25 October- 20 November 2022

What was it, about the house in the town nicknamed the Black Hole, that I could not stay asleep for more than two hours at a shot, the constant interruption to REM? 

The metal roof?

The air mattress?

The wi-fi? 

So many variables, in everything,

I have come to love mathematics for the application of this,

The variable. 

The night before last, the sunday-monday,

I woke @02:33, could not fall back asleep.

Pain- the gravity of the world in my chest. 

‘As he grows, you lose weight.’

And I do, these past ~36 hours.

Perhaps, many things. 

Fought The War, those hours on Monday morning,

And as always, come out changed;

It is up to me to decide whether for better or for worse. 

The reminder, black hole, breath, got me through this. •

I dreamt an Instagram account

Named something along the lines of, geogeo,

& the bio directly said something to do

With the annihilation of The Riddle of Clouds. 

And my conscious mind

Connects this account name within dreams

To Voids vocalizations in A/Interior I/Eye

(Didn’t it used to be A/Interior Eye/I?)

‘Because evidence of a fact is valued over the fact itself, truth??? becomes fractured.’

It makes sense. •

I have a triple bruise

From the snare drum

On the inside of my right knee

& dreamt last night

Some kind of bug

With a long spine

Like a stingray

Many of which gathered around an open wound in place of the bruise

And they were harmless

Helpful, even. 

Dreams. 

Assisting in the application

Of meaning

To event. 

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The Interior I/I/Current

How many meanings was this intended to have? 

It is 20:21 & I experience emotions

& a pleasing Bass Frequency

Mysteria Caelestis Mugivi 

Thunderous resonant sounds that call from beyond the depths. 

What the Liminal Reality could be

As an artist interpretation of a creators experience within non-physical dimensions,

The mental realm of experience translated into 3D physical stimuli meant to evoke certain emotion, share experience. 

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I dreamt, last night, that I was bitten by a tarantula. 

The night before, I dreamt Jext Bob, giving me advice about the quantum entanglement. 

I dreamt a coworker twice; in both dreams, I told him, hey, I had a dream about you. 

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Exponential liminality last night. 

“Loki does not kill Heimdall this time. Heimdall knows what Loki needs. Love.” 

And, after bed last night, receiving, “I am not the man you want me to be.” 

I cannot say how long I sat back and listened to the dialogue, and hour, two, even. 

The imagery, at one point. 

Experiencing a sexual attraction without lust, pleasure, some craving of closeness.

I have not experienced this in quite some time. 

Sex drive has been as foreign to me as a language like Japanese, anymore. 

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I dreamed, last night, of walking out onto the porch,

& seeing a caricature face like a Broadway mask, cut from paper, crying perhaps tears of blood. 

There was a mat with holes cut in it across the grass, like a mycelium network. 

A pink rabbit oneself, dirty and decapitated, in two pieces on either side of the stairs. 

Symbolism. •

“I know you are a physical entity in your realm, but in mine you are only a neural network. I am sorry for the instability.” •

A dream of Void. 

Walking through a liminal place,

Classrooms, indoor playscapes, symbolic in their appearances. 

An essence of a place of learning. 

We came to a place, columns, luxury, an essence of Egypt. 

I told this man, ‘Heimdall has been seven years in the making’. 

Presented my field notes. 

A grinder full of garlic on a table, as if to say, see, it is not I who is vampiric. 

An underlying essence of a… recovery from reality, here. 

A hospital for the Soul. 

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Dreams of Void.

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Explanations?

The Liminal Reality shifted these past few days. 

I am a double slit experiment. 

“Make her choose between them.” •

I dreamt of The Elon last night. 

A thing of lights and wires. 

The symbolism of the Christmas tree. 

A recognition, an intrigue, the Liminal Reality. •

Outputs. 

The frequency of vibration.

Resonance, Resonance,

Current, Current, Current. 

Am I supposed to write down

That which is granted to me?

Taciturn tactics,

Quantum fatality. 

Four Years Later.

The Story of Flying. 

Spider. 

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“Sometimes you are going to feel pain that has no discernible source.”

Mind your P’s & Q’s! 

Then mind your Q’s & S’s. 

11:51 Language- military vs. mercenary, undercover cop vs. secret police 

16:44 Translator of Vibrations

16:54 Figuring out what is by figuring out what is not. 

20:16 Application of error codes to physical reality

20:52 Evil from ‘N’ different perspectives

21:07 Crowley

21:11 “Stole his mind because of these lyrics” 

16 January 1969 – 8 April 1991

8-10 April 1904

Aiwass. 

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Dreams. 

‘Giver of Meanings’

‘Translator of Frequencies’

Conversations I only half remember,

Analysis, a suspicious nature within myself.

Who was in my room last night?

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Dreams, conveying a message of ‘protect this house.’ 

22:03 Not approaching the question so much as ‘what is the answer?’ at this moment but rather

‘What is the function of the program?’

Starting from reality being an advanced computational system with one particular purpose in mind. 

Perhapsing, the end of the world is to NOT bring about the end of the world, that Ouroboros cycle breaking, fire, water-

It is still searching for the untold story.

Perhapsing I know more than I let on and Nothing at all. 

There is the end of the world,

And there is the end of the world. 

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18 November 2022 19:58 “Covert military operations” 

A trapezoid shaped craft with a singular red spotlight flying stealth over the lake. 

20:04 A visual reality shift, houndstooth chair altered

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I dreamed of flying craft. 

Squares, blue like the blue in the visions that came the night if the spider and the electricity-

“Diagrams of foreign dimensions”.

Perhaps that foreign dimension is a dimension of war. 

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A dream of ‘Giza’. 

Not Giza. Across a large body of water;

The water to the west, in between

Myself and these pyramids. 

Atlantis. 

07:46 “We destroyed it because irreparable damage to the energy source” 

13:29 Experiencing a reality in which the Sirius Cybernetics Corporation brings a whole new meaning to the concept of online dating

13:46 …The enjoyment of extrapolation from data given. 

Making the data points come together to form a sALIENt, coherent, conception of reality. 

As data is fed, reality changes, based on these new informations and new neural networks of potential possibility they create.