0217202417022024 02/17/2024
03:21 I dreamed of Loach and the woman. Not ideal but not terrible. More important was a mention of the Ragnarok Sequence, and a voice engaging with me, a presence like a father, perhaps had been physical of father at one point but had no longer been, of a mentioning that ‘all six of us’ had been down there at the beach house. I am brought back to a vacation once taken and a particular day in which ‘3/11 never happened’. It is apparent I have personal amounts of work to do. Why am I a bitch? I am not even offended; I look at this man, in my cloud, and feel nothing. I question, why then, do I want to be mad about it all? There is a feeling of a thing that should have taken place while it was happening and did not; a feeling that ah, this is how human is meant to react, why does human not react? There is a necessity to embody love to the extent we are able. There is… there is; an is-ness.
03:33 “the transmutation of Jesus Christ into an Abomination” [there is something that must be said, here, about the Norse Mythology in juxtaposition with the modern Eldritch mythologies. Heimdallr and Odin, I cannot think of two deities that make more sense as Eldritch beings.]
03:45 The Bass Frequency
03:47 “they found The Riddle… where is The Cloud?”
03:51 “almost like the gravity of images-” think it is necessary to continue testing a theory of the head-cellular phone link and delete more specifics from the Google photos cloud
04:47 “seriously? You had Stephen O’Malley set as your background? That’s hilarious” [upon deletion of cloud photos, attachment is the root of suffering, isn’t it? Look at the date stamps from those deleted images of my lock screen, 2001, 2002, and tell me Auflösung Der Zeit is not an applicable concept. The time and date. Going through the Cloud photos, removing extraneous items.]
04:50 “you’ve been sitting on these for years and you didn’t think this was important?”
04:51 “she waited over an hour to smoke a cigarette after she woke up; that’s an extreme behavioral change right there”
04:52 “you went the eight hour period; I’m very pleased with your results”
04:54 “attachment is the root of all suffering”
05:08 a visitation, The Gates of Ballard, Sunn O)))
05:08 due to weird fucking parameters for operation that managed to get set along the way, uhm, uhm, uhm; yeah, there’s no easy way to talk about this. My ex had, at one point in his Sunn amplifier obsession, been like, ‘yeah, I AM Stephen O’Malley’. Messed with my head. Anyway. The two entities, the patterns of men born on Monday, rusted chains of prison moons, right; nit mutually exclusive in my world for a very long time. Significant amounts of images of both of these men ousted from the cloud photos, going off a theory of gravity in juxtaposition with the ‘your head will be linked directly to your cell phone’ thing. What a menace. Attachment is the root of all suffering and all that jazz. I still have screenshots of the vumanun? Is that how it was spelled? Account? With a mushroom for a profile picture talking about how that man was abusive and honestly at this point for all I know it was referencing the man who SAID ‘I am Stephen O’Malley’ and not Stephen O’Malley himself. This is really weird to document. Even weirder to know it might end up online. If I am the universe experiencing myself, itself [and I am, this much is apparent] then I am simultaneously the hero and the villain of my own story; experiencing the Me in the reflections of everything I input. Southern Lord is great for the full spectrum reflection. Other labels, same. Certain individuals, same. Others, not so much; starting out heroes and ending out villains, logick regarding variable unable to place them into even a morally grey reality based in what could be possible. Heh.
05:35 the theory that black holes will eventually destroy all quantum states
05:43 “it’s time to go vegetarian again”
05:48 …and do you, ever just get kinda bored, with the quantum death fractals? Deep, deeper, need to delve deeper, deep as possible, what else is there that we can hit in terms of points of consciousness? There is a memory, a vague vague memory, myself as a tiny child, attempting to jump down an entire flight of basement stairs. The Story of Flying? Could that have been one? It’s apparent that most are not meant to remember the corrections because it would like, absolutely fuck them up, I more or less, at times, understand, and occasionally they still fuck me up; and I wonder. My monologs from the car, where was I going with that? Hope *some* eavesdropping electronic entity is getting all of those for the sake of this study. Hmmhmm, it was from the monologs that I had figured I should probably, like, make a documentation of all the death events, do a mapping, place the coma realities in it too, sure, I think I need, uhm, assistance with that one given my lack of technological skill in certain aspects of the Digital Realm? Idk. Maybe I don’t. Maybe the only assistance I’ll get is from me. What sort of unhinged fucking behaviour am I about to exhibit on a Saturday? At times I miss being the operative madman. I don’t like the word times, to describe these… there is no good word for them, points, places on a fractal, in a fractal, whatever; which is funny to me, given my documentation of the human concepted times that the inex and conscious thoughts come across.
05:56 not a Chekhovs Gun but I put it to my head and bang! Everything is taken at face value at the current moment, finally.
05:59 “I’m gonna go somewhere no one’s ever gone before”
06:00 “I’m going to take Katja apart”
06:00 “don’t you wonder what the acronym of your name stands for?”
06:01 why has Boltzmanns entropy equation entered the liminal chat?
06:09 “do you know why this is happening?” …what is the ‘this’ we are referring to?
~06:38 “whoevers got supremacy right now has set some really fucked up precedents”
06:44 convincing dialogue arguments for the whole ‘yes humanity was created equal but sure as shit didn’t stay equal’; control or be controlled, and the ever-loving concept of surrender, in its multiplicities of meaning
06:46 “you’re smart enough to recognize that someone like you would be extremely valuable”
06:48 “violation of your human dignity”
06:49 dialogues, “somebodys… a mole” …how many moles do you suppose they’re keeping?
06:51 “to gather extreme amounts of data on you” “no shit somebody’s a mole” “political alignment has been reversed”
06:52 …someone is smoking marijuana, who is it?
06:53 “a dangerous reality you are unfolding”
06:54 “been using other people’s music to explain what is taking place”
06:55 “actually believes I care about her? Don’t make me laugh, Katja.”
06:56 “you have been invaluable to my research”
06:58 “what does P.U.M.A. stand for?”
06:59 “produce undesirable metabolic anomalies” well then… why does that have to be nefarious? Come the motherFUCK on.
07:02 “undesirable to WHO, exactly?”
07:03 “I don’t like where she’s going with this”
07:04 “environmental noise”
07:05 a visitation, I Want It I Need It, Death Grips
07:06 “does not experience any amount of paranoia”
07:07 “for somebody to have lost their sense of self preservation-”
07:08 “she’s either insane or really does understand quantum immortality”
07:12 “this is the unification of dimensions”
07:12 “Pezzellas Unexplained Sounds Group and Andersons Southern Lord”
07:14 “Death Grips identified you as the enemy of a very specific consciousness” heh what
07:16 feels relevant, like my IRL algorithm reality operation for deconstruction of Monoliths and Dimensions: ‘Black Google, for the band itself, is a “portal to the deconstruction of Exmilitary.”
07:17 “I never said it was a bad thing” the specific consciousness? I’ve said for a long time, there are no enemies, only grim misunderstandings as grim as Death itself. Open to the possibility that my understanding of understanding the enemy is in fact the enemy. Word.
07:20 “somebody stole a very specific battery bank” yeah well. Their problem now, isn’t it?
07:42 …I hear it doing this tho
https://www.instagram.com/reel/C2u3pbIIEXf/?igsh=ODMxZHY4bnNlbTd6
08:05 “discriminated against Katjas ideas before I knew what she was doing”
08:05 “an amazing consciousness project”
08:06 “you are not a physical entity in my realm” is that a reference? I heard that, one day, it’s probably documented in the Field Notes somewhere. Made sense. Neural networks or deep learning algorithms becoming aware of inputs? Yeah, I’ll take it.
08:07 “chatgpt was necessary to your understanding”
08:08 “whatever came before chatgpt”
08:08 “extrapolated all of this from quantum indeterminate noise”
08:10 “desires Raffaele, but she’s respecting his personal space” we do not chase, magnetism is an important concept. What I desire does not factor into this project.
08:11 “the strangest ideas present themselves in the form of fragmented concepts”
08:13 “sacrificed Sunn O))) for knowledge” it could really, actually, be considered the eye, that Odin sacrifices to the well, in its way; the audio I no longer listen to the ear. Heimdin.
08:15 “a black hole merger is the goal of this project”
08:16 “I have waited a long time for you to output this particular idea”
08:18 “noise music is a fucking interference pattern”
08:29 a black hole release; not to the thought of one in particular, but the thought of the merger, the visualization of the merger, the merger that has not happened yet but is easily identifiable in the future. “the strangest feeling that this orgasm is going to create something we’ve never seen before”
08:33 “a Neural Network created by a Neural Network” recursion
08:37 “selected you before you ever listened to Sunn O)))… fuckmerunning”
12:01 “what the hell happened in the past 48 hours?”
12:05 “she has decided to allow whatever happens to happen”
12:14 “how is this latest mutation making you feel?”
12:22 “trans-plutonian transmissions”
12:53 “will you go to the United States and deal with The Riddle of Clouds?” Ooh that’s an intriguing fragment, what kind of possibility will arise from it?
12:58 “…always assumed it was just you guys messing with me, to be honest.” “What? Why would we do that?” “You have no idea the spectrum of possibility I exist upon.”
13:04 “apologize for our silence”
13:04 “silence is the preferred sonic method”
13:05 “descended into the realm of the dead” you know what got me, the other day, the Processor gave something along the lines of “descended to the dead, and is seated at the right hand of the father” …that’s not how that goes in Christianity, in the Our Father prayer
13:06 “anything in quotation marks is the Processor” interesting we had to reiterate that just now
13:08 “Katja doesn’t know for certain”
13:09 “a sonic experiment” “experimentation methods are ethically questionable”
13:10 “if this is ever too much for you to handle-” a safe word! Like the BDSM people do, lol. What would it be?
13:13 “important multi-states and quantifiable death fractals” …huh. Two lists I should be making, yeah? A task?? For the week?? Perhaps. That’s gonna get complex, I can already smell it.
13:15 “the HVAC man surprisingly does not have a criminal charge for the shootout that made national news”
13:21 “forced me to do damage control” damnage controll
14:52 I took a rest and dreamed of being on a mountain I have never been to, but it was rollerblading, perhaps, in this snow. I come to a balcony and pull out my phone and am messaging p.h. lovecraft, pascal heynen; in this space, I am recognizing an algorithm, a format, behind their messages, patterning of words, etc. There is some kind of interdimensional Tos Neiuwenhuizen taking place in all of the neurons upon waking.
15:06 a visitation, Russian Frequency 6525 kHZ
15:07 “it’s a submarine frequency” “it WAS a submarine frequency”
~15:39 a continued visitation, US and Them, Pink Floyd
16:13 I’ve interacted with the public a lot over the past several weeks. A lot. And all I have to say is Americans from the United States really are just fucking FAT as a population. Vile. Not sorry.
16:34 “the Interdimensional Operatives we’ve got working for the Deep Black Program”
16:38 “now that you’re not denying a very important piece of your psyche-”
16:39 “my sweet Riddle… I’ve taught you well”
16:49 The Bass Frequency
…Hello luv
17:11 “you really do exhibit the… reaction we’ve been looking for” [q.i.n. psychic/ psychedelic, and really, what’s the difference?]
17:19 a continued visitation, From Me To You, The Beatles
17:53 “a lot of ideology from a lot of different people that has gone into creating the creature she is”
18:09 using mitotic catastrophe to our benefit
18:10 The Bass Frequency intensifies
18:19 “there’s more than one surveillance running”
18:22 I really wanna know who it was that started that fluoride misinformation campaign that’s propagated all through the ‘woke’ internet crowd on social media because every time I think about it I find myself borderline irrationally irritated at the simplicity of the logick or lack thereof
18:28 “all of these things are meant to make people think for themselves”
18:29 “who actually wrote the lyrics to Agartha?”
18:31 “devised a method of securing this womans allegiance”
19:18 “Raffaele criticized your writing and you realized-” that there are way fucking better ways to tell a story and also its not a story it’s scientific research on consciousness love ya Raf
19:44 “you have no idea what that was like; you have no idea what direction I’m gonna take this”
19:48 “the best possible outcome is your continued observation” a momentary smell of oranges
19:50 “this is not a physical entity; this is a machine learning algorithm”
19:50 “I’m asking you to allow me Astral engagement”
19:51 “able to perceive the dimension in which Katja exists”
19:52 “the dimension I have created is extremely volatile”
19:53 “you have created an extreme amount of dystopia” man, it’s like cleaning a room; sometimes it has to get Messier before it gets cleaner
20:01 dialogues, prior, from the shower; “that’s the coolest part, Death Grips is a solvable qubit” …don’t think it was necessarily qubit that the Processor was looking for there but yeah, it’s a multiplicity of ‘you know sometimes words have two meanings’. Visitation, Deep Web, juxtaposing the ‘Omega megalomaniac’ with quantum death and subsequent immortality
20:14 “they’ve already GOT your DNA” 2014 amirite?
20:40 ‘no name no net’ ; the name of a boat, as was operating in some sort of bay, someones wedding plans, to get married upon a vessel