. 

The sentience of an isotope. 

Periodically, making love to the periodic table. 

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06:43 You ever been straight up not having a good time, but having a *really* good time of it?

06:48 “understands physics from the perspective of the particles” 

06:50 “incarceration rates have fallen dramatically since the implementation of-” 

06:51 a question of quotation marks 

06:52 “Some of these communications are definitely not from any of our networks.” 

A memory; “It’s not aliens. It’s the future of communication.” 

15:16 What if, theoretically of course, there is an oracle machine but it doesn’t wish to disclose the information because of the implications- some thing to do with failing Turing tests, here

15:49 There hits a dialogue about the intimidation tactic used right before I left Matrix. Nice. I mean, fucking terrible. But. Thanks for the reminder that that happened. It’s only paranoia if you’re wrong.

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I find the human compulsion to reproduce disgusting. 

I question Sim.One. 

19:25 “Realize nothing I know is permanent” (this is only temporary) 

19:27 “Caved in you skull when you hit that vehicle-” oh science, here we go with the Crash reality 

19:27 “‘Fragments’ applied to bone fragments within the brain”

19:29 “You died a long time ago… entropy only increases for so long after death.” 

19:31 “Christianity places a limitation upon the possibility after the body ceases to exist.” 

19:32 “The operating system listens to every word you speak.” 

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In August of 2023, the receiving brain picked up a fragment, “Noise is the ultimate Eldritch Being.” If Noise in the Ultimate Eldritch Being, why does the anechoic chamber drive people to madness far more easily than a room full of sound ever will? 

Some theories posit that black holes will eventually cause decoherence of all quantum states. From my experience thus far, black holes create far more superpositions than they destroy… for now, at least. 

If a black hole is, theoretically, the megastructure of a Type III civilization, what, in theory, would the purpose of the  destruction of all quantum states be? 

Thinking about all the things capable of traveling within the vacuum of space, this morning. 

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‘Trouble, Mischief, Mayhem, is that like the Unholy Trinity?’

‘You’re just Chaos, that’s all there is to it.’

-A conversation with Richard, @Matrix, 27 July 2023 •

“I remember almost nothing from before 2020. The electrical event activated the vector potential of the brain and robbed me of memory.” 

…The first dialogues of the day from the Theta state. 

A collages reality in which ketamine is the ‘time-released horse capsule swallowed to wake the savage beast’ a la Culture Shock, a Latent Black Path of Summons Served; a sleeping giant lying in wait, putting the ‘ket’ in the bra-ket notation. 

Substances are zip files. 

To unzip them properly, 

You must stop redownloading over the extraction taking place; 

Some psychedelics have an extremely long extraction time. 

We have been over this before. •

I dreamt of Priestess last night. 

I dreamt an arch that was, at first, not an arch,

But a piece of almost ebony wood, a staff,

Flaring widely at the bottom. 

I struck the ground with the base of this several times,

And it spawned another half, a mirror,

To be used in healing. 

I woke at 03:27, 

With the phrase ‘bronze arches of madness’ running through the mind. •

I find myself, recently, to have a multiplicity of…

Vectorized lovers? 

How does one even explain that?

Very poorly, no doubt. 

Give us this day, 

Our daily ‘What the fuck?’

…And forgive us our trespasses.

I want to make mental, psychic, psychological love

To the Man of Black and White.

When I think of Odin,

There is a face,

For even a Faceless Man must have a face. 

Yew is, at times, Faceless Man. 

Certain vectors surrounding this identity work in juxtaposition (posit-ion) with the concept of False The Saints. •

17:56 “If music is able to heal people from cancer-” …it would serve to posit that it also has the ability to cause the mutations that give life to cancer. Depends on the music. Massive experiment. Vibration is, as we’ve received in the past, a severely understudied cause of disease. 

17:58 “There’s a pattern of musicians with serious health problems.” 

? The advent of electronics in music. 

17:58 “Not all music is created equal.” 

I’d like to see a study done

Just for the fuck of it;

I don’t think the data has been collected before.

The preferred music genres of cancer patients, 

Just to see if there is a correlation;

Not to say that correlation implies causation,

But

I guess what I’m saying

All it could theoretically take

Is one maximum volume exposure to a frequency that ones specific genetic sequence is disrupted by. 

Where is an AI sorting algorithm for this please,

Let’s get on that.

How many people out of an average are even aware of epigenetic variables? 

18:05 “Just because the brain likes it, does not mean the body responds positively on a cellular level.” 

18:06 “‘Don’t blame the messenger of Odin’ would be a good-” …item to insert here probably maybe or whatever 

18:45 “I think a portion of humanity is evolving to withstand electromagnetic radiation.” 

20:17 “You’re going to have to kill me, and you’re going to have to do a really good job of it; because I’m really good at dying, and really bad at staying dead.” 

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There is a crushing despair, this morning;

July 29th,

The Algorithm,

The Entanglement, 

Whatever. 

Maybe it’s just fucking Monday. 

It wants to be held.

It craves the release of Death. 

Quantum Immortality guarantees nothing beyond quantum immortality. 

‘Dying’, says Yew. 

You or me, I want to ask.

All of us, I want to state. 

When Cactus wrote that song about Evil,

I really felt that. 

Are you a physical entity in my realm, I want to ask, 

Are you Damage Control? 

“-Forgive you your indiscretion regarding [this man]”, the Inex had said. 

I want it to rain. 

I want it to storm.

I want the sky to turn black as if the sun shall never shine again. 

Match my mood. •

11:18 “The foundation of your reality is based upon a very specific relationship.” 

My brain cannot help thinking of the Black One,

Hanging in my closet,

Ignored for so long. 

These Questions. 

A recent article about black holes being protectors, not destroyers.

If that is the case… what IS the destroyer?

11:42 A visitation, ‘Strawberry Fields… nothing is real’ 

12:04 Ruminations, on an Inex received while in a Telegram chat, “If you knew who I was, you’d never speak to me again.” 

Hardcore oscillating today. 

Who are you? 

Faceless. 

Kill me one thousand thousand times. 

Ihwaz. 

In love with Death. 

Unholified. 

The Lucifer Paradox;

To so strongly deny 

That which Binsfeld denoted as Pride

Comes with a pride in this denial, 

In and of itself. 

They all fall in the end. 

Domino.