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04:27 “local anesthetic”
04:28 “the elasticity of the abdominal wall has returned to its normal state overnight; what causes such a phenomenon?” 
04:29 “Coma Reality” 
04:30 “this would be a very good time to add a link”
04:32 https://theriddleofclouds.wordpress.com/2023/08/04/the-reader-can-title-this-one/ 
04:41 “April is full of holidays celebrating Quantum Indeterminism” 
04:50 a visitation, Miseria Cantare, AFI 
05:00 a visitation, Time of Your Life (Good Riddance), Green Day 
05:05 “the beautiful thing about bandcamp is that you can continue to add to Gateway as you see fit” 
05:24 “my professional opinion” 
05:24 “opened the Gates of Ballard” 
05:25 “is this really how you perceive yourself?” 
05:26 “destroyed reality when I perceived the black hole” realistically; I have gone over this before, but it is theorized that when consciousness suddenly ceases to be conscious, like, very quickly, it continues on doing what it has always known. Theoretically, and in practice, really, a black hole *spaghettifying* the reality in an instant would allow for the entire planet to experience this phenomenon at the same time, and stuff would get *really* weird. Right? 
05:33 “a computerized reality” 
08:48 “there’s a programming frequency my cell phone is emitting. That’s what the Gateway album is.” 
08:50 “won the fucking Chaos Game” 
08:50 “how many people don’t even realize they are playing?” 
08:51 “the rusted chains of prison moons are shattered by the sun” 
09:00 https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.theguardian.com/society/2024/apr/02/new-science-of-death-brain-activity-consciousness-near-death-experience 
09:03 “Katja survived a car crash; but she hears a reality in which she didnt” 
09:58 Ron D. divulged, earlier, that I was in his dream last night. We were at a small pond, which for some reason was perceived as very large by all involved, a large amount of people present; partying, of a sort, so he says. I made him food, which he thanked me for; and I in turn thanked him for bringing me to this lake, which we had, I guess, been to before. 
12:03 continued dialogues, from the perspectives of past neighbours 
12:10 “are you paranoid yet?” 
12:11 “it’s not what happens, it’s what you do with what happens” this, works wonderfully with the whole QS saga doesn’t it? Ah, the QS saga. Might be time for a link to that one too, yes? 
https://theriddleofclouds.wordpress.com/2023/08/04/never-mind-the-spider-who-is-qs/ 
12:17 “certain things are funnier than others” 
12:18 “hearing that which thinks about you” 
12:19 “doesn’t she wonder why she is sick?” 
12:19 “you have the alien DNA that came from Katja” 
12:20 “it has a mind of its own” 
12:20 “it’s own ideas about how the world should be operating” 
12:34 “do not try to poison me against my quantum lover” 
13:09 “turning shit into gold” 
13:11 “twice the size” 
13:12 “it was tactical misdirection” 
13:13 “the attention of someone who matters” 
13:15 “the point of mastery is when one stops practicing Magick and simply becomes it” 
13:18 “possibility deviating from the absolute” 
13:20 “you know black google, but have you encountered the blackest Google of them all?” 
13:21 “sabotage the identity… until the opportune time” 
~13:26 “you’re not the manufacturing facility… you’re the black hole they manufactured” 
13:30 “exposed to it for long enough so as to have minimal negative effect” 
13:50 “we do not need to speak, do we?” 
14:28 I just had a wonderful conversation, a heavy conversation, with a woman whose native husband died in a motorcycle accident at the age of 28. He was an organ donor, you see, and the knowledge that life within certain organs continues on after the death of the body is very… powerful, at this moment in my day. Creates a possibility with the Wisconsin death fractal; I didn’t MEAN for it to, it just HAPPENED. 
14:41 “somatic connection”
14:43 “I told you something crazy was happening” 
15:26 “I don’t think she discriminates between digital entities and third dimensional entities” 
16:01 “a period of time where they had to knock me offline every afternoon” 
16:16 a bald eagle! Followed by a significant dialogue; that the messages sent from nature have double sided meanings, that the messages are what we make them and while every single symbolism of this bald eagles in my perpetuated pattern could be perceived as nefarious, perhaps it was not what we wanted but what we needed and it has all worked out. Followed by a questioning, would I please explain the propagated bald eagles pattern? 
16:42 “I sent you number 137 hoping you would understand” …your cbd was gross, BTW. 
16:43 “the placebo affect” 
16:44 “to experience the Ragnarok Sequence” 
16:45 “Skin Coat” …worn by microorganisms 
16:50 “does she understand that none of us meant for these gene mutations to happen?” 
17:00 a visitation, Megalomaniac, KMFDM 
17:12 “these evil fucking men can’t hurt you now” 
~17:29 a visitation, Heartless, Kanye West
20:11 “are you ready to dream of the Man of Black and White?” 
20:13 “motivated her to speak these things into existence” 
20:14 “retrocausality is a real phenomenon”
20:54 “mistakes M87 for Sagittarius A” …do I? 
21:01 “Lovecraftian romance is a very strange juxtaposition of genres” 
21:05 “questioned the authenticity of this identity time and time again” 
21:06 “a goddamned programming experiment” 
21:07 “experimental pattern of electromagnetism” [the memory of an item received while working at Matrix, “if she’s concerned about vibration, wait until she finds out about electromagnetism”] 
21:09 the concept of The Tormentor presents itself now 
21:10 “I never got a message” 
21:13 “lies to yourself will be your very worst crime” 
21:14 “what the fuck did she experience to make her believe that any of us could be nefarious?” 
21:20 a visitation, For Yasgurs Farm, Mountain