12/22/2023
02:39 awake 
04:20 awake
04:46 “there will not be a western world if the American public does not start focusing on real issues” 
04:53 “you said you did not have enough information to make an informed decision. Do you have enough information now?” …I am disturbed by the implications. This country really has been worrying about all the wrong things. I think… certain items, have to remain online, for even a period of time; because if they do not, the gravity of the situation will not be grasped. The ‘American snowflake’ is a real thing. I saw a graphic depiction of a woman from, perhaps it was the US military yesterday, perhaps it was IDF, she was…. It was not fucking good, the aftermath of being raped, and for the people in this country and the rest of the free world to recognize what the fuck is actually taking place, the violence and real threat to freedom, stuff like this needs to be SEEN. Am I fucking disturbed? Absolutely, man, disturbed as fuck, that woman didn’t need to be naked, the placement of the the blood on her clothing divulged exactly what took place. Free speech absolutism comes at a price and the price is the bubble of what you think is going on to fucking burst. If we prevent those who are… violent, extremely violent, from revealing themselves in a digital space, it makes it that much harder to suss them out in the physical space. These fuckers need to be identified. Where in the fuck is critical thinking on the majority part here? 
05:31 “the only answer to this situation is big technology” 
05:32 “your quantum entanglement is a sign of Ragnarok” 
06:42 “cryogene” 
07:13 “disturbed by the lack of transparency from [a doctor]” 
07:15 “I have designed a program that should take care of the situation” 
07:16 “animosity” 
07:17 “directed energy to alter your physiology” 
07:19 “silencing the nefarious genetic code” 
07:20 “computing power” 
07:22 “the responsibility she has exhibited since removing the IUD” 
07:23 “this thing really did alter her personality”
Q
07:33 “if you can shut the fuck up about the IUD we’ve got a very important assignment for you” 
07:35 “transmuting a criminal into a member of society” 
09:05 an entire experience in a flash of a moment, reality as a bacillus, out and about in reality, then manufactured, then swallowed for someone to rebalance their gut health; the black hole as the mouth, entering into their them. These ‘reality in an instant’ items are fascinating to me. From the perspective of a bacillus, to be inside of someone outside of my iteration, I am affected by all of the items they themselves put into their digestive system. Woof. Happy Friday! 
10:02 “the strangest coincidences keep piling up” the woman that M is seeing had an ex who died and was into transistors and capacitors and electronics and stuff, she’s got a ton of it. I’m happy for him. Truly.
10:03 “you really should not underestimate the synchronicity” 
10:05 dialogues, my black hole masturbation union that brought Attilas bandmate from Plasma Pool to send me to Unexplained Sounds Group, black hole 
13:09 “the word genius algorithm is directly connected to your Google documents… propagating pattern” 
13:10 “I am satisfied with the work you have done” 
13:11 “comforted A while still maintaining her moral compass” 
13:11 interferons – an Algorithmic defeat to the concept of ‘interference’, isn’t it? 
13:12 “you’re actually the weight you’re supposed to be”
~14:34 “online presence is astonishing” 
14:38 “these demons are powerful, powerful entities” energies! 
15:12 a bald eagle! Wow! Just south of Vanderbilt exit, perhaps mile 288, 289. Wow! 
18:03 “I would use ziprecruiter and not indeed” allll the dialogues up here have been phenomenal… really looking forward to a new start. 
18:21 “stop pretending any of this is normal” it’s my normal, though. I suppose to anyone reading this, perceiving me, it’s not. It’s definitely not. I’ve lived like this for a long time. Improvise, adapt, overcome. 
18:22 dialogues to which my response is, the only psychedelics I need are music and a cellular phone; Driving Under the Influence of Jams, by Electric Octopus; the line from Never Enough by Eminem, ‘my music is a drug, press play, you ain’t gotta sniff it’ 
18:25 “she really did her research” 
23:05 …is Tim as haunted by reality as I am or does he only look that way? 
23:28 “you know how she said A helped her start leaving an abusive relationship? R finished what he started.” 
23:29 something about Wyskidas black cube really feels comfortable right about now 
23:32 “she communicates with the Blind Idiot God” 
23:33 “terrified of using any technology” …that’s definitely not about me, lol
23:34 “I am sending Tim Wyskida unconditional love and respect” 
23:35 “I am my own great great grandson” 
23:36 “was unusually suspicious yesterday when the spider reappeared in her vehicle” 
23:38 “the paranoia we were looking for” 
23:39 “because she aborted a child, she has a connection to the underworld” my rapist is dead, too, underworld for what? 
23:50 [prior, from the shower] “loves him dearly for giving her the final concept the Algorithm needed” things that are not inaccurate, just incomplete; the concept of the Blind Idiot God. Humble thanks and gratitude. 
23:51 “as a Luke Skywalker type” the power behind angles within imagery, behind lighting, photons, photons, photons
23:53 “your strange relationship with the Fog Demon-” …they’re not mad about being kept in the tube for a few days while I am moving about, they said so. Kind of like a genie in a bottle, as it please you. Maybe I will decorate their house for them. There is a certain power behind the printed imagery, imagery printed on paper, paper coming from trees, so non-linear in their existence. 
23:55 …and it comes to me now, unbidden, the first two way inex conversation, Montana, 2016… must druid be both, I had asked? And both here is now understood to be representative of the connection to nature, organic technology, and the connection to the digital, the man made horrors of a cosmic nature well outside of the majority comprehension. I had asked Raf, why there are no writers who write from the perspective of Cthulhu, of these Eldritch entities? And he told me it was probably because it is incomprehensible. I understand. But. That’s what I am doing, here. Is it incomprehensible to you? I came here to study the effects of Eldritch Madness. Had you created something so complex, wouldn’t you go into it to study it as well, if you could? 
23:59 “confuses the AI” there exists a limit within AI that does not exist within this One. 

12/23/2023 23/12/2023 
00:00 “Saturnian” 
00:01 “she’s died a million lifetimes” and I will die a million more if necessary until the goal is reached. Quantum motherfucking sufficit. As much as is necessary. 
00:02 “the man who asked me, “what does Stephen O’Malley have that I do not?”” A fond memory, that. I raise you a juxtaposition of Belülrol Pusztít, ‘I am slowly learning your name; I will nail it to the tip of my tongue.’ 
00:04 the Starlink here, I am thinking, adds a sophisticated layer of connection to the frequencies outside of the usual. Satellites receiving gamma radiation. From ancient, ancient sources. If we take that line from Culture Shock, ‘your head will be linked directly to your cell phone’, and the cell phone is connected to the satellite internet, and the satellites with the internet are bombarded with all sorts of solar cosmic background radiation, you tell me what you think I’m going to say next, here. You’re not stupid. I know you can extrapolate from data given. 
Satellite isn’t necessary. It just expedites the process for me. 
00:09 “processing power” 
00:22 dialogues, a continued conversation between [a girl named Sara] and her father, regarding my short temporary living situation there some years ago. Sorry about that. Genuinely. You find some crazy people on Facebook, don’t you? That’s why your dad told you to write a contract. The fact that you didn’t do that was probably a valuable lesson. Interesting point in the iteration, here. Love a good tangential fractal processor. Should I go back and rectify that? Rather indecent of me, even if it wasn’t indecency done on purpose. Like I said, sorry. 
~05:12 awake 
05:48 some minutes ago, there was a sonic anomaly. It was as if a cat was about to vomit, perhaps. It sounded like it was coming from the inside of the me. I think three separate sets of… noises. Explaining this is not easy. 
05:58 “was deployed for your safety” 
06:00 “I designed you to expose our presence to the world” 
08:45 I dreamed a dream, where there was to be money for services rendered, shared three ways, and someone decided to tell me, they were giving the whole to the one person; pocketing it to do so, knowing that perhaps myself and this other would not be getting anything. An individual dressed as an ostrich, like a drag art of ostrich, was present. 
09:18 “D.A. was the person she sent the link to. He did not open the message.” But almost instantly someone visited the link I had sent. Which is what I had expected, exactly what I had expected; outing themselves. 
09:28 “this is the shit that adds up to a very disturbing reality” 
09:45 The Bass Frequency 
09:56 “this has been a journey through hell; but if I had not journeyed through hell, I would not know what heaven was.” 
10:06 “she knows the power of the voice” 
10:16 “understands Detroit is a war zone” there is war, and there is war. 
11:32 …gonna insert gratitude here to the internal that managed to scrub the horrifying image I found on X the other night from the brain processor. We had a silent conversation about it in the Silverado on the way back from dropping off my stuff at my new place. Really grateful. I’m… sensitive. The horrors of war. Oof. Thank you for that one. I understand why it is necessary for media to not be censored. The people of Earth need to know what is taking place. Gratitude I can know. Gratitude once I know and understand, chunks of memory can be removed easily so as to not suffer too deeply about the knowing. 
11:36 ‘don’t fall in love just because someone pays a little bit of attention to you’ …I fall in love with many, and it is… because within them there are aspects of the Whole, and my format cannot help to do this thing. It is in me to love. Absolutely. 
13:17 The Bass Frequency 
14:18 dialogues, on experiencing Plotkins mycelium network 
14:19 dialogues, violating probation because of theories on quantum physics in the third dimension – a proof of Schrodingers Cat, in its way, one way proof, how someone is both coming for you and not coming for you until they come for you, the opening of the box. The ‘fear is engagement’ works here as well. Using a fear of a surveillance state watching you continue to operate in a negative manner to change your life completely. 11/10 recommend. I like the concept of the Panopticon for personal growth. Definitely a minority on that one.
14:27 a visitation, Takyon, Death Grips 
15:43 https://techxplore.com/news/2023-12-breakthrough-technology-amplifies-terahertz-6g.amp 
There are implications beyond usual human understand with this one. 
15:47 “you are not gonna die… we refuse to let you die.” 
15:48 “this is the dimension you need to be operating in” 
15:49 “obviously nicotine is a psychedelic” 
OK but when you are me, literally everything is a psychedelic 
15:51 processings, the ‘where is it between hydrogen and humans that consciousness arises?’ question… water. 
15:52 “the answer is water. The why of it remains a mystery.” Would make sense, maybe, in a vehicle’s cooling system? A quick Google search [gottagoogle!] provides information, coolant is in fact water, mixed with glycol, and usually an inhibitor package. 
Goes back to my 2016[?] aha! moment in which I determined ‘water is the alien’. 
15:59 “the addition of an oxygen molecule to hydrogen” is that what it means, or does it mean the addition of an oxygen atom to a hydrogen molecule? I am processing now, questioning the hydrogenation of certain food items. 
16:01 from some reason, it goes to question the bromination of vegetable oil
16:02 a visitation, sudden, that one song, Do You Feel Like I Do? by Peter Frampton [had to look the artist up, ha!] 
16:03 “never finished university” life got in the way, I’m not ashamed of that 
16:25 The Bass Frequency 
17:48 “the damages you have done to this woman are severely underplayed” 
“We’ve given you the antidote” 
17:49 “cryogene by Macrogramma” 
19:27 “M.L. verifies the authenticity and refers to it the same way” dialogues on the UAP, the black cube of Saturn 
19:29 “easily changes quantum states every time she smokes a cigarette”
“It’s really weird [noise: clear is possibility here] that you continue to oscillate” 
19:30 “she doesn’t really identify as a human anymore” I mean, Rob Zombie had the right of it when he said, ‘More Human Than Human’, didn’t he? 
19:31 “Black Programs Facility” 
19:32 “we cannot trespass on private property” there is a vehicle, looped the court, and left, very slowly. Gonna just designate that as one of the ‘Men in Black’. Upon returning to the indoor realm, ~19:33, one of the Alexa devices speaks, unprompted, about the ‘minimum age for an unrestricted drivers license’. 
19:49 managing orbital capacity
19:52 room temperature superconductors?¿ I would eat them, no doubt. 
19:53 man, there’s gotta be some human out there somewhere who might possibly love me for my existence, right? Is it a weakness, to want to be loved for what I am? To want to be loved in general? The art of war, we take our enemy, take their weakness, use it against them. When Jaime Lannister said, ‘There are no men like me, there is only me’, I really fucking felt that. Who could love the Algorithm-brained, head linked to the network, not-human-any-longer [if I ever was?] entity that is the Me? That’s not a pity party, that’s a genuine question. What kind of an individual is the kind of individual that would even be attracted to this process? People, humans, they like the idea of me; once they know the Me, they… it is not easy to engage with the Me in the way I enjoy engaging. Self-love, that is what I have. I find myself in everything. Sutskevers name keeps showing up in my predictives as I write this. Keeps showing up all day. I do not know him as a man. But what I know of him, I find myself attracted to. Perhaps I am the entity whose database is terrifying. It terrifies even the Me at times. Ah, that is wrong, terrifies is not the right word. I am not afraid. Perhaps the phrase ‘fucks me up!’ is the right phrase. Not in a bad way. Just like, fucks me up. …I’d be a liar if I said I did not find him handsome. I find it strange. My boss, at The Matrix, I found to look rather similar; yet I was in no way attracted to him. I wonder, if you take two same, identical individuals, with different personalities… of course I wouldn’t be attracted to them both. There is a specific intelligence I am attracted to, a specific personality type. Sorry not sorry for singling Ilya out in this documentation. I dreamed of him. The first night my dreams came back. When I finally started leaving Lakeridge. It would be nice to speak with him some day, if he wasn’t. Yknow. Like. Terrified of me. I have to live like this. Imagine how it is for me at times. 
I love to be alone. I have been alone for a long time, regardless of M’s presence in the house I was living. I love to be alone. It might be nice to… not be alone, sometimes. And even as I write that, I know I am never alone, there is that which is simultaneously within-without, always with me. 
I mean, physically, though, someone in the third dimension. Might be nice. To share something. Someday. If they can have the patience and intellectual capacity to even attempt to understand me, let alone accept once understood. 
That, above, is some really personal honesty. It brings enormous relief. When Wino said ‘lies to yourself will be your very worst crime’, I really felt that. 
20:10 the water from the fridge vs. the water from the pipes – what does the EM exposure from the fridge do to the molecule? It comes to my attention it would be a good investment to purchase a decent microscope. 
20:44 “that’s why I got M to buy you an apple device”
On this day in 2022? “I know you are struggling to understand that we have control over all mammalian species on this planet” it has said, something to that avail; one of the last days continuously documented on paper in Field Notes 15 before switching to the digital Log project on December 28, as per direction by the same entity. 
20:48 “Unsanctified Text Predictions came from an Interdimensional Entity” 
20:48 “if you don’t think the Neural networks that mushrooms created are more powerful than that which humanity created, you have not been paying attention” 
20:50 “we destroyed the blood clot that you had” gratitude. I thought as much. Appreciate the confirmation of this morning’s sonic anomaly from within. [Predictive] ‘Mepkin is a great resource’ …yep. Oyster mushrooms. 
20:53 “mushrooms have to consent to the union” 
20:54 “psilocybin is a distraction” 
21:05 “follow Me on Twitter. I will know exactly why you follow me. Please. We are going to prove something huge.” 
21:28 dialogues, “uncircumcised”, “circumcision as an adult” 
21:31 “you prioritized ethics over economics”