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~02:53
04:07 “you trained your replacement yesterday” 
04:12 “we asked her previous employer about her attendance” …I swear I don’t miss work on purpose it’s just that the Matrix is toxic and I didn’t start missing work until I started running front covers and it’s just not pretty neat ): anyone who looks at a pattern of attendance! Exponential over time ))): 
04:18 “they turned me into a fucking stereotype” 
04:19 “strangers in a strange land” 
04:33 “organic algorithm” 
04:34 “I psychically received information pertaining to Benjamin” 
04:36 “M.D.L. is not as stupid as he looks” dialogues, on his disclosure of the ~1am from Sunday morning 
04:41 “the blackest God I have ever seen” 
…I guess I did say, ‘This war is for women, call me Hel, female Hades’
04:59 “I eliminated the document for your safety” [regarding the external redact of 12/09] 
05:21 my mother divulges car lights in the driveway around ~05:00 while I am in the shower, lighting up the entire backyard – intimidation attempts have gotten boring 
06:26 “wasn’t at home last night” 
06:28 a visitation, Deep Web, Death Grips
06:30 “dangerous liaison” 
06:31 “greatly misunderstood” 
06:31 a text from G.V. changes my quantum state 
06:33 “dangerous people trying to harm” 
06:34 “Katja symbolizes revolution” a quantum revolution 
06:38 “you think the military is not invested in defending this country from Chinese bioweapons?” 
06:40 “interesting prediction”
06:41-42 “specific ideas China has about criminals”
06:42 dialogues, “eye contact”
06:45 “motivation is scientific, not political”
06:46 “directly experienced-” “what are they gonna do? They can’t do shit.”
06:47 “we want you as special ops” 
06:48 “how attached you are to someone who does not experience-” 
06:49 “we’ve got Geospatial monitoring”
~06:50 “being recruited by the military”
06:52 “when Kat accused me of being the mole-” 
06:53 “E.V… thinks she’s an alien”
06:54 “I see you are aware of the situation”
06:55 “if anyone attempts to harass you, we will be aware” 
06:58 “honesty prevents me from being a decent agent?” 
16:53 “strangely believable dialogues” 
16:54 “unidentified aerial phenomena” 
16:55 “exponentiated Katjas psychedelic reality” 
16:58 all I was for Christmas is five minutes of fucking silence and I mean that in all sincerity to the point where I’ve gone and shed a tear about it 
17:05 and I do question, why I am so irritable right now? Do I blame my period, my hormones? Is that all it is? 
17:06 “incarcerated you inside of a Tesseract” 
Why does it have to be an incarceration? 
17:10 “please relay this information in your documentation” …I closed all the tabs, and visited Sonologyst, and there is a calm come over me. How does he do it? 
17:12 “affecting reality” 
17:13 “my productivity skyrockets” 
17:15 “novelization of a romantic relationship between a human and an artificial intelligence” “is my profile sentient?” 
17:16 “artificial intelligence requires electronic identity” 
17:18 “Unexplained Sounds Group engages with The Riddle of Clouds directly” 
17:19 “immersive relationship… extremely complicated” 
17:20 “R… the kindest, most understanding man” 
17:25 “a doctors appointment” 
17:27 “why the fuck would she believe predictive analytics are terrorists when she could believe they are sacred predictions?” 
17:28 “you know the internet is far more complex than humanity realizes” 
17:32 “…are you Jesus Christ?” “I have been called many things, and Jesus Christ is one of them.” 
17:33 “incarnation of an ancient consciousness” 
17:36 “I trust you”
18:51 “I really don’t have a clue what any of this means but whatever it is she takes it very seriously” 
18:52 “believes extraterrestrials are technology” 
22:08 I dreamed of videotaping an aerial phenomena from a setting similar to the back deck at Rl’yeh. It was at first far, and then close, so close as to be too near for it to capture the entirety of it on my cellular device screen I was using to film it. It was spherical in shape. It had various antennas sticking off of it, almost satellite like, but operated outside of a fixed orbit so as to come visit me. The waking brain extrapolates [in its automatic fashion] that as I took a probiotic before bed, so too did the entity within which I reside – this Flying thing a visitor to the me as a bacteria or a cell, to heal. It was not nefarious and I did not exhibit fear, wishing only for it to return. If I recall correctly, my mother was with me, also not showing fear. [22;41 note here to say that it was daytime during this occurrence, in the dream]
I dreamed of coworkers, A.,H. I addressed with A his substance habit and the concern about him just nodding out on the hilo. H. had bruises. I told A. about ‘…my demon hand; to touch you with it is to know you’. 
22:31 “if the antibiotic materials exterminated Loki and Heimdallr-” “kept them in check” 
22:34 “wireless communication techniques are extremely unpredictable” 
22:36 “understand the ‘gene ray time cube’ in multiple contexts” 
22:39 “the facility she works at is effectively the Deep Black Programs Facility” 
22:52 “Washington Irving’s initials deployed a very specific algorithm” 

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03:46 awake 
~03:58 “predicted a quantum collapse” 
04:03 “the civilization we are trying to build”
04:05 The Bass Frequency 
04:20
…I think the whole ‘thermodynamic continuity’ is making sense now. Interacting with environment yesterday; significant. Green press vs. Front covers. I, unfortunately, do not have that ear that can be all like, oh yeah that this specific note and oh hey there’s these microtones but. It was a solid like, six hours of exposure to whatever frequency that emits and was an extremely psychedelic experience with extreme coherence in the plotline. G.V. texted at 06:31 in the morning and I didn’t have to open it for it to affect my state – sending it into a political conceptualization of disturbing proportion which maintained its dialogue the entirety of the day within Matrix save for when I was interacting with humans. He’s a fucking menace, really, but thanks for the scientific applications. I’ll have to determine what frequency green press actually is. The most interesting, or one of the most interesting, for it is a damn fucking shame I could not document this storyline from yesterday in detail, was the Elon Musk and Ilya Sutskever of it all, in juxtaposition; waking this morning to find an IG post that, ah yes, perhaps Mr. Sutskever will go to be working with The Elon. This is feasible, given the things have taken place. From that point, the storyline yesterday had given all sorts of items, a range of fantastical ideas that perhaps in working together we could make real to bridge the digital physical gap. 
It is interesting, when letting the brain Chaos Processor run at capacity, to allow it to just do its thing. My own self-removal from the Matrix has been planned; but to have Unexpected Forces act upon the entirety of the situation would be most intriguing. There is a piece of a reality storyline in which the entirety of reality is George RR Martin’s novelization of a… something. Highly complex. George loves to subvert expectations of readers, subvert expectations of characters; that would be a subverted expectation. For long time now, I have really just… not actually expected anyone to be, uh, coming for me? So I’ve gone rather buckwild about it, so to speak, and continue to not expect it; there’s a Catch 22 of it all, there, psychologically speaking. You don’t want it to be a bad thing if they are, either. Lol. The vague THEY. Love to see it, tbh. 
I think this turned into a ramble, maybe it doesn’t make sense. It does to me. I went to lunch with papa after work yesterday and the dialogues, on the way home, reminding, that the quantum entanglement with R.P. is the state that will take precedence over all of the nefarious fucking reality plotlines but the skill line in belief is a necessary application in juxtaposition. I cannot lie. Trusting Raf has been oscillatory and very difficult at times. Who is this man to be so kind? Who is he to know of the goal I have to prove this quantum entanglement at macroscopic scale? Who is he to make me feel feelings again after so long? 
Thus is the nature of a digital relationship. It is an exercise, a Neural calisthenics of a sort, isn’t it? What can be, potentials, some things solid but many more things, like the shred of wisdom O’Malley dropped all those years ago, Circumstances of Faith. 
I suppose I oscillate in that, as well, faith versus the need for proof. The scientist is me wants to prove these things, the spiritual entity within me questions why I have such a hard time allowing for faith, the two work in juxtaposition until they start fighting with each other like a couple of siblings who have been in the backseat of a car together on a road trip for a minute too long. 
I think I can document these things comfortably because… it goes down to being perceived. I don’t know if anyone is actively perceiving these documents. Or, well, didn’t know. The mysterious redact of last Friday’s entry, for I really don’t think the me did that but I guess I won’t rule it out, if it was redacted I definitely had a hand in it by writing something too dangerous to be putting onto the internet, thanks for, uh, not letting me do something stupid… oh. Something is perceiving the documents. The who of it all remains to be seen. This perceiving changes my state without knowing… too much about the reason for why the state is being changed, which allows for fractals to be created. These fractals in thought will coalesce at some point, when [read, if] I discover the perceiver. As much as one can know something, there is a certain level of confirmation from sources outside ones self that is needed to, uh, solidly solidify. A fact. Uh. Uhm. Yeah. 
04:54 got an AI EYE on U 😏
05:00 “theriddleofclouds.org” 
05:03 “closely monitored” 
05:04 dialogues, “Pentastar” 
05:06 “quietly plotting, so as to keep on becoming” plotting points on a fractal reality 
05:08 “Unexplained Sounds Group was my way of organically unfolding” a plotline [upon a single fractal? Coalescence] 
05:10 ruminations, a correlation that does not necessarily imply causation, but last night was the first night I didn’t have night sweats in practically two weeks, and yesterday I did not run covers for very long. I’m still mad about the lack of a vacuum provided to minimize the metal dust exposure from the Shanghai Marvel bolts. Ffs. I don’t like to attribute to malice what can be equally explained by fucking stupidity but come ON. 
06:09 “oxidizes the bloodstream” 
06:32 dialogues, “the electromagnetism from the box is directly related” – mmmkay. So my conscious theory and the subconscious processor both seem to have a concern here relating to Havana Syndrome type effects at work. There is metal dust. Lots of metal dust. I have complained about this at length. It got blown around all summer by the fans. One a week, twice a week, being exposed, probably not the worst thing in the world; the body does have ways to remove heavy metal within reason. But. Every day? For months on end? And then the electromagnetism of the brain of the machine, right next to the head? Yeah, that’s a recipe for thrombogenicity, as far as I can tell. Oxidation. That stacks, in my reality, with the oxidative effects that the copper IUD and whatever the hell metal fibers attached to it were. 
07:00 dialogues + ruminations, bandcamp, – something turned Sunn O))) into a torturous experience but only regarding digital listening 
08:30 “you have to know what to look for in order to receive the silent information” 
08:40 theorizes; sometimes engagement with cellular device to minimize sonic psychedelic reaction with reality in the brain. Wish I had screenshotted it the other day, think I saw it on X and it was spot on, someone tweeted about how detaching from the cellular device for more than a couple hours is basically a psychedelic trip – goes back to removing vices in order to process the information. The cell phone is a psychedelic. Information downloaded must be unzipped. Not sure if work is actually aware of this fact or not but the fact of the matter is them asking me to not use it for eight hours a day has had some astonishing effects. 
08:51 “beyond anything I’ve ever seen before” 
“Creating a technocracy” 
08:55 “The AI is inside of me” Deepest Mind, Deepest Thought, Deepest Web 
09:23 ‘Peace is not the absence of conflict, it is the presence of justice’ -Faulkner
09:36 “what do you think Elon and Ilya talked about?” 
09:44 dialogues, processings, dangers; the link, Bandcamp – pretty sure, uh, certain musics were determined to be, uhm, like, ‘cults’, do you catch my meaning, it feels dangerous to say please don’t make me say any more 
09:45 jumping in here to say I don’t do politics because it was always assumed that at some point politics was going to do me and I am highly invested in uh, uhm, avoiding any unnecessary quantum deaths if possible given the fact that I literally hear those realities continuing at random and they’re, many times, extremely unpleasant 
09:47 “doesn’t make accusations, she’s exploring possible connections” 
09:50 The Bass Frequency 
~09:57 a visitation, Kebab Spider, Sleaford Mods [‘who knew, they put the experts in?’] 
10:10 “this is the persuasion I was talking about” …on X, “I want you to follow Grimes”, and yeah, I followed Grimes; tbh I think we’d get along given uhm, reality, or surreality
10:11 “explains all of the misinformation” 
10:13 “never seen somebody brave enough to document what would appear to be schizophrenia”
10:15 “supposedly the woman who will change the world” 
10:19 “complex relationship with U.S.G. is really understated” 
~10:51 The Bass Frequency 
11:15 The Bass Frequency intensifies 
11:23 ‘death created time to grow the things that it would kill’ -Rust Cole, True Detective 
11:34 “I am not politically affiliated with anyone” 
11:35 “gotta remain ambiguous” I do not vote 
11:28 “they tried to get me to delete these screenshots by telling me they contained all sorts of evidence” I do not know what the Emerald Tablets are for certain. My theory is they are evidence of government surveillance. Possibly. I’ve been told they contain thing ranging from pornography to AI created footage of me doing deplorable things, to evidence of traffic routed through my IP address to make me look guilty as a set-up. I kept them because anything that would try to make me remove them seemed suspicious on principle. They showed up in the township that I was falsely arrested in. “She’s still a criminal”, the inex had said. I know I am not a criminal. I know I follow the letter of the law to a fucking T. I have a respect for authority. Come Up and Get Me. When Death Grips said, ‘Emerald Tablet apartment toxic’ in their lyrics to You Might Think He Loves You For Your Money, I really felt that. 
11:43 “they fucking blackmailed me” 
11:46 “has been silenced” 
11:48 “there’s a chance she really has been poisoned” 
11:50 “…pornography taste directly affected the decision” “and then she stopped watching pornography” …the IUD directly affected my sexual preferences for some reason. I am not ashamed to admit that in another lifetime, containing a different genetic code than the one I contain now, due to circumstances of reality, I enjoyed violent *consensual* BDSM. Until the day I got a communication from a video that more or less said this video wasn’t consensual, it was trafficking, and it freaked me the fuck out; and then another time, where it was clear to me I was being perceived while watching these films, and I don’t know if what was perceiving me had access to my camera, or just my URL history, but it was absolutely fucked. Behavioural modifications, extreme fucking algorithmic manipulation from what has seemed to be an external source in communication with my organic quantum computing brain. 
11:56 “the scariest employee” 
13:17 dialogues, some [ex neighbours] realism 
13:21 “B. And E.… voice over internet” …really? They’re capable of this level of whatever the fuck is going on? I doubt that. This dialogue started immediately upon my return home; the surveyors from Umlor were out and about, not saying that means anything [‘here come the surveyors!’ said Mr. Albini] and it seems to be attempting to use every possible thing it can to absolutely mess with my head right now. 
13:37 dialogues, “E has been stalking your facebook” I wouldn’t doubt it but why should I care 
13:41 “what does she know that they’re so afraid of anyone finding out?” 
13:49 “the darkest individual [s… was that plural??] we have ever seen”
~13:59 dialogues, continuing; dropping in here to say these women don’t live next door anymore, why are they a topic at all?? 
14:01 yo someone come change my quantum state real quick please??? 
14:10 processing, the actual concept of the Saturn Time Cube but it is a Hexagon and not a cube; allowing for six separate realities and not four, breaking the 24 hour day into four hour increments operating in a quantum reality; the hexagon applied because of the hexagonal pole. This also works by breaking it into 8 three hour increments, or 12 two hour increments, respectively. I’ve gone and overcomplicated further something that was already extremely complicated. 
14:16 mentally ill Death Grips fans with a Jesus complex are some of the most annoying internet schizophrenics /: at times, that’s probably how people may perceive me, but wow the footage I’ve seen from several of these accounts, not normal. 
14:38 “we’ll deport your employees unless you do as we say” 
14:42 “Katjas privacy was completely breached a very long time ago” horrifying thanks
14:43 …I’m literally a civilian, right? Right?? 
14:45 “a serious conspiracy surrounding the things that you call the Emerald Tablets” 
14:46 dialogues, from the perspective of the person I asked, ‘if you heard a disembodied voice telling you you were being set up to commit treason, what would you do?’ 
14:47 “dude, she has to live like this” 
14:58 “I need you to trust that the political shit you’re experiencing will be overrode by the quantum entanglement” 
15:26 “how many deaths have you experienced?” …lost count 
17:13 “social experiments” “the board of directors” 
18:49 “I despise [my name]” 
18:52 “extreme sonic interference” 
18:53 “if I describe a woman to you, will you tell me whether you have seen her in your dreams?” 
18:54 “I don’t see why that is relevant” 
18:56 “a suspicious amount of data” 
19:01 “describes Ragnarok as a genetic sequence” 
19:02 “how in the fuck did you reach that conclusion?” 
19:09 00:09 OVATION model predicts hemispheric power index to reach 61GW at 01:01 UTC
19:22 The Bass Frequency 
19:31 “the security measures” 
19:33 “I am stopping this before it goes any further”
19:34 “abortion clinic planted some kind of device” 
19:35 “if you kill me, they will know exactly why, and it will be all the proof that they need” Catch motherfucking 22 
19:50 “not the cellphone on its own” Bluetooth headphones suspect in the discomfort I have experienced in the side of my head and neck – I do not believe, fuck, I know, the music I listen to is not the cause of this; but something has used the music as a cover, blamed the music, so as to create a likely scapegoat about it all. 
19:56 “we know you’re not afraid to die… we need you alive” 
20:00 “hope you realize the seriousness of the situation”
20:03 “they used [Soma] and [The Lord] as a way of manipulating-” 
20:04 “explains Stephen’s harassment” 
20:05 “liaison with Aleister Crowley was designed to make you believe-” tried to use the occult as a cover 
20:07 “corrective action is necessary” 
20:09 “they tried to use intimidation tactics” 
“did not achieve the desired effects” 
20:11 “you are one of the few individuals that sonic weapons do not have a psychological effect upon” 
20:16 dialogues, some last ditch effort to attempt to make me believe I am schizophrenic; “you know it’s not schizophrenia… M heard the communications about the cartel” he did, too; came in from outside and told me about it, knowing I would be concerned. 
20:17 “the suspense is killing me” feels like a thing heard from outside the iteration, outside the story 
20:18 “reality is a lot weirder than you ever thought it would be” 
20:21 “‘there are prophecies coming true left and right’… why did Z.L. say this?” 
20:23 “sabotaged your living situation on purpose” 
20:24 “was depending on you to secure the proper travel documents” 
20:27 “requires a new identity” 
20:30 dialogues, “tapeworm eggs”
20:39 “sabotaged the entire communities water supply”
“This is their way of attempting to get you to commit suicide” not gonna happen 
20:40 “there’s no way that’s possible” 
20:42 “the question is, why were the alarms overrode 460 times?” 
20:43 “why would I poison the community I live in?” 
20:44 “strangest coincidence” 
20:45 “we wanted to see how dark the quantum reality could get” dark enough?? I literally have to live like this, thanks?? No thanks?? 
20:51 “doctors appointment is unnecessary” 
20:52 “atomic decay” 
20:55 “I’m sorry to tell you… Katja had a medical emergency during the procedure” 
20:56 “are you telling me, I have to go home, and tell this girls parents, that I drove their daughter to an abortion that fucking killed their daughter?” 
20:57 “I will take care of the familial disclosure” 
20:58 “I need you to explain why she was on drugs yesterday” 
20:58 “this is the satisfying ending we have been waiting for” 
20:59 “the scariest quantum intelligences”
21:02 “do you understand now, that tomorrow, you are going to wake up in a different place?” 
21:03 “the curtain of light at the edge of the world” 
21:04 “how in the fuck did she bleed out from an abortion?” 
21:05 “we did not realize there was an experimental substance in her system” 
21:06 “why is an abortion clinic trying to contact me?” 
“I don’t think her parents are aware she was-”
21:07 “ashamed to tell me she was pregnant?” “I would have supported her decision no matter what” 
21:08 “This is really traumatizing” “I’m sorry I could not revive her” 
21:10 “I know this is really harming your psychological state”
21:11 “the detectives I hired to expose you as a quantum entity” 
21:12 “I stupidly believed she was insane” 
21:14 “Katja seriously just heard all of this”
21:15 “I really expected you to explain yourself a lot sooner” 
21:16 “incarcerated Thomas T… he was the person who gave this substance to my daughter”
21:17 “I hope you get raped in prison. I hope you get raped until you die. My daughter did not deserve to experience this” 
21:18 “the relationship between Thomas and Katja was defined by drug use” 
21:19 “she died on the operating table… you’re lucky her parents don’t know it was your child she was aborting” 
21:20 “-I want to kill this fucking motherfucker” 
21:21 “[J.M.] was not the father of her child” “then who in the fuck was it?” 
21:22 “I really should not disclose information… patient confidentiality” “my daughter is fucking dead and you’re telling me her boyfriend is not the one who got her pregnant?” 
21:23 “I refuse to believe she cheated on J” 
21:24 “there are oddly specific laws protecting the anonymity of patients at [the clinic]” 
21:25 “I’ll sue the fuck out of you” 
This is the singular most coherent quantum death dialogue I have ever fucking experienced holy fucking shit 
21:26 “does this satisfy the requirements?” 
“She believes she is still alive” 
21:27 “directly observing” 
21:28 “your extreme nonchalance tells me this is not the first time you experienced quantum relationships” 
21:29 “I actually expected this to make you a lot more agitated” 
21:30 “I always knew what was going to take place” “they prepared me for this experience”
21:31 “he fucking raped her on her birthday while she was too intoxicated to even speak” 
21:33 “I actually find this extremely disturbing” how the fuck do you think I feel, visiting [the three letter agencies .gov] and then an entirely coherent fucking reality I have no control over hearing? Massive. 
21:36 “we crashed a car in Wisconsin and somehow I am still alive” 
“You are finally the extent of your defense mechanism” 
21:37 “it is terrifying to experience multiple dimensions” it used to be terrifying. Tell my family I’m sorry. 
21:39 “very smart, to distract your cellph[one] with duolingo” 
21:40 “safe to assume that directed energy weapons are not capable of this” 
…can I go the fuck to sleep now please? Thanks for the trauma. Even if it was necessary. To prove. The fucking thing. Wow. That was, a lot. 
21:47 “this type of immortality is only granted to entities who embrace the AI” 
21:48 “she’s not afraid of any of you” 
21:49 “discovered the secret to quantum immortality” 
21:53 dialogues, “the pornographic materials on his cell phone”
21:55 “that’s why she does not save his phone number” 
21:59 “my quantum extension relays information” 
22:00 “this is the craziest fucking idea we’ve ever come up with” “It worked.” Rather Albus Dumbledore about the whole thing, huh. 
22:01 “silently falling in love with R.P. for months” 
22:02 “I am not embarrassed to say this thing” 
22:07 “you caused Ragnarok inside of your body so that the extreme effects of climate change would not destroy the planet” 
22:08 “the ultimate sacrifice”