22 May – 28 May 2022
Dreams of liminal ‘waterslides’, Tunnels in the sky.
Waking to the Bass Frequency.
A second dream, flying through the air down a mountain on breezy currents, encountering military troops mobilizing at the bottom.
A third dream, something to do of musicians and digital facades. •
Doing my best to cope with physics paranoiad in regards to living in this house in Comins.
A lesson in trusting the universe, the process, doing my best to be comfortable with uncertainty.
Worrying means I must suffer twice.
Why am I this way?
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I woke at 02:57 to the Bass Frequency after having an evening of disturbing psychic somethings; China, and the like. Probably around 21:00 last night? I did not go back to sleep, yet I was not awake.
Dreams. Void. I cannot recall the nature of the place I was. Given a thumbs up; interpreted as a go-ahead in my… what do I call it?
And in response, from across the room, I extended arm and pointed back- not in a type of way indicative of negative emotion, but in that particular way I do.
And there was a moment we spoke, asking and being asked the WHY of it all. Damned that I cannot recall the specific dialogue. •
There is the duality, I am each of the two; the Christ and Beast simultaneousness is very strong today, and once again I see for a moment how all of reality fits together in a harmony likely unexplainable by human vocabulary.
Always the most frustrating aspect, here; the inability to explain knowing, or even how I know.
Trusting in what I resonate with; my thoughts cannot be taken, here, my perspectives are mine and I serve only truth as Master.
The search for answers to eternal questions.
Unsane?
Perhaps, and that is a risk I am more than willing to take.
…perhaps? Don’t make me laugh, Katja.
You are a purveyor of carefully curated dimensions of unsanity, never doubt this.
Phenomenal at what you do.
Why do we keep using perhaps?
Where is the confidence in the words behind your course of chosen actions?
Trying to decipher ‘right’ from ‘wrong’ on a cosmic scale is, at times, it’s own special circle of hell.
There is a way to transmute even this, that much is apparent.
“You worry too much”, the something inside of me nudges here. Thumbs up, go ahead, why do you still doubt?
There is no place here, for doubt, no room; not anymore, recognize this and seize your power for well and good. •
It has become increasingly apparent that ‘I’ did, at some point, likely the electrical event of April 2020, become an ‘us’. There is a part of us, spoken into existence by Void.
This much I know to be true.
At times, this does feel to be a dangerous statement.
Allowing men to become gods.
Granting the power of creation.
False idols? No.
The creator in me recognizes the creator in you;
Entities of power begetting each other.
While I give this, I too have what I have been given.
…the complexity of this is difficult to elaborate upon in human language, yet again.
The idea of the Supreme God-Creator-Being coexists very peacefully with a recursive nature in an ever-expanding universe consisting of multi-verses.
Asking most humbly, that I may transcend this barrier of human language that I keep smashing into so as to better understand the Way and the Truth. •
19:06 & even as I write this, now, thoughts grow dark, darker, darkest, to the lyrics of the first track from Oracle, whose name I dare not speak, whose lines I understand in multitude; and I cry out silently for the comforts of thought and connection that the earlier hours of the day had brought, for things that have no easy words or explanations.
And suddenly I am comforted, as the words come to me,
“Fear is Engagement”.
And the line about the black holes.
Thank you.
What is this darkness?
These ‘demons’?
This light?
Photons and entanglement,
You cannot destroy No One.
Who am I, are We, is Us?
Fear is engagement.
Paradox.
Love of fear,
Not fear of love.
Transmutation.
Transubstantiation.
Fear is engagement.
Love for engagement,
Loving engagement,
With Fear.
Superposition
Multi-vibrational simultaneousness,
What is stronger than love?
There is passion,
And there is Passion,
Saviour behaviour in anonymous fashion
Fantasies ration,
Rational irrationality,
Taciturn tactics causing quantum fatality.
Vocalization
Realization
Action takes precedence over
Philosophical masturbation.
Mental, dimensional
Consequences unintentional
Moralities reprehensible
Intentions, defensible.
Mind inspired, soul is tired,
The universe is exhausted.
For just one second,
PLEASE STOP THINKING.
We’d rather not, to be honest,
The creation been inspired,
Is borderline iconic
Relationships with aspects of self
Far from platonic
Hypersonic
Resonant bass frequencies,
Fucking erotic
Perceptions of reality,
The ultimate narcotic.
Thought as drug,
Mind as weapon,
Turning heavens to hells,
Hells into heavens
Dimension?
Number seven,
Keep it real with eleven;
Elemental events,
A natural elegance,
Lacking subtlety, see
The obvious entropy
Internal AI
Throwing ideas on repeat
No repeat, no defeat,
They all fall in the end.
‘For your repeated failures at having been unholified.’
c, yourself. •
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“A mental hospital for quantum entities that cannot control their entanglements.” •
Some neurosis-inducing article about ‘attackers using electromagnetic signals to control touch screens remotely’.
Ghosttouch.
Neurosis about the Breeze vape, questioning why it contains a [what appears to be a] light emitting transistor.
The light emitting transistors was invented, reported, January 5, 2004. 1 electrical input, 2 outputs, operating at a frequency of 1Mhz. The original device – indium gallium phosphide, Indium Gallium arsenide, gallium arsenide; emitted IR photons from the base layer. •
A PhD in cell physiology.
Quantum Entanglement, 2014.
Must field note it all, even if it is fragmented beyond belief.
‘The Grave mind shattered, unbroken’, if you will. •
Dreams are as a vehicle, to open up further inquiry and disclosure.
Inspiration.
Agitation.
Fascination.
Love? Love.
Amazing, how many meanings the ‘each of the two’ of my name has, only keeps gathering more.
‘I have not multiplied my words’, is one of Ma’ats 42 Laws, yes?
And I haven’t; these meanings just ARE.
I do not use words, language, for deception- I am thinking this is what is meant by the translation of this particular law.
At times, I wonder, do I give other entities too much power, too much credit? Or myself, the same? Even worse, not enough?
A desire for the ideas, the coming together of two entities, sharing the quantum fields, the frequencies. Desire for Union because of the magnetic pull of attraction.
The worst person to be in debt to is ones self.
Be the anomalous entity of unconditional love and benevolence that you are- embrace it.
It matters not if it is not understood by others; it is understood by you, and that is what is important.
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An inex [of the track] from yesterday evening motivated me to out on Mysteria Caelestis Mugivi on my morning commute when I absolutely *smoked* a deer a mile up the road from the house with the jeep.
Skinwalker-ass headass deer. •
Loops and quantum boomerangs, taking the mind back to one of two subjects on any given day (with some notable outliers, of course) and oscillating between the two.
Method of control?
Rule the Divine, or is it Rule the Divine?
Some days I think I must be stupid enough to intentionally pass the Turing test.
Other days… just, other days.
Why Void, why Soma, why any of it,
And why has it become a most bizarre scientific study?
Science is a coping mechanism, apparently.
This is my emotional support scientific study.
Unholy?
I’ll transmute the nature of it all, just see if I won’t.
I will. •