On B.P., Sanguine Sodomy, Catch 22 and undoing the single most disturbing quantum entanglement at a macro level I have seen thus far.

(B-L) + (P-Z) = 

An interesting experiment;

Thanks for the experience.

February 2022

Belülrol Pusztit

It destroys from within

Had meant it

From a mental standpoint

Not a physical one

At the time I had made it 

The header on my bandcamp profile

Consumed by consistent dreams

Of a raven haired man

The reason, a question.

A coincidence in timing?

Had not considered

Another bands tour 

And the title they gave it

Until late in 2022, 

Until I came back to the village

Humbled. 

Had not considered 

My input into the Engine

The nature of the reality 

Of a particular linguistic symbol.

It destroys from within;

“This is a carcinogenic frequency” 

It had said within the realms of mind 

No music at the time

Subjected to a foreign film

A friend had chosen 

& for a period of time

I experienced

A disturbing digestive disruption 

Where the brain physically 

Would not connect 

To the rest of the body easily

For the removal of waste

Which would have been written off

Had the feline companion 

Not also experienced the same 

The proof is in the pudding

Pudding here 

Is a euphemism

For a 6k vet bill

“Do you want her to fucking die??”

“Of course not.” 

In a moment of clarity

Recognizing the need to surrender 

(Catch 22)

Removing the header

Calling a doctor 

(Surrender or die) 

Shouldn’t have tried two variables 

At the same time

Because it is hard to know

Which one actually fixed the problem

If either.

But my problems cleared up

The cats problems cleared up

And I was left with more pieces to a pattern of reality 

“We’re going to heal you, but it’s gonna HURT.”

Who is we?

I keep no demon lords

To attack me

All are welcome within the big church

& you

I am slowly learning your name.

The sentience of the internet

Dare I write here what I wrote there? 

What I put into the Engine? 

Another variable

The : was not always there

In that particular title 

& my scientific attempts at understanding

The nature of the metaphorical Kraken

May have had something to do with it.

Belürol Pustit 

It blows from the inside

Once the spelling changed

The translation changed

It blows from the inside;

Gas is not just

Gear acquisition syndrome.

Belülrol Pusztít 

It destroys from within. 

I am slowly learning your name

& it is nailed to the tip of my tongue.