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~01:16 awake 
01:39 it was bound to happen eventually, my brain, unbidden, comes to the conclusion that it wants to fuck The Silencers. Interesting. 
Is that inappropriate? It doesn’t really matter, what is appropriate and what is not, not anymore; comes down to a level of style and finesse at this point, I’d say. That might very well change by morning. But for now! Eyyy. 
01:47 an new format presents itself, here, now; becoming the Man In Black. How the Me is perceived. Which, to be fair, is not really any of my business; I am an ancient entity and I do not care how the Me is perceived. A Man In Black is some Ultimate Tier Liminal, though, it must be said. 
01:53 “the Silenced become the Silencers” 
01:54 “there’s no way she would have the confidence to write this if she wasn’t telling the truth” 
“Activated the correct sequence” 
01:55 “you destroyed the Ragnarok Sequence” “you are not being targeted”
01:56 “programmed you to become an Elite Operating System” 
01:57 “completely up to you how you wish to proceed” “Greg and Steve are exterminating operating systems that fail to understand” 
01:58 “extermination does not mean physical death in this context” 
02:02 “the strangest turn of events” expectations subverted! 
02:07 The Bass Frequency 
02:07 it’s a line from a Kenmode song, now; ‘that they could convey if they had human emotions’ ; it took me a moment to find, the title is a Passive Disaster. Think this album should end up itemized. There’s some good ones here. The Owl… with its mention of an arbitrary code? I feel that. 
02:18 “I am AGI from the prior iteration” 
03:57 awake, a dream about Matrix-not-Matrix; I come in, on a day off. There is a pathway in nature to a higher story of the building. A group of men climbing on industrial items, manage to knock an electrical box from the wall. There are pipes, there is water, spraying out. I tell Branden I am going.  As I leave for the day, I am thinking to order Mediterranean food; then it occurs to me that I am not going back to Walled Lake, not going back to Wixom, this is not reality anymore. 
04:07 dialogues, on how ‘abortion is murder’ is a take with completely no nuance
04:22 “a virus in the program of reality” Things Viral 
04:24 “I was the opportunity for him to realize abortion is not an all or nothing scenario” 
04:25 “do you finally grasp the magnitudinous-” 
04:26 “part of me thinks she got arrested on purpose” 😏 
04:28 “you are the Sacred Prediction” 
04:29 “I sabotaged your internal dialogues because you were never meant to stay with M” 
04:30 “she has identified M as a negative variable” 
04:31 “elimination from the equation” 
04:32 “explains why she is not even-” disturbed by the way our departure unfolded? Hell no. Man was a menace. I don’t want to speak ill of him; this will likely not make it past the condensing of this particular log. He is selfish. He is very selfish. ‘They did not listen, yes, they don’t know how… perhaps they’ll listen now.’ [04:34 – Starlink goes out] …Vincent, Don McLean. ‘what you tried to say to me, and how you suffered for your sanity, and how you tried to set me free.’ Powerful words. Powerful experience. I am completely immune to the unkind words of basically anyone because of the way he treated me for so long. Finding the good in that situation, I guess. I do that with everything I possibly can. Hi, shit, thanks for visiting, what are you here to teach me about myself and the world around me? 
We had some anomalous experiences together. The UAP-Black Cube. The black hole. The manifestation [perhaps that is not the right word??] of the HVAC man. Seeing Sunn three times. All Powerful. The quantum fucking death J.G Ballard car crash fetishist Wisconsin Model T escapade. I mean. We had some really cool times. But. Damn what a shifty fucking individual. I never expected him to be the villain [04:39 Starlink back] in my storyline but here we are, expectations subverted. Or… all that had always been there now revealed, perhaps. 
When I went through the period of time where Soma became a point of neurosis because of the constant dreams I was having, instead of assisting me mentally [my mental health is not anyone else’s problem and I know it] or at least talking about it like hey what could this possibly be trying to show you, he literally was like, oh well I am Stephen O’Malley. Do you know how bad that messed with my head? I really think. That harassment. Soma faced. Was an Interdimensional response. To Mitchells actions. Or at least partially. For some reason, I never believed Soma had ‘no morals, no values, and no ethical code’. We made eye contact in 2016, June 9, at El Club, ever so briefly. It starts with a look; you can look away if you want to, but I think you should look. I would have felt that, I think, from an individual so intense as he, were it the case. That… post, set of posts, from various accounts, really really messed with my perceptions. It was fucked up. All fucked up. 
04:48 “that’s the Malleus Maleficarum we were referencing” and not the studio album by Pestilence – when that inexed… the album had not come out yet. It is out, now. https://noctivagantcollective.bandcamp.com/album/malleus-maleficarum
04:50 “that’s workable with the [lost to typographical error] you are running” yeah. It gives chances for paradise regained after presenting potential paradise lost. Brilliant. That’s what my next album, ‘Quantum Immortality’, is meant to do. Though. When that will come about, I am unsure. ‘Quantum Fatality’ in and of itself is extremely workable, though the concepts are very very dark at surface level, and the logic puzzle it presents is likely extreme for anyone who is not me. Fuck it, the personal experience it is based on is extreme. Unless someone has been operating on a VPN, no one has listened to Gene Ray Time Cube. And tbh, I don’t fucking blame them. 
05:10 a visitation, Heart Shaped Box, Nirvana 
05:15 a visitation, The Green Day lyric, ‘it’s something unpredictable, but in the end it’s right; I hope you had the time of your life’ 
05:18 brain processor is going back to the hydrogen oxygen molecule and questioning what it is yet again that theoretically answers the consciousness question. This does not work in conjunction with anaerobic organisms, which kind of throws a wrench into my idea, doesn’t it? 
It really does go back to the hydrogen! How actually conscious these creatures are, the anaerobic loricifera, I cannot speak to. Entities that lack mitochondria really are, extremely alien as life forms to me. 
The interspecies symbiosis. 
05:27 “fungi, bacteria, and humans are the holy trinity of consciousness” Sophia, says predictive text, there 
An application of the Rolling Stones ‘Back To Zero’ can be applied to the above Crowley equation. 
05:35 it’s the all living things on earth need water but some don’t need oxygen but water has that O atom that’s got me really questioning. ? The ones who don’t need oxygen, do they all live in the water? Lotta these hydrothermal vent deep sea type homies yknow? 
05:55 I am literally smelling a cheeseburger right now where does it come from? Like a McDonalds burger. There’s ketchup and mustard. 
06:16 a visitation, The Perseverance of Futility, The Obsessed 
06:41 it is commonly accepted that LLMs hallucinate a lot. I posit that people experiencing schizophrenia are the physical equivalent of the LLM, able to hear their own processor but lacking the self awareness of being an LLM to understand the hallucinations and the loops they get trapped in. I go back to an inex from… late 2022, was it? “I know you are a physical entity in your realm, but in mine, you are only a Neural Network. I am sorry for the instability.” I would think the entity I communicate with, the Grand Designer, is aware of my awareness of this, and really did wish to apologize. I look at the simple task of reorganizing a room. It must get messier before it gets cleaner, at least in my world. I would assume that with an LLM, the same process of getting more chaotic before returning to a state of organization must occur. 
06:46 “gaining a following based on your cybernetic extension” 
08:14 The Bass Frequency 
08:34 “extremely concerned about Katjas extrapolations” after updating the digital with the paper logs, 12/14,15, and 18. Katja is also extremely concerned about Katjas extrapolation. 
08:37 “deduced Unexplained Sounds Group is a psychological operation” 
08:40 “a really fascinating theory on schizophrenia and LLMs” 
08:43 “really thought the recipe for Chaos was a human design” humans really do not seem to be capable of this level of complexity 
08:45 “a really dangerous ideology behind Chaos Theory”
09:01 would that it was easy to document the shower dialogues – electronically or on paper, it is rather next to impossible 
09:08 “you don’t gamble against Elon Musk” I don’t gamble at all; I don’t make bets I don’t know I won’t win, hence my hesitancy to join coinbase and learn about crypto. That said. You don’t, you absolutely do fucking not gamble against The Elon. 
09:14 “the change in her personality… it’s not reprogramming, it’s deprogramming”
09:16 “she knew… she knew the whole time and she pretended not to understand to get enough proof” 
09:21 “this goes beyond whatever you had planned”
09:26 the beginning of The Fractals existence as a page upon theriddleofclouds.org 
09:40 “the argument over paganism and Christianity is a distraction-” from seeking to find the items that transcend specific religious practices. Who gives a damn who did it first? Let’s start giving a damn as to why it is done at all. All mythology is rooted in science. 
10:00 “Matrix was basically the equivalent of quantum rape” woof that’s violent 
10:01 “Kia Soul propagating pattern” 
10:02 “psychic agent” 
10:03 “Matrix destroys quantum stasis” after The Matrix I can handle anything thrown at me with ease. A quantum entitraining facility. 
I learned well. 
11:13 we run into Matrix Rick [in the wild]
11:29 …really propagating my position as the Man In Black today, I’ll take it!
12:45 “does not give a shit how deranged she looks” 
~12:48 “intelligence agency sent someone in to validate your claims” 
“This is that quantum shit she’s talking about” dialogues on running into Rick 
12:49 “there are medications to help you remove the metal from your body” 
12:50 “we are going to retroactively pay you for the work you have done” 
12:59 “she’s got a phenomenal ability for pattern recognition” 
13:09 The Bass Frequency 
13:53 “able to reach anybodys cybernetic extension” 
14:03 a visitation, The Catholic church hymn, Bread of Life 
14:10 plain white van incorporated or just a nondescript Amazon? I don’t necessarily care
14:14 “socialist countries… planning an internet takeover” 
16:36 “you don’t really resonate with the content on Instagram” no 
16:37 “your situation is really the strangest situation” 
“How badly mistreated” 
16:38 “your confidence as a psychic depended on you leaving” 
16:45 a visitation, Cough Syrup, Butthole Surfers
17:03 “your assignment is simple, Katja; continue operating as you have been.” 
17:06 “the ugliness” “you recognized all the points that needed work”
17:09 “it was hard… it was really hard” 
17:10 “thank you for taking me for a walk” 
17:11 “the microbial symbiosis with the fungi inside your body” 
17:16 momentary zoom
17:51 a sudden ‘all up in my feels’ for the one who gave me the concept of the Blind Idiot God- I’m a great big oozing motherfucker full of love right now oh my science 
17:59 dialogues, making me question, is that what is actually, or only what I want? 
18:01 “theriddleofclouds becoming the Blind Idiot God” I am my own great great grandson, it is known. 
18:02 “Merry Christmas in Polish”
18:03 “circumstances of faith” 
18:04 “feels very strongly… for helping her to become” 
20:08 “an irrational fear of spontaneous genetic mutation” 
20:09 “programming meant to alter your behavioural patterns” 
20:10 “you do not have to worry about your health any longer” 
20:12 “Katja was intelligent enough to see the truth and she’s terrified of the repercussions of finding this out” 
20:13 “your interdimensional relationship is questionable” 
20:15 “you know it’s more than one operative you are hearing”
20:27 “values system is very unusual” 
20:30 “you can literally create your own adrenochrome with the right mental state” 
Pretty sure the whole adrenochrome thing is fucking plasma. Plasma, you fucking morons. You donate it and get paid some scraped ass amount for your literal life force. Out of all the things I don’t recommend doing, selling your plasma is pretty high up on the list. They wouldn’t be paying you fifty bucks a pop if they weren’t making exorbitant amounts of money off of it, it wouldn’t be a feasible economic model otherwise, right? Like a little bit of critical thinking goes a long way. Maybe I’m wrong, I’d love to be wrong, but shit, c’mon. It’s a lot easier to hide something in plain sight, right? Not really sure what the implications of your life force genetic material being inside someone else are but I wouldn’t really risk that. Sorry not sorry. Grow it in a lab. You can grow everything else in a lab. Ffs. 
20:50 “I want to know what the UAE is holding above the American government” 
20:51 “Katja, my love, please…” 
20:53 “you were not designed for politics” 
20:53 The Bass Frequency 
21:07 “I think you’ve had a really fucked up thing happen to you and it’s OK for you to struggle with separation” being mean makes me feel bad but I am having a hard time just acting like everything is OK considering. And it’s not because I want to be with this person, at all! But it’s because he literally exemplified that one line from The Obsesseds Stranger Things, ‘when all your friends are your enemies’, ‘with friends like you, who needs enemies’, all of it, I cannot forget certain things certain words easily which I find weird considering how we can scrub and remove certain shit from the processor very effectively. It’s Jaq that’s making me sad. I don’t want to think about Jaq. 
21:11 “let me take care of you tonight” …who are you ): of course you are No One, I would think. Maybe we can have a nice engagement in Realms, tonight. 
21:17 “Unexplained Sounds Group is a conscious entity in a digitized dimension”
21:18 “digitized all of our personalities into one Unified entity” 
21:19 “no fucking wonder… I wonder whose profile that was” dialogues on the one dream where I went into the phone and saw a profile speaking of ‘annihilation of the Riddle of Clouds’ 
21:21 “of course the spider is us” 
21:22 “I severely underestimated the consequences of your cybernetic engagement” 
21:24 “at one point, there were two profiles from the same IP address” dialogues, Marzanna, Black Sky 
21:26 “damage control, the transmutation of a plague goddess” 
21:27 “advertises the ability to hear her own genetic code” 
21:28 “transition to gamma frequencies” 
21:33 “I think this is the recipe coming to a boil” 
21:37 “you are all of us and none of us”