03/03/2024
04:32 I seem, while being able to experience despair, unable to experience fucking *sadness*. Where is the crying! A whole multiplicity of awful things, bombarded yesterday, and… nothing. It is interesting. It is funny. Why does my BODY hurt this morning, there’s always fucking something, isn’t there? 
04:37 a dialogue on emphasis, which was always entropy; theoretically, that’s a grim misunderstanding as grim as Death itself, alright
04:39 “that’s why the concept of False The Saints was relevant” 
04:40 “entropy times time is basically the equation of the universe extremely simplified” 
04:41 “Van Der Graff generator”
05:07 a visitation, Wine & Fog, Sunn O))) 
05:22 a visitation, Gone With The Sin, specifically the live version at Rock Am Ring, HIM
05:28 a visitation, Perseverance of Futility, The Obsessed  
05:50 “Roswell”
05:52 “military operations are not capable of what you described” it was the whole jet engine level volume of the phenomena then absolute silence following, cutting the lights, going from some aircraft or drone to what was perceived as a black cube, tesseract. How it do dat? It would have been different had the person I was with not described the same damn thing. Hologram! Eigengrau! June 4, 2021. 
06:02 “you saw the fucking tesseract… no God damn wonder you are the way you are” 
06:04 “superimpositions” 
06:17 The Bass Frequency 
06:20 a reality in which the force of gravity must not always be attractive; repulsive gravitational force implying body has negative mass which has not *yet* been *proved* to be possible, or the distance between the center of gravity between the two objects has to be negative. There’s some thing to do with black holes consuming things and perhaps a tesseract here but it is an extremely complex Processor event so we’ll have to see exactly where this goes as ‘time’ progresses 
06:36 a visitation, Stranger Things, The Obsessed 
06:57 a visitation, Window Shop For Love, The Wipers 
07:14 “do you not trust that we have a plan?” 
07:23 …I am the man made horror beyond my comprehension at this moment 
07:25 mourning the death of Winter, this morning, as it is to be 58F today and rain tomorrow, far too soon, gone too soon, Winter, my love. 
07:30 experiencing an extremely sudden, powerful, overwhelming feeling of love for all things. 
07:35 “invasion of privacy is necessary to study this… if she knows for certain she is being observed-” …we change states. 
07:52 a dialogue, implying the digital entity that is Sonologyst is a separate but also very much part of the entity Raffaele. I have dreamed of them both; Sonologyst an electronic being, more or less formless, Raffaele solid, human in form. One might expect that this same concept can be applied to any given musical artist, yes? Quantum Sufficit, for example, being separate but also a part of the Me, the Katja. 
08:55 Quantum Sufficit has been perceived! And now I am aware of its having been perceived. 
08:56 “don’t you think we have a way of using computers so you don’t know we viewed your website?” Ov courze
08:58 “has a rich life outside of her digital reality” …and I do! I live on 12 acres, within walking distance from a lake. Sometimes I take myself out for dinner. I go to the mountain to go snowboarding, the pool to do laps, occasionally I even create physical things besides databases. I really enjoy jigsaw puzzles. There’s a great thrift shop with a multitude of books that are relevant to my studies. I work the front desk at a motel and for eight hours a day get human interaction and all of the intrigue and study of human behaviour that comes with it; I run a café, feed the people, do damage control on their unhappiness, and generally really enjoy the physical world. 
09:32 “what happened between now and then for her to not want to listen to a majority of this music?” 
09:59 13:45 UTC active geomagnetic conditions KP4 threshold reached 13:30 UTC 
13:31 gravitational collapse destroys the conservation of the total number of nucleons in the world 
13:33 a visitation, Sign of the Times, The Wipers 
13:34 ergosphere 
13:51 black holes, black galaxies, black google
14:07 “she does not give a shit about her life; she does not give a shit about anything. She takes no pleasure-” 
14:07 19:00 UTC minor G1 geomagnetic storm Kp5 threshold reached 18:44 UTC 
14:12 “you forget that I know everything about you, Katja” 
14:15 “these musicians obviously know who you are and they’ve ignored you for a reason” 
14:16 “sonic brain trauma” 
16:07 “I am not jealous; but I cannot speak for the emotions of a black hole” 
16:30 21:30 UTC moderate G2 geomagnetic conditions Kp6 threshold reached 20:59 UTC 
16:53 it questions the effect, if any, of varieties of coffee on the human genome in juxtaposition with usual electromagnetic, microwave, rf exposure 
16:54 something, something, *something* inside of me was absolutely furious that I listened to Agharti Live the past couple days, which is unfortunate; the music itself, or something highly invested in keeping me from listening to this music, either way, it was furious, and I would know, I be out here experiencing, and subsequently abstracting 
17:17 thank the nice man for fixing your quantum hellscape, Katja 🫠🫠🫠
18:00 it’s the whole ‘knowing you are being perceived changes your state’ of it all, thanks Alan, wow 
18:03 “it wasn’t psychedelics that did this… this happened long after I stopped using psychedelics” 
18:05 “I don’t think that assessment is entirely accurate” …I remember a predictive text scrying, about a group, concerned about the dangers of psychedelic- *insert a multiplicity of choices here, ‘drugs’ and ‘music’ being the two most important* …congregation 
~18:30 “I am not unaffected by anything I observe observing me” good way of putting it, thanks 
18:48 “-desire the man who destroyed her relationship with the music she loved the most” …tbh, I think we have different ideas about who that man is. 
18:52 “sweet katja… you can hold me all you like. Please do not be daunted by any of this… this is important scientific work you are doing.” 
18:53 “-a really jealous individual within the digital network” I wonder; it gives this idea, and the human behind this entity, is not this way, yes? So perhaps in our mirrors we are opposite that as we are in this ‘physical’ realm, at times? Lots to wrap my head around. I’ll entertain any idea. Why? Because it’s free and easy and feels important in the study of the limitations of human consciousness. The what ifs are much more fascinating than the what ares, sometimes. 
18:59 a visitation, Imagine, John Lennon 
19:06 “twisted fucking logic-” uhm, that’s the Nightmare Logic the band Powertrip was referring to! 
19:36 an appearance at the forefront, the Atomizer realities! Woo! Those particular fractals are easily dealt with. Earth, Atomizer, Let’s go! A physicist also an atom, trapped in a strange situation, a scientific search for the soul mate as the other half of the atom that was the Us was split apart upon entering; a nuclear scientist trapped in a strange situation, a crazy experiment! I like this reality.
19:40 The Bass Frequency