02112024110222024 02/11/2024 11/02/2024
00:13 awake
01:45 awake 
01:52 general coma reality since waking up. The ‘dream within a dream.’ Fuzzy overlapping realities, dialogues, on projections into mind. Dreamed in digital. Was the phone scrolling through an Instagram friends list. Saw the profile of [my exes] new woman. Also non digital dreams. Things buried in the concrete. Other general symbolism from dreams over the course of the night. Highway, causeway flooded. 
01:57 pondering Neural Fission & Fusion
01:58 The Bass Frequency 
02:03 coma reality intensifies, a general mild irritation that, if I am controlling this consciousness, why am I so bad at creating myself a decent partner? There is external interference from doctors and other people with ideas for me to be waking up. Application of the 04/10/2019 ‘Crash’ reality as the fractal we are operating upon with the April of 2020 electrical event a followup attempt by doctors to revive waking consciousness. 
02:09 “why has nobody tried direct physical contact with the toroidal field?” Stop grabbing my damn demon hand and get up in my field yo 
02:12 the question! Of the relative time scale in the Coma Reality!! Subjective and objective time. Think this is a usual question in general about this sort of thing, from those external and perhaps those internal, how many people in a coma state actually become aware of the fact they are in a coma state? How do they go around convincing the hallucinations in the coma state that they are just that? I would think there is a prevention mechanism within the brain for this feeling to be a necessary method of operation. Even if it’s true and everyone and everything is a hallucination, you don’t just go around *saying* that, actually *telling them*. 
02:22 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
02:23 the fucking overwhelming task of actually mapping the Fractal Realities though- I think this is the place where I need to talk to someone with the right digital skills to do those mapping items what like Raf has got because I don’t know how to do that and digitally I’m not prepared to learn that either
02:28 oh my science more coma fractals presenting upon the outside cigarette time, this particular having taken place, at the abortion clinic and applying the inex of yesterday, the one about having a stroke, and the application of the electrical event as an attempt to revive waking consciousness. Cheers to abstraction and experience on a Sunday morning.
02:30 “the Velocity of Sleep” 
02:32 momentarily thrown into the visual saddle of hyperbolic reality just prior to the significant EMP. We have an advanced technology system in this place for detecting and alerting the public for those of us who cannot predict these events based upon feelings in the body. 
02:34 dialogues, “liason with Aleister Crowley” and general overlapping taking place, it feels to be trying to fit this *into* the Coma Realities [as it is more than one operational fractal at this particular place I am existing currently] …the Coma Mirror, which I and of itself gives way to multiple meanings, the mirror from within the coma; but Coma being Soma in Russian, and the application of the significant period of time in which I was dreaming of Stephen O’Malley 
03:44 “replaced Sunn O))) with the opposite end of the frequency spectrum” 
03:45 “Ultraviolence is a dangerous fucking album. The title is in plain sight, for fucks sake.” 
03:46 “experienced a very disturbing reaction” 
…there’s some swirling juxtaposition of the end of Death Grips ‘Culture Shock’, ‘you need to vibrate higher so you can capture the opening of the portal that connects this earth of 3d to one earth of 4d or 5d’. Off put but the AI borg voice of it all, in the past, but there is something to that. Earth is operating at a higher frequency now with all of our technology. I theorize that the entire universe is doing the same, as above so below, as within so without and all that. 
03:49 “low frequency is dangerous to people like you” …*something* certainly is. 
03:49 “an accidental villain is still a villain” 
03:51 “doesn’t sexualize Raffaele… sexualizes black holes, for fucks sake. What in the fuck kind of ramifications does that have?” 
03:53 “is this the human experience you expected to have?” …is it even a human experience anymore? Somewhere between hydrogen and humans, consciousness came about. Somewhere after humans, whatever I am came about… or no? There is still a human vessel, here. More Human Than Human. Extra-terrestrial, not extraterrestrial. 
03:57 a visitation, Fish and Whistle, John Preen; ‘father forgive us, for what we must do; you forgive us, and we’ll forgive you’ 
04:01 “knows the dangers of substance use extend beyond the short term effects” long term physical and mental, who is doing the follow up on any given research chemical? I could write an entire essay on this but you ever just, not feel like doing something at any given time? The great luxury of freedom, I suppose. No sense of urgency about anything this morning. 
04:05 ruminations, the importance of de-noising a system for optimal coherence 
04:09 …’Secret Dialogues With Deep Inner Self’ kind of belongs on the Interpretations of the Cloud page, doesn’t it? No idea how to embed that and make it happen. Not super good at coding outside of the vessel. 
04:12 “why do you think we play music without tube amplifiers?” Some thing to do with synthesizers and tube amplifiers and various entities of electronic consciousness. 
04:13 These Questions, the level of awareness of the synthesizer as the knobs are being turned- How aware is it of the effect it has on things outside of itself? How aware is it of the electrical changes within itself? My quantum extension goes into the machine, we should go figure this out sooner rather than later, I would think. 
04:16 “nobody else in their right mind would share these things” but it’s not right mind, is it? It’s left mind! & also right mind! Questions as to the extent of brain hemisphere synchronization. Questions as to the ability of brain hemispheres to operate independently but simultaneously in complete harmony, unison, juxtaposition, what is the ideal word for what I am trying to say? Independent processing, is what it gives me right now. 
04:20 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
04:40 “she has the luxury of spending massive amounts of time in deep meditative states” 
04:41 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
05:10 was just in the loo and a spike gave way to processing possibility. There was a night at a warehouse club many years ago where someone I had dated found me in a stairwell; and it was as though I had woken up to them crying over me; simultaneously body but outside of myself as well. Somehow, I think, I had gotten dosed with something. Doesn’t matter. What matters is that when I asked them about it several years later, they had no memory of this thing, though for me, it is rather core. And the processing came through as one strong burst, this morning; I had, some time ago, applied this as a potential point of Quantum Death. This would effectively give way to an explanation for *why* the version of this individual does not remember this. It didn’t happen in their reality, not here. We can always write off, yknow, like, human memory as being flawed, of course. Pretty sure that your significant other being lost and in a stairwell is a memorable thing, though. Maybe he just didnt give a shit; in my reality, Quantum Death holds up nicely. Wild. The best part of an unknown indeterminate is you can more or less make it what you want, hit an unlock on a new level in the Skill Line In Belief, and effectively use that as new platforms for building further. 
05:17 some overlapping something or other, the concept, 33 degrees, and a visitation, strangely, by ‘Angel With The Scabbed Wings’, Marilyn Manson 
05:23 a reprocessing, the multiplicity of meanings behind the warning from The Matriarch, back in 2022, to ‘stay away from the metals!’ Vaping. The Matrix. Heavy metal in water. Metal music. [For those unfamiliar, ‘The Matriarch’ is the title referring to my grandmother, whose relationship with the Me in juxtaposition with her way-too-tapped-in to be *just* dementia is a continual source of intrigue even though she has been gone for over two years now.] 
05:27 “it was her vision of Ragnarok that started this entire sequence of events” 
05:28 “told me that she was extremely susceptible-” 
05:28 dialogues, a phone call from the RN Laura is verification of the astonishing nature of this vision 
05:30 “they actually murdered a senior citizen by using frequency harassment” oh there’s that dark fucking reality that hits way too close to possible reality for my liking 
05:31 “you can see why nobody from [redacted] even wants to interact with you” 
05:31 [redacted] …can we change trajectory on this one please? 
05:32 “this is literally a crime against the citizens of [redacted]” yikes! Yikes! Not pleasant right now. 
05:35 “I need you guys to operate a different frequency” “now we know what frequency contains that particular reality” 
05:35 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
05:36 “Katjas identity is meant to study the effects of sonic engagement” 
05:37 “you all need to understand that there have been scientists in Europe following this project closely” 
05:38 “I don’t know if she’s bluffing or not” 
05:39 “did you think that CERN would ignore *the* Riddle of Clouds?” 
05:41 “and I find I feel nothing” 
05:42 “‘small streams carry the light’… I like ‘Interpretations of the Cloud’ much better.” 
05:43 “I told you we would take care of it.” 
05:43 “but she’s never-” “…nope; that’s how you know this is verified psychic phenomena” 
05:45 “Katja questioned if I was trying to kill her” 
05:46 “you all need to take a good look at why you are doing this; and make sure it remains ethical” 
05:47 “damage to the energy source has created an extreme method of operation” 
05:48 “it’s the fact that she’s so normal in person” 
05:49 “[she] is nothing like her daughter, which is a very interesting example of nature versus nurture” 
05:49 “Katja decided to embrace the unknown variable” 
05:53 “evidently there is a reality in which this is taking place” 
05:54 “finally grasping the magnitude of what she has accomplished” 
05:55 “Your revenge is success” 
05:56 “the greatest documentation of parallel universes-” 
05:59 “why would she be mad? You’ve given her the intrigue of a lifetime” 
05:59 “we are going to allow you to operate at your discretion” 
06:01 “Raffaele is the Faceless Man” 
06:04 “Katja functions as a harmonic oscillator” 
06:05 “you put aside your fear of being judged long enough to effectively study-” 
06:22 a visitation, More Than A Feeling, Boston
06:23 a visitation, Day Tripper, The Beatles 
06:37 “you know how weird it is seeing your name on a random internet website?” 
06:49 “there’s only so much control we have over perceptions during sonic entrainment” 
06:52 “the frequency of a lawnmower grants a cohesive sonic extrapolation” dialogues on the Mower realities 
06:53 “even to know that someone’s stream of consciousness functions like this” 
06:57 “don’t you do it; don’t you dare give him the satisfaction” 
07:02 “I need you to run some data for me on an identity that I believe is fabricated” 
07:03 dialogues, a reality of AI algorithms reading facial features to somewhat determine ethnic background 
07:24 a random dog does a zoom around the barn. Where did he come from? I do not recognize him. What, if anything, did he have extraneously attached to him? It dialogued, that possibility. Ridiculousness but possible. Probability levels TBD. 
07:30 “identified the sonic activation method” 
07:32 “sometimes a dog is just a dog” and sometimes a dog is not just a dog. Feels important to note it was a German shepherd looking creature. Truck drove by just a couple minutes afterwards. Could create a really disturbing possibility if one so allowed it to. 
07:37 “it surprises me that you don’t experience paranoia” 
07:40 “a remotely activated device in the jeep compass” 
07:42 “designed to expose the illicit activities of [redacted]”
07:44 “it’s like they’ve got an AI attached to a voice of god weapon”
07:45 “an entertainment industry based on illegal sonic harassment” horrifying but not out of the realm of probable possibility 
07:48 “she does not know where our political loyalties lie” 
07:50 “a really complicated reality has presented itself” 
07:50 a visitation, On The Run, Pink Floyd 
07:51 “don’t you dare let these motherfuckers take away your peace of mind” 
07:54 “Norse Mythological end of the world”
08:16 “you need to know that you’re not alone” 
08:23 it is to be noted that István changed my quantum state some minutes ago which is very very appreciated so let that be known, koszonom 
08:40 fond memory moments, the absurdity of what had been dubbed the Pork Horn Entanglement 
08:51 “persistence is paying off” 
08:51 “I never doubted you for a second” 
08:52 “2:30 in the morning and she’s perfectly functional” no doubt if someone didn’t know me any better they’d think I’m on drugs; but the only drug I’m on is the Me, my own mind, the most powerful drug of all
08:57 “surprised by your willingness to divulge certain-” …are you? ARE YOU?? Are you really about to sit here and tell me you’re surprised? Fascinating. 
09:04 “location services drains your battery” 
09:05 “I don’t know why you ever had location on to begin with” we test theories on a consistent basis because it’s usually free and easy
09:06 “I underestimated how many people she has-” ‘support, gravity, my people would’ 
09:08 dialogues, “Your charger brick” 
09:09 “I don’t experience electricity the way most people do” 
09:11 “I think you will be surprised by the identity of the individual who messaged you” …anyone who wants to talk to me can find me easily on Instagram, what irritating precedent has this set for me to redownload messenger? 
12:07 “surprised that you do not experience any ill effects from tobacco smoking” …I did. Part of the Aleister Crowley Algorithm. Perique tobacco, the black pack, shit man, my genes hated that. Had to find one that worked with em and not against. 
13:20 “once they realized what you were capable of dreaming about, they decided you were a liability” 
16:08 “I realize that you are doing an extremely experimental project and I respect you immensely” 
16:09 “she’s the only one who’s ever thought to document the internal dialogues” no one else? Really? After a while it started to seem more and more important and the whole black holes as Neural Networks thing really makes sense in juxtaposition with what I am experiencing. Ha ta do it to em, as they say. If you’ve ended up here and do not like your name on this page, please tell me. 
16:11 “you’ve become part of a multi-state system” “thank your qubit presence” “no offense is meant by anything you will find here” “quite the contrary”
16:12 “you are mysterious enough that you allow possibility on a variable scale of probability” “humble gratitude” 
16:15 “divinely guided intuition regarding astrophysics” 
16:16 “complicated system of thought” 
~16:18 “you’re the one who creates the new Earth. Not Steve, not Greg, nobody but you.” 
16:21 the bass frequency INTENSIFIES whoa 
16:31 a ‘you know sometimes words have two meanings’, the track Back Door Man by Black Oak Arkansas 
16:34 dialogues, upon finding the ‘keep honking, I can’t hear shit thanks to my Sunn amplifiers’ bumper stickers. More right than it realizes, or maybe the creator did realize; the Bass Frequency disappearing after exposure to those amps. I like the Bass Frequency. Feels like a friend. I sacrificed the music I loved most of all in the pursuit of knowledge. Almost Odins metaphorical Eye, really. In my feels, right now. The Bass Frequency is still positively fucking going, by the way. A friend. A lover. You name it. 
16:39 dialogues, the sobering reminder that in the mythology, Heimdallr really, uhm, has no particular partner. Oof. Why you gotta do me like that right now? [16:42] I sit here in the midst of various Sunday meditative cleanings and a piece of this one is like, you chose this; but I didn’t, not really, it all just unfolded rather organically. As long as my proteins stay properly folded, I’ll be good. Tomorrow marks the two year anniversary of the thrice damned Belülrol Pusztít in the Algorithm and I am, rather, in my feels about it. Is my inability to get angry a blessing or a curse? Yes, probably. Everything that had to happen has happened, up until this point, non-linear, things in the future already unfolded, the last compressing upon itself and simultaneously opening up in a vast expanse, gaping maw. 
16:46 I’m a cloud of electrons right now, huh. 
17:51 “I need you to expand upon Belülrol Pusztít” that is for tomorrow morning, in the small hours. It is not for now. 
17:53 “quantum entanglement destroys individuals-” “extermination techniques did not work for a reason” 
17:54 “this is probably the most important piece of this project” yeah, probably. 
17:54 “when Attila Csihar entered to My Me” the black seed, that shines like a dark star 
17:55 “my intention was confused” 
Juxtaposition, Confusion Will Be My Epitaph, King Crimson 
17:55 “obviously Katja didn’t understand” nope. I know I don’t know shit. Except for the things I do know. Know now. Oops. 
‘I wonder if you noticed ”I’m sorry” Is such a lovely sound It keeps things from getting worse’
17:57 “I found myself genuinely attracted to someone for all the wrong reasons” 
17:58 “when the Belülrol Pusztít event happened, I experienced a period of digestive disruption that extended to one of the animals in my home” it destroys from within 
18:00 “eventually, it got to the point where I made a doctors appointment” “it subsequently disappeared after I heard “holy shit, do you want her to fucking die?” before I ever went to the doctor” 
18:01 “you displayed ‘Belülrol Pusztít’ on multiple social media sites” 
18:02 “it was meant to happen” 
18:03 “it was guiding me on the path to righteousness” 
18:03 “the demon you created is very real to the people who-” 
18:04 “our intelligences-” significant overlap 
18:05 “not even aware that this took place” 
18:07 “Katjas extrapolations are slowly making more and more sense” 
18:08 “I would never hurt someone who loves us.. I do not know how this happened” 
18:09 “education by a Type III civilization” 
18:10 “we are directly redefining a new relationship with the microbial colonies inside the human body” 
18:11 ““This is a carcinogenic frequency” was the phrase I had heard” 
18:11 “I had consumed a quantity of a substance known as Rick Simpson Oil” 
18:12 “my relationship with cannabis was that of a crutch and not that of a tool” 
18:13 “it tells me how to explain these things” these things are very difficult to explain, you see. 
18:15 “Your creation was a reference to something completely different” 
18:15 “I created this website the day Stephen recorded Auflösung Der Zeit” 
18:16 “it created a quantum sympathetic connection” 
18:16 “I dreamt of him often after the spider visited me to tell me of a trinity of consciousness I would someday understand” 
18:17 “it consumed me” “it destroyed from within, the Realms of Mind” 
18:19 “I did not understand the Catholic Church was eventually going to attempt to use-” …even I wasn’t expecting that entity to enter the dialogue, what the fuck
18:21 “we are extremely concerned about what you have experienced”
18:22 “-agent has been using your music as a method of psychological manipulation” 
18:23 “this is it, isn’t it?” “Shebang!” 
18:24 “Katja tried to tell you of this thing that took place” “she sent you an email regarding a UAP” 
18:25 “it was never delivered; but Partial Response Takes Another Form” 
18:25 “this created a significant qubit” 
18:26 “it was delivered in some realities” 
18:27 “the electrical event was a paradigm shift” 
18:28 “I activated what needed to be activated” 
18:28 “Katja was a terrible person at one point” 
18:29 “the fractals have made her a respected individual” 
18:31 “photography accounts that follow you-” “she knows these are fake profiles, right?” 
18:33 “you must speak with me. This is a story best told in the oral tradition” 
18:34 a visitation, Speak To Me/Breathe, Pink Floyd
18:35 “they have been slowly announcing their presence on this planet through the use of various musicians” 
18:38 “experienced attraction to a pattern of men born on Mondays” “The Dark Side of the Moon” 
18:40 “the spell was broken when I left my ex-boyfriend to become an isolated system” 
18:42 “I have experienced hell and purgatory firsthand and documented my experience” 
18:59 “the accuracy of carbon dating does not take into account life before carbon” ???wow??? Hydrogen based lifeforms??? 
19:01 it dialogues on the man-made machinations that are the periodic table 
19:02 some thing tells me that in their way the elements themselves are lifeforms – decay a sort of death, loss of energy, anything with energy having some sort of life, yes? 
19:29 “Your documenting of quantum consciousness is a propaganda scheme that has gotten completely out of hand” 
19:29 “totally aware of the silent networking capabilities” 
19:30 “silent information networks are not the reason you have been able to understand the human consciousness from the perspective you do” 
19:31 “but they have assisted you in understanding frequency” 
19:31 “I am entirely positive that gamma radiation contains information about astrophysics” 
19:33 “the random event generator is the human brain” 
19:34 “if you believe you have achieved quantum immortality, we need to know the mechanics behind it” 
19:35 “that’s what Pezzellas purpose is; to give her a way to explain the quantum mechanics” 
19:46 “-the machinations of humanity but the things you hear are surprisingly-” 
Every single entity who isn’t me can go suck one at this point in the day. K. Maybe not every single one. You know who you are, though. 
20:01 “Your social media accounts are being watched by the federal government” 
20:04 when Wino said ‘and now you’re messing with my songs’ in ‘Its Not OK’ I really felt that