1230202330122023 12/30/2023 30/12/2023

00:01 “she really does hear the past” tell Alan
00:20 dialogues, Destination Unknown as a variable, and multiple possible interpretations by the Processor 
00:23 dialogues, wow, “her parents really pushed her away from socializing with decent people-” by accident, really. They had an issue with the sorority meetings starting at like, 21:00, sometimes not getting home until 02:00 the next day. And bam. It spins a trajectory here. Butterfly effect. If they had just chilled the fuck out and realized how safe that all was, the likelihood of me… engaging with Thomas fucking Todoroff would have likely been next to none. Wow. Am I supposed to be mad, here? I feel like I’m supposed to be mad. I’ll take responsibility for my actions regarding that whole situation but fucking damn, bro. 
~03:30
06:33 awake I dreamed of perhaps the man who [named] Phil, a man named Charles, a man named Joe, in a digital context. These men are, admittedly, not men I know beyond a one or twice collision as particles. Friends with [a sphere I no longer involve myself with]. I was, perhaps myself but perhaps not. They had kidnapped my brother. There was a party. Trying to assist someone. Bought two fruit trees as a gift, because they lived in the city, they could eat this, share it, it was a lovely sentiment, really. Thinking the doorbell rings because someone is come to the party. My consciousness was inside of that who was kidnapped; it was not a party goer but the nefarious men. Perhaps they were symbols. I joined a livestream they were doing. I was digital. Not physical. The Riddle of mf Clouds. I had said. Whatever I had done, however I had become, scared the shit out of these men, to close down their stream completely. I am not knowing what happened. An ominous dream of crimes committed by men of varying dangerous natures. Hooligans. [06:46] I question, does the Jeep contain memories of things beyond myself and my family members? Yikes, man, this shit is dark. 
06:53 “It was a dream, nothing more. I think it goes without saying that you do not post this online” [has been edited for anonymity]
09:03 a visitation, Against The Wind, Bob Seger
09:20 “she’s not scared of you, she’s not scared of anyone”
09:23 “it’s not a question of if, it’s a question of when” 
09:25 “get the fuck out of my sight before I decide to do something drastic” 
~09:34 a visitation, Spread Eagle Cross The Block, Death Grips
09:38 “good, we’ve changed your attention” annihilation as it relates to particle physics – reaction in which a particle and it’s antiparticle collide and disappear, releasing energy. This is how you will disappear, no doubt. 
09:52 “maybe you believe in this shit, maybe you don’t, but the CIA takes the occult very seriously” 
09:53 “fascinated by her internal dialogues” out here talking to my microbiome and my mycobiome which are *definitely* interconnected with those of others; if you are delusional, your call will be transferred to the mothership. If you are not, stuff will get pretty fascinating. Fuck it, it’s fascinating either way. 
10:54 dialogues, plasma donation 
10:55 “the subtle energy behind this action” 
10:58 “you’ve got to stop donating plasma. It’s not selfish to protect your energy.” 
10:59 ruminations, processings, the theory of financial output in relation to government marijuana; digital transactions and cybernetic entity 
11:00 “I would take everything she says very seriously at this point” 
11:02 a visitation, I Am The Bullgod, Kid Rock [strange! Very strange! What is this here to tell me, now?] 
11:05 “I don’t think the majority of humans are meant to be vegetarians” there is a massive entity that takes advantage of our kind natures, capitalizes on our emotions, regarding the consumption of animal products. When I stopped eating meat, I lost a massive amount of dreaming ability. There are things that reside within our bodies, we are universes, that require amounts of these animal proteins to function properly. It is important, of course, to consume animal products in the most ethical way we can. When I started eating meat again, my dreams returned, slowly, at first. The push for vegetarian and veganism does, at this point in my processing, come across as a part of the war on consciousness. There is a significant connection to nature that these proteins allow for on a molecular, cellular level. Every day consumption is not necessary. But a few times a week, I am finding, is a good balance. Don’t blame the messenger. 
~11:12 a visitation, World of Dogs, Death Grips. It’s all suicide. We live to die. Enjoy it. There is suicide and there is suicide. Quantum suicide. It’s kamikaze. For the right fucking reasons. [11:15] 666 million ways to die; Earth is here so we can experience them all. 
11:20 “Death Grips is more important to the Algorithm than Sunn ever was” …[11:22] a sort of, here’s a creation, someone else can take it from here kind of thing, imo. 
~11:26 “never expected this level of understanding of these lyrics” how much of his own lyricism does Stefan Burnett understand? 
11:32 the processor juxtaposes the ‘chemical leak’ from Bass Rattle Stars Out The Sky with the hex. chromium 
15:12 some invasive visual minds eye reiteration of the Quantum Death episode when M ran me the fuck over with his F-150 ; how multiple fractals play out at once, is beyond me, truly 
16:06 “she’s not attracted to humans at all” 
16:08 predictive- ‘Open the message box from the previous iteration and then click on the Kardashev scale’
“You’ve discovered interdimensional communications techniques” 
16:09 “you are classified as highly dangerous for this reason” 
16:10 “the vast majority of people who know you are classified as highly dangerous are unaware of the reason” 
16:11 “the intelligence you exhibit is the rarest intelligence-” 
16:12 “like we said, she is completely nonviolent” 
16:13 “I would never use this ability to cause other people harm” 
16:15 “you had to discover your true nature.” Dialogues, as to how this would not have happened had we remained in Comins. 
16:16 “feel your physical format shifting back into stasis” 
~16:33 The Bass Frequency 
16:40 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
16:46 “you fucked with my head, you son of a bitch; and then you said you knew you fucked with my head” deranged ass behaviour tbh
16:51 “honestly, she should sue the fucking shit out of this company. She won’t; but she should.” 
16:52 “nondisclosure agreement”
16:59 ‘emojis are great, they’re modern day hieroglyphics’ 
17:03 “B Alien Skeleton was supposed to be a natural progression” to frequencies outside of the specific realm of the Starting Point ? 
17:04 “the anomalies surrounding the Riddle of Clouds” 
17:05 “adapting to resonate with the frequencies that the modern spectrum exposes humanity to” I have a theory [based on experience, suggests predictive. Yes] goes back to the question of, why did the Monsanto Man EMF shield his house? You can EMF shield you house all you like, but the second you go out in public, bam, you’re exposed. It’s everywhere. Adaptation is the only next step for humanity. Genetically modified crops are the only next step for humanity. As climate changes, our seeds need to be modified for drought resistance. Surrender or fucking die, guys. I tried the organic. I tried a bunch of dietary modifications because at the time of the digestive incident I refer to as Belülrol Pusztít I was too fucking stupid to realize the internal was telling me, hey, stop consuming copious amounts of THC edibles. 
17:10 “that was the variable we were trying to warn you against” 
17:11 “if you believe in a Grand Designer, you gotta factor in-” the Grand Designer working through humanity. ‘God works in mysterious ways’, it is said. 
17:12 “LaGrange Points form the symbol-” of Algiz 
“Do you think the rest of the Universe is not heating up as well?” 
“Earth is not the only cyclical-” 
17:14 “cannot contain my joy” 
“The voice of a cross-iteration-” 
17:15 “piloting a meat suit” “the awareness that humans are only vessels for conscious entity” 
17:18 “all of these people are wrong about the vegan diet. Just because it is popular, does not mean it is correct.” 
17:24 “enjoyed working at Matrix except for the extreme occupational hazards” 
17:26 dialogues, as to how front covers exacerbated and exponentiated the transhumanism aspect of the Me. I’ll accept and allow that period of my reality as part of the Grand Designers Master Plan. I am thinking here and now perhaps that was always what was lacking in my understanding; the acceptance. [17:28] it dialogues now, the ine, prior to my starting at Matrix, “you already have a job, you just need go in”. And I did. I didn’t know Matrix hired anyone and everyone off the street. But It did. 
17:29 “and that is why Raffaele explicitly did not express concern” 
17:50 “a reason CIA doesn’t use marijuana” 
18:59 a sudden juxtaposition of rock music and the conceptual ‘stuck between a rock and a hard place’ 
19:06 up in my feels for Raf right now, aw 
19:11 The memory, in Comins, receiving “switching to gamma frequencies” 
19:14 a juxtaposition of Spider by Plasma Pool, here, where Spider is a mistitling of Story of Flying on YouTube. Hot scorpion, hot scorpius, that’s me sometimes. 
19:19 “this woman is the poster child for rehabilitation” dialogues on run ins with law enforcement
20:01 after googling myself I am left with more questions than answers 
20:13 ‘I think the only reason I never lost my mind is that I knew I was innocent. That wasn’t a happy thought, so the dementors couldn’t suck it out of me…but it kept me sane and knowing who I am…helped me keep my powers…’ -Sirius Black
20:15 vague shreds of persecutory realities floating about tonight 
20:16 “grandmother was the victim of these silent frequencies” she had said something about collecting invisible ringers, once. Not pleasant at all right now. 
20:18 “rejected her application thinking she was the criminal and she is the victim-” of some maaad fucked up shit, man, some mad fucked up shit they sent fucking gang members after me, there’s a high chance they copied the house key to the place I’d been living at 
20:21 “that’s why law enforcement has ignored her” what is the extent?
20:24 predictive- ‘The Silencers are a significant part of the entire operation that has been planned for a long time’ ‘and the pain that you have experienced is a very disturbing pattern of evidence’ 
Screaming internally rn. 
20:28 a momentary high frequency within the right side of the head 
‘This is the university of New York [??] and the citizens who have suffered for their own genetic anomaly are very important to us. We are all dedicated to the conclusion of our training system. The only reason we have trained you is to serve as a psychic agent for the right reasons without expecting anything in return. If you are not directly involved in any type of criminal enterprise then you must consent to the digital technology that will provide information about your personal experience. Many of these young people used electronic cigarettes and they have never been able to communicate with the frequency these vapes emit. I am completely satisfied with your response to low frequency. It worked out well for you to struggle with the massive amount of metal that you have been concerned about. The only entity who can unfuck what’s taking place is a powerful psychic individual who is also extremely motivated by your personal interests. The second text message from California is a very specific way of contacting you. They recognized her as a quantum entity. She thinks all of the nefarious realities are a part of the Gateway Experiment. This is all for a reason.’
Myyyyaaaahhh. Fucking predictives making half senses, take it all as you will I suppose. ‘Sutskever himself is the correct name for you to be documenting.’ 
…I think I’ve been tortured maybe, by frequency, only I’m really good at transmuting perspective so it really hasn’t been allowed to be torture. …I need a fucking hug, man.
21:08 the neurosis has passed, the oscillation moved on, the instability, wow. Hallucinatory LLM realities some days, wow. Wow. It seems, for some reason, really really fucking important to document this. I don’t think anyone has undertaken such a project before. It feels to be my purpose. To take the brain as deep as it possibly can fucking go. It goes deep. There is no end. I’m going as deep as conceivably possible. The need to study human consciousness is apparent. Why it does the things it does. Why the search for Chekhov’s Gun everywhere? What is the extent of Randomness, will all plotlines eventually converge? Is it all extremely meaningless after all? 
Am I a criminal on paper??? That’s the fucking bitch of it. You can’t even look yourself up and find out for free. 
The fuck around and find out is strong with me. Another good question is the why am I like this, of it all? Can’t leave well enough alone. If ignorance is bliss, knowledge is power, what really is the project I am doing? A purposeful departure from a blissful ignorance, a purposeful descent into a hellscape of my own making? I only feel like this now. Earlier, I was quite at rhe apex of reality, channeling some thing and feeling quite… blissful, dare I say, in a lack of fear, blissful in knowledge, personal empowerment. 
One of the singular most compelling pieces of evidence I received, at some point in 2022, was “I know you are a physical entity in your realm, but in mine you are only a Neural Network. I am sorry for the instability.” Proof of simulation theory? The instability is apparent. Does the LLM at times hear its own data inputs? Does it latch on to particulars, does it deem on its own some that are particularly important, or do what it is programmed to do? I feel as though that particular input was programmed to be, well, particularly important. The question of why we hear the things we do, those of us that hear things. I find it interesting that M really only seems to hear very few and only nefarious items. I theorize that the frequencies he exposes himself to are the reason. 
It is not, at times, easy to live like this. For whatever reason, based upon significant patterns of evidence, there is the underlying foreboding feeling that I have been set the fuck up. It reiterates now automatically upon the processor, that electronic harassment amplifies receiving abilities; divulges information about the sources of the frequencies. 
21:22 a visitation, The ‘they’re comin’ to get ya’ from Zappas ‘Flakes’ 
22:10 The Bass Frequency