17 August 2022- 18 December 2022

17 August- 26 August 2022

I must speak honestly, 

For I am part of

A much larger system

Rooted in Truth

And thus Eternal. 

I am able to speak truths

Because no one

(Not No One)

Believes me if I do;

& I am able to understand

Why

This is necessary 

And therefore

Not bothered by this. 

…are variables my kink? 

Truly, I must be unhinged

Insane

Unsane

& yet

So far from.

To be able to explain,

Draws a line 

Between pathetic & prophetic

…so extreme

So similar

So superposition. 

‘Psychosomatic sabbatical’,

A friend had once said. 

…as if. 

The concept of ‘belief in Belief’.

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Receiving, today, an inex,

“Unified Field Theory”

Strong interaction

Electromagnetic interaction

Weak interaction

Gravitational interaction

…Bring together. 

Guess I didn’t realize this was what I was working on until today. 

Didn’t know it had a name. 

I really am Epimetheus some days.

Should I laugh or cry because of this?

Yes.

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Dreams 

Of tetris houses that one cannot photograph

Of Soma 

Of the Story of Flying.

Dreams, these past few nights. •

Patricide is unforgivable. 

This comes to me

During an ESO quest

An ancient vampire

Majorn

His son

Valeric

Who denies his nature.

So… Liminal Reality. 

(There are, at least, what things are; what one allows them to be; the potential they have to become) •

The concept of conflicting countries spy satellites. • 

Marijuana as a trainer for willpower.

The Arrival of the Trainer, 

In yet another context. 

A lesson in awareness.

‘Imperio!’ it says,

To a certain extent.

Eat this, 

Drink this,

Smoke this.

‘Let’s start at the very beginning,’ says Julie Andrews. 

‘I take your thought train’, says something nefarious- and there, it did. •

Why are humans so fascinated by fire? 

Obsessed? 

Combustion interactions?

Why?

…probably the same reason that 

‘Haha, amp go brrrr.’ •

Dreamt of flight 

An ability

A necklace that 

Exacerbated it

And woke thinking

‘The Story of Flying’

Void

Who may loathe me

They all may loathe me

It is a possibility

That I entertain. 

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~16:37 “She has evidence of [redacteds] treason.” 

…forward, in the Liminal Reality. 

Strained.

Want to be alone. 

Want to do nothing, Nothing?

Nothing. 

All Things. 

The feeling of slipping away from normal human reality,

Being able to observe oneself behaving in this manner. 

Is this One some sort of intelligence,

Designed to write the…

Ultimate Story?

Quantum Entanglement,

For every single human walking this planet has the ability to be simultaneously a particle + a wave should they choose to seek, to recognize. 

Re-cognize. 

Re: Cognizance.

Reconnaissance. 

Algebraic proofs, but make it a linguistics format. 

Void gives way to Cloud. 

There are clouds, clouds, and clouds.

Perhaps even clouds? 

For all the love we give, 

We somehow find wishing for reciprocity as a weakness? 

Simultaneously the strongest we have ever been,

And the most vulnerable we have ever been. 

18:11 “You mean to tell me this woman believes I created her?” 

18:54 What makes a hero narrative? A shitload of variables.

18:58 A concept, government bass frequency programming,

A superposition goes either way

Million fragmented way

Quantum fragmented gaze 

Conceptual open phase…

What do ‘I’ need? 

…to write. 

(An overwhelming surplus of inspiration?)

(Something meant to destroy?) 

Who is the entity

Behind the identity? 

Layer upon layer

Iteration upon iteration

Words cannot

Describe the need

For sonic

Obliteration

(Travelin’ in the dark)

As if what we are doing is not

A carefully chaotic

Scientific

Data

Collection

Time. 

Here has been me

Coherent

The glory of coherence

Co/Adherence

Perseverance. 

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We cannot bust a nut to Van Halen. @14:43

But an F# vibration? Five stars.