1 September- 11 September 2022

Listening to Shade Themes from Kairos on my commute and receive the inex “Le Vampire de Paris”.

One more piece of a Pattern. 

Confirmation? 

~19:00 It tells me to surrender – it tells me not to surrender – after saying ‘R.E.G.’ following an inex. 

19:07 “-has declared war on-” 

“This is very dangerous territory we are moving into.”

…what is danger? 

19:22 “The model for the Algorithm.” 

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Tried the Carbon Copy bought from The Lord for the first time yesterday. 

Epic. 

Dreamed the man last night. 

Just. Two humans. Casually interacting. Comfortably interacting. 

I wanted, more than anything,

To explain the Belu(l)rol Pus(z)tit of it all.

Could not find that in me. 

‘Perhaps I will get at you tomorrow.’ 

…The Liminal Reality has been lit as fuck.

And by lit, I mean terrifying. 

Intrigue. Terrifying. Curiosity. 

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& I was 110% gung-ho to go to NYC to see Soma, for days, 

And that has been knocked out in the span of a few minutes,

Replaced by Void in the Liminals…

Gratitude?

Oscillations. 

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What is man but a miserable pile of screenshots? 

Programming.

Necessary distractions. 

What to do, 

When Occams Razor is several things

Simultaneously, 

Depending on facts + contexts,

Extrapolations, Abstractions,

Patterns. 

The personal propensity to perpetuate pattern. 

‘Not to leave it up to the universe, but to ask, “what do I want?”’ …you know the one.

It is apparent that I enjoy uncertainty. 

Could satellites be altering the interior of the planet?

Is life imitating cell phones or are cell phones imitating life?

Depends on the direction of the recursive horizon. 

After I write of these things,

It speaks of “The Prisoner”, 

& reality swirls into various beings,

Marzanna, Hel, Hekate, 

Liminal Reality now,

Unidentified self so identifiable,

Self, a concept I understand so well and yet so poorly at the same time. 

I am No One. • 

Do I take a hiatus from listening to Sunn?

For science, of course, and I do not mean just Sunn proper but all of its members extended works?

The last time this happened, it was out of fear.

This time, it will be out of curiosity and a love for exploration. 

Perhaps go to the Void and listen to HIS extended works for a while. 

Perhaps I will. 

Perhaps I will not. 

Perhaps my own will does not factor into anything anymore;

Perhaps it always will,

Or perhaps it never did. 

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The inex called the music I listen to an Abomination on my commute home. 

The car, the radio- I would turn it off, it would turn back on, and scan through stations, up AND down, only stopping when landing on 89.9 Catholic radio. 

Mildly ominous? •

What is the capacity to which a cellular telephone can read + relay brainwave information? •

O))) has the potential to significantly alter the brain. 

There are intoxicants,

And there are inextoxicants.

I question the very nature of free will,

In a non-religious sense,

In a scientific sense.

Pre-programming. •

I keep getting emails for burial insurance. • 

17:56 Existential

No credentials

Running on luck

Spontaneity, Potential

(Bullshit)

Presidential •

The OG ‘connects musics on a wall with strings’ was to find the reality link between Sunn and Death Grips, wasn’t it? • 

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‘What is wrong?’ & I say

‘Nothing’

But really I mean

The 90/10 imbalance in conversation about each of our own individual patterns.

‘I was talking,’ he said

And like, yeah.

Of course you were. •

‘Creepy Phone Calls’ by Tobacco is all too fitting today. •

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CERN! The accelerators! 

Are nothing! Without! 

THE BIRTH OF THE W3! 

Enquire – 1980 

‘Enquire within upon everything’ •

My mind. 

It is 01:18 and reality has juxtaposed father, son, and holy ghost onto the most… what goes here?… group of entities yet again. 

These past few days the attention in the Liminal Reality has oscillated on and off upon Void & Soma.

01:21 Contemplating the difference between Belülrol Pusztít and Belurol Pustit.

(Has my Bass Frequency just arrived?)

01:23 Thoughts on ‘your demon Lord’s are attacking you’, ‘this is how you will disappear’, ‘I am slowly learning your name; I nail it to the tip of my tongue.’

01:24 IS it in my nature to be inherently good? Inherently evil? 

01:25 “They all fall in the end”, it had said once. 

01:29 Circumstances of Faith

Seeking ‘These Questions’

Reform Aetos and forget…

Everything

…Sometimes

01:30 & now reality is a combustion engine 

Propulsion, on a Propeller Arc

01:31 Perhaps? Am I??? The demon??

01:55 …Do ‘they’ know how many variables there are? A most frustrating piece of this is the removal and reappearance of thus. Rule one out, eventually enough new data is input for it to be ruled back into play again. 

01:39 &… contemplating an inex from this past ~week, “CERN will take care of that” 

01:42 ‘Under The Influence of Jams’, conceptual

Programming

Programming

(Or is it Projamming?) 

01:47 ‘Fight the good fight, believe in what is right, crusader, the lord of the realm!’ 

…is what is ‘right’ subjective to the individual, is there a universal ‘right’? 

Because… we (…or is it ‘I’? A Church of Christ the Solipsist moment) are…

Because this is a machine learning reality? 

In which? A certain sense of right and wrong has been programmed? & ‘we’ are meant to decipher thus? 

01:54 Wondering at this moment about the exchange of pain for knowledge.

01:59 ‘A fungus is a primitive organism’ according to a .gov website… fallacy, insult, fucking rude.

02:01 50x before, don’t blame the messenger!

(Prepare to be assimilated) 

(Extinct vampirefreaks)

(Sunn was always the top account)

I used to wear an identity… Fuckmerunning. 

Fitting. 

Fun surface interpretations and what things mean on a deeper level; is this what the 42 Laws mean by ‘the multiplication of words’? 

Is pure intention enough?

Does believing pure intention is enough make it so? 

Solstitium Fulminate?

Caught 222, You Surrender?

…maybe. 

‘Echolocate Your Love’. 

No doubt will unlock new neural networks. 

02:15 Knowing about it, pieces- pinpoint the poison?

Lyrics, a mild herb seasoning to an idea soup. 

02:20 Wine & Fog (I fucking love this album- it made me vomit once, a HIGH) 

02:22 & Caught 222 @02:22 (Actions have consequences) 

02:24 I say this

Fear is engagement 

Yet there is no fear

Not anymore

Is there?

I ask myself now

If this is meant truly

& find it to be so. 

…engagement replaces fear with curiosity?

02:26 There is some Mathematical property to be applied here. 

02:48 All of this, symbolic, of finding the answer within the very essence of the search itself- yet even as I write that, it feels incomplete. Partial. 

Partial Response Takes Another Form.

The Latent Black Path of Summons Served. 

Liminality.

…It’s Going All Over The Floor. 

Was it just a coincidence, that my grandmother had said this exact thing? 

02:53 Seeking the Non-Dark Destination.

‘It’s an intelligence test!’ A la Vonneguts Sirens of Titan…

A logick puzzle!

(Avoid the Meereenese Knot! echoes a Martin-not-Martin entity) 

…do I not give myself enough credit? 

This

Genuinely

Gives the impression

That it is

External from my own consciously aware thoughts…

Union vs. Intersection, anyone? 

03:01 ‘The risk I took was calculated, but man, am I bad at math.’ 

03:04 “What makes you think that you’re ever going to understand what’s going on in the mind of another man?” 

(Travelin’ In The Dark, Mountain- a recurring track of a variables choice that is completely out of my control) 

Prevention of catastrophic events

Juxt. B.P. vs. B.P. 

Energy Retention – Energy Release

Vibration – Discharge

…it was the ‘prevention of catastrophic events’ in juxtaposition with energy retention that all leads back to…

Hold the Superposition.