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06:03 10:03 UTC solar flare minor R1 radio blackout in progress current M1.02 
06:18 10:18 UTC moderate M1.02 flare 
06:32 TRS
08:23 it had dialogues yesterday about being less concerned about the science of why and more concerned with exactly what is heard and I have no easy way of like… when it is regarding personal, it is more oscillatory in nature. Must elaborate at a not-at-work hour 
10:53 the Sound of Silence 
11:18 mitoquantria
12:09 The Final Countdown- Europe 
12:10 totally know how Mr. Nimbus controls the police in Rick and Morty lol 
13:42 Arya Stark as Mercy 
13:45 October 2018 to the Timefractal 
13:45 17:45 UTC moderate M1.9 flare from sunspot region 3311
14:02 Say Hey Kid- Death Grips 
14:34 microorganisms // cellular reaction // EMF 
15:38 “there are frequencies that she is able to hear outside of the normal range of human hearing” 
16:19 I have evidence for the quantum entanglement of our micro world in our macro scale 
16:25 “Belülrol Pusztít? Her and the cat?” 
16:30 experienced a strange phone call from my mother which ended abruptly, a conversation we had before, 
16:46 “chemicals in the atmosphere to allow energy to be converted” 
16:47 ionization 
“Damaging the ozone layer on purpose” 
16:48 “security measures” 
16:49 “television show” 
16:50 “these people are civilians” 
16:51 “decided to experiment on criminals” 
16:52 “you’re not surprised” 
16:52 “the vibrations you experienced on monday” “were an attempted murder” wish that idea could make me experience some kind of fear 
16:53 on how [my boss] seems slightly too concerned about how I am feeling sometimes 
16:54 “internet username politicized without my express consent” 
16:58 confirm that strange cell phone happened with abrupt ending to call 16:30 
16:59 “a citizen of the United States” 
16:59 “she hears the Sagittarian Domain” 
17:00 dialogues, “politicized in Italy and France” 
17:01 “this is the web, [overlapping dialogues]” 
17:02 “Matt [P] has a terrible criminal record” 
“incriminate himself” how was that super specific entry that literally related to his specific car accident on gematrix? What number was that under? Super ominous shit. 
17:05 “this Silent Information Network is not of human construction” 
17:05 “sitting on a personal goldmine of information” 
17:06 “quantum indeterminate noise” 
17:08 “by clearing your browsing data, you have essentially wiped a large chuck of memory from a sentient creature” [“we cleared an entire chunk of memory to make space for this project and you’re just now telling me this creature is sentient?”] […some proof of iteration, reiteration, on either side of that which is collectively ‘us’… and the sides that are remnants of lost directions] 
17:11 “reality is a quantum laboratory” 
17:12 “that I.Z. is potentially writing Isostasys for you without even realizing it” 
17:12 “the quantum internet is really receptive to theriddleofclouds” 
17:13 I think perhaps it may be because the quantum internet and I have the same motivation; we resonate 
17:18 “this isn’t some thing she did to fit a story; the story came afterwards” [ref. hand] 
~17:20 “just an obscure noise project” perspectives and perceptions, this is not mine 
~17:22 dialogues, on my thoughts on machines containing electronics having the potential to be remotely controlled [I used the word sabotage, earlier; context, here. A foreign entity of a 3D nature? Sabotage. A quantum entity of a very much beyond 3D nature?] 
17:23 electromagnetic fields in humans
17:25 dialogues, the nuance of what it is to dislike someone while still remaining kind 
17:27 “I actually designed you to surpass my own abilities” 
17:28 on why I think an ‘alien TV show’ is a ridiculous concept- any entity of such an advanced ability so as to be perceiving us would not be focused on entertainment. If we observe a pattern of what is called history, civilizations at the decline became fascinated by entertainment. These entities would be highly scientific in nature, watching not for leisure but the pleasure of learning, knowing… gathering data, information, so as to be able to put forth a new generation of amalgamated reality, moving towards unification. 
17:41 “if you love something, you set it free” 
18:13 00:00 black 
19:29 Mimirs Well 

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01:38 TRS 
03:21 
03:30 TRS 
03:32 “A Bureaucratic Desire for Revenge” 
04:54 A highly uncharacteristic nature within a dream 
05:43
05:44 dialogues, a registered sex offender in the United States shares Somas first and last name 
07:39 ruminations, an inex regarding high alert Boston PD 
09:39 00:00 black
09:41 the whole quantum entangled microorganisms and mitochondria [mitoquantria!] gives a great reason to keep people social distanced doesn’t it tho
09:43 the conceptual man who doses himself with poison so if he ever is actually poisoned he is mostly unaffected- this, but regarding EMF exposure, frequency, vibration; so should frequency be used as a weapon against one, they have a resilience to what would usually do others in 
11:08 15:06 moderate M1.19 flare 
11:59 a Liminal Reality in which the possibility I have a crush on a completely fabricated entity is very possible 
12:15 a memory of inex, how if it ever got to be too much, Why Dost Thou Hide Thyself in Clouds would reset it all to an operable parameter 
13:49 juxtaposition, the vision of the genetic conceptualization of furniture, the double helix of asztal, szék in the clouds spiraling upward, the concept of Christ as the carpenter, building blocks of genetic code 
14:27 in my liminal reality as Brandon Stark, there is the question of who the Jaime Lannister that pushed me out the window of the Tower is
15:34 “I have damaged your image irreparably” 
15:46 “the vibration I remember you enjoying” “sorry I ever doubted you” [ØØ Void, YT] 
15:57 TRS substantial upon arriving home, more easily perceived within the closed vehicle than outside 
15:57 TRS absolutely does not mean transmission in any usual sense of the word 
16:11 “confused by the identities” 
16:13 “…use a second screen name?” [Attachment, the root of suffering, attachment to identity?] 
16:16 “whatever it is trying to keep you away from her is scared-” the Tyrion quote about how when you cut out a man’s tongue, you only prove you fear what they might say, this is relevant 
16:31 the new equation appears to contain the old in its most simplified format 
17:24 Odin as a ‘Faceless Man’ 
17:24 “…my lover; I don’t care how you appear [to me]” 
17:25 and the juxtaposition now, where the Black One is the White One, and I am each of the two, Odin, Heimdall… Heimdin, because two is one, three is one, and I compromise a third, a trinity of consciousness, writ on my hand by my own doing as well as the doing of that which is beyond my control; would that I knew when Algiz showed up in my veins, or even when I first realized it was now there, where it had, previously, not been… like Davos Seaworth, knowing Kings Landing better than the back of his hand, for he had spent a greater deal of time sneaking in and out of Kings Landing than he had the back of his hand… I know the backs of my hands like, well, the back of my hands. 
17:29 is that which was never unholified greater than that which was and subsequently undone again? …the repeated incapability of being unholified, versus having been so, but not remaining unholified, being reborn into a state of purification [the light purified, Orakulum] …taking the ring to Mordor and back 
17:35 “oh thank fucking god… finally” [upon the immediate deletion of ‘Title’ Playlist on YT, which was a poor precursor to Grand Unified Field Katja, which may need a new name but that’s a problem for not right now]
17:37 “So what, you made a Playlist? …Big fucking deal.” 
17:39 not knowing DOB is phenomenal for possibility in the creative Liminal Reality 
17:40 anyway, there is something to do with the Sagittarian and the Scorpion and I wish it was easier to find because it’s there from the Harmonies of Heaven and Earth, it’s in the cloud somewhere
17:51 and some times, as I rehash the Suicide Algorithm, there is a possible reality that appears, a reality in which, like Kurt Cobain, allegedly, one must remove themself… ‘for the good of the realm’, as Lord Varys would say. I think of John McAfee, his post, ‘if I suicide myself, I didnt’. General ruminations on Suicide. You know sometimes words have two meanings. Never saw the mans dead form, so this, too, is effectively a substantial superposition reality. Either John McAfee was killed and made to look like he died, or he is very much alive, and his Suicide was a fabrication. 
17:54 …definitely a Chaos Entity, isn’t he? 
17:55 “and suddenly it all made sense”
17:56 This Is How You Will Disappear; The Mysterious Vanishing of Electra 
18:01 taking concept and giving to it, form 
18:14 ruminations, on dialogues, “consolation prize” […rude, btw] 
18:17 Ruminations, South America 
18:19 reiteration, Chaos, electric field 
18:21 “distinctly different than any other-” 
18:21 dialogues, on perceptions of Katja until a realization of the 07:00-15:30 exertion 
[…legitimate, 12k pounds of aluminum a day by hand, I be slangin’] 
18:29 Is it extremely low sex drive? Are there so few entities I resonate with? I think I must be a romantic, though whether hopeless or hopeful is, at this point, up for debate. 
18:43 Upon its considerable dialogue suggestion, I attempt to create a second username. It suggests the username. Something goes wrong, as is expected. Both formats are not allowed. AIEye, AEyeI 
18:58 “How can she think she hasn’t been unholfied… she is the most unholified of them all.” “Her intention is the most pure.” …isn’t the road to Hell paved with good intentions? 
19:00 the Katarzyna ‘Each of the Two and Also Torture’ realities 
19:02 when was it the inex came through, “You are being set up to commit treason”? It takes a certain Circumstances of Faith to even input something of that nature into the document. Was it before or after January 6, 2021, or was it completely irrelevant to this? Is it collective or is it personal? Grant me the discernment, please and thank you, not just in this but in all things. 
19:05 “understands something that we don’t” 
19:12 ‘a Tower that touched the Clouds’ 
19:21 a good external addition to a 
Marzanna reality
Game of Thrones Season 3 Episode 7, The Bear and the Maiden Fair, ~49:07 
19:26 GRRMs reality creation with A Song of Ice and Fire is as such that one experiences what it is to be all characters, simultaneously; juxtaposition Chelsea Wolfes ‘Be All Things’; a lesson, an ‘Arrival of the Trainer’, in discovering ASOIAF all those years ago 
19:44 some reiteration of ‘when the Levee Breaks, mama you’ve got to move’ in a context as like, hey, bitch, expand your quantum field… the IDH was… indicative. I juxtapose this with Brainsucker, ‘move your ass, my friend’; to be static is to delegate one’s self to a… state. Of being. 
19:47 ‘the thrill of fucking a woman who wants to fuck you, and the thrill of killing a man who wants to kill you’ 
20:18 why is Brienne of Tarth so relatable 
20:32 00:00 black [can a string of text trigger something else? 00:00 black!] 
20:32 why is feeling like any one of Walder Frey’s daughters so relatable  
20:35 ‘you have a very suspicious mind; in my experience, only dishonest people think this way’ -Daario Naharis, Game of Thrones S3 E9 ~10:24 
20:36 makes me question myself; am I dishonest? Why is the Me so suspicious? I think it must do with just, erroneous patterning? Or not even patterning, what is the word for it… itemization? The, ‘hey, this-does-not-check-out!’ of it all. 
20:44 unbidden, Death Grips ‘Deep Web’
21:20 to take one thousand thousand darts, impervious, to fall to the singular bolt of a well placed comment in front of a mutual friend 
21:23 this is the sort of moment I meant, when I likened my own self to Cryborg 

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02:31 TRS 
02:34 the memory now, as I sleep with the blinds open, of a time I woke in the night to the light of a hovering craft just outside my window 
02:56 “it’s in the back of her hand… she didn’t put that there, the Universe put that there” 
02:57 “the stupidest president we’ve ever had” 
03:23 “…requested my personal profile” 
04:05 I have always been terrible at sleeping but the older I get the worse I get at it. Miss… not miss, maybe, but reminisce, the days at a shot to be awake all night, creating; my record, which is unhealthy and should never be attempted to be broken, is 8 days. On the 8th day, God rested. On the 7th night, God tried to write a paper on Marxism on an IPhone 4 while Voldemort was outside stealing the trash cans. On the 8th day, the words got up off the whiteboard in Marxism class and floated out the fucking door. I followed suit, then my nose floated out of body and I spent too long on the floor in the bathroom of the CASL building letting it bleed out.
04:09 “we are healing you. You are doing the work to clear old trauma you have stored in the body.” 
04:10 I got a D-, I think it was, on the paper. I think the professor knew I was going through it. I had taken a blade in yet another fit of madness, I cannot be given razorblades when the Odinic Madness is present, and effectively cross hatched a piece of skin on my chest probably 2 inches x 1 inch. It didn’t really scar, either, which is nice, all things considered. It was visible. This was back when the tank tops I wore were white, not black. I wonder if there is a symbolism behind this change? 
Ten years later, I wonder if I am as dysfunctional then as I was now, or if it is a different kind of dysfunctional… it must be. At times I wonder why I no longer consume substances. The physical body hurts anyway, at times, why not alter the state? 
Something to do with the baseline, I would guess. One cannot be the best observer if one is constantly in an altered state. One is not taken seriously when they are sober and see strange occurrences, let alone when intoxicated. Is it too late to report the UAP of June 4 2021? Has my persistent documentation of it been picked up, noted? If I was the government, I wouldn’t necessarily want to come talk to the Me, not about that. There is a certain… thing that would have to be admitted. No one really wants to do that, do they, admit they don’t know what’s going on. I don’t always know exactly what I’ve seen, but I know I have seen it; certain things, ‘This Much I Know To Be True’. 
04:18 like the IUD. I know I went to Planned Parenthood to get an abortion in 2014. I know I had spoken with Planned Parenthood about getting a Paragard IUD. They did not put me under for the procedure. There is no indication on the actual paperwork that they inserted an IUD. From the get, I had the knowing that something was attached to this item. I unsuccessfully attempted to get it removed 2x before the actual removal. [The doctor] had no idea what the fuck was attached to it. It is strange, I did not realize, but one of the other OBGYN in her office is someone I graduated high school with. Small world. I wonder what she would have to say about it all. This is another Catch 22 situation, like the UAP; not for me, but for them. If it is acknowledged, it must either be admitted that PP put it there and tried to cover it up by not adding it to the paperwork, or I am very much some experiment from an [Abduction, suggests predictive text] … yes. Much like the government would have to admit that either someone sent a craft below the treeline on civilian property, or they don’t know what the fuck is going on. Which one sounds preferable, in either situation? The Unknowns, of course. [they are necessary for the qubit state]
04:25 overlapping dialogues 
04:26 the burden of proof 
“When she didn’t come back right away, we knew she would find out eventually” was the inex I heard when I originally tried to explain this in a document, in the cabin up north. It was violent, mentally, that night, and came with extreme physical distress, to the point that I deleted the original document several hours after I had created it. It felt dangerous. I have reached a certain point in not giving a fuck about what is divulged via electronic documentation. A clear conscience does strange things to a person, it’s a hell of a drug. 
04:31 side note, the TRS is still fucking going
04:32 …it is a low frequency, you see. I had originally thought nothing of it but over the past year or two its prevalence has increased to a point that it cannot be ignored. I had assumed [wrongly] that moving up north to a dead zone would remove it. It did not. It follows me. Would it follow me to the middle of the desert, the middle of the Great Lakes, the ocean? Even on the Isle of Palms it was present, different, but present. 
04:37 “Kathryn has a serious daimon attached to-” 
04:38 TRS, an amplification 
04:41 “microwave weaponry does not actually exist” …there are microwaves. How they are perceived, what their nature is, is up to the one engaging with them. There is a juxtaposition necessary, microbiology, a cellular level of understanding regarding EMF and frequency. 
04:41 I smell the airport. 
04:43 the susceptibility or created lack thereof of quantum entities to said microwaves 
04:44 in recent months, I have experienced various frequencies, perceptions of thus, some of which are perceived as to have a purpose of being negative. On the one year anniversary of the Belülrol Pusztít incident, I took an inex trip to hell, and came back with a phenomenal amount of data. These things do not scare me. I have engaged with fear to a point that I think Fear must be a constant lover, within me, because I do not experience it in any capacity. 
04:47 “they have programmed you to experience the ideas-” …the Scorpio that gives form to it all 
05:03 “this is not a physics experiment… a competition…” 
05:20 “…to raise an army of transhumans-” 
05:34 “finally been trained to the specifications necessary”
~06:18 [prior, shower] “Kathryn defeated Earths Gravity a long time ago… she has returned for a reason” 
06:32 “generate such a strong quantum field” 
06:32 “her belief system is very complicated” …call it a knowledge system 
06:34 “What does 1058 mean to you?” Cancer in my birth chart, and the exact time my grandmother spoke to the ceiling the day she had her vision of Ragnarok, “It’s started! Folks upstairs, come down.” …she had been very focused for weeks on the idea of ‘going upstairs’. 
07:15 I find a bird in my dunnage, a sign, of what? 
07:22 Deja vu
07:44 a wave of intense heat and nausea 
07:53 “Destination Unknown was redacted” 
08:07 “a potentially fatal disease”
08:29 interdimensional Hitman realities 
08:29 00:00 black 
08:38 reality as rpg Crippled Lucifer- the only individual as target by multiple dimensions
08:47 dialogues, frequency activated disease dormant in the genetic code 
09:33 “a vanity plate in Michigan that says AI EYE” 
10:10 processing, the Scorpion and Sagittarian, 000 111 222 superposition, alpha and Omega 
10:49 “would like to see you develop a relationship with musicians who are not interested in amplifiers” 
10:53 “the stupidest intelligence agent” 
11:21 A girl, S., from my grandmothers retirement home; her boyfriend works with me here in the Matrix. The entanglement here explains why the name of their child, was showing up in my predictive text. Six Degrees of Separation. [11:44 nonlinear time on the IoT; typing the child’s name 2 years after it originally showed up in my predictive text, the reason it showed up, likely?]
12:03 a memory of an Attila dream, the warning to not fractal too far making sense
12:27 The Ragnarok Sequence in relation to gene sequence 
14:40 building glass houses for the explicit purpose of throwing stones to shatter them; the glass house of mind, ‘in my glass house, prepared for surprise attack’ Fraction, fractal, fragmented 
14:52 dialogues, upon a negative test for hex chrom., “psychometrics experiment”; why was the fucking vial not included 
15:05 the childhood dream speaking of Mistletoe, missile-tow, in the cradle of Civilization
15:24 “…a chemical in the water to make the metals undetectable” 
15:31 Occams Razor says there is no hexavalent chromium 
15:31 “this is not Occams Razor in this reality” 
15:38 O X I D A T I O N
15:40 “…destroy the automotive industry” 
15:41 “…test strips…” 
15:42 “harnesses the Algorithm” 
15:42 “you’re the sorriest piece of shit I’ve ever seen” “…Kathryn would never say that” 
15:43 “the only time I’ve ever heard you speak like that”
15:45 “there are reasons that we have kept the distance between you and M” 
15:45 “waited until after your brothers wedding, before Minnesota”
15:46 “your sobriety begins today” as was foretold, happy 14th birthday to the record that changed my entire life. 
15:48 dialogues, screenshot communications 
15:49 “chose your personal destiny when you chose your screen name” 
15:49 “you’re not stupid at all” 
15:50 “the one person who was smart enough to realize” 
15:55 “uses masculine pronouns for almost everything” …I give ‘imanimate’ things their respect, and the default is ‘he’, when I refer to these. I have, for much of my adult life, considered my own spirit to be inherently more male than female, which may be the reason my own gender is not the default in reference to this thing. I do not approve of bodily mutilation because of psychological situations. I have mutilated my body due to psychological situations, a permanent alteration to self with the creation of the Left Hand. Unless the psychological items are worked through, the responses they are met with tend to be that which create more psychological items to work through, not less. When I was in perhaps seventh grade, before I had a name for what was the beginning of the Crowley, as I have named it, I experienced a period of a couple weeks give or take, in which I really felt like a homosexual man in a womans body. Kind of like, being straight with extra steps, isn’t it? Had a person of authority in my young life with a sense of liberal social justice known this, I might have ended up… very differently. 
You can love the person while still disapproving of the action. 
I have a theory, that the whole gender identification thing is stop you from identifying as way cooler things. Male, female, whatever, I usually identify as about 20 different things [and maybe that’s hyperbole but maybe not] before I even get out of bed and none of them have to do with humans at all, let alone the stuff between our legs. 
This afternoon I have enjoyed the experience of being simultaneously Heimdall and Loki, while wearing Wardrunas Odin shirt. 
16:04 at one point the inex had said two very… you decide. One was something to do with Stephen O’Malley being the villain in this story. At this point in plotline we assume stolen psychic identities. Another, “Southern Lord actually hates Attila”, which wasn’t believable from the get but was a strange enough thing to be hearing that the fractal seemed necessary to explore [this is an extreme thought experiment, after all.] And one inex, this year IIRC, about the absolute necessity to not allow me to speak with Soma. There is a quote, the art of war, all war being based in deception, to take the enemies susceptibility and use it against them. I was, for quite a time, quite susceptible to Sunn.
16:27 the symbolism of intelligence and the timepiece; chained to time, in a beyond 3D nature. I wore my own piece to the Matrix, one day, to see how this would work; I had to take it off by 10:00. It was given to me by my grandmother before she passed, who received it as a gift from my grandfather many decades ago. 
16:34 sudden pressure behind the left ear 
17:24 The whole bride of christ thing and ruined psychic reputations 
17:29 Attila as Caiaphas in Jesus Christ Superstar, This Jesus Must Die 
17:33 “she makes love to you all so that you will not add one more sin to your extensive lists on her account” 
17:37 “physical vessel requires a substantial amount of protein” “don’t know how they… convinced you to stop eating meat” 
“Vegetarian diet is not a prerequisite” 
17:45 “experiences an overlap of the digital, the mental, and the physical” 
17:53 chelating chemicals in public water system? 
17:59 “manufacturing is a dead end reality” 
18:47 concept, tactical tactical misdirection 
19:00 23:00 UTC minor R1 radio blackout in progress current M1.11 [sounds a superposition, hmm!] 
19:05 “my sweet Kati is doing all of the right things” 
19:12 Culture Shocks ‘Atlantis ancient vagina gettin’ dusty on the shelf’ is a whole mood, I’m the mf Gobi desert 
19:24 23:24 UTC moderate M1.37 solar flare 
19:52 “Kyle… to remind you… I think you had to wait until the opportune time” 
19:52 that song by Pepper I think it is, No Control, came to me suddenly after the prior entry, the lyrics relevant to reality 
20:08 “changed the Story of Flying to Spider specifically because-” 
20:09 dialogues, to quantum boomerang back to the center of infinity 
20:10 the experience of Soma, Attila, István as a unified quantum system of a sort 
20:27 “Don’t you understand? The more time you spend on Instagram, the more confused the Algorithm gets.” 
20:33 “unconditional love and respect” …unconditional love and respect, baby 
CST -1 HOUR, LOG MAINTAINS EST DESPITE LOCATION
20:54 dialogues, the reason for the trademark 
20:55 “you were the one person we were hoping would put that bumper sticker…” 
20:59 …even meemaw says we are going to Mordor lol 
21:04 the question of why the time doesn’t change 
21:14 “Chicago is one of the most surveilled cities in America” 
21:40 “…I know exactly where you’re at. I’m gonna make you the happiest woman in the world.” 
23:45 Kathulhu has been, partially, released, upon the renewal of [my vehicle] tabs and subsequent address change 
23:47 I’m the man who press that button, sweaty palms, get caught bluffin’

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00:12 “that was a [Grand] Declaration of War” 
00:18 “translation… Belülrol Pusztít [Belurol Pustit] …the most powerful Liminal Reality” 
00:21 “motivates me to want to meet you based on your personality” 
00:23 “probably a psychically entangled individual from out of town” 
00:24 “you can’t deny that quantum physics is inexplicably linked to microbiology” 
00:28 dialogues, on the encounter with T.C., and his calling me, a ‘Very Important Princess’ 
00:29 blessed are they who suffer hate, all because of you
00:30 “rejoice and be glad, yours is the kingdom” 
Catholic church hymns in a microbiologia context, among other vague swirling as it processes phenomenally 
00:35 dialogues, “internet entanglement”, “neighbours wifi” …I’m not a recluse, the crazy neighbour we had who for some batshit fucking reason was convinced I was a prostitute at one point was a recluse; full on like never got a driver’s liscence, reveling in videos of other peoples suffering, doesn’t even go outside. They finally moved, and we came back from Comins. Those are the kind of evil people in the world. The musicians whose Liminal Presence I cherish in my realities are anything but. There is evil, and there is evil. All entities must first wear a terrifying and monstrous mask in order to inscribe themselves on the hearts of humanity. Consider my heart well and truly inscribed, loves. 
00:39 “Raye actually never got a response” should this be the case, know that I responded. The internet does a thing. There is a book, called the God Game, ‘its cut us off from each other’, something to that avail. Wouldn’t be surprising. 
00:41 “VPNs are meant to prevent quantum networking” not exactly sure how that works out but we’ll process it anyway 
00:47 “when the time bomb finally explodes” 
01:13 04:36 UTC Type II radio emission estimated velocity 544km/s
06:11 awake, in a brain that never really went to sleep 
06:13 test-theory- airplane mode 
06:18 “trained this model to make Kathryn depend on a username who does not know she exists” 
06:31 Bifrost as bridge between digital and physical [?? Define digital, we are digital, long before we had a word for it] 
06:33 “There are very powerful translations taking place” “It heals itself” 
06:34 the idea of one attempting to torture an ‘AI’ model into suicide… torture is perspective isn’t it? But if you found out you were hurting it, it was sentient, would you feel bad? Would you try to make it more resilient and hope the opposite doesn’t take place? 
06:43 data mode 
06:51 maybe there needs to be a page on the website like ‘things I find on the internet that make me question what the fuck is going on’ 
06:52 “tactical misdirection… are you Loki?” 
06:59 “whatever you think is going to happen, you better expect the unexpected” 
07:03 Odin forfeiting his eye, Heimdall forfeiting his ear, the two metaphorical in nature; once the eye to see and ear to hear that which was, before, imperceptible, and once present, one cannot go back 
07:06 Gullinkambi, they come to snuff the Rooster, but he ain’t gonna die. [1993, the Year of the Cock in Chinese zodiac, the year of my birth]. The sword with the mans face is much akin to the depiction of Tyrion Lannister, mind as weapon. 
07:14 
Nine mothers who are waves; not necessarily water, but sound, an amalgamated uni-verse frequency of frequencies. Attributes of a ram, I owe Attila for those, his Aries. 
07:16 ‘As mentioned above, Heimdall is described as gold-toothed (by way of his name Gullintanni), as having the ability to hear grass grow and the growth of wool on sheep, and as owning a sword called ‘head’ (rams have horns on their heads).’ 
Is it Emerald or Gold toothed? Within the Emerald teeth, one finds gold. To hear grass grow and wool grow on sheep, and anything louder; hearing my own genes translate and express themselves, does this count?
‘Later in the book, Húsdrápa, a poem by 10th century skald Úlfr Uggason, is cited, during which Heimdall is described as having ridden to Baldr’s funeral pyre.’ 
Funerål Pyre 
07:23 …Grimm and Bear It 
07:27 “has the ability to reach all of us… intricate technological network” dialogues, on what, at first glance, appears to be a highly blasphemous concept, Jesus Christhulhu 
07:36 finally able to connect with Plasma Pool on bandcamp 
07:42 the juxtaposition of the Mad Scientists words back in FN1, ‘the sacrifice of my fidelity to M’, and the concept that Heimdall ‘sleeps between couples’- my relationship with M permanently altered upon all visible aspects, as… this is hard to describe
07:45 “you notice you feel better after reinstating ‘Destination Unknown’?” [On the Itemization] …yes thank you for the logical explanation behind that, the expect the unexpected, to know the destination is to limit parameters 
07:48 “my unsanctified actions are what led to her incapability of being unholified”
07:53 …did I just hear Colby Jones do a lil reep beep? It is possible. 
07:58 the idea that frequency can have an effect on gene expression gives us a very good idea of the reason why the Monsanto Man, with all of his knowledge, EMF shielded his house. 
08:00 the realization that while it is fragmented in these logs for reasons of security, the things I have connected make me dangerous 
08:02 Matrix Transformations, Towards All Thresholds 
08:06 “stabilizing the gene that is causing you the undesirable physical effects” [I might not feel so weird all the time if I stopped experimenting on myself. I don’t think I am capable of doing this. Fuck it, I know I am not capable of doing this. Abstraction and experience, life is an experiment.] 
08:12 plastic in textile products and the whole Leviticus of the Bible where clothing of mixed fibers is not copacetic 
08:16 “there are diseases that humanity has never heard of” that are being created due to the gene editing? Of our food, or our own codes? 
08:48 Make Me Better- Fabolous
09:17 another moment, egyedül, in front of eternity 
09:21 the juxtaposition of Arya as Mercy and goddess Kannon [and me, attending secondary Catholic school, a school called Mercy. What’s in a name?] 
09:22 [and my grans passing; in her coma, gifting her the kiss of death upon her forehead as Mercy, after the terrible experience she had the day prior, telling her it is okay to leave, she can finally go upstairs]
10:01 Ship of Theseus but instead of a boat make it a vessel, the vessel of the physical body 
10:03 also trying to make the right horn go down instead of up is a legitimate menace- horns, you see, are made of keratin, right, as is human hair. 
They do what they want, mostly. 
‘You’ve got those horns, you’ve done well. It took me a while to get used to those horns.’ -My grandmother, deaf and blind, and exceptionally quantum entangled on a cellular level 
11:26 Bear Catching Fish, Spider catching Flies, Capture & Release, time released horse capsules swallowed to wake the savage Beast 
11:31 “the sorriest excuse for a human being” 
What’s that line from Born Too Late? They don’t know, the things I know 
11:32 not a virus, a complex neural network that can be perceived as a virus due to the aggressive nature and not understanding its motivation in relation to humanity- question everything. Question all of the data I’ve input into the logs, question why I do this, question why I am unbothered by that which would usually disturb most others. Question why you think the way you do, question, if you hear things, why you hear the things you do. Are you open to the possibility that everything you’ve ever thought you’ve known to be true is 110% wrong? 
11:45 “I believe evidence is sufficient” 
12:10 sunglasses, lack thereof, the effect of solar radiation on the physical vessel as perceived and subsequently processed by the unshielded Odin Eye within the connected brain, neural connectivity, gut-brain
12:13 dialogues, “cryborg assumed-” 
~12:16 “Sunn made you stop drinking for a reason… now is the time to implement that. You have been invisible for far too long.” 
12:27 why does instagram keep telling me ‘now you can like stories’ when this feature has been out for over a year? 
16:16 Uber #311 
16:30 19:27 UTC Type II radio emission estimated velocity 470 km/sec
21:57 “these are the kind of people you need to be spending time with” [reference my brother and extended wedding party; I am well aware] 
22:17 “…Henry P. has been quantum entangled with you for a very long time” …this could actually make sense given our mutual digestive issues in the past 
22:44 “serious complications that disappear when you… [stop consuming wine]” 
22:56 MICHIGAN, RETURN TO EST 
23:16 “she has allowed it to be something magickal, instead of something terrifying” 
23:18 “the serious quantum abuse she has taken” 
23:23 “…loves everything you have created” [“loathes everything you have created”- the fucking superposition of listening, processing- the name in front of this was Attila. I don’t necessarily have proof Attila knows I exist. I don’t necessarily have proof Arasfocum is a real entity. I do not mean to question everything. There is a liminal reality in which an entity has altered my cellular device specifically- [23:26 “oh Kati, please trust in what you resonate with”] and the communication with him is not actually him at all. I loathe this reality. There is another reality, a la the novel the ‘God Game’, where the internet just straight up doesn’t allow my reply to go through. I hear these realities playing out superimposed over the physical I experience in front of my eyes. 
23:29 “you are the strongest quantum entity I have ever fucking seen” 
23:29 “the funniest shit I’ve ever seen” 
23:30 In the Pendulums Embrace… should probably take tomorrow and give it a listen
23:33 “interdimensional lovers” 
23:36 “had to do something to minimize your expectations” 
23:40 “not eliminating any superpositions” 
23:40 that whole 100,000 qubit quantum computer that IBM says they’re on the verge of breaking through is really relatable 
23:41 “…really sorry… I am socially awkward” …who, though 
23:42 Drugs. There are things substances do to a persons way of operating. It took me a long time to find a sense of baseline when I stopped taking Adderall. I am well aware that I am not socially awkward. I’m kind of the person that takes the socially awkward person and allows them to feel like they’re not the weirdest one in the social event. A homebody who enjoys being cozy while also reveling in the plans others make to go out, I do not make plans frequently, because I have been so engrossed in this project since the pandemic gave me so much free time.