15 July 2022- 17 August 2022

15 July- 18 July 2022
Ego experiments
Perhaps it is
Taking the world around oneself
Applying it to thus
A certain measure of whole-hearted belief
…dimensional creation
A *specific* formula.
Sometime prior to 14:29
This one had about
60% of a completed concept
And even as it comes it feels stolen away;
At times it feels as though
I create concepts for someone,
Some THING else to use,
Some entity.
Love the word entity.
So vague.
‘There’s a sign on the wall,
But she wants to be sure
Because you know sometimes words have two meanings.’
…oh science.
The number of items ‘I’ mash together into a coherent, liminal reality?
Massive,
(Demands panoramic)
There are syllables,
Phrases, words, stuck inside this one right now,
How to get out??
That is the question.
Something something
Frequencies
62.3% there.
Honesty // is Key
Shakespeare, Shookethstab,
The Gnatty Daddy
…when did ‘I’ start taking everything so seriously?
I, ‘I’, Eye, Aye!
She’s sentient!
Kaunaz • Algiz • Inguz
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Dreams of Void.
In this dream, I was, as you say, ‘in an Area’- Liminal Reality to the max.
Walking across a massive snowy intersection; someone who was not Void but became Void was hit by a white Grand Prix, carried upon the windshield; they were okay, but, ‘blurred vision’, some allegory for blurred lines of reality.
Recognition. Interaction, within this dream realm.
Some child had been half baked into a pizza, the crust covering their legs like a blanket. Oof. •
Seeking, through my google acreenshots, a particular; reptiles, gators, perhaps, ‘trumpeting in ecstasy’ to the note of B? [B flat- 7 June 2021]
Resisting the urge to delete things in the google cloud for the sake of science. •
No reversal for thus, each of the two!
Screams
Internally, of course
Screams
As if we can blame anything but ourselves
Conflict = Inspiration
Define : Nonchalant
False Gods
(My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?)
C R E A TOR
-THOR
Electric
Electrical
Dia-lectrical
…Whatever the hell that means
Where’s ‘Crowley’ when ya need ’em??
‘We need to solicit some farmers. Hey, can we drone on your hill?’
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…almost wrote 2017.
Psychological torture tactics and the history of their use on civilians.
“Contingency plan” •
Something woke me at 22:22 last night, extreme bass frequency, checked phone again at 00:11, awake for hours, serious discomfort. •
Why are humans so obsessed with reproduction and passing on ‘their bloodline’?
Is it wrong to literally not give a fuck?
Because I do not.
I’m not expert in statistics but my guess is the humans who should not be passing on their genetics are the ones reproducing the most. Just an observation.
I literally do not give a shit.
Why is this the topic of mental discussion?
Humans and their primal urge to fuck.
Exponential growth and all.
Why?
What biological factor is missing within me?
‘You wanna fight, or fuck?’
‘…yes.’ •
17:30 In a perverse reality
Internally screaming,
My God, my God,
Why have you forsaken me?
The face I picture,
Is this a God?
Faces, Many-Faced God,
Deceiver?
You who haunt me
Caress me
Love me
Detest me
My God
A God
Something,
A multitude of waves
A multiplicity of blending faces.
What is God, the Forces of Nature
A God,
One who understands and manipulates,
Do what thou wilt.
The Creator
Of those Forces of Nature
Do you know who You are
When I speak of this ‘You’?
Some of the time,
Even I do not know.
…only forward.
“And what should happen,” asks a Thing, “Should one particular entity not be this entity within the third dimension, but a different third dimensional entity pretending to thus?”
‘Well,’ says the Us, ‘we will burn that bridge when we come to it.’
(Unworthy)
<says who>
S I L E N C E
<that’s what I motherfucking thought>
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Reconsiderations, gematrix.org, who owns it, the angle on it all, always curious. •
Where on the circle does sanity end, insanity and unsanity begin?
Riddle me this, Cloud.
Married to the Willpower once again.
That which has transpired in the mental realms over the past year has not been able to phase me.
Much love, no fear.